but i feel like i never really get to use them

@my vertically challenged trans brothers and nonbinary pals, I’ve got some nifty gear to show you.

How could I forget, I got these handy dandy mothersuckers in the mail last week and wanted to make a little post about them.

They’re inserts for your shoes solely for the purpose of making you taller! Listen, I’m like.. 5'3" maybe 5'4" if I really stand up straight and slouch 0%. Not a tall guy in the slighest, pretty small actually. It never use to bother me very much, but in the last few months to a year, with realizing I’m Not A Girl and becoming more hyper aware of how people view me, it’s become something of an issue. I’m 23, puberty was over a long time ago and even if I ever decide to go on T, I’m not getting any bigger.

A few months ago I came across a post on tumblr about height inserts and boy has it been on my mind ever since. So I did a little research. I got this pair through Sears’ online store, because apparently height inserts can’t be found in person in any store? I checked. If you know of any, feel free to add them to this post- I know not everyone can order things online. There were a few different brands and types, these were from a company called CE Compass Inc. The height is adjustable - it came with 3 different pieces for each foot, so I can basically be 1, 2, or 3 inches taller, depending on how many I put in. It’s probably not that exact, but pretty close. If you put in two levels, you really should be wearing high top shoes or boots or else your foot will be falling out. Anything more than 2 levels hasn’t worked out for me very well. But I can still get up to a solid 5'6".

I was nervous about getting them because the reviews were totally mixed. Some people said they were great, some said they were terribly uncomfortable, didn’t even work, didn’t fit in their shoes etc etc. But it cost me $7 bucks, so the risk wasn’t huge. They are SO COMFY. I was expecting to feel like I was walking on rocks, but they’re surprisingly squishy? Not quite like walking on clouds, but bearable. I walk fairly often, holding kids, pushing strollers. Sometimes I walk 1-2 miles straight. And I’ve had barely any issue so far. The more height you add, the more it’ll strain your feet and legs. I was able to go for a lengthy walk with 2 inserts added without getting uncomfortable until the end. I’d say if you think you’ll be walking a considerable amount, use less height to stay on the safe side. Or just take the extra inserts out if you get tired, since they can just slip right out.

The most important part, I actually ALMOST have some confidence for once 😮. I mean, I still haven’t had top surgery yet, and that’s going to be a complete game changer in the confidence region, but listen. Feeling taller feels so nice???? My girlfriend and I are the same height normally, being an inch or two taller than her is cute, walking by grown ass men in public and thinking “holy shit I’m taller than him” feels good, standing next to cis men I know personally and looking at them eye to eye, feels good. The top of my head actually meets the top of my fridge now. Even if there’s no one else around, I FEEL bigger. And especially on days when I’m feeling pretty down on myself and don’t think I’m “passing” well, the boost is such a relief.

So, if your height is an issue for you and you feel totally defeated that you aren’t going to grow anymore, I highly suggest something like this. It may not seem like much, I have to admit “1-2 added inches” didn’t sound very impressive to me at first. But the difference IS noticeable, to me at least. Hope this can help someone else out too!
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“Look, I didn’t want to be a half-blood.”

I haven’t read a series in quite a long time where I had such a clear, distinct vision of what each and every character looked like. After finishing through PJO earlier this year, I slowly started sketching out everyone I could and editing along the way in order to get them to look as closely as possible to what was in my head. I wasn’t able to cover every single character that’s mentioned, but I’m still really proud of this set! I can’t wait to use it as a reference for more PJO art going forward.

Is this Relationship Working for You?

Not every friendship is helpful and worthwhile … and sometime we need to ask ourselves the following:

1. What am I getting from the relationship? Is this person there for me when I need them most? Do they build me up, and bring out the best in me?

2. Is this friendship draining, or is it mainly negative? Do I feel I’m just being used? Are things always about them?

3. Can I be genuine and real – and just myself - with this person? Or are they likely to react if I share my honest thoughts?

4. Do they care about my feelings, my views and my opinions? Or do they treat me like an object, whose feelings never count?

