but i am making progress

anonymous asked:

When Mrs. Wilde and Judy's-heretofore-unmentioned-older-sister Victoria Hopps get married, will Nick have to call Judy, Auntie Carrots?

y’know what, this did occur to me!


N: Wait, wait, wait. Hold the phone. I don’t want to - I mean, obviously I’m glad my mom’s happy, but… if my mom marries your sister, that’ll make the two of you sister-in-laws, won’t it?

J: That’s right.

N: Then - you’ll be my aunt! I’ll be your nephew!

J: Haha! Yeah.

N: …And this doesn’t freak you out?

J: Oh, Nick. 300 siblings, remember? Thanks to marriages like that, I’m already related to basically every family in Bunnyburrow. Often in a bunch of overlapping ways. When I was a kid, pretty much everyone in my school was some kind of cousin to me.

N: .__.

J: Oh! Except Travis the ferret. He’s my uncle.

N: .____________.


B: Good work, you two. I’m not one to encourage literal nepotism, but I have to say - you’re an excellent role model for your nephew, Hopps.

J: Thank you, Chief! I just know he’ll be a great cop when he grows up!

N: what has my life become

Dysphoria is a bitch

How can it be that one minute I am looking down admiring the progress my body is making. Then in a hot second my mind questions it all.

What are you doing? You are just a guy with boobs.
What about your wife? You are ruining hers and yours life.
Do you really think you will pass ever?
What about your friends?
What about your family?
Are you happy risking everything?

The mind is a dangerous force to reckon with…

Some days, I like to think that I am a favorite hero in a book of a child. Other days, I like to think that I am the reason why the world is not making any good progress. And today, I did not think of anything but to be the only one you love passionately.
—  Lukas W. // To be the one for you only
Notes on Function Maturity

Immature Si: I only seek details that make me comfortable while ignoring or downplaying important details that might require me to change course
Mature Si: I prepare myself to perform well by methodically learning and attending to every new or significant detail that each situation brings

Immature Ni: I believe I know how the world works though I can’t see myself accurately and don’t know how to live my own life meaningfully
Mature Ni: I make positive progress because I possess a deep and meaningful vision of who I should be and what I contribute to the world

Immature Ti: I follow my own rules and principles without really understanding exactly how my actions influence the world at large
Mature Ti: I seek precise knowledge of what impact my thoughts/behaviors produce so as to act coherently without harm, bias, or hypocrisy

Immature Fi: I can only see as far as my own values and suffering so I can’t formulate a factual and objective understanding of the world at large
Mature Fi: I seek deep understanding of human experience in order to act with integrity and work to prevent/alleviate suffering for myself and others

Immature Se: I simply react as circumstances dictate without enough consideration for whether the direction is the right one to take
Mature Se: I seek out new/positive learning experiences and fully appreciate that the unexpected can teach me to be more adaptable to life’s changes

Immature Ne: My mind is unable to conceptualize the best ideas or grasp the most promising opportunities for making progress in life
Mature Ne: I am confident in making continual progress because I can work out many viable paths to approach any situation or difficult problem

Immature Te: I utilize power to shape the world into what I want it to be and fail to realize that my actions do not produce universally positive results
Mature Te: I utilize my strengths to get positive results for all and work to improve my weaknesses so as to minimize negative or harmful behaviors

Immature Fe: I only care about others in terms of how they affect me and fail to treat them as individuals with their own unique needs/experiences
Mature Fe: I can see other people objectively and separately from myself and respond to their needs appropriately and compassionately

4

Progress is so slow, but here are some of the more finished stills from my WIP Raven Cycle animation project I keep mentioning.

That moment, when you can fully read and understand a piece of written text in your target language, is honestly so exciting and satisfying. It gives the feeling of: “Ah…so this hasn’t been all for nothing. I am making progress. I can do this.” It’s like a little bit of the wall that’s been in front of you is finally chipping away and you can almost see the other side; you’re nearly there. 

You just have to keep going. 

Oh boy, I am eating my own words after saying that knitting this sweater was going to be fast. I am making progress, I just haven’t really had the time to sit down and knit, and when I did have time I was working on my sisters socks. Now those are done, and I can focus on this sweater. Maybe I can finish the back in the next week. That would be amazing.
I did finally get a chance to post my Year 2 album to Facebook. It is sort of a photo journal looking back on my second year in Okinawa. I would love to refine it some day and post it to VSCO or some other platform. We will see.

Viktor's Pauses

Okay, this is a break from my usual tough love on Viktor. This time, I’d like to talk about something Viktor does that makes me really, really happy and proud of him.

