but i just wanted to make something anyway

Night Moves (Part 4)

Originally posted by out-in-the-open

Summary: The reader hooks up with a guy she meets at a bar one night after she gets to the town where her childhood friend Jess is getting married in a few days time, leading to some unintended consequences…

Part 1 Part 2 Part 3

Pairing: au!Dean x reader

Word Count: 2,900ish

Warnings: language, implied smut

A/N: This one was a fast write but tons of fun to come up with!…


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I hate this day, deeply. Not a great way to start, Simona…

As anyone, i hate getting older, i am a damn Gemini, and knowing that i’m a “grown woman”, almost an “old woman”, drives me crazy. Even though sometimes these frantic times makes me feel old anyway, because the world runs away too fast and i’m not able to grab it.

So May 24th is here again, my stupid birthday, i always feel embarassed by my birthday as it were too much bother for people. But this year i want to do something different, because i feel this so much and i’ve thought that my birthday could be a perfect moment. 

I just want to say thank you to all my Tumblr friends because they’re special and very dear to me.

I’ve just passed a strange year, a bad winter with many issues and worries and Tumblr it’s always been my safe place. And some people are been always there for me, and it was absolutely great for me.

So I feel to say thank you to all of you, you beautiful people, who are been always here for me when my days are been hard to bear. Thank you then to @scienceoftheidiot @sweetfairy1 @glendathegoodone @jorahssquire @lancelottie @djladyextasy @scribbledhandwrite @corpyburd @omg-okimhere @lancelottie @elsa-lost-in-translation @mirthfulmeg @jeromeifyouwantto for anxiety tips @noclevernamelbr my partner in crime in Hiddlesness and new great people as @mortomary @floranocturna @moonofmorrigan @adel-iie all the Team Thranduil, and sweet people like @themirkyking @thranduilista @earrinde-lancaeriel @peonies-and-poppies and several people I surely forgot to mention who that still in my heart anyway. Thanks to all of you for endless chats, patience, cheering me up, for the good advices, and beautiful words. 

Originally posted by asdarknessfell

Renaissance Faire - Race and Culture

This month hosts The Renaissance Pleasure Faire in Los Angeles. For those of you who have never been to a Ren Faire, one of the key aspects of it is costume and dressing up. 

When I was in High School and would go with my High School friends, I was always a little jealous of the costumes that they would wear. All of my friends in High School you see, were white. The costumes that they would wear always looked right on them and somehow, wrong on me. 

One year, I took things into my own hands and decided to dress as a Chinese Peasant. I got a Rice Paddy hat from our local chinatown and a pretty drab and easy top and pants (I super wish I could find these photos for you guys)  

The effect worked, a lot of people noticed my costume and laughed at my little joke.

Still, I would look at my friends in their beautiful dresses and flower crowns and envy that they could easily slip into this land of make believe and I still felt a little bit like an outsider. 

I don’t believe that anyone particularly made me feel this way, it was just something that made me aware of my race when usually it’s something I don’t necessarily think about. 

So, I went and decided to just wear the ‘wrong’ feeling costumes anyways, it was all pretend and I could do anything I wanted. 

But this year, I decided to do something different. I did some research and found out that during the Elizabethan period, the Ming dynasty would have been in power. I did some research online and found myself a Ming Dynasty costume. 

It was everything I had ever wanted. I felt pretty, but also I felt like I belonged. I felt like I was able to share my culture and what was beautiful about that time period with people who didn’t know. A lot of people stopped me to ask about my costume! I wish I had known a little bit more about accurate construction or really, anything about the Ming Dynasty, but I still felt right in it. 

There are lots of cultures that existed during the Elizabethan era and I encourage any People of Color to share that when they go to a Renaissance festival next time! I would love to see more costumes, maybe Armenian or Turkish or Mongolian! 

Next year I want to take this as a starting point and try to incorporate more elements of fantasy. There are lots of Chinese dramas that take period costumes and throw some fun fantasy elements into it. Here are some cool examples:

OK BUT I JUST REALIZED SOMETHINH AND I DONT KNOW IF SOMEONE ELSE HAS POINTED IT OUT YET BUT…I’LL SAY IT ANYWAY.
John’s hands. One on Sherlock’s nek and the other on Sherlock’s arm. Doesn’t it remind u something? It’s exactly the same way Sherlock hugged John in TLD. Coincidence? Nope. In this show coincidences don’t exist. It means, if you think about it, that Sherlock not only remember how John hugged him, but also that Sherlock thinks that it is the way John want to be hugged, I think. It is the way John makes feel someone loved and safe and it is probably the way Sherlock felt and so Sherlock did the same when John needed, he hugged him with one hand on John’s nek and the other on John’s arm. Bacause in that moment John needed love and to feel safe.

