but i had already seen apocalypse now so this was my alternative

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Toss the beginning, try to live it down (Serge Wallace gets married, and Rook Wallace is the goddamn love of Mike’s life.)

The Sea Has Seen My Like Before (Mike sacrifices everything he knows for the man he loves. Alternate Universe - Sea Serpent)


Whatever. a YA novel by S.J. Goslee

Mike Tate’s junior year was going to be awesome. He had plans, big plans – hanging out with his girlfriend, watching his best friend try not to accidentally kill himself doing crazy stunts, rocking out with his crappy garage band, and maybe, definitely, drinking his weight in cheap liquor and beer. There were going to be parties, good times, weed, and an overabundance of lazy weekends spent building pillow forts with his nutty little sister, Rosie.

But an accidental drunken hookup with a guy turns all of Mike’s plans both upside-down and backwards, and suddenly he’s dealing with a smugger-than-usual arch enemy, student council elections, the fall prom, and some truly spectacular Awkward Moments – he’s not so sure he’s going to survive.

With the help of his friends, ex-girlfriend, nosy cheerleaders, and his possibly completely insane family, he might just figure out what the heck is up with his brain, his dick, and Rook motherfucking Wallace.

It’s like the apocalypse came, only instead of nuclear bombs and zombies, Mike gets school participation, gay thoughts and motherfucking cheerleaders…


“Goslee’s portrayal of this existential crisis is as humorous as it is grounding. All the feelings of disbelief and anxiety that one might expect are delivered in the way only a 16-year-old boy could articulate… Recommended for young adults who enjoy realistic fiction such as Bryan Lee O’Malley’s “Scott Pilgrim” series or books by John Green, Adam Silvera, or John Corey Whaley.” ―School Library Journal, starred review

“Let’s face it, dudes and dudettes: Goslee’s debut is seriously cool… Everything is just right: the tone, the style, the right-on dialogue, the characterization, the apposite amount of angsty drama, the pace of the genuinely sweet-spirited story. Fans of David Levithan’s Boy Meets Boy (2003) and Becky Albertalli’s Simon vs. the Homo Sapiens Agenda (2015) won’t be disappointed.” ―Booklist, starred review (also a 2016 Booklist Youth Editors’ Choice)

“Goslee’s Mike is a typical teenage boy, and she captures his voice effortlessly… This is a delightful story that many young people need to hear―that it is okay to be different and it is even better to be yourself.” ―VOYA

“The third-person narrative moves quickly with plenty of realistic teen banter… A humorous account of a teen’s reluctant and awkward journey to acceptance of his emerging bisexuality.” ―Kirkus Reviews


Title: Just the Three of Us (Part 15.)


Part 1. - Part 2.  - Part 3. - Part 4. - Part 5. - Part 6. - Part 7. - Part 8. - Part 9. - Part 10. - Part 11. - Part 12. - Part 13. - Part 14.

Character(s): Negan x Reader x Simon (post-apocalypse)
Simon and Negan decide to train you for a life outside of the Sanctuary, just in case anything were to happen.
Word Count: 5,933
Warning: SMUT! (anal)
Author’s Note: Things are picking up… Honestly, I wasn’t going to do smut, but here we are. Listen. Things just happen and well, steamy shower sex is something I can’t pass up. Enjoy! ;-) 

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(GIF Source: @mypapawinchester)

The following morning, you awoke feeling sore at your lower half. You glanced around the room and noticed Negan dressing in his usual attire of the red scarf, black leather jacket, white t-shirt, and grey pants.

You groaned quietly, sitting up and wrapping his grey sheets around your naked body. You realized that Simon wasn’t in the room and assumed that Negan probably didn’t want another man sleeping in his bedroom. Negan turned to look at you, smiling as he stroked his black hair back as usual.

“You’re awake,” he said, walking to the edge of the bed. Negan wrapped his arm around your waist, leaning in to peck your lips lightly.

“I suspected that you’d wake me up.”

“You looked too peaceful for me to do that,” he replied, slowly tugging on the bedsheet to look at your bare upper half. Negan licked his lips and grinned, dropping his hand to caress your breast for a moment before pulling away once he heard you whimper.


“I can’t resist. I could get used to you sleeping naked in my bed,” he winked.

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anonymous asked:

not only MP, now also misha said that cas will be back but we must consider there are also alternate universes, this is making me more nervous I don't want an alternate cas , all the character development and his history with dean lost, it's so upsetting :(

Yeah, I’ve had questions along this line, but I haven’t been able to really answer formally. Along these lines and also in my inbox this morning: (AN: all things in italics are other anon messages… sometimes my inbox helps me out with anons sort of answering each other… Eldritch Inbox):

Hello, i’m sorry if you answered this already, but i do have a question about a certain theory going about about the idea of an au!cas (possibly the one who got killed?) I guess i’m kind of confused about it and was wondering if you’ve either already spoken on it or can expand on the idea? thanks :)


Im worried now theyll just exchange Cas for AU cas and think thats fine because we still have the same actor. The flash did the same thing had the character leavd and brozgh the guys alernative version to stick around


While I can see them (hopefully) using AU Cas in good way for a few eps (tho it doesn’t make sense because there would be no reason for JimmyCas in the other world, but they often don’t address stuff that doesn’t make sense well) I don’t think they would decide to not bring regular Cas back. They have 2 seasons left. I don’t think they would get rid of 1 of the mains. 50% if you counted Crowley. Tho they did that with Angel and the relationship on that show in the last season. Hmm.

Okay, I really, truly 100% honestly don’t think they’re going to use AU Cas at all as a replacement for OUR Cas. If the show is going to open up more alternate realities, I can see OUR Cas (and Sam and Dean) meeting those alternate universe versions for an episode here and there, if only to MIRROR what our Cas is going through, but WHY would they bring Cas THIS FAR in his story, to the point where HE HIMSELF has developed and grown and learned SO MUCH ABOUT HIMSELF, and been prodded by practically EVERY CHARACTER EVER about WHO HE IS and WHAT HE WOULD CHOOSE TO BE if they were just gonna toss him out and bring in replacement copies with entirely different life experiences?