We see how kind Viktor is to Yuuri. He is thoughtful and careful with him in a way that appears so soft and warm and everything that made us fall in love with them. Somehow, Viktor just seems to do and say the right things. Not all the time, of course, and he has had his slips like what we saw at the Cup of China, but this is because Viktor is still learning. Most of the time though, he seems to have the right words to say.

The best part for me though is HOW Viktor says these things - more specifically, how he comes up with them. It is not as if the responses come naturally, or are top of mind. He had to learn them, because Viktor definitely thought about other things before the things that he does say out loud. How do we know?

He pauses.

For example, in episode 3, Yuuri (and Yurio) struggle with their respective programs. Yuuri, at his wits end, suddenly comes up with the crazy, “That’s it! Katsudon!”

Now look at what happens next:

There must have been a dozen things that passed through dear Viktor’s mind. Remember, he didn’t know that Yuuri forgot everything that happened at the banquet. He didn’t know that Yuuri didn’t know about his own Eros potential. Viktor’s thoughts possibly ranged from “Excuse me?” to “What the actual fuck,” but he does not say these things. Instead, he pauses.

What do pauses even mean? A pause means a person is thinking. Viktor thinks about what he will say to Yuuri. Granted, Viktor does not have the record of being the most tactful person on Earth. We have seen him deliver brutal truths with that heart-shaped smile of his, but that only makes it even more precious that he makes these later considerations for Yuuri.

Viktor did not start off being this considerate. You know when this kindness started? When Yuuri first ran away to skate away his anxiety since Viktor came, and then more and more as Viktor learned that Yuuri was apparently shy and more delicate than Viktor initially thought him to be.

So back at the dinner table, of course we know that what Viktor says instead of, you know, Yurio’s more sensible, “Seriously?” is:

Viktor’s first careful step!

Fast forward to Hot Springs on Ice. Yuuri panics when it is his turn, but eventually, comes up with another gem:

Viktor pauses a bit.

He’s still not used to this type of lines from Yuuri. In the end though, his answer to Yuuri is:

The beauty of what Viktor does is that it’s a considerate way of acting neutral while he tries to understand how this beautifully confusing creature he sort of fell a little in love with at the Sochi banquet ticks. At the same time, whether he meant to or not, he says things that Yuuri seems to need, as proven by the way Yuuri blushes every time Viktor says something that tells him that Viktor is on his side. Viktor is very careful with Yuuri, and what I love about it is that it shows to us that Viktor still wants to stay and get to know this person even though he is not who Viktor thought he was.

Episode 4, as we know, is that wonderful, wonderful episode that spanned the months of Yuuri’s training, during which we are somehow told that Yuuri and Viktor grew closer and got to know one another better. The next Viktor-pause is not so much a consideration for Yuuri as much as it is proof that Viktor picked up the habit of thinking before he speaks around Yuuri, and somehow finding the right words to say within those brief pauses.

The beauty of the pause here is that it seems to be a tentative one. The theme is love? Why did it become love, now when I am working on him with this? Am I somehow making progress with this person? Viktor pauses for his own sake this time, because Yuuri’s theme caught him off-guard.

But after all this time, Viktor is better with Yuuri, and his response is:

He reacts positively to Yuuri and supports his decisions. He has learned to relate with Yuuri better, and continues to be kind to him. He knows how to say yes to Yuuri’s decisions in the best way possible.

Here is another of my favourite scenes, purely because of Viktor’s word choices.

“Perfect” and “the best theme” – Viktor’s words are encouraging and uplifting, and I can perfectly imagine how they can affect Yuuri and motivate him.

Episode 5 is yet another gift of an episode where, for the first time, we hear Viktor think. And boy, he thinks a lot, and now we know that he does think a lot before doing and saying things in regards to Yuuri. We know he does not always agree with his student:

Yet at the end of the day, still makes the conscious decision to accept and support him.

We can see how this endeared Viktor to Yuuri. I mean look at the boy’s face in that last frame. He’s so happy, he actually cried. Viktor’s constant affirmation helped Yuuri grow and be more confident in himself. While I do believe that Viktor is naturally warm and a very kind person deep down, and while providing Yuuri this kind of positive regard is not contradictory to his personality, it’s wonderful to think that he still had to learn and develop these things in himself as well.

Now, of course Viktor isn’t perfect. He slipped in episode 7 and said the wrong thing. But, as Yakov said, Viktor still had a lot to learn, but it’s heartening to see him keep at it, isn’t it?

Lol, he even does this silent pause thing during their engagement. There was a good pause there, but then again maybe it was just shock. He’s been quiet even during the time that they bought the rings, and pretty much just followed Yuuri in a daze (I assume) up to the last moment. He doesn’t even talk until Yuuri prompts him.

