but i needed to sound happy

hiatus !

hey guys im gonna go on a little hiatus bc life is too busy nowadays and i don’t have time to do anything on tumblr anymore :( most of my posts are just queued now, and after doing life things all day everyday im exhaused and don’t have the energy to make original posts/have time for hobbies or fun things that make me happy. i just need a break :’) i’ll probably only be gone for a little under a month? idk i just need time to step back

tldr: life is draining, i’ll be gone for a month or so, queue will be running and will probably last until im back

things to remember:
  • there will always be a tomorrow
  • nearly all problems are fixable
  • even your smallest achievements are something to be proud of
  • being alone can be exactly what you need sometimes
  • always get back up, no matter what it is that pushes you down
  • new opportunities will come along
  • you are not alone
  • you are valid
  • you are loved
  • and you are going to be okay.

it sounded romantic when I heard it the first time. it was before we were married, and he told us to not forget it. seriously, he said, keep this one with you because when it gets hard, you’re going to need it–okay here it is. the purpose of marriage is not happiness, but growth.

ugh, I love that, I said.

no you don’t, he said. you’re happy right now, so you feel up for it. growth usually happens when you’re not up for it. you love the idea of it, but you’re not going to like it. that’s okay, but it’s important to expect it.

he was right. it’s not romantic, it’s hard. it’s not that warm feeling i like. sometimes it feels a lot more like a limb is about to be pulled out of its socket. you reach a fork in the road, and it’s time to grow again, but God I just rather not today. you made me grow last week. resisting the growth is more painful than the growth.

he was right. it’s not romantic. it’s actually annoying how much growing is going on right now. I am tired of growing.

you know that scene in miss congeniality where she is forced to eat healthy food, so she has hidden junk food under her pageant gown? and her coach makes her give them all up? but there’s more. so he takes those too. no choice. no exceptions. that is how I feel. give me your pride, and now your greed–no, all of it. and jealousy–i’ll be taking that. ok, fine, here. is that enough? no, hand me your resentment. oh! and the comparison. i almost forgot that one–hand it over.

that fork in the road I mentioned with one way being growth–don’t mistake the other road as happiness. like I said, to not walk into the growth is more painful. that’s because resisting it means walking into avoidance, into denial, into defensiveness, into stagnancy, it is anything but happiness.

marriage is a mirror. by design, God created us to reflect back to each other what isn’t resembling him. you can get angry, and defensive, refusing to look in the mirror. you can punish your spouse for functioning as they’re intended to. or you can acknowledge what’s coming up, thank them for showing you, ask them to love you, and choose to grow.

L, marriage // year one

2

Arashi talked about the dash from NHK to Tokyo Dome for Countdown during the MC on the last day of the AYH tour.

It almost became a broadcasting incident since they really weren’t sure they could make it or not at the time. Previously, Fuji TV staff (broadcaster of Countdown) had rehearsed the route from NHK hall to Tokyo Dome over and over and they made it in plenty of time, so they were confident that the journey’s possible. They even told Arashi to leave the outfits at the Dome but since Arashi are worrywarts they asked to leave the outfit in the car (the two tweets differ on whether they actually got to bring it on the car with them or not) But when Arashi tried the route that night, they got stuck about 2 traffic lights before Tokyo Dome. Nino: ‘There was some sort of lane inspection or something’. The staff told them that TOKIO has already started Sorafune which is part of the medley Arashi will be singing in. They were also told that it’ll take another 3 minutes to get there. And they were like, ‘no way, there’s still two traffic lights to go through’. So Matsujun shouted: ‘We’re getting down!’ and the rest of Arashi: ‘Roger!’ . They got down and did a 400m dash to Tokyo Dome wearing Aiba’s blouson. People on the streets and fans waiting outside the Dome saw them, and went ‘It’s Arashi!’, ‘Good luck!’. Sho: ‘Ain’t nobody got time for that!!!’. No fans nor security guards tried to stop them and they made it just in time. So if you ever feel like watching Countdown again, they weren’t kidding when they said they made it.

