Guys, if I dectivate my blogs any time soon please don’t panic, everything would be alright. I am just in a very unstable mental state at the moment and I hate everything I’ve created so far. Nor I really believe anymore that I will ever get love and recognition I dream of. It’s just hard to keep up extending any efforts and feeling like they worth nothing at all, and I feel like giving up is better than trying for years. I don’t even think that I am a good artist, my drawings must be boring and lacking color theory - and I failed every single time I tried to study it. I just can’t anymore, maybe I have nothing good to do in the internet or drawing field whatsoever, and this disgust grown SUPER strong these days. I just can’t bear my own lack of talent, as well as feeling like I just… will never be loved enough. Every time I swallow my anxiety and force myself to finish drawings even tho I know ahead of time they won’t be liked very much, heck, they won’t even be good. I am trying really hard but I cannot stay strong for 100% of the time. I am well aware that after ‘hard’ period passes people regret deleting their blogs, so I will try to stay, but IF I give up - just don’t worry okay?