5. Am I putting with things because it’s started to feel normal? Am I scared that no-one else would really want to be my friend?

the more angry and organised a violent protest is, the more certain the media and politicians are that they must be ‘outside agitators’ - and I feel like the roots of this are not so much in fear of these spectral ‘outsiders’ as the firm belief that “ordinary” people don’t ever get angry and organise themselves - it’s unsupportable historically, but i really think they believe that it must be outsiders because it can’t be ordinary everyday folks - because to be ordinary, to them, is to be docile and malleable, capable of being whipped up by agitators, sure - but incapable of coming up with it yourself. You can feel it in the patronising way they talk to us.

I’m not saying that there has never been an instance of people coming from outside to cause trouble at a protest - but I am saying that when that’s the immediate, instinctual explanation that people arrive at in the absence of any evidence, it’s about discounting, diminishing and dismissing the agency of ‘ordinary’ people. It’s saying that whatever you’re experiencing, nomatter how bad it is, it could never make you angry enough to get organised and start hitting back. They can keep thinking that - we know it’s bullshit.

Can I talk about one line I especially appreciate in Undertale?

On it’s own, this line is a huge wham line of feelings on its own. It’s one of the pinnacles of the Pacifist run. It’s a single sentence basically summing up the morals used through said run, and it’s pretty heavy. But it also has a personal meaning to me, and I’d like to talk about the way the lowercase ‘love’ is used. 

Throughout the game of Undertale there is no direct romance involving Frisk. (They’re a child, first of all, and that’s just not the focus of the game in general), yet, this term is used.

‘Love’. In media you never really hear that outside of sexual and/or romantic relationships. You only hear the term ‘love’ when kisses or romantic partners are being described. And as an Aromantic it’s almost alienating to me. You can’t ‘love’ your friends in media. You’re ‘best friends’. Or you ‘Care about each other’. And in familial relationships only young children tend to say they ‘love’ each other. It’s never used like that. It’s as if media treats those two types of love as somehow less real. 

But they’re not. They’re just as, if not more, important as romantic ‘love’. And frankly I love that this one line throws that idea down the drain. 

Because this is love

This is love

This is love

This is love

This is love

This is love

And this is love

And Undertale isn’t afraid to admit that.

PANIC! AT THE DISCO {Sentence Starters}

  • “Feels like my heart is going to burst.”
  • “Heroes always get remembered, but you know legends never die.”  
  • “If you love me, let me go!”  
  • “Well, I never really thought that you’d come tonight.”
  • “Will you come with me or just leave?”
  • “Sometimes you’re better off alone.”
  • “If it feels good, tastes good, it must be mine.”
  • “You’re guaranteed to run this town.”
  • “I’m wrecking this evening, already, and loving every minute of it.”  
  • “But if you change your mind, you know where I am.”
  • “Show them all you’re not the ordinary type.”
  • “But they haven’t seen the best of us yet.”
  • “Don’t threaten me with a good time.”
  • “"Haven’t you people ever heard of closing the goddamn door?!”
  • “Don’t try to sleep through the end of the world.”
  • “I don’t wanna save your reputation.”
  • ‘There’s nothing wrong with just a taste of what you’ve paid for.”
  • “And truth be told, I never was yours.”
  • “And being blue is better than being over it.”
  • “And isn’t this exactly where you’d like me.”
  • “Fifty words for murder and I’m every one of them.”
  • “Then the time for being sad is over.”
  • “These nightmares always hang on past the dream.”
  • “If I ever leave, I could learn to miss you.”
  • “Don’t think I’ve ever used a day of my education.”
  • “I love the things you hate about yourself.”

Honestly, I’m 100% not surprised that people are complaining about Maggie’s “You get one, Alex.” line being toxic/abusive tc, lol. Because I feel like people these days are not used to seeing a romance where both characters are their own people, with their own personalities, foibles, shortcomings and self-interests.

