but all i see now is sam winchester and his stupid tragic life

A Supernatural x “ IT ” Crossover (part 4)

Originally posted by supernatural-imagine-fanfiction

S U M M A R Y: Their next case brings the three Winchester siblings to Derry, a city in which children seem to disappear for a unknown reason…

A/N: imagine that the IT movie plays in 2017 and not in 1988.

Also this is a crossover between supernatural and the “ IT ” movie. Not the book. It’s been a while since I saw the movie so if I make any mistakes, please don’t be angry, I really enjoyed the movie and thought that it would go super well with Supernatural.

( This is going to have multiple parts )

Chapter 4

She’s not back yet?”, Dean asks and looks out of the window into the night, outside the big ’ motel ’ sign shines bright red and the clicking sound of the clock seems to be louder and slower than ever.

“It’s already past midnight.”, Sam who sits on the bed feels how the anxiety inside of him rises with every second. He taps with his feet on the ground as he tries to call Y/N once again:“Come ‘on… come ‘on…”,he whispers but the only thing he hears is her voicemail.

Devasted he throws his phone on the bedsheets next to him:“This is bad…this is really bad…”,he exclaims and swallows thickly. The brown haired boy stands up and walks over to Dean, he puts a hand on his shoulder and senses how he shivers under his touch.

“We need to look for her, Sammy.”, Dean says, his voice breaks at the end:“Something happened to Y/N, something bad- someone bad.”, He turns around and grabs his jacket and gun from the table.

“Dean- wait!”, Sam says and Dean who already has his hand on the doorknob looks at him in confusion, why should he wait? His sister was out there, kidnapped or maybe even worse-

“Your car keys.”,he says and throws them over at his older brother before he also grabs his jacket and backpack. Dean opens the door but stops immediately when he sees how 4 boys are standing infront of the Impala. A couple of bikes are thrown to the ground a few meters away from them and at the sound of a opening door they all turn their heads to look at the two brothers.

“Oh thank God.”, One of them says as he walks up to Dean:“We thought we would never find you!”,he says and rightens his glasses:“The address in this book is really blurred-”,he explains and holds up a dark blue book.

Dean’s eyes widen when his eyes fall on the book:“That’s- that’s Y/N’s journal.”,he exclaims and takes it out of Richie’s hands:“Where did you find this?”

“In her backpack- she’s actually the reason why we are here.”,he explains and Dean takes a step closer to him.

“Where is she?”, Sam asks and his voice is shacking.

“At Bill’s.”, The boy behind Richie says and the two Winchester siblings breath a sigh of relief at least they know where she is:“But she’s hurt, it seems like as if she hit her head.”

“Follow us and we bring you to Y/N…”, Richie says and the four boys grab their bikes as the two men quickly get into the car:“It’s not far from here.”

“T-they’re g-g-going to f-f-find y-y-your bro-brothers.”, Bill whispers and looks down at Y/N, she lays on the sofa and her head is placed on his lap. Her hands are covered by little bruises and a huge cut is visible on her forehead

He gently caress her cheek and sighs before he takes a patch out of the first aid kit, carefully he sticks it onto the cut and sees how she shuts her eyes tight at the touch, when someone rings the bell and his head shoots up.

“Bill it’s us!”, The voice of Richie exclaims and Bill slowly puts Y/N’s head on one of the pillows before he stands up and walks to the front door, when he opens it he not only sees his friends, but also two very concerned men.

“Where is she?”,the taller one asks and they all step into the house, when he turns his head and sees that his sister lays on the couch he and his brother both rush over to her side.

Dean carefully puts his hand on her forehead and a small smile appears on his lips, while tears start to form in his green eyes:“Oh God you’re safe…”.

Sam who also has tears in his eyes turns to look at the boys:“Thank you so much for saving her… now tell us what happened.”,he says, while his brother Dean is still kneeing infront of Y/N.

Refusing to leave his sister, in fear if he turns away she might disappear.

Bill and his friends just look at him for a while, confused why someone would act this way just because their sister, not even really, disappeared for a hour, before Eddie turns to face the younger brother.

He starts to tell them how Y/N saved Richie’s and I quotes Eddie here “ stupid ass because he wasn’t able to get through one single day without being in some sort of danger ”, how they went to the library and how she acted after Ben told her what he knows about the city. That they followed her outside she saw that she was already lying on the ground.

