//I know I’m a terrible person for this, but I hc that in high school, Harrison becomes an alcoholic and drug addict. Like, it first started off because Neil introduced him to weed (Neil was using the weed to chill himself out cause he’s in all advanced placement classes), but instead of being a casual smoker like Neil, Harrison went hardcore on that shit. The pressures from his teachers to do well in school combined with the fact that his parents are really strict and treat him more like an object rather than their son, made him stressed to the point that alcohol was his only escape. It was his only outlet for dealing with his mental health because, although Nerris and a few of his other friends begged him to go see a therapist, he felt that this was his only way out.
//Now, because it was Neil who introduced Harrison to this stuff in the first place, Neil blames himself for every time Harrison mutters “I’m so fucking stupid” under his breath whenever he receives a bad grade or doesn’t understand the class material. He blames himself for every high or drunk laugh Harrison has, because Neil knows it’s fake. He blames himself whenever Harrison skips school or gets sent to the office for not doing his work in class.
//Neil blames himself for the nights where Harrison shows up drunk and crying on his door steps.
//Because of this, however, Neil becomes oddly protective of Harrison. Neil isn’t exactly all sunshine and rainbows towards his friend (he’s dealing with his own depression and half the time can’t even get out of bed without Max or Nikki running to his house and dragging him out), but Neil shows his affections in other ways. If Harrison wants to go to a party, Neil goes too. If Harrison wants to skip school, Neil goes too. Who’s the one holding back Harrison’s hair when he’s throwing up from drinking wayyy too much? Neil is. If someone makes fun of Harrison for being really “stupid” or not seeming very intelligent, Neil steps the fuck up and calls them out on their own bullshit.
//All of Neil’s affections do not go unnoticed by Harrison. He feels guilty because on one hand, this is great! Someone actually, genuinely gives a shit about him. On the other hand, though, he feels like he’s bringing Neil down with him. He feels like he doesn’t deserve someone like Neil in his life. If Harrison isn’t even trying to do well in life, why is Neil so hellbent on making sure he does?? It’s confusing and scary and part of Harrison hates it.
//And part of him loves it.