I feel like, especially in recent years, media has really shaped romance into this one-sided deal, where you get one relatable and fallible character with a proper backstory (the main character) and then you get the love interest, whose only purposes are to look good, and love the main character unconditionally. They’re a paper thin cutout character, a wish fulfillment of the fantasy that there’s a person out there who’ll love you no matter how terrible or unlovable you get. They might have a tragic backstory to make them more attractive, but it will never inform their decisions or character in any meaningful way. In essence, they are a blank slate that you can slot your dream lover into.

I’ve seen this trope play over and over again in TV shows, YA novels, etc. (I won’t name the popular ships that fall into this trap, because I’m not here to bash ships, just to write out my thoughts on this phenomenon.)

In contrast, Maggie is her own character, underdeveloped as she is in the narrative. There are nuances to her, the most striking one being how emotionally guarded she is. When she lets her guard down for Alex, and then Alex hurts her by dumping her publicly, on the very night after the first time after they had sex, of course Maggie is going to react badly to it. Of course she is going to set appropriate boundaries to ensure that she doesn’t get hurt like that again. It’s called self-preservation. It’s called knowing what a healthy relationship is, and proactively taking steps to ensure the preservation of that healthy relationship.

Except people aren’t used to the love interests having a self-preservation instinct. They’re used to seeing the love interest being willing to throw away everything in order to please the main character. They’re not used to the love interest having an actual personality, or interests of their own, or a life outside of the main character. All they know is that Alex is the main character they love, and identify with, and now Maggie has hurt her. They don’t understand or care - because they’re too overidentified and overinvested in Alex - that Alex hurt Maggie too. So they get mad at Maggie.

Personally, I like that Maggie has a spine. I like that she has a character, and a very relatable emotionally guarded one at that. I like that she stood up for herself. I like that she took steps to ensure that her relationship with Alex would be healthy. Loving someone doesn’t always mean forgiving and forgetting their hurtful actions. Sometimes, loving someone is holding them up to a higher standard, and letting them know that you expect better of them, because you know they are a better person than their previous actions have shown. By setting boundaries, Maggie showed me more clearly that she cares about Alex, than if she had unconditionally forgiven her right on the spot.

i will never, ever, tire of

-Dean being a stubborn cutie pie

-Cas being so over his shit

-Sam being so over both of their shit

-Team Free Will having issues with each other but working through them rather than sneaking off from one another

-Dean affirming Cas

-DEAN AFFIRMING CAS

-Dean wanting to march off to his death just to make sure Cas is okay even though he’s still really pissed at him

-Direct parallels between romantic couples and Dean and Cas

-Dean touching Cas a little more than he needs to

-Dean admitting to having feelings

-Needy ass feelings

-Needy ass feelings re: his angel

-Dean calling Cas constantly

-Did I mention I really like it when Cas gets affirmed?

-Once more, for good measure, Cas getting affirmed


Honestly, that episode was just … everything. Like I know us Destiel shippers talk about subtext all the time but I honestly don’t understand how one can view an episode like “Lily Sunder Has Some Regrets” and not see that Cas and Dean’s relationship is something … special.

The main plotline re: Lily Sunders (Alicia Witt was fantastic) is absolutely great, both on its own and as a parallel to Dean and Cas.

But the whole episode was just consumed with Cas and Dean’s relationship and their feelings towards one another.

And then there’s Sam like a giant neon sign of caring about them both but in a fundamentally different way - that despite all the talk of Cas’s friendship with “Sam and Dean,” the relationships are wholly separate entities.

But honestly, yeah, the feelings Dean and Cas have towards one another are complicated and messy and beautiful and this episode is a perfect embodiment of why I ship it.

Drum corps gothic

The caption head keeps saying “one more time”. You’ve lost track of how many times he’s said it. The sun is rising.

The bus pulls into the housing site. The drum majors get off to go find the sleeping areas. They do not return.

This gym seems familiar. They all seem familiar. You can’t tell them apart anymore.

You enter the field. It is silent. There is a crowd, but no noise. There is no announcement. The drum major counts off.