We don’t just love the concept of what would essentially boil down to a random character wearing Misha’s face, WE LOVE OUR CAS. Who we’ve watched struggle FOR NINE DAMN YEARS to get to this point in his understanding of humanity, his compassion, his sense of family, and his LOVE for the Winchesters… like two steps before he was ready to make some BIG FINAL CHOICES for himself… And I can’t think of ANY reason for the writers to just erase ALL of that and start over with a “blank slate” version of Cas. Honestly if that’s what they’re planning to do, I would forever be officially done with this damn show.

Talk about your Jump The Shark moments.

BUT! Considering the Cas we saw on screen looked identical to our Cas, down to the coat and tie, and the fact that the Apocalypse AU didn’t look like they had a Dillard’s, I’m assuming that we have not met a Castiel from that AU. What reason would he have for looking like Jimmy Novak in our Castiel’s outfit when AU Bobby looked the way he did, and when AU demons LOOKED like demons (not possessed humans), and when we heard AU angels were human-hating monsters too… Something tells me AU Cas would look NOTHING like Jimmy in suit and tie. It just makes no logical sense.

Even MAGIC in that AU didn’t seem to work properly. Crowley’s spell didn’t seem to be what closed the portal. It was the nephilim’s birth that closed it.

Which brings me back around to the beginning of the line (just like the structure of the episode, and the meta-ness of the title– a song that ends at the beginning…)

Kelly grabs Cas’s hand, after he’s seen the AU that the nephilim SHOWED HIM SPECIFICALLY, of what the world without the Winchesters would look like– remember in 12.09 when Cas was ADAMANT that the world needs every last Winchester? And he was willing to break cosmic-level deals to make sure the world could keep its Winchesters? To me, in this scene where Kelly needs reassurance about Castiel’s “vision of the future” the nephilim showed him, that is something that’s ALSO forefront on his mind:

Kelly: Tell me again. Tell me again what you saw.
Cas: All right. I saw… I saw (he closes his eyes and concentrates on Kelly taking his hand in 12.19, exactly as she just did now)… I saw the future. (flashback to 12.19, with the nephilim’s power flowing through Cas and lighting his eyes up gold). I saw a world without pain, or hunger, or want. I saw the world that this child– that your child– will create. And it is a world without fear, and without suffering, and without hate. I saw paradise.

As he finishes recounting the memory for her, the lights flicker and we hear the Impala pulling up outside. Like the nephilim was alerting Cas to the Winchesters’ presence.

And then Cas learns that Lucifer isn’t in the cage. He can’t even believe it at first. So that’s something the nephilim obviously didn’t bother informing him about… Dean asks Cas if he’ll be able to torch Lucifer the same way he torched Dagon, and Cas attributes that 100% to the baby (who’s a little busy being born at the moment…). But in 12.19, Cas said it was a combination of their powers… so what’s the truth?

Even as Cas tells Dean that it was only the nephilim working through him, he heals Dean in a way that is VERY DIFFERENT from every other time in history. I’m not the only one who noticed. I refer you again to my inbox:

I think it’s interesting that literally seconds after Cas tells Dean he doesn’t have the nephilim’s power at his disposal, he heals Dean’s leg with the nephilim’s gold light. It makes me wonder if Cas has some of the nephilim’s power within him that could save him. OR when Cas healed Dean, maybe that power transferred to Dean. He seemed oddly invigorated after he was healed, ya know? Like more so than usual.


Hi so when I was watching the second ep after Cas first left the alternate dimension I noticed he seemed a bit off. Do u think there’s any way that he was like possessed or something?

BECAUSE YES! HELLO! I’ve been saying that the nephilim has somehow been using Cas since 12.19. Maybe it’s not “brainwashing” or “mind control,” but I’ve been struggling to explain the nuance here. Maybe more like “infection?” or “poison?” In a similar way the Lance of Michael “poisoned” Cas in 12.12, But that’s not even right.

Like the Angel Tablet was able to direct Cas to protect it over everything else, even his relationship with the Winchesters, I think the nephilim has that kind of power over him. And that for whatever reason, he Chose Cas as his protector.

Cas also tried to prevent Sam and Dean from going out back and seeing the portal in the first place. And then he downplayed it while also being mesmerized by it. But he’s absolutely certain that Jack OPENED the door, and that he will close it too.

Cas then goes up to talk to Kelly alone, and she asks him what’s wrong… and it looks like he’s SINCERELY HAVING DOUBTS. While Dean’s downstairs telling Sam that he has faith in US… 

WE DO NOT SEE WHAT GOES DOWN BETWEEN CAS AND KELLY aside from him holding her hand AGAIN and sort of robotically saying, “Don’t worry, it will be fine. Remember, paradise.”

Did he tell her about the portal between worlds, and the horror on the other side of the doorway her child had opened? When Crowley showed up at the exact right moment, seemingly already knowing about the portal and exactly how to close it (in theory?) When Lucifer shows up out front (seemingly NOT already knowing about the portal?).

And Lucifer’s reasoning is the same as Amara’s was, and the same as Jack the Nephilim’s is– “I can do better than god, so I’m gonna burn the place down and start over to make the world just how I want it.”

Right before Cas attacks, Dean says, “See you on the other side, boys.”


The other side of the house… the other side of the portal.


I think that’s what the nephilim WANTED. And also why he waited SO LONG to close it… because Crowley’s spell was never going to work there. But the nephilim wanted Sam and Dean and CAS TOO on THIS SIDE OF THE PORTAL. I think that AU was the nephilim’s solution to shoving Luci back in the cage. To send him to a world where his vessel bloodline is extinct. A world he can’t possibly destroy any more than it’s already destroyed. He wanted an apocalypse, that’s what Jack gave him.

Cas is knocked out in front of the house. I’m sort of enamored with the idea that he’s still unconscious out there, and the Cas we saw in the rest of the episode was nothing more than a construct– an illusion sent by Jack to act as a lure, for whatever reason. Because his actions after this are a bit confusing…

Sam and Dean lead Lucifer around to the portal and then cross over to lure Luci through. Dean plays bait while Sam and Crowley work the spell (why on THAT side of the rift? Why not on the “right side”?

