but am proud if myself

:)

2017 has kicked my ass, to be completely frank. I’m exhausted, mentally & physically. But I have grown so much & I could not be more proud of myself than I am right this moment. In April, I finally got myself out of a toxic 6-year-long relationship that I thought was “love.” I didn’t look back after that. I cut all contact and have remained absolutely strong in that. Shortly thereafter, I began reconnecting with old friends I was forced to get rid of during the relationship I was in. I reconnected with an old flame and we started hanging out nonstop. In august we decided to to give a relationship a try, and at the same time I was noticing some major changes to my body/health. I turned 21 in August (woo!) and got about a week of fun before I realized I couldn’t avoid my health problems anymore. I dropped out of school to get my shit together and I struggled for about a month before finally getting answers. I spent a LOT of time in the hospital and came home only able to lay in bed all day. Originally, doctors thought i had bladder cancer. After multiple specialists reviewing all of my tests and scans, I was diagnosed with eosinophilic cystitis, an extremely rare bladder disease. There’s slim to none research done on it, so I’ve been a guinea pig as far as treatment goes. From the beginning of October to the end, I had lost ability to keep food down & ended up losing 24 pounds, putting me at 5'6" and under 100 pounds. The attempted relationship fell apart pretty fast. I hated the way I looked, I couldn’t leave my house, I was miserable to say the least. The end of the relationship seemed to be going perfectly civilly for a short time, and then he switched. For the first time in my life, no matter how stressed it makes me, I’m able to move past the drama. I’m used to having an ex boyfriend running my name thru the dirt, and I’m not letting it break me again. I’m not letting an illness I can’t control take over, and I’m certainly not letting a guy who couldn’t handle me in that state bring me down. I’ve gained my weight back, I’m able to eat normal amounts again, my health is slowly improving, and I’m able to be optimistic. No one is gonna ruin this for me, and I’m gonna make damn sure 2018 starts well, because it’s gonna be in MY control this time. I’m enjoying the holidays with my family & im looking forward to what comes next. I’m DONE settling, in every way. Here’s to the past for making me strong 🍻

anonymous asked:

I'm so proud of you for fighting Hela plus I just wanna say because no one else has as of yet, that you were great (illegal?) king! Haha. I know you're not a hugger but have hugs and pies anyway. ❤

It was nothing, really. Fighting my own daughter? Definitely something to be proud of. 

Now me being king? Something even I myself am proud of. Asgard happened to be at peace for the time I was ruling, not to mention everyone seemed to be fine when I took a turn to funding the arts.

anonymous asked:

started two seasons ago in bronze, and have been climbing ever since. just placed into my career high, just below diamond (2930). im a support main (mercy and lucio) and am pretty damn proud of myself.

Dude thats rad!!! Youll be a high diamond soon I have no doubt >:00

ok but imagine Pidge as the Toddler From Hell™ terrorizing teenage Matt and Shiro (but mostly Matt)

  • Shiro comes over to hang out with Matt and they’re left home alone to look after Pidge. Somehow Shiro accidentally lets the f-word slip in front of lil toddler Pidge and suddenly Pidge is running around the house screaming “FUCK” at the top of her lungs.
    • Matt is chasing her, completely pale and trying to shush her while Shiro just: “SHIT I’m so sorry oh wait cRAP I DIDN’T MEAN TO–ohmygod I should shut up now I am so sorry….”
    • Pidge: “FUCK!! SHIT!! CRAP!!” (Matt is screaming in the background)
    • Later that night at dinner….
      • Sam @ Pidge: “So, sweetie, did you have fun with Matt and Shiro today?”
      • Pidge: “FUCK!!”
      • Matt goes white as a sheet, Sam turns red, and Colleen nearly faints
        • Matt takes the fall and says he accidentally said the f-word in front of Pidge, not Shiro
      • Years later, Pidge is like “holy crap isn’t Shiro the one who actually taught me the f-word” and Shiro’s like “oh fuck, I meAN SHIT I MEAN I DIDN’T, IT WASN’T ME IT WAS MATT!!”
  • Pidge tattled on Matt ALL THE TIME. Like the time he wanted to try driving their dad’s car and backed it into a trash can. Rip Matt.
  • MATT FALLS ASLEEP ON THE COUCH AND PIDGE DRAWS ON HIS FACE WITH SHIRO’S HELP
    • Shiro actually caught Pidge in the act but he decided to join in rather than stop her
  • PIDGE PLAYING VIDEO GAMES WITH MATT AND SHIRO AND WINNING BECAUSE (of course) THEY LET HER
    • Later she secretly watches them play from the doorway when she got up to go to the bathroom in the middle of the night aND SHE FIGURES OUT THEY WERE GOING EASY ON HER SO SHE SITS HER ASS DOWN AND THROWS A FUCKING TANTRUM RIGHT THERE
    • The next time they play, Shiro and Matt play fairly per Pidge’s request, but of course she loses and proceeds to throw another tantrum :’)
  • Matt brings home a girl he has a crush on and PIDGE SHOWS HER HIS DIARY
    • Matt: “That is NOT MINE”
    • Pidge, with her hands on her hips: “Well my name isn’t MATT” *points at where Matt signed his name at the bottom of the page*
    • Shiro pops in to drop off something he borrowed from Matt and notices Matt and the girl are getting along really well and calls out, “Oh so you told her you like her?? That’s great buddy!!” and gives him a thumbs up. Matt wants to crawl into a hole and die.
      • The girl leaves 30 mins later and Shiro’s casually hanging around the kitchen like “uhhh sorry man I didn’t mean to fuck that up for you” and Matt just gives him A Look.
  • PIDGE TACKLING MATT TO THE GROUND WHEN HE’S PLAYING VIDEO GAMES AGAINST SHIRO AND YELLING “GO SHIRO GO KICK HIS BUTT AND BEAT HIM UP!!!” AND MATT’S LIKE “SLFAHJF GET OFF OF ME” AND SHIRO IS JUST FURIOUSLY HITTING BUTTONS ON HIS CONTROLLER
    • Shiro wins after Matt finally gets his tiny sister off him
    • Matt: “You’re my sister!! Who’s side are you on?!?!”
    • Pidge, sitting in Shiro’s lap with a sHIT-EATING GRIN ON HER FACE: “Shiro’s” :DDDDD (MATT FEELS SO BETRAYED)
  • Now Matt questions how he even dealt with Pidge as a kid and she’s just like “idk but you still love me so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯”

