but i know technically its been four years

An Open Letter to Thomas Sanders

@thatsthat24

Your recent Pride video… Damn, it was so helpful to me. You guys got so emotional and you opened yourselves up so id like to tell you something in return: my coming out story.

I know, I know, its not going to be as bad as some of the ones you mustve seen or heard, and I should consider myself lucky that I didnt get kicked out or anything… But, hey, its a story.

I found out I wasnt straight in seventh grade. I had the hots for my best friend. Because my parents were so religious, Homosexuality was demonized. Whenever I found out i was gay, I hated myself for so long, because i thought it was against “gods plan.” I thought to myself,“Hey, I dont want to be a part of a religion that makes me a sin.” So I broke away from the chuch, (now i realize you can be gay and Christian and thats okay. I just dont believe in it anymore.)

I started skipping out of church, sneaking out of the lectures to go hang out in the bathroom. I continued doing this until I was caught by my, very religious, father. He sat me down, and he asked me why i was skipping church. I told him because I wasnt christian.

He got angry, demanding to know why. I told him because I didnt want to be a part of a religion where I was a sin. I told him that I was bisexual.

He told me that i was just doing whatever I could to be different and that the devil was working through me. He also told me that If I could like boys and girls, whats stopping me from fucking a goat or a child.

I moved with my grandma shortly after that. Things stayed like that for a few months, and I didnt talk to my dad until he apologized. He refuses to acknowledge the things he said to me, in fact he says that he never said that stuff.

Everything has calmed down now. Ive been out for nearly four years, and my family is still learning to come to terms with it. I wont let that negativity stop me from being who I am. Though Im still not sure exactly what i am, reguarding orientation and gender, you and your friends taught me its okay not to know.

Thank you, for everything.

Megan

Ps. Im proud of you too!

So I’ve been watching Game of Thrones

I know, I know. It’s taken me seven years. I was morally opposed to it because of the sex, but finally decided I didn’t actually care and started watching it. Fortunately, I had avoided as many spoilers as possible for it over the past seven years because I kind of always knew I would end up watching it.

Anyways, I’ve been watching it for four days now and I’m currently on season 4, episode 3, and I have some feelings that I need to get out. It’s basically going to be a bullet point list in order of me thinking them over the past four days, so I hope you all don’t mind joining me on the absolutely wild ride this has been.