Sam pulls Dean away to the rift as Crowley sacrifices himself, and for some reason they just stop there? They stand around watching Crowley’s demise. YET SOME VERSION OF CAS THAT DOESN’T EVEN RESPOND TO DEAN, JUST PUSHES PAST HIM AND SAYS NOTHING, just charges through the rift toward Lucifer, and then seemingly just– walks up to Lucifer, stabs him, and then turns right around and comes back out again?


We see Lucifer completely unaffected by the bullets Dean shot him with in the AU, as if Cas hadn’t been expecting Lucifer to be able to follow him out for some reason…

Kelly’s body has mysteriously returned to the bed after the light flash, and Jack’s huddled in the corner of his nursery staring up at Sam with those creepy yellow eyes.

I think Jack’s been using Cas all along, ever since 12.19, and I have seen nothing to break me of that belief.

It’s as if every time Cas gets near Sam and Dean, Jack loses a little bit of that control though. But Jack understands that Dean is both necessary as a motivation for Cas (he does everything for the Winchesters, not for heaven, not even for himself), as well as a potential risk. It’s as if Dean is what’s opening up Cas’s “doorways to doubt,” that he told Dean about in 4.16, right after Uriel told Dean that he was Cas’s “weakness.”:

DEAN: What’s going on, Cas? Since when does Uriel put a leash on you?
CASTIEL: My superiors have begun to question my sympathies.
DEAN: Your sympathies?
CASTIEL: I was getting too close to the humans in my charge. You. They feel I’ve begun to express emotions. The doorways to doubt. This can impair my judgment.

Then in 4.18 Cas relents and gives Dean the nudge in the right direction he needs to stop Sam from making a deal with Lilith (which could’ve potentially STOPPED the apocalypse, but that was before we knew killing Lilith would START it… but feels almost like a test of Cas’s loyalty to Heaven as much as anything, because that entire EPISODE seems in retrospect like a strange loop of Chuck getting to know the players in his own game), and leads directly to him being dragged back to Heaven Boot Camp for reprogramming.

When Cas comes back at the end of the episode, he’s changed. He serves heaven again, not man, and certainly not Dean…

I think Castiel’s “death” in 12.23 is serving the same sort of function. I’m thinking of it as Jack’s answer to Heaven Boot Camp. I am still absolutely convinced that Jack has been influencing Cas’s actions since 12.19, and that Cas is imbued with Jack’s power (hence the golden light when he healed Dean). There is no other explanation for it. Why else give Dean that little cut on his face that we got to see healed with that weird gold light, if it wasn’t to tell us that it was Jack’s power that healed him? It wasn’t clear in 12.19 because Cas was healing an internal injury beneath Dean’s jacket. We didn’t see that healing at work, because we were supposed to be asking ourselves whether or not Cas was being controlled by Jack still… but NOW WE HAVE VISUAL PROOF.

Why would Jack go through all this trouble to keep Cas close while keeping the Winchesters away unless they (or Dean, really) were interfering with that control somehow? Like Cas and his doubts in s4? And even in s5?

Like every time Cas has been “programmed” in Heaven one of his primary objectives was to STAY AWAY FROM THE WINCHESTERS? Like in 7.17 when he was Emmanuel. One day with Dean and he remembered EVERYTHING. Like Naomi controlling him in 8.17, where one day with Dean and he broke free of her control, only to be ruled by the angel tablet and immediately feel the need to run away from Dean again.

We even learned that CROWLEY spent most of s6 trying to convince Cas to stay away from Sam and Dean. It was the foundation of his entire plan to crack purgatory for the souls… 

Instead of bringing Kelly back to the bunker in 12.19, KELLY (under the control of the nephilim already) STOLE THE IMPALA and ran away from the Winchesters. And then when Cas fell under Jack’s power he booped them unconscious and fled.


Because all of heaven, earth, hell, and purgatory KNOW that Cas needs to be kept away from Dean if they want to use Cas for their own ends… and that’s exactly what Jack wants. But how can he sever Cas’s connection to the Winchesters?


He doesn’t have a Heaven Boot Camp with the Dentist’s Chair of Horror.

My guess? The Cas we’re going to see in 13.01 is going to be disturbingly familiar to the Cas at the end of 4.20. Instead of serving Heaven, he’s going to be all aboard the Jack bandwagon. Because Jack still needs SOMEONE, but he needs someone whose faith in him is unshakable. And as long as Cas has ties to the Winchesters as anything more than a symbolic reason for following Jack’s plan for bringing “paradise” to the world, a symbol he’d been willing to sacrifice himself for, then Cas’s loyalty was always in jeopardy.

But resurrected as something NEW, bearing Jack as the source of his power instead of Heaven or God or wherever angel Grace is hooked up to as a power source, he may have much greater control over Cas.

At least, that’s how I’ve been thinking of it…

(and I suspect that Cas will be restored to himself by midseason, and Jack will have effectively moved into Big Bad territory by then…)

What Goes Around - Part 2

Pairings: Lucifer x You

Warnings: A little bit of foul language

Tag List: @kawaiidemondesuchan @mysacredstardust @justsavey0urself @runecantfly @catfishwrites @sup–ernova @imincastielsarmy 

Originally posted by fandomnationwhore

Poof! You appeared in the room with a little flutter of wings. The room was dark and you squinted into the inky blackness, trying to see what was there. Your vessel’s eyes would take a few moments to adjust as you had just been in the bright sunlight. All of a sudden, light flared in the room as fire lit up in a circle around you.

Holy oil, you thought, but you pushed it aside for now. The glow of the flames had lit up two humans standing outside the ring with identical looks of shock on their faces and it was them you were interested in.

“Azrael’s a chick,” The shorter one said. “A hot chick.”

The taller one shot the shorter one a look, then glanced apprehensively at you. You crossed your arms over your chest, letting mild annoyance creep into your features, and waited for one of them to speak. You had learned long ago that this would give you the upper hand in a conversation.