I…I don’t know if it makes sense but this hug, John’s hug, hit me and reminded me of Sherlock’s hug.
I don’t know what to think now, I need a blanket.
Also, I feel really stupid cause probably someone just noticed it ages ago soooooooo now it’s time for me to go. And hide. Bye.

homesick
kidastro
homesick

so I composed a song that’s, well, langst inspired, lol, and it’s set in his perspective, mainly about his homesickness and feeling inadequate…


lyrics

away in the vastness of space

light years away from the clear blue beach

and the familiar scent of sea spray


the sunrays settling on my face

sound of home’s lively chatter

and my mother’s warm embrace


if i close my eyes

I’ll be carried back

to earth, to home

to the very place i miss


I’m here, away in space

given a role i’m scared i can’t play

what is the significance

of my presence here


I’m unexceptional

so easy to replace

if i were back home

maybe i wouldn’t feel this way


if i close my eyes

I’ll be carried back

to earth, to home

to the very place i miss


yeah, I wanted to do something but, I can’t write fanfiction for shit or make funny text posts or come up with mind-blowing theories, so here’s my contribution to the vld fandom, lmao.


link to soundcloud here! it’s available for download just be sure to open soundcloud while in the desktop version of the page!! <3

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Sehun in EXO’s 2015 music videos

keith: hunk is right

hunk, immediately pulling keith down into a kiss: man i love hearing that

hunk’s mama: hunk is almost two years old and he still hasn’t said anything yet… do you think we should be worried? do- are we bad parents?

hunk’s mom: of course not, honey! every kid is special, y’know? they all go their different ways. and our hunkadunk of dippin dot love is fine just the way he is <3

hunk’s mama: (sighs) you’re right, of course. but you know me. i’ve never been able to let things lie, i always have to tinker with them. i know i shouldn’t project my own insecurities onto our baby, but…

hunk’s mom: babe, you’re not the first parent to overthink themselves, and you won’t be the last. maybe we’ve just been approaching this all wrong! we’ve only ever talked at hunk… what if we tried to have a conversation with him, or something?

hunk’s mama: it’s worth a shot.

hunk’s mama: (squats down next to hunk) hunk? baby? do you think you could say something, just for mama? i’m sad that i still haven’t heard your beautiful voice.

hunk: (continues sucking on hand)

hunk’s mom: … sorry, honey. it was a longshot anyway-

hunk: (removes hand from mouth) i’m sorry, mama. i didn’t realize i was making you sad ‘cause i don’t like talking. i’ll try to talk more though if you want me to!

The universe didn’t seem to want me to draw today, but it was too good of an episode I just couldn’t not draw something 

okay but can we talk abt how having asd makes u really vulnerable to abuse and it’s fucking awful??? like. being unable to fully distinguish between sarcasm, jokes, and when someone’s just being an asshole means that it’s incredibly easy to gaslight you. any time someone hurts you or says something blatantly abusive/rude they can just say “i was just joking” and sometimes even go so far as to say “i was just joking it’s your autism making it difficult”. anything you do or anything that upsets you can easily be excused by your abuser as you “overreacting” because you’re autistic. and of course, there’s the abuse that happens in General to autistic people, like teachers/caregivers who abuse you bc you’re “misbehaving” or parents who refuse to get their children diagnosed until the damage is already done bc they want a “normal” child and don’t want a crutch… anyway i just wanna say that if you’re autistic and have been abused because of it or it’s been used as an excuse for people to abuse you, you’re not making things up or overreacting. it’s okay to have feelings and be hurt.

So we all looked at this image and were like “Oh wow okay that there is Gay Crisis. Observe–Will Poindexter is completely losing his shit because he has a huge secret crush on Derek Nurse, and he’s pretty damn sure his secret won’t survive actually rooming with Nursey.”

And yes, absolutely, that is what I see when I look at this picture. It’s likely also what Lardo sees, and probably Bitty, too. Maybe Chowder as well, although that’s a more difficult call–he might be too close to both Dex and Nursey to see it.

But it is definitely not what Derek Nurse sees.

Derek Nurse just sees one of his best friends having a breakdown (a semi-public breakdown, at that–and not even semi-public in front of strangers, but semi-public in front of a bunch of their friends and teammates) because the two of them are going to be rooming together next year.

I mean. Not to put too fine a point on it, but if one of my best friends had had a breakdown about rooming with me when I was in college, I’d have been devastated. Absolutely devastated. And maybe I’m sensitive, but who’s to say Nursey isn’t? We all know the chill is fake, after all. Maybe (maybe) he doesn’t head off to his dorm room to cry once he realizes exactly how Dex is reacting, but you gotta believe he’s at least having a conversation with Chowder that includes something along the lines of “I really thought we’d been doing better this year, you know? Like, I thought we were actually friends now.”

Anyway. I had a point in here somewhere. Oh, right, it’s this: I can’t look at this panel and not feel horribly bad for Nursey. I just can’t. And…I still think we might actually get canon NurseyDex out of this (and I fully believe we’re getting canon not-straight Dex at the very least), but…at this point I kinda don’t want to see it until and unless we see Dex making a metric fuckton of apologies. Please excuse my language.