“I don’t really understand what I said to her, that made her run away like this, I just told her what she wanted to know.”,Ben defends himself.

The entire time they listen to the young boys and once he finishes talking Dean finally stands up and crosses his arms infront of his chest:“What did you tell her?”

“Well…she wanted to know more about the history of Derry, I was reading some books about this city when my family and I moved here, I didn’t really have a friend’s back then so I stayed at the library the first week of the summer-”

“Come to the point!”, Richie exclaims and sighs:“They definitely don’t want to hear your tragic life story, now tell them what you told her sister.”

“O-okay, so I told her that it seems like every 27 years something bad is coming into this city, during that time when it’s here people die or disappear. Y/N asked me how long it’s been since the last time and I told her-”

“27 years…”,Dean finishes Ben’s sentence and looks up at his brother:“And now that thing came back and took all these children.”

“H-How d-d-do y-y-you k-k-know about t-t-the c-c-children?”,Bill asks perplexed as he comes out of the kitchen,in his hands he holds a blue ice pack. He makes his way up to Y/N and puts it on top of her head before his eyes fall on a picture of his brother.

Sam follows his gaze and his eyes fill with sadness when he looks at the framed picture on the bookshelf:“He’s your brother…”

Bill swallows thickly :“T-T-That d-d-doesn’t a-answer m-my que-question.”,he says coldly and looks at Dean:“B-Besides w-why a-are you h-here w-without St-Stephen?”


“When Y/N saved me from Henry and his friend, she used a gun to threaten Henry, when we asked her if it’s a real one

she said that her dad brought it for her little brother Stephen- why aren’t we seeing your dad somewhere isn’t he worried about his daughter as well?”,Richie asked and looks past them out of the window.

For a minute the two brothers just look at each other, there was no point in holding up Y/N’s lie, Dean takes a deep breath before he nods his head:“I think we need to tell you boys something.”

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Below are a list of prompts that can be used:
1)“It’s okay,” he said wrapping his arms around her as she shook with terror. “It’s over now.”
2)“No it’s not,” she whispered. “This is only the beginning.”
3)“I loved you like there was no tomorrow. But you loved me like there was no yesterday. So no, no I don’t want you back.”
4)“I’m trying to save your life right now. We’ll see who deserves what later.”
5)“Her murder had been planned a long time, probably since her birth.”
6)“What is your name?” “My name would be poison on your lips.”
7)“The world was collapsing and the only thing that mattered to him was whether or not she was alive.”
8)“Of course I lied to you. I have always lied to you all… because if I told you the truth you’d think I’m insane.”
9)“Tell me this, she looked up at him with wonder and death in her eyes, are YOU my friend?”
10)“So you’re the guy who saved my life?”
11)“She pulled the knife from her chest and smiled. ‘Was that supposed to hurt?”
12)“The phone rings. The voice on the other end says, ‘We need you.’”
13)“I always knew I’d take a bullet for you.”
14)“This is SO stupid why am I here anyway? Oh thats right I’m better than you.
15)“You heard a whisper that I was coming back again. You chose not to believe it. Big mistake.”
16)“Hand over the girl.” “Not going to happen.”
17)“Get your hand off my ass! NOW!”
18)“She stands in the street. Singing for money.”
19)“It’s funny… She was designed as the weapon. And yer I’m the one fighting to protect her.”
20)“He leapt over the railing and onto the ground below, racing towards the fallen figure as fast as he could.”
21)“No one is coming to save you.”
22)“Would you please calm down and listen to me for once?!”
23)“I can’t lose you again. I can’t, not again. I’m not strong enough.”
24)“You can’t throw me to the wolves. They come when I call.”
25)“If you hurt him/her. I’ll kill you. I swear I’ll kill you all.”
26)“Give her back to me.”
27)“Well that was tragic”
28)“I’m not here to make friends. So, don’t try.”
29)“I need a place to stay. Why? Oh, mine got blown up”
30)“YOU just got stabbed and YOU want to tell me about safety? Heres some safety for you, go fuck yourself.”
31)“You’re a freaking man-child!”
32)“She’s hiding behind the sofa”
33)“I’d kill for some peace and quiet…literally”
34)“You’re getting crumbs all over my bed”
35)“Good thing I didn’t ask for your opinion”
36)“I think we need to let some cool air in here to get rid of this attitude!”
37)“I’m bulletproof… so please shoot me”
38)“Did you just hiss at me?”
39)“I swear I am not crazy!”
40)“How is my wife/girlfriend more badass than me?!”
41)“Are you sure you want to make THAT decision?”
42)“You’re a monster.”
43)“Sorry isn’t going to help when I kick your ass!”
44)“This is girl talk….so leave or I’ll shoot you”
45)“Where am, I going? Crazy. Care to join?”
46)”Do you seriously think I’m scared of a woman?”
47)“I could punch you in the dick right now”
48)“Welcome back now help me!”
49)“You’re bleeding. All over MY carpet.”
50)“Not everyone’s out to get you so shut up talking about it!”
51)“Don’t argue, just do it.”
52)“Enough with the sass! It’s annoying!”
53)“Show me what’s behind your back!”
54)“I’m not going to be sympathetic. Nope, not until you go to a doctor. You know, the professional?”
55)“Sharing is caring! But I don’t care and I’m not sorry.”
56)“I could say no, I won’t do it again but I will. We both know that.”
57)“You want me to go to a self-defense class? I’m an assassin and you want to team me self-defense? I don’t think so.”
58)“Don’t look at me like that! I only punched the guy three times! In the nuts, but still.”
59)“You’re useless except for hurting me in every way possible.”
60)“Take your stupidity and shove it up your ass. Hopefully there’s enough room left over with your big ass head in the way.”