“Hi,” The tall one said. “Sorry for the holy oil, but we couldn’t risk you attacking us, or leaving. I’m Sam Winchester and this is my brother Dean.”

He paused, clearly waiting for you to speak, but you stayed silent. Of course you had heard about the Winchester brothers, who hadn’t? But you weren’t going to let him know that. He took a deep breath and plunged ahead.

“We’re hoping you can help us. Our mother is stuck in an alternate reality and we really need to get her back. And that’s just the tip of the iceberg.”

You snorted derisively. “What makes you think I’m going to help you get your little mommy back?” You sneered at him. “What makes you think that you’ll leave this place alive?”

“You’re the one surrounded by holy oil, remember?” Dean said. “You’re the one who will never leave if we don’t want you to.”

You rolled your eyes, but you knew he was right. “Why would you think I could help you?”

“We, uh, we saw your name in a book.” Sam answered. “And since the others are indisposed, we thought we’d talk to you.”


“Other archangels.”

“What do you mean, indisposed?”

“Well, Gabriel and Raphael are dead, Michael’s in the Cage, and Lucifer is in the other place with our mother.”

You tried to conceal your shock. You had known about Gabriel and Raphael, but you hadn’t known what had happened with Michael and Lucifer. After all, you had been kicked out of Heaven a long time ago and found it difficult to keep up on the gossip. News of the archangels’ deaths had traveled fast, but what had happened between the brothers wasn’t well known. You did know the apocalypse hadn’t happened though, so someone had stopped those two imbeciles from ripping each other apart. You took a moment to gather yourself.

“I’ll repeat my question. Why do you think I can help you?”

Sam looked at Dean and took another deep breath. “Right before the Nephilim was born, a rip in the universe appeared. Lucifer and our mother fell through that rip. Because it clearly had something to do with Jack being born, we thought you might know something about it.”

“What Nephilim?” You asked, startled. You were afraid you already knew the answer.

“Lucifer’s.” Dean retorted. “Can you help us or not?”

You didn’t answer right away as Dean had just confirmed your fears. Was Lucifer trying to get himself killed? He knew what the penalty was for creating a hybrid. What the hell was wrong with him?

“Where is this Nephilim now? Did you kill it?”

“That’s not the issue here, lady-” Dean began angrily, but you cut him off.

“It is the issue and it’s a bigger issue than you realize, human.” You snarled. “The spawn of an archangel and a human is stronger than anything else in the universe. It could decide to tear this planet apart and no one would be able to stop it. Now, did you kill it?”

Sam shifted uncomfortably. “No.”

You rubbed your face with your hand, careful not to disturb your makeup. “Maybe you two dolts should start at the beginning. You’re the idiots who let Lucifer out of his Cage, right? Start from there and catch me up.”

So they did. They told you how Michael had possessed their younger half-brother and Lucifer had possessed Sam, but Sam was able to take over his body long enough to fling both him and Michael’s vessel back into the Cage using the Four Horsemen’s Rings. They told you about the Mark of Cain and accidently unleashing God’s sister on an unsuspecting world, and how Sam sought out Lucifer for help. Lucifer had inhabited their angel friend, Castiel, unbeknownst to them, and was cavorting around the planet. He inhabited a couple other vessels, including the President, before Sam and Dean tried to put him back in his Cage. Sometime during that tenure as President, he slept with an aide and created the Nephilim. During the ceremony to put Lucifer back in his Cage, the King of Hell, who was now dead, had secretly trapped Lucifer in Hell and tried to make a slave out of him, but the Devil somehow wiggled out of that one. They all had collided at a lake house, where Castiel had taken the mother of the Nephilim to give birth. A rip in the fabric of the universe had opened, and Sam and Dean had seen the other side. A wasteland where demons ran around. It was what would have happened had the apocalypse occurred. They made it back, but were unable to stop the Nephilim from being born. Sometime in the ensuing chaos, their mother had pushed Lucifer into the rip but had fallen through herself. The rip closed right behind them. They had brought the Nephilim back to their bunker and now here you all were.

You were silent a few moments, trying to reconcile the old Lucifer you had known with what the boys had told you. It was hard. The Lucifer you had known had been warm, funny, and kind. At least, he had been until the First War with Amara. The war had changed him and the Mark he had received afterwards had changed him too. He no longer carried the Mark, but it didn’t seem to make a difference. Absently you wondered if all his years in the Cage had driven him insane. He had been thunderously angry with you when you left him there, but he hadn’t seemed like he was on the brink of madness. Then again, that was just after Michael had put him in there, and had cast you out of Heaven permanently. He had been stuck down there by himself for eons. You felt your stomach twist at the thought of him being alone, but you shoved it aside. You stood by your words that you had said to him the day you saw him in the Cage. No matter how you felt about him, he had more than deserved his punishment. And you had deserved yours.

“What book did you find my name in?” You asked suddenly.

Sam answered immediately: “A Historia de Caelo. Written by Titsanaphalus.”

You chuckled at the name. “Ohhh Gabriel, you sly dog.”

“What does Gabriel have to do with this?” Dean asked.

“Really?” You asked sarcastically. “Tits-ana-phalus? Tits and a phallus? You really couldn’t figure that one out?”

The boys looked at each other and you could almost see the lightbulbs turn on in their brains.

“I just thought it was an old-timey name,” Dean muttered. “Like Aristotle.”

“Well, guess again.”

Sam spoke up: “Why did Gabriel write a book? And how did it end up here?”

“He wrote it because I destroyed all the other tomes that had my name in them.” You answered absently, wrapped up in your thoughts. “At least, that’s what I think happened. He never told me about this.”

“It doesn’t really matter, does it?” Dean said, anger starting to rise in his voice. “Are you going to help us or not?”

