but i didnt know it what to do

help a young lesbian out

ok. fuck. long story short, I was at the fair and I had my phone up until me and zac went on the bumper cars. I’m guessing someone pickpocketed me or I dropped it in the car and someone picked it up. we called the phone and a woman picked up and said her son picked it up and brought it home cause he didnt know what to do with it which I don’t buy. She said she’d text us an address to zacs phone in Hempstead to get it back but we had to get it by 4:30 which is a total scam. we still haven’t received an address and my mom suspended the phoneservice. its been factory reset and wiped clean but I’m without a phone and that’s VITAL to what I do. anyways.

my phone isn’t paid off and we have no money to pay it off. I don’t have a job. its $400 just about for the rest of the payments, and now I need a new phone which will be ANOTHER $400 or so. I really, really hate asking this cause I know I’m not the worst off and I have an okay life, but I really need help, cause we literally have no money extra to spend on things like this (all of it is going towards our house. we quite literally don’t have a kitchen). my paypal is raebuhse@gmail.com. again, I really hate asking this of yall but I really need help right now. I’m scared and I don’t know how to handle this.



iamindeedapotato  we watched…

what happened omg??

i dont KNOW?

My Confused Recollection Of The DNH Finale:

- ruben was Never Seen Or Heard From Again and jasons surprisingly likeable assistant josh figured that jason was on the plane and was Horrorstruck. josh also deserved better. jason appears to be amassing a collection of tiny and inexplicably loyal men. he does not deserve either of them.

- jason’s Dead Eyed Child was in some kind of peril but who could possibly care what, while jason aggressively denied responsibility for anything ever, and then Dead Eyed Child’s Mama was like ‘nope fuck this olivia out pls do not speak to us any more’ which is reasonable

- jason was going to have brain surgery and either he tricked people or Suspicious Doctor Santa with his jolly red scrubs tricked people into thinking jason had a tumour to justify it, by showing them a scan of bob marleys brain

- we discover that Dead Eyed Children with bad acting skills run in the family because jason himself was a Dead Eyed Child with bad acting skills, and so was…HIS TWIN BROTHER IAN


- flashback: endless shots of an unnervingly fever dream esque birthday party. jason’s mom was a dick and ian was an worrying violent child. jason was a whiny little shit as a kid, as you might expect. jason’s mom calls in Suspicious Doctor Santa (the younger version) to do an operation to…make ian less of a dick? i guess? they do a surgery for that now??

- a bunch of tedious shit that i immediately forgot

- jason is anesthetised for his surgery and has an imaginary dust-up with ian in the middle of a wintery forest inside his own head. was ian wearing a turtleneck? i hate this fucking show. 

- child!jason and child!ian wander past having run away from home and get into a fight, big jason and ian are just kinda hanging out in the middle of his own flashback. Dead Eyed Child Jason becomes just plain Dead Child Jason courtesy of child!ian, big jason Imagines Death So Much It Feels More Like A Memory, because it IS a memory, which doesnt stop him trying to do CPR on it because he’s a fucking idiot

- turns out the real jason was the ians we met along the way the whole time and jason’s just some imaginary fake dead kid.

- also we see a shot of jason’s grave and he died on 8.25 because everything is pointless and we may as well all be fucking dead

- i miss ruben

god i wish polyamory/monogamy wasnt treated as an identity you are or arent sometimes.. like i just dont know? i truly dont think i can be poly but i feel like i should be poly? but i dont know if im actually capable of doing something like that. im also pretty young like why do i gotta have this shit figured out in my early 20s.. being a lesbian made it so i didnt even start doing Relationship stuff until my late teens/early 20s anyway

did i accidentally hit on one of my coworkers this weekend??


So backstory to this story: I am not a friendly person! It’s not on purpose - I WANT to be friendly. I’m just not good at it. I tend to end up friendly with the people around me but not ACTUAL friends with them, do u know what I mean? Like I’m p sure if u asked my coworkers what they think of me they’d be like, “very sweet, a little weird, will offer to bring me back coffee if she’s going out, sometimes tells ok jokes.” There are no problems, but I’m not on the list of people they would think to invite to their birthday party u know?

But I really like my current job and intend to stay at it for a few more years, and several of my coworkers are nice people who live in my neighborhood, and so I’ve been like, “self, you need to find a way to make friends with these people. Step out of your comfort zone, self, try asking them to hang out, you can do this.” There have been many self-pep-talks, and I am READY TO STEP UP TO BAT!


So then this Friday, I had jury duty, and one of my coworkers was also there - a lovely lady who’d already been there for like a week and was bored out of her mind. And we had a nice chat in which we gossiped about our boss a bit and also she gave me urgent advice about how to avoid being put on a jury so that I would not suffer her gruesome fate of sitting around for an entire week. It was fine!