Sam Winchester x Reader

550 Words

A/N: Anon request from the fluff/angst drabble prompt list. Picked #33: “Why are you acting like this?” and #103: “Fuck you!” With Sam. 

All your life you had known you were cursed. Sure, it might not be an actual witches work, but it was still there, all the same. It seemed like whenever you opened your heart to anyone, they would end up leaving you. It started with your parents, when you were only four. Then your grandparents, your sister. Even both of your boyfriends had died tragic deaths, and you had given up hope that you would ever have anyone close to you.

That’s when you started traveling from town to town, doing enough odds and ends to survive, but never staying long enough to make close relationships that would only end in tragedy. Until you ran into the Winchesters, who listened to your story of a curse, and laughed in your face. They took you under their wing, and you finally had friends for the first time in years.

Slowly that friendship turned into more with the taller, younger brother with the shaggy hair. Sam hadn’t seemed phased at all by your stories of the curse, and he had made the first move, kissing you hard.

After that, you had finally thrown caution to the wind, enjoying your first real romance since high school. Sam was wonderful, and you loved him more than you could ever imagine. But then, you slowly began noticing signs that something would happen soon if you didn’t move on. Trying to ignore it, you didn’t want to leave Sam. You loved him more than you ever thought possible, but when a freak accident came close to killing him, you knew you couldn’t stay and have him die because of you.

Knowing Sam wouldn’t let you go easily, you started distancing yourself from him. Moving back into your own room, sleeping on the couch when in motels. Turning your head when he tried to kiss you, only talking to him when you had to. It was as much torture for you as it was for him, but you could see it was working.

Finally, one morning, he cornered you in the library. “Y/N, why are you acting like this?” He asked you, standing in the doorway so you couldn’t leave.

Taking a deep breath, you knew it was now or never. “Because I don’t care for you anymore Sam. I just feel trapped, and I want out.”

“Bullshit. This is because of the stupid curse, isn’t it?” He guessed correctly, but you couldn’t let him know that.

“No, it’s not. I don’t believe in that curse. Not anymore. I’m just done. It was fun while it lasted, but it’s time for me to move on.” You told him, breaking your own heart as you broke his.

“Y/N…” He started, but you stopped him.

“Sam, please. Don’t drag this out. You were fun, but now I’m bored. So, let me leave.” You said, turning to walk around him, but he grabbed your arm.

“So, this meant nothing to you?” He asked angrily, his anger covering his heartache.

“No, nothing at all. You were just a fun fuck.” You answered, going crude to get your point across.

“Fuck you.” He cursed, surprising you. You could only count on one hand the number of times you had heard Sam say that word. “Go, if that’s what you really want. But don’t ever ask for our help if you need it.”

