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Hey there! I was in the military in 2014 and unfortunately suffered a debilitating injury during training that left me in a wheelchair for months and then mobility reduced. I was 168 lbs at 5"6 this summer when I was cleared to start working out again. I started eating ketogenically, quit smoking, started doing yoga and had a strict weight training regiment. I am not 115 lbs and could not be happier (Yes, it was quick weight loss but mostly due to me finally being able to be active after a year of injury) . There will be a lot of obstacles on the journey to weight loss, but never give up ! 

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Alex Karev Imagine

Alex Karev Imagine
1199 Words
Suggestions: Alex and the Reader are friends with benefits, who both want something more. She gets into the plane crash and Alex confesses to her when he sees her in the hospital.
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Originally posted by fuckyeahalexjo

You rolled your eyes, leaning on your hand as you flipped through a magazine. It was exciting, yet boring, to be a 5th Year Resident. It felt awkward too. Your best friend, who just happens to be your go-to sex buddy, is one too, so sometimes, you’ll both be caught in the O.R., since you both want to get into the same specialty. God, you didn’t know what to feel around him except for love really. You wanted more, but hey, he probably just wants the sex.

“(Y/n), are you on your break,” Arizona walked over to you.

“Yeah, I am, but if you need something, I’m all ears,” You looked up at her.

“You’re going on the trip to Boise for the patient, right?”

“Yes, I am. Why?”

“I’m coming along too.”

“Does Alex know?”

His name rolled of your tongue perfectly. It was like you said his name all the time, every day, in the same tone.

“He’s… not going. He’s going to Hopkins.”

You felt your heart drop. Your blank expression almost made you look like you saw a ghost. You nodded.

“Okay, He didn’t tell me that.”

“Are you going to Hopkins too?”

“No.”

“Why not? It has the best Peds Program in the country.”

“It’s not really for me. I’m staying.”

“Good, good, we need more great Peds surgeons.”

You nodded again, looking back down at your magazine. You checked the time on your phone. You stood.

“Ah, sorry, I have that surgery in 20 minutes. I’ll be heading down to the O.R.”

You took your magazine and walked down there.

“(Y/n)!”

You turned your head to see Alex jog up to you.

“Do you have a second,” He asked you.

“No, sorry, I have surgery… now in 17 minutes. I gotta go.”

You turned your head and walked up to the elevators, then stepped in.

“Good luck at Hopkins,” You called to him as the elevators closed.

You pull out your scrub cap from your pocket and put it on, after braiding your hair of course. The elevator doors open to see a tired Alex leaning against the wall. You stepped out.

“What the hell? Did you just run a few floors,” You asked him.

“Yeah.”

“Why?! Jesus, if you wanted to talk, just meet me outside of the O.R. when I’m finished.”

“(Y/n)-.”

“Alex, I appreciate you not telling me about Hopkins, I really do. I mean, you took the opportunity. Now, here you are, going to be gone… So… No need to tell me anything else. I’m good. It’s your choice.”

You shrugged, heading into the scrubbing room.

After surgery, Alex met up with you again, this time it wasn’t about Hopkins.

“We seriously need to talk (Y/n).”

“I have a plane to catch with Dr. Robbins and the others. Why don’t you say what’s on your mind now?”

He opened his mouth, but then closed it. You grabbed your suitcase from the Resident changing rooms and looked at him.

“Good Luck in Boise.”

You nodded your head.

“Thanks.”

Your heart dropped again. You thought he was going to say something different.

You sat next to Arizona on the plane, frowning as you stared out the window.

“So, how are you and Alex,” She started to ask you.

You shrugged.

“I don’t know. Friends with benefits already, but I want something more. I thought he was going to tell me something more, but he just said ‘Good Luck in Boise’. Who the hell says that,” You muttered.

“Maybe he cares.”

You felt back of the plane jerk back and look.

“Oh crap,” You whispered, seeing it completely gone.

You were ripped out of your seat and shut your eyes, not feeling the rest.

You woke up to see the sun shining on your face. You sat up, your head pounding. You rubbed your face, only to feel something wet. You opened your eyes and screamed at the top of your lungs. Your left hand was fractured in many different places, and it was bloody too.

“Oh god, goddamnit,” You breathed.