So yeah, this is Arashi come New Year’s Eve. All to make us (or maybe Johnny’s execs) happy.

I see beauty in desperation. The way you’re in deep need of that one person. The way you’d give up you’re whole life for them. I don’t think it’s wrong to be fully in love with someone that you’d sell everything for them to be yours. 
There’s nothing wrong with being straightforward with the person you love. You need them? Call. Even if it’s 3:00 in the morning. Say what’s on you’re mind. Spill your thoughts out. It may sound risky, but think about it this way. What if this was their last living day? What if something happened to them and you missed the chance of telling them how you truly feel. Will you be happy with the last conversation you had? Will you be satisfied? 
People got so lost in acting numb and senseless, thinking they’re much tougher this way, when actually speaking your heart shows how brave you are
And admitting you need someone shows how powerful your love is
—  datragic-poet 
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  • Heavydirtysoul: "this is not rap" ARE YOU SURE TYLER?! ARE YOU REALLY SURE?! + street poetry lyrics I'm crying
  • Stressed out: insecurity + anti-capitalist vibes
  • Ride: reggae-techno-emo-rap
  • Fairly local: that one high note. You know what I'm talking about.
  • Tear in my heart: the cutesy love song we all need TBH
  • Lane boy: remember when you thought the ode to sleep rap was hard? AHAHAHAHAHA
  • The judge: weird ass noise in the beginning + ukulele + freeeeEEEEEEEE
  • Doubt: k but the beginning part sound like cats meowing really fast
  • Polarize: low key makes it feel like you're in a rap video
  • We don't believe what on tv: JOSHHHHHHHHH + YEYEYE
  • Message man: chill af + dat bassline tho
  • Hometown: supercool alt-rock vibes
  • Not today: "this ones a contradiction because of how happy it sounds" LIKE ALL YOUR FUCKIN MUSIC?!?! THIS IS WHY IM SO EMOTIONALLY CONFUSED
  • Goner: I'm crying AGAIN + the tiNY BEAN IS SCREAMING AGAIN

2 months ago, wasted, at a college party…

Girl I had been hanging out with for 2 hours: Do you know people think you’re weird ?

Me, suddenly feeling the world crashing, because I thought for once people were accepting me: What do you mean I’m weird ? In what way ?

Girl: I don’t know, you just are. I wish I was weird too !

Me, bitter: Why would you want to be weird ? When you’re weird, you’re alone.

Girl: But you don’t need other people to be happy !

That sounded like what someone who never felt truly alone would say.

Matching ponchos because it sounded like a good idea at the time and I needed something to make me happy


it worked.

youtube

YOU GUYS!!!

are we gonna talk at all about this video of brit discussing fan theories?!?!

FIRST OF ALL i just need to express how wonderful it is to hear brit talking about the show in depth. this is the first time that either her or zal have actually spoken in a video about the show and i am so eternally happy.

SECOND OF ALL let’s talk about how brit was wayyy too familiar with these “theories” for them to have been completely fan-made. i mean she sounded so comfortable talking about that painter and the five cracks in the glass…. there must be some truth in those theories then, right? i need opinions.

LASTLY i just need to thank jimmy fallon for inviting brit back on his show and blessing us with these videos thank you thank you thank you

LIKE……..…….THAT RLY HAPPENED……

anonymous asked:

A concept: Magnus loves to talk , and Alec loves listening to Magnus.Sometimes when they lie in bed together at night , Magnus tells the most fantastic stories about his life , and Alec just takes it all in , happy to learn more about his boyfriend.When they are apart , they always call each other , they don't even need to make great conversations , just listening to the sound of the others voice is enough. (Whenever I see a new piece of your writing on my dash , my heart jumps a little ❤)

a canon concept (and you’re very sweet)

alec loves listening to magnus. magnus has been through so many incredible things over the course of his long and illustrious life, and alec soaks up every anecdote no matter how small.