And then Friday night she emailed me and was like, “did u get picked??” and I was like OK SELF U R MAKIN FRIENDS,  THIS IS THE NEW YOU, and I emailed her back and was like, “lol, no I escaped unscathed thanks for ur advice! It was fun seeing u outside of work, we should get a drink sometime or something!” 

And there was a long silence, and then yesterday afternoon she emailed me back and was basically like, “um…. no. but im sure ill see you at whatever end of year party we have. As a school. :)”


And then all of a sudden this morning in the shower it OCCURRED TO ME WHAT THE PROBLEM MIGHT HAVE BEEN?

Guys does my coworker think I was trying to bang her? O_O I think my coworker might think i was trying to bang her.

i had a dream that i went into a shipleys and ate a kolache and a blueberry cake donut and I woke up like “NOOO!”

(that actually wasn’t the dream, the dream was that i was living in the snakeladders universe, as myself, but also as the factual CREATOR of that universe so i could kind of dictate rules and events in some ways and everyone was fascinated with and terrified of me, and i was chillin with random characters one day and we were randomly attacked by a ship i didnt recognize, filled with robot aliens in viking helmets that i couldn’t control, and everyone was like “hey yo you apparently created all this shit what is that??” and i was like “i do NOT know what that is we gotta gtfo” and we ended up getting saved by this like, badass space valkyrie kinda chick who i think looked like jodariel from pyre and she was telling us that we gotta like prepare a safe haven and build an army

SO we were in a city on earth ‘cause we were trying to like… move some resources around to lay the groundwork for this “safe haven” colony, and i walked out from the hotel with… somebody, i can’t remember who they were but i weirdly think it may have been my host/roommate when i lived in NYC? anyway a lot of places we wanted to eat were closed because it was sunday (??) but then I saw a shipley’s and was like “hot DAMN is that a spacefuture shipleys!?” and ran in there and before i could stop myself had ordered and eaten a kolache and a blueberry cake donut and halfway through i realized in horror that this would trigger an insulin response and knock me out of ketosis and that upset me so much that i woke up

also santiago was trying to date me bc he likes powerful women and i was basically god in this scenario so ofc he was like “what’s up” but i was like “i dont think you can date ur own characters southpaw das gross y’all are like my children” and also he had this handlebar mustache for some reason and i wasnt feelin it)

anonymous asked:

actually.... yuehua has a chinese-korean boy group called Uniq that cant promote right now because of what's going on between Korea and China rn so.. i'm actually confused about how the chinese trainees could join p101 (but i love that they did!) so im a little confused about how they'd debut too tbh (i hope they do bc i love them)

oh. i didnt know… but their company created an ig for them recently to promote their trainees? thats why i thought yuehua was thinking about debuting them soon :(

indiepunkloser  asked:

I think i'm asking a little early, I forgot the date but I just wanted to know if your surgery went well? I figure you'll make a post about it but I just wanted to know if you're doing okay. Anyways if this is pre-op good luck and if it's post op I hope things went well. much love I hope you get back to full health soon!!!

Tomorrow will be a week exactly since I went into surgery. The surgery finished almost an hour early, roughly 4 hours total. I lost almost a litre of blood but I didn’t need any blood transfusions, thank God. The tumor was also bigger than I thought it was, a bit bigger than my actual kidney. 

The first day was very rough; they tried to make me walk and I blacked out and threw up. The second day I was unable to urinate on my own for 6+ hours so I was stuck on a catheter for 2 days. Luckily by Sunday I was able to go on my own. They allowed me to go home on Sunday afternoon, but after removing my drainage tube from my side I got a fever that night of 101.5 degrees and couldn’t move/breathe well. There was fluid in my lungs too, but I think I fended off pneumonia for the most part by practicing the spiromiter thing. I was told to call the hospital if I had a fever or anything but I chose to sleep and drink water instead. My fever went away a couple days ago.

I can’t sleep long hours and still am in constant pain. My parents bought me a walker to walk to the bathroom when I need to, and I went to the hospital today to see my surgeon. He is giving me more pain meds and muscle relaxers to help me sleep at night. Luckily he told me the tumor was tested and wasn’t cancerous, though since I’m so young there’s a chance I’ll develop one on my liver or my kidney again in my lifetime. For now I’m not going to worry about it.

Thank you guys for all the prayers and kind thoughts. They helped a lot while I was in the hospital, and still help as I’m continuing to recover. Hopefully in a week I can move and get up by myself. For now I’m playing it by ear.

life is a trip and the road map leads you.

for @clara-gently