I am an all or nothing type of individual. I will love you with every part of me or not at all. I put my all into everything I do, I hate that half assed shit, I was never a fan of being teased with something and never being able to have it all. And I think it has something to do with the way my entire life has felt like a tease. I swear it feels like my life is synonymous with drowning in the ocean. I have never been a strong swimmer and wave after wave of that tumultuous yet beautiful blue green water holds me under and for a moment I’ll get a breathe of air. But it’s never for long and suddenly my lungs have to once again get used to the pain of water filling them instead of air. So maybe that’s why when I finally get the taste of good I’d rather just have all the bad because it becomes a series of motions that I can become numb to rather than the pain I feel when everything good disappears. It’s like the day I had you and you left. It’s like right now when I was given a taste of stability and I am suddenly back on the ground.
Barry gonna stay with Cisco and give iris some space and himself some time to gather his thoughts because he's losing his mind BUT both of them love each more tha anything! People be out here thinking that after BOTH iris and barry have gotten a taste of life together, thy just gonna give up? My guess is by th end of ep 17 (running home to you?) Barry gonna realize that he won't trying to save iris but that he loves her so much and he wants to come back home! Iris and Barry are one soul.