peggy talking about steve tonight makes the final moments of steve’s life all the more painful. peggy desperately wanted to save him (we can find a way) but she realized all at once that this was the one thing she couldn’t protect him from. and all she could do was talk to him until the line went dead.
and that broke her heart. it broke her.
steve rogers dying was the one thing that has shaken peggy carter to her very bones.
You, at least, made an effort. You got up in the morning, tried to be normal for Charlie, followed the pattern of your life. When I wasn’t actively tracking, I was… totally useless. I couldn’t be around my family — I couldn’t be around anyone. I’m embarrassed to admit that I more or less curled up into a ball and let the misery have me. It was much more pathetic than hearing voices. And, of course, you know I do that, too.