Your tech tells you to go touch the fence. You keep running. You never find the fence.

The water doesn’t taste right. It is dark and tastes gamey. You think you see something move in your jug.

The vets say that you won’t hurt after three weeks. They were right. You can’t feel anything in general now.

Staff says you should get five hours of floor time, but as soon as you close your eyes, the gym lights come on.

The gym lights are motion sensored. They come on and you sit up. No one is moving.

Things disappear in the bays. Then under your seat. You worry that what’s sitting in the seat is next.

You feel your seat partner lean against you in the night. You look over and they are asleep in the aisle. You close your eyes and don’t open them until you arrive at the housing site.

The showers are dimly lit. You all stick to one side because you swear something is on the corner.

You have pasta for dinner, but it tastes like pb&j. Your cereal in the mornings tastes like pb&j. Your water tastes like pb&j. Everything tastes like pb&j.

“What state are we in?” No one can answer. No one knows. Staff won’t tell anyone.

A cloud is almost covering the sun. It does not move for the entire block.

A field judge is in front of you. He follows you for the whole show. He has a tape recorder, but doesn’t say anything into it.

You get home. No one recognizes you. You can no longer sleep on your bed. You still hear the distant clicking of a metronome everywhere you go.

OK I’m drunk but please permit me to ramble about Jumin x an Asexual MC for a little.

I was thinking about it more and his reaction to a MC coming out as Asexual and, further, feeling broken because of their lack of sex drive would provoke a very visceral reaction in him. He understands- because he doesn’t get it either. Romance, love, he associates these things with his father’s failed relationships and how, SINCE HE WAS A CHILD, he was sexualized by the women his father brought home. How they never really treated him like a child, and instead saw him as a thing to use.

A thing to claim.

Jumin doesn’t think about his problems, it’s how he deals with them, but when he does - when he’s forced to, by viewing Rika and V - don’t you think he’d feel a little bit broken? I’m sure he was jealous, and not in this hateful way… but in a way that wondered, “why can’t I find something like that?”

“Am I just so different that I can’t have something like that?”

“I’m I broken?”

And hearing an Asexual MC have those concerns - am I broken, am I somehow unlovable, why can’t I exist as something that has worth beyond a sexual use - I feel like he’d really connect with them in a way that borders on desperate. Because, by assuring the MC that they’re not broken… he is, in a way, assuring himself that he’s not broken too. That he has worth as more than a sexual object.

And he can’t stand the thought of the MC feeling that awful tightness that he feels in his own chest.

sorry I have a lot of emotions about jumin right now god I really love him. I just. I know what it’s like buddy. I should write him more.

(I’ve never written anything that wasn’t nurseydex, so here’s “why didn’t you tell me” + whiskey/tango for @a-wooden-ring I hope you like how I wrote them!)

Antonio Jimenez loves the Haus. Initially, he feels a little uncomfortable being there because he doesn’t technically live there, but Bitty’s constant flood of assurances that it’s fine for him to hang around the Haus ultimately helps him view it as more of a home than his own dorm. He gets a new nickname–one that he likes a hell of a lot more than “Nezzy”–and more pie than he’s ever seen in his life and, above all, he gets a new family.


That’s what he really loves about the Haus.


It’s loud and frenzied and smells like home: some intricate combination of fruit and sugar, of sweat and mold, of the fresh scented candles Ransom always lights. What reminds him of home, though, mostly, is how it’s always teeming with people: even if it’s just someone coming in for a slice of pie, the constant ebb and flow of people helps him stay calm, keeps him from getting too homesick.


The only person who doesn’t really come around the Haus is Whiskey. Tango doesn’t mind, really, because they still hang out all the time, usually one on one, but sometimes–and Tango would take this to the grave–at the LAX house. The LAX house, by contrast, is seven guys who are, more often than not, absent during the day: at any given moment, there are probably one or two guys there. The lacrosse team doesn’t come in and out like the hockey team does with the Haus and it’s not nearly as homey.