Struggling to keep your tears hidden, you raced to your room where your bags were already packed. Knowing that no matter how much this hurt, it was a needed step.

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I Didn’t Have A Damn Choice

((A/N: So I’ve had a few drinks and I wrote this thing. I don’t hate it. I kind of like it. It’s got some serious Winchester mojo going on and who doesn’t like that? And as we know… death never stopped a Winchester.

Warnings: Language. Death.

Word Count: 2010

note: gif is not mine. ))

“C’mon, don’t you die on me, Y/N!” Dean was hovered over you, alternating between chest compressions, as you lay, lifeless. He was frantic, green eyes wide with fear and fright, leaning down to breathe into you, attempting to force life into what was appearing to be less and less hopeful as each second ticked by.

Sam watched, desperate. The hunt was supposed to be easy. Quick. It was the three of you and you had even waved it off as being more than simple. Werewolves had thick skulls, you had boasted, and you had sharp knives and speedy bullets. Dean had said you were cute and to stop it or else he’d throw up. Sam had agreed.

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Finding Supernatural -Part 1

Characters: Reader (Y/N Y/L/N), Dean Winchester (not yet), Sam Winchester, Fergus Crowlwy, Bobby Singer, Ellen And Jo Harvelle, Meg Masters (1.0), and plenty other supernatural characters.

Pairing: Reader x Crowley (purely symbolic), Reader x Dean (Future)

Warnings: Mentions of illness, mentions of dead characters, lots of imagination.

Word count: 2,660

Summary: I can never write a proper summary, but here I go… 

Y/N is a young screenplay writter, trapped in a boring relaionship that slowly drains the enthusiasm and creativity out of her, till one day she meets her muse in the most unespexted place… The Supernatural world is a place where anything can happen, but does that include a happy ending?

A/N: This is my entry for @thing-you-do-with-that-thing  SPN MOVIE NIGHT CHALLENGE. This series in inspired by the movie Finding Neverland.  

For the sake of this story the age difference between Sam and Dean is 10 years.

Thanks to my babe @whywhydoyouwantmetosaymyname for being super enthusiats about this story and for the beta work!!!  

This is kinda like my first fic edit so, idk hope you like it as well

Finding Supernatural Masterpost

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Part 1

“Dontcha love these movies previews?” Y/N hears the young woman say to her companion, sitting right in the first row.

“I mean, we get to eat junk food and drink for free while watching some stupid movie that will probably never premier or go directly into video stores,” The guy laughs and Y/N sighs, she knows the film is already doomed.

Not that she hadn’t known earlier, it’s just that she never really liked the idea… another newlywed’s comedy slash drama slash romance and happy ending, like this idea hasn’t been done before, like a thousandth times!

But she needed to deliver something and quick! Bobby was ready to chew her head and spit it out if she didn’t make it to the deadline again, he had threaten her with ripping her contract twice, though he never would, so she wrote the first thing that came to mind after a weekend of binge-watching romcom movies to help her stupid block.

“Excuse me, ma’am?” Y/N rolls her eyes at the name and slowly turns around, tangled on the thick bordeaux drapes.

“What?” she asks awkwardly smiling at the shy PA boy. “I’m kinda busy” she hisses gripping the velvet fabric around her head.

“Mr. Singer and your husband are-”

“Fiancé.” Y/N interrupts cocking an eyebrow to the blushing kid.

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Im Sorry - Part Thirteen

A/N: Now this is LOOOOOOONG overdue and i am deeply sorry for that, this part also is pretty short but its just a filler, but better than nothing right?!?!? i actually do have lots of ideas for this story thank to the ones you guys sent it :) I just have to plan it all out now but till then enjoy the filler!

Characters: Dean, Sam, Lisa, Reader

Warnings: Language

Word Count: 1000

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P.S If you wanna be tagged lemme know :)

“y/n?” Dean whispered, you rolled your eyes and pushed the knife harder into Lisa’s shoulder earning a squeal from her.

“Who else would it be Dean?”

“This isn’t you y/n!!” Sam shouted

You laughed “This isn’t you! The old y/n would have never done this!” you spoke in a mocking tone towards Sam, “Blah blah blah, that’s all a load of crap”

“Why are you doing this?” Dean asked

“Wow Dean, even someone with your lack of knowledge should be able to figure something as simple as that out”

“What do you want?”