some nights they’re spread out on the couch, their fingers laced, alec’s cheek on magnus’s bare chest and magnus will bring something so small up. “did i ever tell you about the time i rode one of the first steam trains?” with one of those dazzling smiles on his lips and alec couldn’t help but smile too, eating every single bit of the story up eagerly, his fingers dragging over magnus’s stomach in slow circles.

magnus tells alec about all of the countries he’s visited with their beautiful sprawling cities and their gorgeous wildlife. he tells him all about wonderful people who added vibrance to his life, downworlders from all over the globe. and he tells him about the events he crashed, the paintings he saw in the making that are now considered priceless pieces of art, the historical events he was witness to, and the famous people he met.

sometimes alec can tell he’s stretching the truth or dancing around it, possibly even just straight up joking, but other times he’ll talk about the world at a certain period of time with this look in his eyes. it’s like he’s transported back for a moment, explaining how everything felt and looked and smelled with such specificity, these rich details that set alec’s heart alight in his chest.

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Bubble Bath

Summary : You’re pregnant, miserable and Bucky wants to do whatever he can to make you feel a little more at ease. 

Characters: Sweet!Romantic!Bucky 

Warnings : Anon requested a fluffy and cute. It is everything fluffy and cute. 

A/N : I had so much fun writing this. Thanks also to my pregnant co-worker who helped give me ideas

Author : Ash

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Originally posted by dailyteamcap

Bucky internally grimaced at the sound of your voice. Not grimaced because he didn’t love you, but grimaced because at 38 weeks you were no longer glowing in happiness of being pregnant. You were miserable, cranky, swollen and downright ready to do anything to push out your little miracle. 

Bucky knew he needed to do something to try and ease your pain..and aggravation. So he concocted the perfect plan. Bubble bath, massage and just a makeshift spa day in your home. Which in turn, while a sweet gesture, means he left you alone in the house for almost an hour while he picked up everything. 

“Bucky” you whined as he walked through the front door. “Please tell me you brought me corn chips and vanilla ice cream? Oh, and chocolate milk.” You tried your best to get up out of the chair you were sitting in, only to be defeated and huffing in annoyance. Bucky watched you for a minute before walking over. 

“I got you ice cream, corn chips, chocolate milk, more chocolate truffles and some stuff to make sure you have an incredibly relaxing day and night. You need to de-stress and relax. You deserve a mini spa day.” He said as he pecked your cheek.  God bless this man and whatever galaxy he came from. 

“Babe, right now I just want to get out of this chair.” You said with a pouty face which was adorable if Bucky was to be honest. He was pretty sure your puppy dog eyes could win any war. 

He smiled at you and handed you the bag of truffles and the bottle of chocolate milk he’d just purchased. “You don’t move a muscle, I’m going to set everything up and you’re going to relax.” He said pecking your cheek as he winked and walked away. 

You were indulging in your chocolate milk and almost choked on a truffle when Bucky made his way back into the living room. Your eyes roamed his body. He stood before you in only his boxers. Red satin boxers. Damn hormones, you wanted nothing more then to jump him right then and there. His glorious body on display, the boxers hanging low showcasing that glorious v-cut. 

Bucky just smiled at you as he made his way over. He saw you trying to get up and just let out a small chuckle. “Didn’t I tell you not to move?” He said as he hooked his arms around you and under your legs. “Super soldier remember?” He smirked at you as you laid your head on his chest. He carried you to the bathroom and helped you stand as you took in the bath.

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The scene was so beautiful you could cry. In fact you felt yourself tearing up. Bucky looked at you and kissed you softly. “Hormones?” he said as you nodded softly. He kissed you again. You took in the bubble bath and the rose petals laid on top with scented vanilla candles placed in the bathroom. You could only imagine how amazing the bath would feel. You let yourself be enveloped. 