You looked around, seeing metal scattered around you. You tore of part of your pants leg and wrapped it around your hand to keep it from getting infected. You got up, wobbling a bit.

“Hello,” You called.

You didn’t get a response. You started going in a direction, not looking back. You placed your right hand on a tree to balance yourself. Your breathing was heavy, which wasn’t really normal. You pulled up your shirt to look and saw your hip was bloody too.

“Great, just my luck.”

You continued walking, just until you heard a scream, and then a ‘shut up’ followed it. You followed the voice, seeing part of the plane. You collapsed next to it, only struggling to get up.

“HELLO,” You yelled again.

“(Y/N),” A panicked voice asked.

“I’m here!”

You got up again, tripping over a log and landing on the ground. You groaned, turning over on your back.

“Where is everybody,” You asked.

Cristina ran over and helped you sit up.

“Uh… Lexie’s dead.”

You blinked twice.

“No,” You whispered.

“Mark’s next to her body, and Meredith’s looking for Derek.”

You nodded, looking down.

“Are you okay?”

“My hand’s broken.”

You held up your wrapped-up hand in front of her.

“Dr. Robbins?!”

“I’m here! I’m here.”

You nodded.

Late at night, everyone’s condition started to worsen. Derek’s hand was broken. Mark’s breathing was getting worse. Arizona’s leg was more infected than ever. It was cold too. You leaned against a rock next to the fire. You breathed heavily, shutting your eyes. The cold was getting to you.

After a week of starving in the wilderness, you woke up in a hospital. You sat up a bit, wincing in pain. You checked your hand and saw it was completely wrapped up. You saw Meredith walking through the hall.

“Meredith!”

She jumped up and looked at you.

“(Y/n)?”

“Where are we?”

“A hospital. Why?”

“Where is everyone?”

“That’s what I’m trying to find out.”

“Okay.”

You nodded.

“Have you seen Derek?”

“No.”

“Okay.”

She walked off with her IV. You sat there before hearing a rush of footsteps run in. You turned, only to get hugged tightly. You blinked twice.

“Oh, thank god.”

You softened.

“Alex,” You whispered, placing your head on his shoulder.

He held your head in his hands and kissed you repeatedly. You scrunched up your face a bit. He planted a kiss on your lips.

“You okay,” You whimpered, placing your good hand on his back.

“My heart almost stopped. I thought something happened to you and I wasn’t prepared to face it. Then I saw Mer and she told me you were fine, just a scarred hip and a broken hand.”

You nodded. He kissed your cheek.

“Yeah, I broke my hand.”

“You’re okay. You’re okay. Oh god, you’re okay,” He whispered.

“Are you okay?”

He nodded.

“I love you. I love you, and I wouldn’t know what to do without you. I want to hold you so you won’t get hurt or leave my side. Promise me you won’t leave my side.”

You smiled.

“I love you too, and I promise.”

hey kiddos !    in short :    money  is  hella  tight  right  now .      as some of you know ,     i was disowned by my family last year when i came out ,     which means  i  am  financially  on  my  own .      i’m also going to school full - time ,    so i can only manage a part - time job right now ,  which just isn’t cutting it .

with that said ,     i’m going to be  re - opening  my  commissions !     i still don’t do icons ,    but i will do the following :

THEME  BACKGROUND :     $10
PROMO :       1 panel  $5   /   2 panels  $7
MOBILE  HEADER :    $5
DASH  ICON :     $1

even if you aren’t commissioning anything ,      i’d  really  appreciate a quick reblog !     thank u guys for reading sm !      send me a quick im if ur interested !     bless up !

Listen, I love my inquisitor, but I also have this great vision of her and the advisors standing around the war table like “we have so few resources, here in our massive castle where we’re training an army, how can we possibly hope to defeat Corypheus” and then the doors bang open and there stands the Hero of Ferelden. She cracks her knuckles. “Listen up kiddos - oh hey, Cullen - listen, back in my day, I defeated a god with the help of like 5 randos and a dog. What seems to be the problem.”

other tips for new cat owners / people who may get cats soon:

no, getting a grown cat won’t be boring / less cute! they’ll become just as attached to you as a kitten. get a cat that speaks to you (literally or figuratively, maybe you want a cat that’s chatty). older cats will be so appreciative to have a home. 
people get rid of their cats for all kinds of unfair reasons. just the ones i’ve seen on the craigslist listings in the last 5 minutes: “i am just more of a dog person (7mo old kitten)”, “we hoped she would get over her kittenish behavior, she has not (2yr old cat)”, “i need to get rid of my cat before my baby is born (3yr old cat)”.
you can totally pick up a beautiful, loving, grown up kitty who will be needing some comfort after getting dumped. just look at this girl.