You raised your chin and looked down your nose at the human. You had been avoiding your past for eons, but because of Gabriel, these humans had found you and pushed it back in your face. It was most likely the reason he had written the book. You were at a crossroads. Helping the brothers probably meant facing Lucifer again. He had been your closest companion at one time. Part of you was crying out that he could be saved, that you had to find him and bring him home and help him redeem himself, and the other part of you was screaming for you to run in the other direction. You wanted to side with the latter part, but you knew you couldn’t just leave Lucifer in that other dimension/universe/whatever the hell it was. He might have deserved to be locked in the Cage, but he didn’t deserve this.

“I’ll help you.” You said finally. The brothers looked relieved for moment until you continued. “But we’re bringing Lucifer back too.”

“I don’t think so!” Dean snarled at you.

You gazed calmly back at him. “That’s my condition. Take it or leave it.”

“He’s just going to try to cause mayhem.” Sam pleaded. “That’s all he wants. We should leave him where he is.”

“I’m not leaving him there. No matter his faults, he is my brethren and I am bringing him home.”

“This might have been a mistake, Sammy.” Dean said, his eyes never coming off of you. “She might join Lucifer in his destruction.”

You sneered at him. “I would never do that, little human. I have lived for millions upon millions of years on this planet and I could have joined him once you morons let him out the first time. But I didn’t. Plus I’m the only one can handle him. You’re talking to the one being who is stronger than he is.”

“Except for Jack.” Sam said.


“The Nephilim. His name is Jack.”

You hesitated. You weren’t sure how to feel about the Nephilim, but everything in you screamed that it was a perversion.

“True.” You conceded. “Now, do you still want my help?”

They looked at each again, then back at you. Dean nodded. “Yes.”

Sam brought out a few buckets of water and they doused the flames. You all stared at each other for a moment and you realized they were waiting for you to do something, either disappear or attack. You did neither, merely crossed your arms.

“I want to see him.”

“Who?” Sam asked.

“The Nephilim. Jack. Whatever. I want to see Lucifer’s son.”

This is not our fate

Been seeing a lot of speculation that we might have seen the alternate universe’s Castiel at some point in the S12 finale, and that he might even have been the one who got stabbed. I don’t personally think this is exactly what happened (though YMMV of course!) but I started wondering: why would alternate-Castiel have gotten involved, why would he be wearing the shorter trench coat & striped tie, and most of all… what would he be like? I started rewriting the last half of the episode from alt-Cas’s POV. I was thinking originally that this would be a fun way to lighten my grief, but soon became convinced that either way, it’s still a tragedy. Full text here (on AO3), excerpt below.

excerpt from This Is Not Our Fate:

Castiel’s grace felt sufficiently recharged now; he tested his wings, flexing them slightly from their position in next-door etheric plane. They felt fine now, despite that battering from the unexplained power surge and then the flight from Asia, but just the same he began striding up the little hillside on foot. He needed a better view of his surroundings, but found it was almost pleasant to take a moment to walk upon the Earth, so he decided he would walk on foot to the top. Maybe he was still a bit weary from the flight; or, maybe it was just a bit of weariness at heart, from the five-month-long Himalayan battle.

All battles these days dragged on for months. Or years. The Apocalypse had already lasted much longer than he’d originally expected. The toll among the angels was climbing disturbingly high, and the toll on the battered Earth had been absolutely appalling.

But, of course, one must bear in mind that the Earth does not matter, Castiel reminded himself, as he walked up the hill. All this was temporary, in the bigger picture; all this would pass.

And he still had complete faith in the rightness of the fight, he further reminded himself. Complete faith. In the rightness and justice of the actions of Heaven, and in the inevitability of the Heavenly triumph that would soon surely come. My faith remains unshakeable, he told himself.

Though it did seem these days that Castiel was having to remind himself increasingly often of how unshakeable his faith was.

Reaching the top of the ridge he surveyed a small stretch of barren ground on the other side. It looked fairly normal - which is to say, it looked like a desolate wasteland. It had once been a peaceful tract of woods, to judge from the burned-out stumps that were still visible here and there. But the trees had long ago been burned to the ground, during the repeated waves of apocalyptic destruction that had been visited upon North America, and all the Earth, in the last seven years. Castiel took in the depressingly familiar scene: the earth denuded of vegetation; five or six hellspires scattered around (Class B hellspires, medium height, Castiel thought, assessing them automatically); a burned-out and smoking stone foundation of what might have once been a pleasant little house; the usual set of corpses scattered here and there. And a few humans improbably still alive (though doubtless not for long) who were dashing fruitlessly here and there. Darkly menacing clouds overhead boiled with flashes of hellfire as aerial battles unfolded above. Castiel spared a tired glance overhead; from the frequency of red hellfire bolts and crashes of thunder he estimated approximately three coveys of winged demons were in the clouds above, all of them engaged in battle with the local angels of the Great Lakes garrison.

But he noted, with more interest, that he could hear all the battle dispatches perfectly clearly. There was no sign of the etheric interference that had drawn him here.

A few more steps brought some more of the mortals into view: two men crouching behind a boulder, desperately working at a last-ditch attempt at a spell. Another two rolled on the ground nearby embroiled in a violent fist-fight.

Scorched earth, hellspires, corpses, aerial battles overhead, and a few desperate survivors battling for their lives. In other words, everything looked normal.

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Skeleton Key

Request by anon: Oneshot where reader has a secret ability to control hell hounds. One day during a hunt reader, Dean and Sam have to deal with hell hounds. Despite Reader’s effort to keep her ability a secret, she has no choice but to use it in order for Dean and Sam not to get hurt. After the hunt the brothers ask her how she has this power and why she’s been keeping it a secret. Reader then explains herself to them. Whatever happens after that is up to you! Ov<

Word Count: 2776

Warnings: Drug addiction, slight depression

Version en Español: Llave Maestra (Skeleton Key)


“You sure you’re good to drive?” Your mother asked. “It’s pretty late.”

You shrugged. “Yeah. I’m good. I’ve got my caffeine. Besides, Grandma’s waiting for us and you and Dad can’t drive.”

“She’s got a point,” your father slurred, stumbling into his wife. “Let’s go change and hit the road.”

