October 18, 2017, was one of the single greatest days of my life. From the moment I heard Tim McGraw when I was nine or ten years old, I have been lucky enough to have you, Taylor, in my life. It is impossible for me to put into words how incredible the eleven or so years with your songs, encouragement, shows, hard work, dedication, and genuine care towards us all, have been. I cannot thank you enough for making even the most difficult days in my life bearable. In times where I thought things were over, I turned to you.
Whether it was doubting myself as a writer, questioning if my quirks that isolated me from others made me less than, realizing that I am queer woman, or being at the height of my anxiety and depression… I knew you were someone who genuinely cared. You show me every single time I come to a show, listen to music, watch you speak, read your writings, and more… in every way, you inspire me to embrace who I am and my passions. I am no longer afraid to fail. I love who I am. I love the friend you have been to me–knowingly and not–for over half my lifetime.
Wednesday night, with about one hundred other people, I was able to feel the love you, your friends, family, and team all radiate as up close and personal as I ever have. I am grateful for the chance to thank you for the love and inspiration you shine into my life. Thank you for opening up your heart and home to us all. And to your family, thank you for treating us all like one of the Swifts. Your team made us all feel safe and cared for. I cannot wait to see as many of you all as possible during the reputation tour.
I am forever grateful for our inside jokes, hugs, I love yous, and gleeful leg kicks. Also, I’m sorry if I almost kicked you in the face–I get excited. I’ll be seeing you… on tumblr and tour. With each magazine article I get published, new poem I write, and captivating story I tell… I will be thinking of and thanking you for being a strong woman I can call a friend. You are kind, smart, funny, and genuine. I couldn’t ask for anything more. I love you, forever. Xx Lindsay
I try to keep everyone at a safe distance from me because I’m going to hurt everything I touch at some point. It’s in my nature. I destroy everything that comes to close to me. And fuck, I wouldn’t forgive myself if I hurt you.