as someone who has never succeeded being anything higher than “average” her whole life lemme tell you: ya girl not only kicked her midterms in the ass but also just got told by her professor that she has the HIGHEST GRADE IN THE COURSE

HARD WORK PAYS OFF HONEYS

IF YOU WANT IT YOU GOTTA WORK FOR IT

YOU 👏🏽 CAN 👏🏽 GET 👏🏽 BETTER 👏🏽

50 random questions
  • 1: What color pen do you do usually write with?
  • 2: Last three youtube videos?
  • 3: What subjects does your favorite teacher teach? Is it the same as your favorite subject?
  • 4: How many pillows do you sleep with?
  • 5: Favorite warm beverage?
  • 6: What was the first poster in your room for?
  • 7: What creeps you out the most?
  • 8: How many scarves do you own?
  • 9: Favorite piece of jewellery?
  • 10: How long do you toast your bread for?
  • 11: You’re going to have a party, and anyone you invite is guaranteed to come. Who are the first 5 on your guest list?
  • 12: Earliest memory?
  • 13: What is the oldest piece of clothing that you own?
  • 14: What was your childhood stuffed animal?
  • 15: Childhood dream job?
  • 16: What is a recent dream that you remember?
  • 17: Do you often wake up in the middle of sleeping?
  • 18: What was the best gift you ever received?
  • 19: What was the best gift you ever gave?
  • 20: What languages would you like to learn?
  • 21: Pastel or neon?
  • 22: Favorite element?
  • 23: Did you/do you believe in fairies?
  • 24: What does your name mean?
  • 25: Does anyone hold your heart right now?
  • 26: Biggest surprise of the last month?
  • 27: What was your first ship?
  • 28: Favourite thing to bake/cook?
  • 29: How long does it take for you to trust someone?
  • 30: What was the last bad idea that you followed through with?
  • 31: First five things you do once you get out of bed in the morning, GO!
  • 32: Thoughts on dystopian novels/films?
  • 33: Thoughts on romance?
  • 34: How do you want to die?
  • 35: Top two things on your bucket list?
  • 36: What song do you get ready to?
  • 37: Heels, sneakers, or boots?
  • 38: You now have 500 dollars. What do you do with it?
  • 39: Favorite lyric?
  • 40: Earliest childhood memory?
  • 41: Who do you wish you could live with?
  • 42: How do you balance work (school etc) and personal enjoyment?
  • 43: Which teacher inspired you the most in high school?
  • 44: Where do you see yourself in 5 years time?
  • 45: Think of one person you like. Now describe them in one sentence.
  • 46: Think of one person you don't like. Describe them in a sentence.
  • 47: Showers or baths?
  • 48: What do you do when you get hiccups?
  • 49: Extrovert or introvert?
  • 50: Do you like caffeine?

partycardigann  asked:

that bitch face taemin makes at minho when minho can't remember his birthday. i think about it a lot.

concept: since that broadcast taem’s been popping up with a bday cake for minho on every 9th of the month except for december. the spelling of minho’s name on the cake gets worse each time - it starts with ‘choi mango’ and somehow ends in ‘alola exeggutor’ because taem’s salty like that

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Caejose Week 2016
Day 7 - Growing Old

you guys remember that Howl’s Moving Castle au i did last september? well its back