“Oh, just some sweet sweet, sweet revenge and since i can’t have you here to see it, the next best thing is to hear her scream, and certainly not in the way you want, Dean”

“y/n, please dont” Dean whispered

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Lotus/Love’s Labours Lost

I’ve seen many excellent reviews about this episode already, so let’s jump right in, shall we? Dean is a mess, and Cas doesn’t understand what’s wrong.

When we first learned Mary was back, I had an absurd surge of optimism because, yeah, so I expected things would get even more complicated on the coming out front with one parent back in the game, but I had hoped Mary’s presence would unburden Dean, so to say, allowing him to finally be a brother to Sam, and not a parent. But, well: no such luck. Mary being unwilling or unable to ‘properly’ parent her adult children, Dean is even more of a mess; and, of course, he can’t take it out on Mary (because he knows what’s happening is not her fault) and he can’t take it out on Sam (he did in the past, and, Jesus, the guilt) and he can’t even take it out on himself (that’d be his first instinct, wouldn’t it - look at that flask Dean was carrying around in Celebrating the Life of Asa Fox), because now it’s not the time to lose control, not in front of his mother, not when Lucifer’s still out of the Cage and Sam needs him. And so, well, Dean takes it out on Cas. Cas who represents, more than anything ever could, the tragic irony that is Dean’s life - because Dean can never tell him that he loves him, can he, because Cas looks like a man, and Dean is not like that, and also because Cas wouldn’t understand (just look at him) and even if he did, what then? You think there’d be any kind of happy ending? 'What show have you been watching?’ Hunters are burned, and the sooner, the better. We know Dean never expected to get out, and he never expected to survive this long, and we know he’d convinced himself he didn’t mind - blast of glory, and all that bullshit. But now - now he’s got something he cares about. Not just his brother, who, Dean knows, and it both hurts and makes it better, would be perfectly fine without him, because Sam is a great kid and always was; and not even his mother, who doesn’t need him, anyway, and is going through the same stupid thing Dean is (she’s not suicidal, not exactly, but she knows she’s here on borrowed time, doesn’t she? and Sam doesn’t get it); no, the problem is Cas, and the problem has been Cas for some time. After all, that’s definitely who Dean was talking about two years ago, when he told some priest he wasn’t ready to die. And it was true, completely honest, what he’d said: Dean isn’t ready to die, and Cas is a very big part of the reason, and that’s why Dean resents him so much. And the more Cas proves he could, in fact, fit into Dean’s life - look at him with his stupid badge, getting in and out of morgues without raising suspicion - the more Dean resents him. And Cas, of course, doesn’t get it, which makes Dean resent him even more. Because Cas could read his thoughts, or his soul, or whatever the fuck, and this last episode reminded us of that; and, no doubt, Dean did wonder, many times, if that would be, in fact, easier: why should he agonize over the right words and the right moment, when Cas can simply - see those feelings inside him? But Cas is not like that, of course, and he wouldn’t look inside Dean without permission (or, even worse, Cas has looked inside him, deliberately or by accident, and he’s seen those things inside Dean, and - Jesus - either he didn’t understand what he was seeing, or he didn’t care at all). 

(Please excuse me while I breathe into a paper bag for a bit.)

So, yeah - all in all, I’m not surprised Dean’s being so distant. He tried opening up to Cas and Cas took a step back (fucking again). Dean told him he was afraid and insecure and had no clue what to say to his mother, and Cas almost hung the phone on him (“Don’t make things needlessly complicated, as you humans tend to do.” - emphasis mine). Because Cas is not human, and of course he doesn’t get it. And, even worse, Cas walked away. Dean told him outright he was part of their family - that he was a brother to them - and yet Cas got the hell out of Dodge the first fucking chance he got, precisely because he didn’t consider himself part of the family. And since then, Cas has been putting himself in mortal danger, over and over again, because he doesn’t get it, the stupid bastard, that his life matters - that Dean can’t -

(And it shouldn’t matter, all in all, that Cas is working with Crowley, and Dean’s surely ashamed of the stupid jealousy he’s feeling, especially because Crowley can see right through him, as fucking usual, but Dean can’t help it - look at the limey bastard, doing these things that Dean was supposed to do with Cas - working a case - interrogating suspects - and, no doubt, kicking back in some bar late in the evening, drinking and talking and laughing and what if - what if -

“Buddy boy, you’ve got what they call sex appeal.”