“Why do you prefer being at the LAX house than the Haus?” Tango asks one day. Whiskey looks up from where he’s sitting across from Tango at the picnic table, hair disheveled and eyes heavy. His notes are strewn across the table, books open and a variety of highlighter colours Tango didn’t even knew existed until today. Whiskey sighs and Tango is immediately hit with the thought that maybe right now wasn’t the right time to ask that question.

Keep reading

  • What she says: I'm fine
  • What she means: I can't get over how underutilized the Counselor was in season 13. They set things up with his knowing things about the remaining Freelancers that Felix and Locus could use against them, and then those things are never touched on again. How in control was he, really? How could his history with Carolina and Wash have been used to manipulate them if the Counselor had been asked to use it that way? How much of what he did all along the line based on his own selfish ends? Are they really leaving all this untapped potential behind by killing him off? I feel like they set up a bunch of potential for him and I'm afraid they never plan to give it a payoff.

I find it ridicculous that Chrom gets so much hate. I mean, I’ve never seen ANY other FE protag or side protag getting such a direct hate (excluding my own dislike for Camilla, Jakob or Severa).

I’m not forcing Chrom on anyone, right? I don’t really see IS forcing Chrom on us (Warriors is first, rly). I guess many people hate him because he’s popular but I really stand for my reasons to like him. Unlike other FE protagonists I’ve met so far, Chrom has flaws and he’s far from perfect. He makes mistakes and lots of them, he feels bad for it but still tries his best. Just yesterday when I was wondering why I like him so much, I realized that not only I like his personality (and look), but I actually relate to his life struggles. He’s awkward and too trusting, quick tempered with no sense for diplomacy.  He’s an ordinary guy trying to fit in a greater role because his destiny said so.

Seeing him getting so much hate just makes me want to throw twice as much Chrom pictures and posts in the face of his haters. I will tolerate you either if you stop being so hateful or if other FE characters, way more hyped (Lucina) and less complex (Camilla, Corrin, Jakob, Elisse) start to get the same “treatment”.

Chrom maybe doesn’t deserve your love but he certainly doesn’t deserve your stupid hate.

Creepypasta #1003: You're Not Really Alone

Each evening I sit on the roof facing into her bedroom window and watch.

Sometimes she brings someone home, and I don’t get jealous, I really don’t, I just feel sad. I’ve told myself I should just go, ring the doorbell, talk to her like a normal person. But I can’t. 

So instead, I spend my time trying to figure out what makes her tick, what excites her, or calms her down. I used to get a thrill out of it, but she’d go to sleep a hundred times, never once seeing me there outside her window. I realized that I wasn’t about to get caught. But I was still hooked on watching.

Then the same man kept showing up, at first every few nights, then every night. Then not at all.

I kept watching, waiting for him to come back into her room. I hadn’t seen them fight, but she hadn’t always come home either.

So I kept watching, waiting to see him again. When I did, he was walking towards me on the roof, looking directly at me.

So I looked back at him, and said, “She killed you too, huh?”

Credits to: 3sums

Some More Thoughts on Solo Adventures

As I mentioned, I’m going to be starting a solo campaign using B/X D&D for one of my friends, and I’ve been doing a lot of thinking about how to run that sort of thing. Here are just a few of my thoughts:

