but getting nothing back

sooooo… I’ve noticed a lot of fanart with Lance being super excited for his birthday and other people not matching his enthusiasm. which is great langst! BUT! let’s just reverse it!

-Lance was not in the mood for it. at all

-Shiro’s gone, possibly dead. the galra are still fighting, and might have a whole other leader they’d have to take out. there’s just too much going on

-everyone else, on the other hand, just wants normalcy. Lance had been hinting at his birthday a few weeks ago and it sounded like a great chance to let go and forget stuff for a day

-so the day’s here, and Hunk has made a ton of food, Coran found some cool looking space-stuff that he used as decorations, Pidge made Lance something that reminds her of Earth, and Allura has even decided to let them take a break from training

-(Keith is… doing Keith-y things probably with that adorable Soft Keith Face™)

-they’re all expecting Lance to be excited and happy today, but he doesn’t even realize what day it was

-he doesn’t even notice everyone’s mood change because he’s trapped in his own head

-the team is trying to get their Lance back, because nothing felt right without the jokes that had been present since day one, and the jokes that they didn’t know they’d been leaning on for so long

-they remind him that it’s his birthday hoping that he’d perk up, but it has the opposite effect

-Lance curls in on himself, remembering his family, and the team’s overall mood crumbles

-idk what all goes on but it’s like a therapy/cuddle session where they all just unload. tears are shed and it’s basically a super long group hug because they all need it

-they all celebrate Lance’s birthday with red eyes, but real smiles

I might not have internet tomorrow so you get this early! I hope it’s good ♡

It’s only taken 40-something years for it to start to sink in that when I give my all and accept getting nothing back, that’s exactly what I find.

I’ll always be a giver. It’s who I am. But to also have it reciprocated? To have someone who can’t wait to see me. Who texts me in the morning. Who surprises me. Why shouldn’t I have that, too?

Maybe it’s because I’ve felt unworthy of it. Maybe I still feel that way. But I’m actually admitting to myself that I want it.

That’s a good first step, yes?

anonymous asked:

Pre-K Joven falling out of his chair and when his friends get concerned he plays it off like it was nothing and sits back down. When it's Recess time he waits till everyone's gone to get up, and walks Super slow. When the teacher asks if he's ok he says, "I think I broke my butt."

That made me laugh real hard


I saw that the reaper76 tag was lacking a BikerAU (or maybe I didn’t search well enough I dunno) and I was like: “WTF where is the BikerAU at?!?!” So having not seen any fanart of that I decided to make some practice drawings. Heavily used google images as reference xD There’s more sketches and even tiny pieces of fics I’m working on. I’m seriously in love with this AU. Also, go listen to Hands by Barns Courtney.

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Daisy Johnson in Agents of SHIELD: ‘Farewell, Cruel World!’


I”M SO EMOTIONAL I’ M,,, MY SON,,, my entire heart is dead ass on the ground bc of how important the way kids perceive and react to iron man is to tony. THE WHOLE rEASON IRON MAN IS GOLD IS BECAUSE HE DIDN’T WANT TO FRIGHTEN KIDS. THIS IS HIS 2nD APPEARANCE OF ALL TIME IN COMICS, tales of suspense vol. 1 #40 (1959). and then you have this moment from iron man vol. 1 #127 (1968) (long story short: armor was manipulated by justin hammer to assassinate an ambassador) and he’s s o heartbroken at the thought of children being scared of him, he cares sO MUCH about how he’s seen by kids tony stark loves kids. he absolutely loves and adores kids hE ALWAYS hAS

Long Live Octopus Pie

Three cheers!

I check the webpage out of habit, but Meredith Gran’s comic work Octopus Pie is over.  I feel like this is how sports fans feel when a jersey is retired and lifted to the rafters, forever in its untouchable place, time divided between when it was active and whatever comes after.  

That might sound grandiose, but in my mind, nothing tops the ten year run of Octopus Pie.  And in the lifespan of what we call Webcomics, 2007-2017 is a granddaddy of a run, worthy of names like “pioneering,” “influential” and “groundbreaking” because in the space of those years, in this new medium, there was room to be those things without any hyperbole.  The comics landscape of the past decade needed filling out and Meredith carved her space out with precision, showing a polish and drive and a talent from the beginning that set a high standard.  