“Let me undress you.” Bucky said as he trailed his hands over your body. You and Bucky had been intimate many times before, but this was different. You felt more exposed, more vulnerable as he undressed. His rough hands caressing your smooth, supple skin. He was so gentle, so loving. He was the epitome of a silent giant. He lifted your gown above your head, slowly running his hand down the cheek of your face. He trailed his finger from the side of your neck, over your collarbone and laid his hand over your heart. You smiled sweetly at each other. 

He ran his hand back over your belly and kissed it softly “I love you.” he softly whispered to both of you. You felt his rough fingers slide in the side of your panties and he slid them down your legs letting his hands trail their way down. He crouched down as you stepped out of your panties and he tossed them away. He stepped back looking at you. “God (Y/N) you are absolutely breathtaking. “ You blushed, when Buck said it you knew he meant it. 

He picked you up and gently placed you in the tub. The warm water, the rose oil, the milk bath (Lush Milky Bath google it! I’m obsessed) You left a small moan on contentment escape your lips. You closed your eyes and leaned back you were expecting to feel the warm chest of your love, but instead were met with a nice, warm back pillow. You frowned. 

“You’re not joining me?” You said kind of sad. Bucky smiled at you as he sat beside the tub just running his fingers along the water. “Not this time doll, this is about you.” He grasped your chin and smiled. “You need to relax and just enjoy this moment. I’m going to bathe you and watch you enjoy this. You deserve this.” his hand found your protruding stomach and you grinned. 

You couldn’t remember another time that you and Bucky spent like this. You both sat there talking, sharing stories. You shared more stories of your childhood, heard more stories about the trouble Bucky and Steve used to get into. You took times to even have a small fight about who the baby would favor more. 

He would wash your back. Softly run the water over your body and run rose oil over your shoulders and lightly massage them. He’d even sneak you a truffle every time you begged, which so far was twelve times. As much as you were loving the moment, your little ray of joy was getting antsy. 

Bucky noticed how you were starting to get uncomfortable and just smiled. “I have a second part planned.” he said smiling as he ran the water from the tub and picked up a nice cotton fluffy towel and pulled you from the tub. He stood you up and dried you off. Taking his time, exploring, as if he was trying to learn your body for the first time. 

Bucky wrapped the towel around you and picked you up bridal style carrying you to your shared bedroom. You smelt more vanilla candles and noticed more rose petals on your bed. You weren’t sure how Bucky could out do himself until you noticed the matching red satin sheets covering your bed. 

“I really don’t deserve you” you mumbled hoping Bucky wouldn’t hear. He looked down at you “(Y/N), you deserve so much more then I could give you.” he said kissing your forehead as he laid down on your side. You were so tempted to fall asleep then and there until you felt Bucky warm hands and a heating lotion against your shoulders. 

You closed your eyes and just laid there while Bucky sang your praises. “You have no idea how amazing you are doll, how strong.” You felt him squeeze your shoulders, hitting that ball of tension right there in your neck. You hummed quietly. 

You felt Bucky’s lips against your neck and you just let out a small sigh. “You are incredibly beautiful, and smart. You have this way of making me laugh and I didn’t think I’d be capable of that anymore.” He said as he placed another kiss to your neck. He slid his hands down your thighs. Every touch was driving you crazy..you needed him.

Bucky rolled you on your back. You almost let out a moan of protest when you looked up at him. He was on top of you. His brunette locks falling in your face, the stubble softly grazing your cheek and jaws. This man was going to be the death of you. “James Buchanan Barnes, you are so beautiful”. You said as you leaned up kissing him deeply as you moved to kiss where his arm and flesh fuse together. 

He smiled at you leaning back on his legs as he grabbed one of your legs, taking more of the heating lotion and working his way from your feet to your thighs. To say you were in heaven was a complete understatement. You felt his fingers working their way up your calves and thighs. They were pressing, kneading, smoothing out all the friction. Releasing all that tension. 

Bucky started to repeat the motion on the other side. “You’re giving me something I didn’t think I’d ever be able to have. You’re giving me a family, (Y/N). I could never tell you what you mean to me.” He softly spoke as you closed your eyes. You were biting your lip. 