  • I started replaying Legend of Zelda: A Link to the Past a few weeks back and realized that it’s got the perfect structure for a solo campaign: you’ve got an overworld that the player is essentially free to explore from the get-go (I mean, after the short prologue), multiple dungeons, yet some gating in terms of “you need a thing before you can go here.” Also, the dungeons are really sweet, with lots of branching paths and some backtracking required, but never so big that exploring them feels like a chore.
  • Related to the above, while some of the equipment you find in A Link to the Past is simply upgrades to your starting equipment (including better armor, swords and shields) most items give you entirely new abilities, which is cool. In running a solo game you should really forget about the usual +1 swords and armors (not entirely, but they should not make up the majority of loot) and instead focus on loot that unlocks new ways to interact with and explore the world. A +1 sword only helps your player kill things slightly better, a ring of water breathing opens entirely new places for the character to explore.
  • Consumable items are fun, because they give your player choices between using them for their obvious use or using them to solve problems. For an example: in B/X D&D a potion of giant strength not only doubles your melee damage, it also allows you to lift small boulders and throw them. While a character could simply quaff the potion to double their damage output and kill dudes better, they could also use it to unlock a secret path if they notice that there’s a conveniently sized boulder blocking a secret passage.
"They don’t need us anymore"
  • -"I feel like its the fans that they were talking about here. You know because we've been through it all with them and now we're all growing up and moving on"
  • It's true. I never really understood why some fans did the most peculiar things over made up people and shows but i now know. I saw the first episode of teen wolf when i was in grade 8 i think it was and the first episode didn't really get me but i decided to continue to watch it and i soon feel in love with it. I font know what it is, weather it was the plot or the fact i love werewolves and supernatural stuff or it was because the people who played a part in it slayed their character. Or it could have been the fact that these people made it work.
  • I had a shit highschool life and i remember getting picked on and not wanting to get up in the mornings but i always wanted to when teen wolf was on that night.
  • I remember always wanting to do nothing i jsut didn't want to be here some day's but watching shows like teen wolf really did make me happy.
  • I know know why tv shows and made up charecters really mean so much to some people.
  • Because we connect with them. They play roles that we never realized we needed.
  • They say the words that we never thought we'd here or ever thing of saying.
  • They bring the meaning to life for some.
  • And they give us hope.
  • They teach us anticipation.
  • How to laugh.
  • How to love.
  • How to cry.
  • How to get over a hearbreak or friendship.
  • How to get along with people.
  • They teach us how to live.
  • They give us life.
  • Im so proud of the cast of teen wolf and the director and creator's of the show.
  • And i thank them so much because weather they know it or not they made a big impact on my life.
  • And i appreciate them for all they have done and am extremely proud.
  • The same goes for the vampire diaries, chicago P.D, chicago med, chicago fire.

Im grinding my teeth again. How horrible.

My inferiority complex strikes.

We used to work together, the six of us. Out of all, I was the second oldest. However, I was the only loser that almost did not achieve any shit in real life like they all did. I never feel inferior to others, up until the point of the last september, when I was used and kicked out by a Japanese company. They kept my best friend, as you might have known. And now we are not close anymore, though she really wants it and I, at some point want it too. But she’s just like the other four in the group, success and all, I feel so reluctant.

One girl said she will get marry this December, they said we should hold a bachelor party for her. Then again, the old friend inferiority complex sneaks in, and I suddenly feel like vomiting at the idea of meeting them. They are all so success, they earn a lot, they are working hard, they strike better. I used to be the brightest, the high and mighty saleperson when we first met, but now look at me. Im so pathetic. I was used. Being taken advantage of like a fool. Worst part is, it was me who allow all that to happen, it was me to let that company used me, it was me to choose to waste my time. It was me all along, I have no face to meet them.

They are younger than me, and they are so together. I feel like shit. They are all good people, great friends, but I cant bring myself to meet them. Not like this. Not now. I dont want to look at them.I dont even want to talk to them in facebook, and because I dont want them to know and being hurt by what I feel, I post all this here.

Im so proud. And foolish.

So. I’m listening to Bliss as I blog these gifsets of them today and… HAVE YOU GUYS HEARD THIS SONG????  JFC EVEN ISN’T HIDING HIS FEELINGS ONE BIT. LOOK AT THE CHORUS:

Pure bliss, Like you’ve got the key to my heart, Simple as a touch and a kiss, Never knew a feeling like this, Pure bliss, pure bliss, Nobody can tear us apart, Baby it’s as good as it gets, (Kiss kiss kiss kiss), Loving you will never be hard, This is pure bliss

He can’t lose him. It would shatter him. 