  • I know enough to know better than to get attached to anyone on the show but I can’t help it I love the Starks
  • And Jon Snow
  • I don’t love the royal family.
  • Ew
  • BRAN
  • I UNDERSTAND WHY EVERYONE HATES JOFFREY NOW
  • Arya Stark is best
  • Not a Sansa fan though
  • Catelyn’s sister and her son are just creepy
  • OKAY I KNEW NED STARK DIED BECAUSE HE’S SEAN BEAN SO HE HAS TO DIE
  • Fuck Joffrey
  • But thank you so much to the guy who kept Arya from seeing her father die/helping her escape
  • Oh my gosh though these boys (because how are they NOT boys, they’re practically children) on the Wall. I love them all.
  • Robb Stark
  • NO THEON NO
  • Love Osha too
  • Somehow I’m still hoping that everything will be fine. Like, “there’s still potential for everything to work itself out NOT EVERYONE HAS TO DIE JUST STOP NOW AND IT WILL BE FINE.”
  • But there’s no way that will happen.
  • Jeez, Arya is on such a wild ride, poor kid
  • THEON IF YOU HURT A HAIR ON THOSE BOYS’ HEADS I WILL PERSONALLY STEP INTO THIS SHOW AND END YOU
  • Well…
  • Oh thank goodness Sansa doesn’t have to marry Joffrey
  • Poor Margaery though…
  • Tyrion and Shae
  • Craster is literally the most disgusting human I could imagine
  • The more people keep talking about all these weddings the more scared I get BECAUSE I HAVE HEARD OF THE RED WEDDING BUT I DON’T KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT IT BESIDES EVERYONE THERE DIES AND MY DREAD IS RISING BECAUSE THE ONLY ONE I WANT DEAD IS JOFFREY
  • And like I like Margaery and all but I kind of hope it’s their wedding
  • TyrION AND SHAE
  • Jaime and Brienne are having quite the adventure too
  • How have I not talked about Danaerys yet???
  • DRAGON
  • She’s great though, on her quest to free all the slaves. Like, that’s awesome. Love her.
  • Tywin Lannister is rapidly making his way onto my hate list along with Joffrey and Theon
  • But TBH even after what Theon did to Winterfell, I still don’t think he deserves what he’s going through
  • Robb and Talisa
  • Jon and Ygritte
  • YOU KNOW THIS COULD STILL BE FINE EVERYONE COULD JUST GO HOME AND MOST PEOPLE WOULD STILL BE ALIVE
  • YEAH YOU GO SAMWELL TARLY SAVING GILLY AND HER BABY
  • wow that is a lot of dead people
  • CATELYN BLAMES HERSELF FOR EVERYTHING BECAUSE SHE DIDN’T LOVE JON AS A CHILD I’M DONE I CAN’T HANDLE THIS
  • I’m liking Margaery more and more. I get the feeling she might kind of be a scheming bitch, but I also really like her. Mostly because she’s nice to Sansa and almost no-one else is
  • Also, Littlefinger? I really like him?
  • SANSA WHY WON’T YOU GO WITH HIM GET OUT OF THERE
  • ROS NO
  • Fuck Joffrey and fuck Tywin
  • Feeling increasingly bad for Theon because he was a total jackass, but no-one deserves torture like that
  • Oh, so THAT’S how Jaime loses his hand
  • THANK YOU THOUGH JAIME FOR STANDING UP FOR BRIENNE
  • Jaqen H’gar
  • ARYA DON’T BE STUPID PLEASE
  • THE WALL IS 700 FEET HIGH?????
  • Oh look, another wedding
  • YEAH YOU GO SAMWELL TARLY KILLING THAT WHITE WALKER YOU’RE NOT A COWARD YOU CAN DO THIS
  • Jojen Reed is creepy
  • THE WALL IS 700 FEET HIGH AND YOU’RE GOING TO CLIMB IT?????
  • I’m 90% sure that the warg wildling is played by Mackenzie Crook (update: he definitely is I looked it up) but I don’t like him
  • Cersei and Loras is not a match I would have predicted and it’s weird
  • Tyrion and Sansa have potential in that he won’t be a terrible person to her if their track record as friends is any indication
  • BUT TYRION AND SHAE
  • OKAY TYRION AND SANSA’S WEDDING WAS FINE BUT NOW THERE’S ANOTHER ONE I HAVE A BAD FEELING ABOUT THIS
  • ARYA IS SO CLOSE
  • NO THE BAND IS PLAYING RAINS OF CASTAMERE
  • BAD FEELINGS ARE GROWING
  • CATELYN YOU KNOW SOMETHING IS UP SAY SOMETHING
  • NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO
  • THIS ISN’T HAPPENING
  • I’M CRYING
  • NO TALISA
  • NO ROBB
  • NO CATELYN
  • I CAN’T HANDLE THIS
  • AND ARYA WAS SO CLOSE
  • NO THE WOLF TOO???
  • NO
  • NO
  • NO
  • AND JON AND BRAN AND RICKON WERE SO CLOSE
  • YGRITTE DON’T DO IT
  • Although, being like stabbed (I think that happened?), attacked by an eagle, and shot three times sets a fantastic precedent for Jon surviving impossible odds.
  • HOW COULD YOU THINK IT WOULD BE APPROPRIATE TO SERVE SANSA HER BROTHER’S HEAD AT YOUR WEDDING FEAST JOFFREY IN WHAT WORLD WOULD THAT BE OKAY
  • Sam recognizing Bran and Hodor from Jon’s stories is wonderful though
  • Basically Joffrey’s whole wedding was just me mentally willing Sansa and Tyrion to get up and leave
  • JOFFREY IS DEAD I HAVE NEVER BEEN HAPPIER ABOUT A FICTIONAL DEATH although they’re blaming Tyrion which I am not happy about
  • BUT JON IS BACK IN CASTLE BLACK AND FINE AND SANSA HAS ESCAPED THE CAPITOL AND EVERYONE IS FOR THE MOMENT OKAY IT’S GOING TO BE FINE.

I hope you’ve enjoyed. Stay tuned for more, because I have another three seasons to go.

Expressive (1)

Expressive (by iamashamedofmyfanfics)

Pairing: Eventual Jikook. Jungkook centric. Platonic Jungkook/Everyone
Genre: Fantasy (there’s magic and spirits), Friendship, Romance.
Universe: People with Magic are commonplace AU. Most of BTS are emotion spirits AU
Rating: PG
Length: Chaptered, Completed.
Chapters: / [Two] [Three] [Four] [Five]

[AO3 Version]

Summary: Jungkook hadn’t meant to summon them, and certainly not to bind them to him. Yet here he was, stuck with six spirits who he should never have seen in his lifetime.

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