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TAZ Lady Week - Day 1 - Favorite female character / The OculusLucretia/The Director

“We’ve both seen some existentially horrifying things.”

Yuuri isn’t just a badass he’s also a good person. The reason he can come across ‘cold’ is because of his degree of self-loathing, which causes himself to sometimes not acknowledge how much people around him care about him (something he works on as the series goes on! this is a big part of his character arc). It’s got nothing to do with his view of other people’s value of individuals and how much he cares about them and everything to do with how he views himself. He has trouble forming connections with others because he views himself as someone people wouldn’t want to form connections with. This is not necessarily okay, but it’s literally a huge part of his character arc!! He becomes so much better about this as the series goes on, and it’s wonderful to see. 

Here’s the thing about Yuuri Katsuki. He’s a selfless person, to a fault. People completely misread the ‘I’ll let the whole world hate me’ scene. It’s not about selfish love. It’s not about possessive love. It’s about making a choice between caring about how people perceive you and not caring about how people perceive you. 

Yuuri thinks that if he goes out there and skates his best, people are going to hate him, see him as taking Victor from the world. He says so what, fuck that. It’s more important to me that I reach my goal. I’d rather me be hated than Victor be hated anyway. Hate me for taking Victor from the world, fine. I just want to skate. I’d rather skate and be hated than have you like me and give up on doing something I love. To help himself in that situation, to give himself confidence, he reminds himself that he is the only person who does know Victor’s love the way he does, which is absolutely true. He reminds himself of the love he has in his life. That it’s unique. That’s it’s special. 

‘Victor is the first thing I’ve ever wanted to hold onto.’

Victor is the first thing he’s ALLOWED himself to hold onto (and even then, he tries to let him go later on because he’s self-sacrificing). 

There’s nothing selfish about that– or possessive, or anything of the sort. It’s someone looking at adversity and going ‘my goal is more important to me than your perception of me’, and for someone as self-deprecating as Yuuri, someone who has struggled with forming emotional connections because they haven’t felt like people wanted to form emotional connections with them due to their own lack of self worth, this is a HUGE DEAL. It’s awesome.

Allowing Yuuri to in a sense, claim something as his, is actually a triumphant moment for him, because he rarely does this. It’s good and right. Yuuri is often selfless to a fault. When he says ‘I wish to eat pork cutlet bowls with you’ we applaud him. When Yuuri wants something and expresses it, we CHEER for him.

Yuuri spends the entire last third of the series trying to sacrifice Victor despite the fact that Victor, to the audience, CLEARLY wants to stay with him. But Yuuri, darling Yuuri, due to his own anxiety and self-worth issues, sees himself as holding Victor back. He ‘wants to stay in figure skating with Victor forever’, but he’s willing to give up everything he loves so Victor can be happy, no hesitations. He smiles, he doesn’t cry. Heck he’s willing to be called selfish without argument even though that’s obviously nonsense. He’s confident in this decision because it’s just what’s right to him. He’s wrong because it’s not what Victor wants, but never doubt that Yuuri is a good person, a selfless person, who would give up anything in an instant for someone he loves. 

Yuuri’s mental illness informs a lot of who he is, and it causes him to stumble and sometimes make it LOOK like he’s undervaluing people but he’s undervaluing himself, and he’s such a good person and he’s so filled with love. He’s loving and supporting and sometimes he just needs to find a way to express it and realize that it surrounds him and people love him in return, and the show is so much about that. Don’t underestimate how good a person Yuuri Katsuki is.

anonymous asked:

Ship have you ever had kids tell you about being abused in anyway when they get comfortable at camp? I'm going to be working at a camp this year and I'm sure they will brief us but I'm just worried I'll react badly and wanted to ask if you've had experience with this

Yeah, I have. It’s rough. My camp has a pretty good system for handling it. We are mandated reporters, so I front load with the kids the fact that if something makes me concerned about their safety at home, it’s my duty as their temporary guardian and a safe adult to make sure that people who are able to help them can do so. I promise the kids that I’ll check in with them first before I speak to anyone else about it. I make sure they understand that I am a Safe Adult they can confide in about anything they want or need to, and that I won’t share their secrets with anyone unless it is necessary to ensure their safety.

I am legally required to contact CPS within 48 hours of an abuse reveal. We are discouraged from discussing the abuse in detail because the child may only share their full story once.

I have had several situations where have had to report suspicious comments, marks, and behaviors to the appropriate authorities. Kids have told me about former abuse in their pasts, often stuff I was briefed about before they arrived. We go through some training to recognize signs of abuse, suspicious behaviors by other staff, and how to protect ourselves from false allegations. It’s heavy stuff, but it’s real and necessary and it’s important to be someone who deserves their trust.