I just???? Alec Lightwood is such a wonderful human being????
like, it’s actually beyond description how deep my love for him is. i feel like he’s so underappreciated and underestimated sometimes and that. just. it’s not okay to me. he would literally destroy himself to make sure that his family comes out safe and well. he had to wait for yeARS to feel okay enough actually think “screw all of this” and go against the rules, both in how he helped luke and how, ultimately, he helped himself with the wedding. and does anybody really honestly know how vulnerable he is?? because he’s the oldest and should be the strongest, mentally, at least. my poor baby doesn’t think he has a right to be happy sometimes, because the damn clave is more important. fuck. fucking hell. alexander lightwood. i love him. he’s wonderful. give him all the happiness in every single universe for all of infinity.