(taken off craigslist) she would be more than happy to live her cat life with you. is she not cute? she is. she is cute. so, ultimately, adopt whatever cat you like, but don’t rule out older cats!

nextly: no no, do NOT declaw your cat. DON’T DO IT. I’M TELLIN YA.
it’s a deeply painful procedure, actually removing the entire first knuckle, not JUST the nail. it causes long-term and potentially permanent pain in the cat, and can lead to nasty infections, behavioral problems, and helplessness if they ever find themselves outside and in need of protection or climbing abilities.
“but i don’t want my cat to scratch me / my kid / my furniture!” okay, i feel you, but there are other, cheaper, less inhumane options. my favorite of which are claw caps.

you gently press on your cat’s foot (to unsheath their claws), and place the soft cap onto their claw using the glue that’s included in any soft paw kit you get. it might take some getting used to on the cat’s part, but it should under no circumstances be painful, and when the kitty’s claws grow, the cap just kinda falls off, and you’ll put another one on.
you can also file or clip their nails down! if you’re too nervous or clumsy to do it, your vet will usually do it for a small fee, or a groomer can take care of it. Personally, I just let my cats’ claws hang out and accept the pokes when they knead on me, since i don’t have any little babies or expensive upholstery in my home. 

No, cats ain’t “low maintenance”. This is a living, social creature, not a chiapet. Especially if you’re raising them from kittenhood, they need a lot of attention and resources. cuddles, playtime, training, health care, feeding, cleaning up their facilities. you get a pet to interact with, not to buy and leave it be! a cat that you don’t socialize is going to be very moody and sad. get a pet if you plan to invest the time and energy they need- if not, maybe we can come back to that cactus idea? 

Cats need meat. I repeat, cats cannot survive without meat. Dogs need meat too- but cats are incapable of creating taurine in their own, and where do you find taurine? meat! hallelujah!! 
Feeding cats a vegan or vegetarian diet is a slow form of starvation and animal abuse. If you’re not comfortable feeding an animal meat, please do not adopt a carnivore. There are plenty of vegetarian mammals that you would be much better suited owning, but do not abuse your cats just because of your own feelings about protein. 
Without enough taurine in a cat’s diet, severe health problems will follow, like blindness, weak and decaying teeth, weak heart, and digestive issues. This is terrible. This objectively sucks. So pretty please give your cat a proper diet!

It’s way way safer to have an indoor cat. I don’t need you to tell me that you want your cat to be with you for many years, ‘cause I already know you do. Outdoor cats are exposed to wild animals, animal abusers, poisonous substances, cars, harsh weather, kidnapping, and diseases. Cats like rolling around in grass and grabbing birds from trees, and that’s great, but having an outdoor cat makes for a steep decrease in their estimated lifespan. The average lifespan of an indoor cat is 16.8 years, whereas outdoor cats average out to a hard-hitting 5.6. Ouch. 
So it’s definitely safer to keep a cat indoors! If you’re adopting a young kitten, it won’t be hard, since they won’t be expecting outdoor time already. If you’re still really into that whole grass idea, you should totally grow some indoor grass for your cat to chill in. 

good.

that’s everything i can think of for the moment, but please don’t be afraid to do your own research on animal care. there are tons of resources out there, and if you have a good vet, they’ll answer any questions you have! 

thank you for readin’ about cat care. as a reward, i’m adding a picture of toby as a baby. enjoy.