Your mother hesitated until you jerked your head toward the house. “Go on. I don’t think you wanna wear that for a five hour car trip at midnight. Get some sweats.”

Reluctantly, your tipsy mother followed her husband into the house to change out of their black tie clothing. You’d been expecting this. After all, your father’s boss wasn’t known for his alcohol-free company parties.

Sure, you’d only had your license for a few months, but you knew the way to Grandma’s house, and your parents could sleep through the music you would blast to stay awake. You needed to be there by the morning. So when your parents came out of the house in their sweats and t-shirts, you were ready.

Three hours passed uneventfully. Only a handful of cars were on the highways and you were jamming to your favorite music. Everything was going smoothly.

Then there were squealing tires, bright headlights, and a sudden blackout.

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Every Living Thing

36,144 Words

Jeezus. Put down whatever you’re doing and read this. Eerie and flat out amazing, I didn’t even realize it until I stopped reading, but I legitimately felt like I was in the story. Not in the usual way either. I was actually somewhat frightened for my life. It’s not horror, more of a take on biblical plagues. Really, an amazing read I’m not likely to forget.

Askance’s summary

When a pair of hunters on the eastern coast witness the arrival of a very disturbing omen, it isn’t long before the news hurtles across the country, piquing the interest—and fear—of people everywhere. In a matter of days, the new, safe world that Sam, Dean, and Castiel have been inhabiting is flipped upside-down. Something enormous is coming—and this time, it’s something they can’t fight.

Faced with rapidly diminishing prospects, holed up in a tiny, empty Nebraska town, they are forced to confront fears, secrets, and emotions that might have otherwise never seen the light of day. It seems every story must end somehow, and the only thing that remains to be done is to make the most of what little time they have left.

Das Mervin, Mrs. Hyde:

The Writing On The Wall Series

~550,000 Words (ongoing)

Ok, this right here is my all-time favorite. These two are amazing with their work. A lot of Destiel fics are cute, but completely unrealistic in how they get together. This work is as close to canon-compliant as you can get (they started this series a while ago and have actually predicted events that occurred in the TV series). It starts at the end of Season 6 and features human Cas. Basically Bobby, Sam, Dean and Cas living at Bobby’s, but so much more. I’m honestly in love with this series and drop everything the second they update. Dean and Cas’ relationship is beautiful here and true to both their actual personalities. 

Some of their summaries:

-The writing was on the wall—and now Dean just had to try and understand it. A Post-Season Six alternate universe, going a different route from what happened in Season Seven and exploring a long and difficult relationship between Dean and Castiel. Canon-compliant up through the finale of Season Six, with some Season Seven thrown in.

-Cas copes—or rather, doesn’t—with guilt and his new humanity. Bobby and Sam try to help him deal, and Dean is still hiding.

Gabriel, Stand By Me:

Twist and Shout

97,556 Words

Almost everyone in the fandom knows this one, and I will be 100% honest, do not read this unless you WANT to cry. I know, you think I’m exaggerating, I thought that about what other people were saying. Trust me, I’m about as stoic as they come. In fact, before Twist and Shout I had been considering the reality that I had misplaced my tear ducts, but damn did they come back with a vengeance when I read this thing. Chapter 11 left me a sobbing mess and I don’t think I’ll ever be completely the same. I can’t listen to Elvis anymore. That being said, it really is a terrific read, just only do so if you’re ready to: cry, change, frantically slap the skip button whenever Elvis comes on.

Here’s how they describe their heart wrenching terror (I’m not going to lie, I had a tear in my eye just re-reading this damn summary, wtf did they do to me?) :

What begins as a transforming love between Dean Winchester and Castiel Novak in the summer of 1965 quickly derails into something far more tumultuous when Dean is drafted in the Vietnam War. Though the two both voice their relationship is one where saying goodbye is never a real truth, their story becomes fraught with the tragedy of circumstance. In an era where homosexuality is especially vulnerable, Twist and Shout is the story of the love transcending time, returning over and over in its many forms, as faithful as the sea.

Stand By Me:

Stand By Me is one of those authors that a) if they haven’t already been published, they damn well should be. b) you just want to stand near in the hopes that their talents will even barely rub against your consciousness. I don’t have the words to describe what Stand By Me does with words, but I wish I did!

The Angle of Repose

45,035 Words

A fic about mining… mining. Seriously? If you told me I’d fall in love with a mining fic I’d ask you who you were because I definitely don’t know you or vice versa, yet here we are. I’m not surprised I end up loving it though. This author could probably write about peoples’ bowel movements and it’d still be awesome. An eerie story with a beautiful relationship between Dean and Cas. Bonus points to Sam and Jess who just work so perfectly. Not my favorite of Stand By Me’s works, but definitely worth the read.


By the year 1972 the State of Kentucky had produced over 100 million tons of bitumionous coal. When Castiel, the new continuous miner operator at the Venus coal camp’s no. 6 mine, begins to sense something strange is happening underground, the lines between the possible and the impossible begin to blur, and Dean may be the only one who is willing to believe him.


All Things Shining

141, 906 Words

Road Trip with Sam, Dean, and Cas. Hauntingly beautiful prose and a ridiculously refreshing plot, I don’t think I’ve ever read something quite like it, though the bones are the same.


Something in the world is waking up.

It isn’t long before it’s brought to the attention of the Winchesters and Castiel: miracles are spreading across the country, the paranormal seems to be shrinking back on itself—and it all has something to do with the missing prayer book of a traveling preacher who died over a century ago.

Dean is convinced it’s all the lead-up to another Apocalypse; Sam and Castiel aren’t so sure. Regardless, it sends them out on a less-than-typical road-trip, following the Mississippi and remnants of a very old story that seems increasingly to call to them. And along the way the trio learn much more about themselves—and the consequences and origins of love—than they’d ever have anticipated.



300 Things

76,863 Words

I just really loved this story. The writing doesn’t make me want to frame the prose in my living room or anything, but the characters are just so real and the relationships between Sam, Cas, and Dean are heart warming.