anonymous asked:

wow i gotta say the amount of private info about their sex life that went public and more importantly the kind of info (like when and where their first time was, that was so private, so special!) makes me a little uncomfortable on their behalf but im prob just overreacting, are they really ok with it and used to it? yuuri especially? as a fan of your victuuri, their relationship and your fic im happy their sex life is so great ofcourse! i just feel bad they had so much divulged inadvertently lol

They are used to being celebrities and therefore they know they are never going to be able to be completely private. But neither of them care that much about the info that gets released in the TMI post because none of it is hugely personal. The most people can get from it is that they have very active, creative and satisfying sex lives which Yuuri actually kind of secretly likes people knowing because of the whole ‘I’m the only one who can satisfy Viktor’ thing he has going on in canon. All the things that really matter to him, the pet names Viktor calls him, what they say in their wedding vows, the things they say to each other when they’re lying in bed together and completely content with the world, that’s all private and just between them and that’s the bit he really cares about. 

As for the first time reveal, Yuuri is kind of mortified for a little while but in the end it doesn’t matter too much to him because no-one knows it was his first time ever, that’s still special between him and Viktor, and eventually he writes a book anyway to make sure people know the real truth and not just the speculation from the media so they would have found out in the end regardless. 

Pentatonix is Amazing

Okay so yesterday, November 10th, I went to my first ever PTX concert. And I just really want to write this while everything is still fresh in my head, because it was honestly a life changing experience. 

When the lights came up on them for the first time my breath literally caught in my throat and my heart skipped.

THEY’RE ACTUALLY REAL

I mean, obviously they’re real, but it was still so surreal. Seeing all of them standing there on the stage in front of me, even though I was about a mile away, was such an insane feeling.

Now about each member…

Kirstie is so tiny. She’s like a little fairy on stage, and she gets so into it! She kills all the choreo and slays all the vocals. I’ve never been a huge KirSTAN, but the amount of dedication she puts into what I’m assuming is every performance is beyond inspiring.

Kevin is definitely a fan favorite. I always used to think he was the neglected member, and social-media-wise he kind of is, but the amount of people screaming for him was insane. AND THE FREAKING BACH PRELUDE, total highlight. The amount of talent that one man has is ridiculous.

Scott’s riffs are heavenly. They are so effortless and wonderful and are somehow even more incredible live. You can also tell that he’s absolutely living on stage. Every once and a while, usually while someone else is talking, I saw him standing in the back just staring out at all of us with the most amazed expression. I love him.

Mitch is my queen. Mitch is everyone’s queen. Mitch is queen. I don’t even have to talk about his voice, because I’m sure ya’ll already know how absolutely completely flawless it is. But it’s not just his voice that makes him so amazing. He was acting on stage, for every song. I was living for his little side comments and sassy expressions. Love love love him.

And finally Avi. If you hate rants you might as well skip this paragraph lol, because I’m about to go off. Avi has always been my favorite human being ever, so seeing him live was probably the best thing that’s ever happened to me. First of all, his voice is stupid amazing. You can feel his bass notes inside your chest, all around you. He made the entire room shake during Christus Factus Est, and I’m not exaggerating. The seats underneath all of us were vibrating like crazy, and the middle-aged guy next to me audibly screamed, “What the shit!?” His higher register is like silk. I was sobbing not only during Light in the Hallway, but Hallelujah as well, because of him and the beauty that is his voice. He is also the most humble and genuine person ever. When he spoke to the all of us, he just seemed so overwhelmed with gratitude. It was touching. And finally, he’s adorable. His straight-faced humor is hilarious. One of my favorite moments was when Kate came to get the phone from him after Misbehavin, and he bowed to her. Except I don’t just mean bowed, I mean he did this cute little jumpy step and then basically got on one knee while he handed it over. I was so mad I didn’t get it on video, because it was so adorable. I love Avi Kaplan so freaking much.

Anyway, that was my PTXperience. I know not that many people are going to see this post, but in a few years I want to be able to look back and remember that night. Love you all!! xx