An Open Letter to Thomas Sanders
Your recent Pride video… Damn, it was so helpful to me. You guys got so emotional and you opened yourselves up so id like to tell you something in return: my coming out story.
I know, I know, its not going to be as bad as some of the ones you mustve seen or heard, and I should consider myself lucky that I didnt get kicked out or anything… But, hey, its a story.
I found out I wasnt straight in seventh grade. I had the hots for my best friend. Because my parents were so religious, Homosexuality was demonized. Whenever I found out i was gay, I hated myself for so long, because i thought it was against “gods plan.” I thought to myself,“Hey, I dont want to be a part of a religion that makes me a sin.” So I broke away from the chuch, (now i realize you can be gay and Christian and thats okay. I just dont believe in it anymore.)
I started skipping out of church, sneaking out of the lectures to go hang out in the bathroom. I continued doing this until I was caught by my, very religious, father. He sat me down, and he asked me why i was skipping church. I told him because I wasnt christian.
He got angry, demanding to know why. I told him because I didnt want to be a part of a religion where I was a sin. I told him that I was bisexual.
He told me that i was just doing whatever I could to be different and that the devil was working through me. He also told me that If I could like boys and girls, whats stopping me from fucking a goat or a child.
I moved with my grandma shortly after that. Things stayed like that for a few months, and I didnt talk to my dad until he apologized. He refuses to acknowledge the things he said to me, in fact he says that he never said that stuff.
Everything has calmed down now. Ive been out for nearly four years, and my family is still learning to come to terms with it. I wont let that negativity stop me from being who I am. Though Im still not sure exactly what i am, reguarding orientation and gender, you and your friends taught me its okay not to know.
Thank you, for everything.
Ps. Im proud of you too!