Dean’s life at twenty-four makes him feel like he’s forty—he works two jobs to help pay bills for his house and put his genius little brother through private school, and has spent six years (on and off, let’s be honest) working on his mechanical engineering degree at KU. With so much of his life devoted to his family, Dean has little time in his schedule for class and no time for social interaction. Then, while getting his classes together for the fall, he finds himself in a do-or-die situation: He must take his last literature class now, his spring already filled with those left for his major…except that none of the English classes will fit his schedule.

This is how Dean grovels and begs Dr. Castiel Milton to make a special arrangement for him, and Dr. Milton does.

kabby fic rec

i read so many fics the past few months i might actually share some of my squees over the talent we got in our small corner of fandom =D

without further ado, here’s what i did read and immensely enjoyed so far (and it is an expandable list, i still have so much to catch up on!)

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peace-love-languages  asked:

I thought Alex died from more of a, "several tons of rubble dropped on him" perspective, and less explosioney. Also, i think he might be resurrected because I think his body was never shown purposefully.

I had thought that too actually.

The more I think of it, the more Alex’s ‘death’ in XMA resembles the ‘death’ he had in the comics, revealing his secondary mutation and his unique connection to the multiverse. 

For those who don’t know, Alex is something called a Nexus. This is because he has a secondary mutation that quite frankly is fucking fascinating and I’m never not going to be angry that it hasn’t been explored more.

He’s the center point of all Alexes- who I’m just now going to start calling The Alt!lexs- across all existing and possible realities, dead alive, here and now, been and gone. It makes for quite a powerful existence if only he knew what the fuckity fuck to do with it. An ability like this gives Alex access to an infinite amount of information so long as one of his alt forms knows it, which given that there are infinite universes, this is pretty much a guarantee. However, Alex can’t, he didn’t even know he had it until his consciousness did hop scotch. 

Alex has had trouble in the past with one of his Alt!lexs being super fucking evil and learning about the multiverse, going around killing other Alt!lexs to steal their power. He eventually found his way to the Main Alex- think Jackie Chan’s ‘The One’- when Alex was ‘killed’ in an accident. While Alex woke up in another reality, his consciousness having been sent there on instinct, that transfer let evil Alt!lex in. The whole thing is eventually resolved by an interdimensional task force coming to wipe evil Alt!lex out for fucking with realities so badly.

@bettiebloodshed explains it a bit better than me, but basically Alex is a point where all these infinite realities touch: like someones gathered up all these strings and tied them in a knot at one end and Alex is that knot. But only in terms of Alexes, the Alt!lexs.

This secondary mutation, along with I presume Alex’s high capacity for holding power thanks to his primary mutation, has also led to him being able to be the Nexus of All Realities host.

The Nexus of All Realities is like Alex x100000000n. Alex was originally just one tiny fragment of a whole multitude of Nexuses out there, each a Nexus in different forms, but the Nexus of All Realities- or NOAR as it’s been known to be called for short- is the BIG CHEESE so to speak. If NOAR doesn’t want you to exist anymore, you never did.

NOAR is every single existing, theoretical, possible, deceased, living, impossible whatever reality. Every single tiny meeting between any realities and that IS NOAR.

Long story short Alex destroyed NOAR’s vessel at the time, an M’Kraan Crystal, and yay everyone thought that power was gone! EHHKKK! WRONG.

Guess what it did instead? Instead the NOAR thought “damn I like this kid, I’m going to have him as my new vessel”. Except I don’t think NOAR is sentient but shh. After a clusterfuck set of events where Alex gets chased for all his NOAR power by the Beyonder, Dracula (funfact, Alex is the Bella Swan of Marvel, irresistible blood apparently) and the Goblin Queen, Alex eventually fuses himself to NOAR to prevent the power from falling into the wrong hands ever again. He also used the NOAR, with the help of some kit made by the Strange, I think Mr. Fantastic and others of that reality, to erase the Goblin Force from all of reality. Gone. Boom. Haha, bye Felicia. Before using the NOAR to then hop back to his own reality and blah blah blah so on so forth.

It’s safe to assume NOAR is deeply buried within Alex, so deep he can’t even access it himself- because oh hey Alex accounted for the fact he might abuse it too so put that precaution in how cool.
That’s the only reason I can think for Marvel never bringing it up again…

(or that they realised they’d made a seriously OP player and thought… oh shit wtf do we do with someone this powerful, powerful is cool but not when they could solve any and all problems by simply waving a hand and the problem never existed in the first place…)

BUT basically

Given that Singer has introduced xmcu to the idea of alternate realities and has said he wants to take Mutants to space- a domain Alex is commonly seen in- it would make a ton of sense to bring Alex back in some capacity in the xmcu franchise as NOAR. Whether he’ll be recognisable as the Alex we know, or a Dark Phoenix scenario where Alex’s body is just being puppeted by a sentient NOAR, I don’t know. But either way it would be incredible to see.

Yes the Phoenix and Dark Phoenix are cool, but Singer that’s already been done show us something new, there are other celestial/cosmic beings out there who can cause some big waves. 

My comic knowledge is all over the shot and I’m tired as hell right now, so this all probably reads like a load of incomprehensible shite and I apologise for that



GRGRRRGRRRRR ! !!!! ! !!

ALRIGHT. OK. That Paradox Space thing actually DOES sound pretty brilliant but holy fuck I do not have the stamina to keep going after the main comic??? Ah well, it’s far, far off in the future, anyway, we will see


I think it’s really great that we can all celebrate this incredibly special date together, within the same general timeframe, while wide awake and at a totally reasonable hour! I sure am glad none of us missed it or anything, that would’ve been really dumb ha hah a
What’s especially great/weird is that this is already my SECOND Egbertversary during which I’ve been… part of the fandom? Aware of the comic’s existence, at least. I’m sixteen and yet I feel SO OLD.

I’m also probably the only person alive who is coming up on their second year of mspaintadventuring and is still stuck in the first third of the story so LET’S GOOOOOOOOOOOOhmygod

Tavros: Rap with TC.