some things i admit i have said out loud in public in finnish in foreign countries because i was overwhelmed by the liberating feeling of being 99% sure that nobody can understand me
  • “walk faster you idiots”
  • “that man looks like he listens to maroon 5 and has no opinions”
  • “why would she buy that disgusting crap bread”
  • “sweden sucks”
  • “you know i havent shat in 3 days”
  • (next to a police officer) “hey i am a dangerous criminal with guns and bombs arrest me”
  • *bunch of finnish profanities for no reason*
  • “do you think she realizes i am drunk” 
  • “i want to steal his phone”
  • “please don’t sit next to me please don’t sit next to me pleas– oh crap”
  • “did you notice that man next to you eats his own snot”
  • “hey don’t look at that woman on your right and let’s pretend we are talking about something very important and completely unrelated but do you think she looks like our old math teacher”
  • “i cant believe he is really wearing crocs”
  • “why are all these clothes in this store so ugly”
  • “how do we get rid of this person”
  • “i am sure everybody in this bus can smell that i haven’t showered in 4 days”
The Art of Writing Fanfiction
  • Phase 1: oh shit look at all these plot bunnies go this story's gonna be LIT AF
  • Phase 2: *actually starting to write* okay first paragraph you got this just punch the reader in the face with the awesomeness of this story
  • Phase 3: *two hours later* FUCK ME WHY IS THIS SO HARD
  • Phase 4: *break time*
  • Phase 5: ehhh this calls for some inspiration... *proceeds to read fanfiction of various levels of gayness*
  • Phase 6: *writing again* hey this isn't so bad story's progressing nicely, i can actually finish this on time
  • Phase 7: *writer's block* FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU-
  • Phase 8: *finally on the last paragraph* I CAN SEE THE END IN SIGHT
  • Phase 9: ahhh i feel accomplished i can finally rest ea-
  • Phase 10: *proofreading* why am i such an illiterate bastard
  • Phase 11: CLICK. AND POST. BYE BITCH SEE YOU NEVER.
  • Phase 12: repeat.
  • Seven: *putting up Christmas tree*
  • Yoosung: SEVEN ITS NOVEMBER 5
  • Seven: Sorry can't hear you over the sound of a 'hOLLY JOLLY CHRISTMAS ITS THE BEST TIME OF THE YEEAAARRRR'
20 things i love about you

1. the way your eyes light up when you smile
2. the stupid but funny jokes you make
3. the look on your face when you talk about something you are passionate about
4. the way you draw
5. how beautiful you look when the sun shines on your face
6. the way you always make me smile
7. how you accept me for who i am
8. when you’re telling stories
9. how puffy your cheeks are
10. the colour of your eyes
11. how weird you can get
12. your laugh
13. how you always put me in a good mood
14. how cute you can be
15. your hair
16. you make me feel like i’m worth something
17. your cheesy jokes
18. we can be silly together
19. how we both get along so well
20. the way you inspire me with your thoughts and emotions

[ 10th December 2016 ] wew hello everyone! here is this week’s spread that I whipped up in 30minutes (surprisingly) before I had work and was away from home for 5 days ;-;
I’ll be away for camp next week so I won’t be as active but I’ll try to queue some posts so y'all don’t miss me too much (who am I kidding)
*ALSO CAN WE TALK ABOUT YURI ON ICE???? ITS THE BEST ANIME EVER MADE WITH THE BEST MAINS AND I CANNOT GET OVER IT* *I’m also sad that haikyuu season 3 is over omg I CANNOT wait for season 4 kekekek*
have a good weekend!! 💕✨🔥

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Awwww my gosh thanks @i-lost-my-shoe26 1. for saying I am one of your ten favourite followers (eeeeeekkkkkk!) and 2. for the tag!

6 random facts about me… goddamn does anyone even care? lol no but hey anyway…

1. I am a virgo

2. I like being barefoot but me feetsies get cold quickly! 

3. I wish I could just survive in a forest with little to no human contact

4. I love forests and mountains and caves 

5. I like the stars

6. I truly love cars. I want an Imapla 67′ (obvs), Jensen Interceptor, 69′ Mustang Boss (legit its so beautiful and its fucking a 69! heh!), a GT Premium Fastback Mustang possibly in Grabber Blue (not that I have done research or anything!) and a Ram 3500 

My faves: @pastelplantkiddo @deanfudgingwinchester79 @ohmygoshwirt @keepingcalmisoverratedgoddamnit @wolfwrangler @someonebeatmetotheurl @thatstrangermaura @a-suitable-girl @dont-dropp @high-on-spn

Hey if you’re broke like I am and still want to help, Hank Green is donating $5 to the ACLU per every hand written/drawn message of support for people affected by the Muslim Ban. Please, if you can, reply to his tweet. It can be really simple, too. I wrote a message on a napkin and it worked.