Hi, so this isn’t really like me, but I felt like I had to say this somewhere before I forget or loose this feeling inside my head.
I..I’m not really open on this, since it’s a more personal issue, but I’ve had difficulty with religion…my whole life. It’s always this back and forth feeling, and today it got the best of me.
I got so mad at myself for feeling that way…I just wanted it to stop. I needed a sign on what to do, on how to fix this empty feeling in me. And before I knew it I started to break down in my room… when I felt something…I don’t know what it was, or if it was even real, but I felt..safe and happy.
Something while I was crying. And I’m..not sure if this will make any sense, but I talked to whatever that was. Or I was just talking in my room to myself for all I knew, but whatever it was gave off this feeling I’ve never had before. And if it was what I feel like it was, I think it was a sign to pursue..what I felt in that moment.m
I’m going to try to pursue Christianity and see how that goes.
There’s only this one old friend of mine who’s part of it, and I feel this calling to go talk to him, since I feel like he’s the only one as of now who could possibly help me. For all I could know this could go horribly wrong, but I..feel like it’s the right thing to do
. I..don’t know exactly how prayers work, but if somebody can pray that I’ll have the strength to find guidance somehow, that would mean the world to me. Or just some thoughts, or if any of you guys have any advice or thoughts on this little experience of mine. That would mean a lot..thank you.