I’m guessing that I started Hark a Vagrant about six months after Octopus Pie began, but Meredith’s was already a name to be reckoned with, due to the solid reputation of her previous comic Skirting Danger and because she was an honest to god trained animator in a sea of stickmen comics or two-dudes-on-a-couch comics (RIP forever *kisses fingers, holds them to the sky*). I was intimidated by her sheer capability.  But inspired too.  I did not need to be intimidated, she was one of the first people I met in comics, and easily one of the best.

Meredith and I briefly shared an apartment and a studio, and I can tell you, she can draw circles around everyone you know.  I later shared a studio with Mike Holmes, who could also draw circles around everyone, and now the two of them are married in some sort of talent supernova.  I am happy for them, even though I feel like I make grade three crayon pictures next to them.  But the other thing that being friends with Meredith for a long time has shown is the cutting wit, the care for stories done right, the love for a medium that will take you through highs and lows that come with comics, and lately through her job as a comics professor, the nurturing of upcoming talent.  I see all of this in Octopus Pie, a comic where character was paramount, where plots were expertly moved, a fine balance was found between the messiness of people and the fun you can have with stories, where subtle emotional movements where rendered with room to breathe, where I felt like I could reach deep into the hearts and minds of the characters on the page because they had been fleshed out so well over the years that they seemed as real people, people that I loved.

I don’t really like that phrase “comics will break your heart,” commonly attributed to Schultz, or Kirby, it doesn’t really matter.  You see it all the time, mostly when people are reckoning with the fact that they work in an unforgiving medium.  I don’t even know what it is about the saying that I don’t like.  Maybe it’s because we all know that comics are hard work, we all know that you might put your life and blood and heart into something and you might get nothing back.  There are no surprises to be found there - it’s not a bad day you had, it’s a life you’re well aware of living, if you do.  But we love the perserverers in comics.  The people who live the phrase are the ones who inspire us the most.

I’m saying all this, and pardon the segue, because I have seen Octopus Pie, some of the finest story work of my generation, passed for recognition time and again and it confuses the hell out of me, truly.  I don’t want to turn a tribute to a work I hold dear into sour grapes, that’s not the intention here, but lord above, if I can’t point this out now, then when can I?  We all know that there are no guarantees in this life (comics will break your heart) but I’ll say this once and then leave it: this is a comic of quality that was miles ahead of so many of its peers, and it deserved better, industry wise.  To wrap up the earlier point, maybe I don’t like CWBYH because it implies that you should shrug your shoulders and not ask for better every time, that a short end of some kind of stick is expected even.  That’s easy when it’s yourself, but speaking as a fan now, I say to heck with shrugging, I want to put Meredith on my shoulders and parade her around and dump her into a Scrooge McDuck thing full of awards.  

Actually that sounds pointy and bad and the Ignatz awards are bricks to begin with so maybe forget that analogy but you get the idea.

I hope you read Octopus Pie, I hope you buy the books.  I hope the legacy of it is long and full, because it always will be for me.  And I think readers will agree, because I know this devoted fan base pretty well.  I read the comments, I’ve sat next to Mer at comic shows, I’ve listened to some of the emails that touched her.  I know this is a comic that meant a lot, to a lot of us.  In this world of work we put our hearts and souls into to begin with, that is a wonderfully worthy thing.

I do not know what Meredith will do next, but whatever it is, I am here for it, seat pulled close to the stage.  The retired jersey is in the rafters, the game is still being played by the people who dreamed better because it was there.  Aw what can I say, I’m sentimental!

 Thanks, Meredith. <3

Enhanced 2x09 “Scottish Barbarian” Scene

Can we please talk about how surprised Mon-El seemed that just being there and holding Kara was enough?

I felt like when he was talking with Winn and he said “what’s left for me?” what he meant was “what’s left for me to do for her?” as in she’s Supergirl - what could she need from him? I think he was kind of afraid to ask and have her realize that she didn’t actually need him for anything.

I think he realized in their last scene that being there, supporting her in the simplest ways, was enough for her and it kinda blew him away. I think he was struggling to see what he could give to someone so incredible and strong and I think those little expressions - the smiles and the soft looks on his face - were showing us that he understands that yes she’s amazing beyond words but that doesn’t mean she doesn’t want someone to be there for her at the end of a terrible day. 

He asked what she needed from him and he probably wasn’t prepared to hear that just being there was enough. From what we know about his past there probably hasn’t been a time in his life when just being Mon-El was enough for someone. Especially someone he cared about and that he wanted to comfort and support. He is so new to all of this and I can’t imagine what it meant to him for her to tell him that all she wanted from him… was him.