Requested by Anon:
Can you write an Bucky x Reader one shot where the reader is scared
of Bucky after he nearly kills her during a nightmare? And he shows
her that he can change and that she doesn’t have to be afraid?
Word count. 1037
It was in the
middle of the night when you woke up, because Bucky was tossing and
turning next to you. You sat up quickly, trying to wake him carefully
but he didn’t wake up. “Bucky, it’s me, Y/N. Wake up”, you
whispered, while touching his shoulder softly. Suddenly, his eyes
opened and you smiled slightly at him. “It was just a nightmare.
Everything is fine now”, you told him but he didn’t seem to
understand what you were talking about. He pinned you down to the bed
and looked at you with furious eyes. “What did you do to her?”,
he asked, gritting his teeth. “Bucky, what are you talking about?
You’re hurting me”, his metal arm pressed you down, causing a lot
of pain in your arm. “Where is Y/N?”, he asked. “I am Y/N,
Bucky”, you said, feeling tears running down your cheeks. You knew
his nightmares were bad but it had never been that bad. “Liar!”,
he screamed and threw you against a wall. You screamed in pain, when
your back hit the hard wall. You tried to crawl over to the door, but
he was faster and pulled you up to your feet. “Bucky, please. It’s
me. Stop it”, you cried in pain. He put his metal arm on your
throat and pressed you against the wall, hitting you with his other
arm. “Help me, someone. Please. Steve! Tony!”, you shouted as
loud as you could between every punch. The door was kicked in and
Steve immediately pulled Bucky away from you and held him down. The
last thing you saw, was how Bucky looked at you, realization hitting
him, before you collapsed and everything went black.
You woke up in a
hospital room. You looked around and found Steve sitting next to you
bed. “Finally you’re awake”, he said, sighing in relief. “How
long have I been out?”, you asked, still feeling a bit dizzy. He
told you that you’ve been sleeping for six hours now and that the
others including Bucky were sitting outside, because only one person
was allowed in the room with you. You flinched at the mention of
Bucky. “He never did this before”, you whispered. “I know. It’s
getting worse again”, he told you. “He didn’t even recognize me.
He thought I was someone else. He could’ve killed me if you wouldn’t
have heard me”, again tears began rolling down your cheeks. In that
moment the door opened and Bucky peaked in. His face was pale and he
had puffy eyes. He looked at Steve, not noticing you were awake.
“Steve? I -”, he looked at you and stopped talking. You didn’t
know what to do, your heart was pacing and you tried to calm yourself
down but the images of last night kept flashing through your mind.
“Y/N. I am so sorry. I didn’t mean to hurt you. Last night, that
wasn’t me”, he tried to explain and stepped to you, taking you hand
but you quickly pulled it back, looking at him with fear in you eyes.
You wanted to believe him but your head kept telling you that he’d
hurt you again. “Y/N I won’t ever do this again. Please”, this
time it was Bucky who cried but you just backed away even more.
“Leave. Please”, you said with a shaky voice. Your head started
to hurt as you thought about the things he had done. “What? No, no
please Y/N. You know I love you and-”, he was interrupted by Steve,
pulling him back gently: “I think it’s better if you go now Buck.”
Bucky looked at you one last time and then walked out. You felt
guilty because you knew he needed you but you couldn’t bring yourself
to stop being afraid.
- 2 weeks later
When you came home
from hospital everyone treated you like a little child. You weren’t
allowed to do anything on your own so usually someone was following
you the whole day. Bucky stayed in his new room and made sure he
wasn’t anywhere near you. Until one day when everyone else was on a
mission. You were alone in the tower with Bucky. Steve suggested that
one of them should stay with you but you knew they needed everyone
they could get for the mission so you said you were fine, which
wasn’t even a lie. Later that day you got hungry and went to the
kitchen. What you didn’t expect was Bucky, sitting at the dinner
table. He looked like he hadn’t slept in days and you started to feel
bad, because it probably was your fault. You were about to turn
around, when he suddenly started talking: “Y/N. I’m going to go so
you can do whatever you wanted to do.” His voice was calm. Oh, how
you missed hearing his voice. You looked at him, not knowing what to
say. He stood up, walking towards the door when you turned to face
him and said: “Stay.” He looked at you and nodded, going back to
what he was doing before you came. You made yourself something to eat
and sat down across from him. You felt your muscles tense every time
he looked at you but you kept calm. “I miss you, Y/N”, you nearly
choked on your food when he started talking. Your eyes met his when
you looked up. “I miss you too”, you whispered. “Please give me
a second chance. I promise I’ll never let this happen again. That
wasn’t me. That was the old me. I can change. I have changed. You are
the most important thing in my life and I can’t live without you. I
can’t sleep when you’re not next to me”, tears filled his eyes
while he was talking. You looked at him and then you stood up,
walking over to him. You had to tell yourself that he wouldn’t hurt
you over and over again, while you were hugging him but it felt good.
The feeling to finally have him back was bigger than the fear of
getting hurt again. “I love you so much, Y/N”, he said while
wrapping his arms carefully around your body.