Viktor still says something good, though - probably the best that could be said given the circumstances and given what Yuuri said. He has also grown quite a lot. Somewhere along the way, he learned to speak Yuuri’s language, and it is just a beautiful thing to watch.

I know I post weight loss shit all the time but I have such a hard time believing that I’ve made progress, or feeling better about my body (shoutout to gender dysphoria), so I really need these before and after pics to prove to myself that I am making progress and that I am healthier. So sorry for the spam, I’m just proud of myself 🙏🏼💪🏼 left pic is April 2016, 175ish lbs. right pic is was yesterday, March 2017, 135 lbs. This was all thanks to intermittent fasting (the warrior diet, water fasting), elimination of gluten, and a general focus on healthy eating, smarter portion sizes, and smaller eating windows. If I can do it, so can you

sometimes I feel so hopeless and miserable because I feel like I am not making any progress in anything I do and this reinforces my crushing fear that I am wasting my life

It would be so much easier

to finish Winter, or at least finish the NEXT CHAPTER (which is partially written) if future bits of the story didn’t keep intruding. It’s one thing to write ahead; it’s another to do it excessively.

I keep a folder on my computer. Every (first draft) of each posted chapter is there. They’re not exactly like the ones that you can find on the website, but they’re really close. They’re basically what I upload when I’m about to post a chapter. Then I do the final edits on ff.net. 

Also in this chapter are two other documents. One is a chapter that first existed on my smartphone (for months), then was transferred over. It’s around 3000 words.

The other document is creatively titled “Winter Notes”. At first, that’s all it was. A first draft of the very last chapter (yes, it already exists), pieces of canon dialogue I knew I wanted to use (yes, as crazy as this fic is, I still use canon dialogue when I can), and certain names I don’t want to forget. 

Now it’s almost forty pages long, pushing 17,000 words. It’s got big chunks of several crucial chapters and moments that have been in my brain for ages. 

All I wanted to do today writing-wise was to finish chapter 58. But (estimated) chapter 72 called and said, “Hello? I’m calling to make an appointment. For right now. WRITE ME.”

Sigh.

Sometimes its hard to remain focused and productive, especially in the Summer. It’s important to form a routine to help get your out of bed and start your day right! Here are a few suggestions that help me kick-start my morning:

Set your alarm for a reasonable hour. Let’s face it: its Summer, and you deserve to sleep in at least a little bit. So long as you get eight hours of sleep, you can let yourself be flexible as to when you fall asleep/wake up. I wake up around 7:30a.m. (as compared to 6:30a.m., which is when I wake up during the school year), but if you’re more of a night owl, don’t try to force a sleeping schedule that doesn’t work for you! That being said, only set one alarm. IF you have more than one alarm set, it’s far too easy to dismiss the first alarm and go back to sleep. Having only one alarm makes you more accountable.

Get moving right away. I like to get dressed and do my workout as soon as I wake up. For cross country my coach has a long list of workouts that need to be done everyday; however, even if you aren’t the running/lifting type, a few minutes of yoga work just as well to clear your head! For starters, its great to get outside before the Summer heat really starts to kick in. Second, getting the motivation to exercise is often difficult, so tackling it first boosts your motivation and productivity for the rest of the day. It’s nice to get back from a run and take a nice soothing shower with the satisfaction that you’ve already accomplished something today!

Don’t go back into your pj’s. I learned this the hard way. If you get back into pj’s after your shower, the temptation to slack off and get back in bed will be STRONG. Just don’t do it!!

Start your studying with something fun. As an avid writer, I like to get my study sessions started with the ‘Fiction 500′. Everyday I add 500 more words to a story I’m writing; this gets my brain going and is an enjoyable part of my day. Not only am I preparing myself for a day of learning, but I am also making progress on a different goal!

Have a light breakfast and drink some water. This is pretty self explanatory I find it difficult to get work done if I have heavy food in my stomach. I used to be someone who skipped breakfast altogether, but I’ve learned that having something little (or even just a glass of water) makes a positive impact on your day.

Plan out what you need to study the night before. It’s important to have a solid game plan for what you want to accomplish for the day. Without this, it’s easy to push off responsibilities and find yourself immersed in a show on Netflix. Have a notepad/journal open on your desk with an exact list of what you plan to accomplish during the day. There is nothing more satisfying than crossing out things on a to-do list!

Don’t be upset if things don’t go according to plan. As I said before, it’s Summer. Last minute plans are bound to pop up, and it’s important to take breaks and bring a little bit of spontaneity into your life. There will also be times when you simply lack the motivation to do anything, and you shouldn’t get upset if this happens. Let yourself be a bit flexible!

I hope at least one of these things help you get your day started on the right foot!