Bucky laid your leg down as he hovered back over beside you, smiling down at you. He leant down to kiss you deeply. You tangled your fingers in his hair, pulling softly. You felt him moan against your lips and you returned the moan. 

You felt his hands slide down over your breasts, over your belly and down to where you needed him most…until. 

“Bucky, I think my water just broke.”

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malec 2x06

rushes to his boyfriend thinking its an emergency 

magnus doing stocktake

face off after hearing magnus did this to get him to relax

alec stops his eyes close when he hears mangus say 
“Im not okay”

they open when magnus finishes his sentence
“Because your not okay”, for once someone puts him first 

magnus getting through to him

Alec happy!!

after alec takes a sip, magnus knows he doesnt like the beer

alec loosing so magnus can have a turn

magnus didnt need a free pass

realising his boyfriend is good

competitive spirit is awakened 

they both have a healthy competitive spirit

awkward conversation about alec’s ex’s

realising alecs had virtually none except lydia

now time to talk about magnus’s

alec’s happy hearing the number 

magnus’s face makes him realise it was thousands

i appreciated that they had a late night stroll back to the house (it was like the first date from the book even if silent) 

magnus saying alec was silent on the walk home, i love the way it sounded. as if its their home

alec about to walk away, magnus is going to let him

but alec cant

when alec comes back, steps up for their relationship - it takes magnus a second

alec’s eyes are focused 

there both in this 

look at his face, he’s met the one

about to go again but they are interrupted, love magnus’s hand placement

the disdain on magnus’s face

alec’s like wtf is happening I want to make out with my boyfriend

hearing jace wants to stay with magnus, 
magnus wiping his lip, alec’s like shit all the things i was about to do i cant

magnus is like fuck this shit, alec’s like okay wow alone times goign to be hard

ps. loved alecs husky voice after their kiss. boy was turned up 

Who You Belong To

Description:  Jungkook has noticed you flirting with Taehyung for quite awhile and has finally decided you need to be reminded of who you belong to.

Pairing: Jungkook x Reader

Genre: Smut

Word Count: 8647

Warning: Dom!Jungkook, daddy kink, spanking, minor breath play, thigh riding, hair pulling, punishment, possessiveness

A/N: This is a happy birthday present to @avveh who has been my sounding board for literally every one of these fics.  She helps come up with general plots (what little plots I have in these smuts), what kinks to throw in, even some of the dirty talk, so of course I owed her a birthday present full of her favorite things.

The entire idea for this smut started between the two of us when the Bangtan Bomb for Sope-me was released.  We are possessive smut trashy fangirls and created an entire scenario based on the moment Jungkook got water and looked at something with, what interpreted as, a jealous look.  This is the kind of friendship we have.  We feed each other’s delusions.

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Valentine’s Pity Rose [fic]

Happy Valentine’s Day, y’all! I hope everyone had a wonderful day, and I hope this fic makes it a little better!

This was written for @percyyoulittleshit  who gave me the prompt:  “So let me get this straight. You want to hire me to be your date to a Valentine’s Party?” I hope it lives up to your standards, Mari! 

–2142017–

“So let me get this straight. You want to hire me to be your date to a Valentine’s Day party?”

Annabeth sighed. Honestly, it sounded terrible when you said it that way. Well, she guessed that it would probably sound horrible any way you said it.

“Yes,” she snapped, tapping her foot against the sidewalk. “You just have to come to the party with me. We only have to stay for a few hours.”

Percy was silent as he considered. He was loading his band equipment into the back of his Jeep. Annabeth had seen him outside when she got home from track practice, which is when she decided to cross the street to his house and solicit his help.

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[Drawing of a stick-figure girl napping on a couch, drooling and holding a turkey leg. Above her is the word, “THANKSGIVING,” and below her, “The one day of the year spoonies can blame their need for a nap on turkey.”]

Happy Thanksgiving, my (American) POTSie peeps! I hope the holiday hasn’t been too rough on you, and I wish you many spoons for the upcoming season! 🦃