Jesus, somebody please get Gamzee a table or a cardboard box or something, what the hell is he doin
Where did all those horns even come from
Do juggalos just naturally secrete these things
are they like the opposite of pumpkins
Imagine if Karkat was visiting him and needed to use his laptop to message someone and just
Inevitably started smashing the keys
his apparent anger undermined by the chorus of honks accompanying every keystroke

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Fandom/Pairing(s): Elsword; hints of MMLP + DEMM
Rating: K+
Word Count: 2,455

Summary:  Mastermind tries out Lunatic Psyker’s clothes when he noticed that his jacket has gone missing.  What is Diabolic Esper doing with his clothes?  Inspired by this and this by dez!  Crack fic.   

Psyker’s clothes were the first thing Mastermind saw when he opened the dryer.  Of course, he thought in amusement.  Psyker always had more clothes in the dryer because of how often he changed.  He got his hands dirty more often than Mastermind did because of how different their fighting styles were.  The only person who bled more than Psyker was probably Esper, but…

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As disappointing as it is to keep having to deal with all this uncertainty and separation angst, I also can’t help but be hopeful about the way TWD writers seem to have chosen to portray the power of subtleties within the Carol and Daryl connection.
They haven’t shared direct screen time in Season 6 AND yet the narrative has given plenty of evidence to show that the bond they share is still very much a key player in their personal journey. The build-up of their two journeys has become both fraught with anticipation and the promise of something finally becoming different, once they finally come together again.

The references to CARYL have been mostly reserved to Daryl’s arc and seeing how the focal point of his story in this half, has been his eagerness to get back home, the call-backs to his emotional connection with Carol encountered along the way, will likely be significant when he gets to Alexandria.
He’s been literally fighting to get back there since the very start of the season and his desperation hasn’t been easy to ignore.

Tonight’s episode seems to indicate that Carol too, will be dealing with some CARYL factors in her own arc.

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My Thoughts on the Half-Season Order for ‘Person of Interest’

So, it’s been confirmed that ‘Person of Interest’ will have a 13 episode season next year, possibly its last at CBS.  People are understandably upset, but I think that this may be a real opportunity in disguise for the writers.  Some great writing and showrunning can come from working within limitations, and I think that with a little effort, this team can rise to the challenge.  However, there is a decent amount of rethinking that needs to happen for this to succeed.  They need to make this thing tight.  Make it count.  

Season 4 lacked the coherency of the earlier seasons, lacked the intimacy and the wonderfully simply character dynamics.  By attempting to inject ‘interpersonal drama’ into the show, I think the writers did it a disservice.  Facing down an AI apocalypse was more than enough, you didn’t need every character suddenly failing to be the incredible superheroes we’d seen them be before.  They had challenges to equal their talents, so why were all their talents hobbled?

So, a few suggestions to make season 5 kick all the ass season 4 didn’t:

1. Both showrunners need to be 100% involved.  Nolan ran off during season 4 to work on other projects, and it showed.  Greg Plageman cannot hold everything together on his own.  He has to cut corners and trust others to do things without supervision, and it made a lot of the episodes by the non-senior writing staff feel very flabby and sometimes out of character.  So Nolan needs to be on-board.  None of this half-assed shit.  This is your baby, Nolan, and it may be on its last legs.  Are you going to piss off and leave it floundering, or are you going to step up for those 13 episodes and make them count?

2. Do away with the fake identities.  The writers were already talking about doing more with John Riley and all the alternative identities plotlines.  NO.  We don’t have time for John to have a girlfriend or Root to get odd jobs or Harold to grade papers, all cut off from one another.  Instead of dicking around with that bullshit, start them on the run, having to literally live and exist underground.  Have their surface appearances dictated by the shadow map, and anything anywhere else by ski masks.  Show us why superheroes have to cover their faces, particularly in this world.  Starting the team in the subway and keeping them there during their off-time is a great way to get a lot of good character interaction and downtime in without taking away from the main thrust of the plot.  Do what you did in early seasons, and get the character moments in while they talk about exposition.

3. Have Fusco be their go-between with the real world, and for him to be under suspicion.  Fusco had no storyline in season 4, and it was painful to see such a great character have nothing to do for an entire season.  With John out of the police, and Fusco the only one of them with a legitimate identity, seeing him navigating an increasingly Orwellian world would be a very interesting way to reincorporate him into the story.  Particularly if Samaritan operatives within the NYPD itself suspected him, we could get him involved in the AI plot without any rejiggering of his position in the team.

4. Bring in old Numbers.  One of the biggest successes of the end of season 4 was bringing back Caleb Phipps to help.  Think that, but larger.  If this is to be the last season (which it might be), make it worthy.  Call back to all the people John and Harold helped, and how those Irrelevant individuals can change the world by helping the team in a thousand small ways.  If we don’t get Number of the Week stories, instead remind us of why all lives matter, and no one is truly irrelevant.  

5. Have a plan and stick to it.  No dawdling or side-paths.  At the beginning of the season, Harold should have a plan to bring the Machine back and take out Samaritan.  We shouldn’t necessarily know how it’s going to play out, but the characters need to ALL be in on it.  Each of them needs to bring different skills and contacts to this plan, and over the course of the 13 episodes, we need to see it unfold to perfection.  We are reminded that Harold is a genius, Root is a consummate infiltrator, John is a superhero, and Lionel saves the day when all hope is lost.  Give us a major win in season 5.  We’ve spent two seasons doing nothing but losing, and that wears on an audience.  A lot of viewers lose interest if every character they used to get vicarious superhero fantasies through is a shadow of their former selves.  So give us those heroes and make them amazing.

Remember, there are a lot of incredible shows that routinely only get 12-13 episode runs a season.  ‘Agent Carter’ had that order, and it was possibly the best show of last season.  The major British shows only get around 13 episodes per season, and many others have a 4-episode season, yet the good ones can take that limited time and make it incredible.  

You can do a lot with only 13 hours, but you have to use every second.  You have to know what matters, and what can be cut.  You have to focus.  Often, the best writing comes from limitations.  ‘Person of Interest’ has been given a limitation, now it’s time to see them rise to that challenge.