- because Crowley, yeah, the only reason he’s doing this is to annoy Dean - he can teleport and has no problem whatsoever torturing information out of anyone - he doesn’t care about those fake badges, and what they represent - a life where Dean can be someone real, can be respected and liked and trusted for who he is - no, all he cares about is himself. I mean, look at how protective Dean is towards those badges - “You should be proud of them,” he says, over and over, and Sam just rolls his eyes at him - and look at Crowley’s reaction when Dean takes one off him - “Armani!”.

And another thing: we know Crowley’s basically in love with Dean, and that they do share some kind of kinship, but when all’s said and done, Crowley is much more similar to Sam 'the end justifies the means’ Winchester, which is perhaps why they hate each other so much. And, well - if this show wasn’t so annoyingly hellbent into keeping the focus on Dean without actually telling us Dean’s story, this uneasy truce between Sam and Crowley would be the stuff of dreams. They are both such complex and interesting characters, and yet we still know so little about them.)

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anonymous asked:

you have the best fic recs in my opinion!! there's any fic you think every destiel shipper should read?

omg thank you :D :D hmm that’s a pretty big list in my opinion, because it would probably just include all my favorites lol. let me raid my WIP rec lists and I’ll give you my best ones.


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  • Love Is Not A Victory March by electricskeptic | 12,584 | It’s a funny thing about intimacy; if Castiel had attempted to hug him rather than Sam, Dean probably would have laughed him all the way back up to Heaven, but sex – sex, he’s familiar with. 
  • Sex is Weird by artsyUnderstudy | 1,826 | He thinks maybe he’s been falling for a long time, now.
  • Professional Couple Only by saltyfeathers | 37,153 | There’s a haunted apartment building in Vermont, and the ad says “Professional couple only”. Dean and Cas rise to the occasion.
  • Named by RC_McLachlan | 94,601 | Jesus Christ is dead. Somehow, that isn’t the worst part of Dean’s week. (As a Christian I have some mixed feelings about this one, but it’s extremely well written.)
  • The One Thing You Can’t Lose by MajorEnglishEsquire | 4,955 |  You know what I like a lot? The thought that Dean can just tug Cas anywhere at any time and Cas, who can lift tons without effort, who can demolish things with the light of his grace, who has battled and gone to war, has defended and broken, will just let Dean do it.
  • Ghost Dance by omphalos | 51,194 | In post-apocalyptic isolation, Castiel nurses Dean back to something like his former self, but will a time come when Dean’s recovered –and rediscovered– too much?
  • My Eyes Are An Ocean by entanglednow | 10,275 | It’s amazing what you decide you can get away with when you can’t see a damn thing. (Sequel.)
  • Our Bodies, Possessed By Light by Obstinatrix | 39,881 | When Castiel becomes too powerful for Jimmy Novak’s body, the only vessel that can hold him is Sam. Slight Wincest, but not really.
  • Creature of Habit by trinityofone | 5,197 | The more you love someone, the more you want to kill them. Or: How Cas developed some bad habits, and Dean coped surprisingly well.
  • Where the Sea and City Meet by RC_McLachlan | 2,935 | Castiel risked his life by going back to 1982 to find Dean’s Christmas gift, and all Dean got him was a coat.
  • How to Romance a Human by CloudyJenn | 4,433 | Castiel consults Cosmopolitan magazine in order to win Dean’s heart.
  • What Has Eight Tentacles and Isn’t Allowed to Eat Pie? by Annie D (scaramouche) | 16,188 | Dean gets turned into an octopus. It’s really great.


  • Not Part of the Plan series by Annie D (scaramouche) | 213,108 WIP |   Dean/Castiel urban fantasy AU where Castiel and Dean are from neighbouring countries (Castiel from a kingdom, Dean from a republic), and romance happens. 
  • The Breath Of All Things by KismetJeska | 65,404 | Dean Winchester was twenty-six years old when a car accident killed his father and left him paralysed from the waist down. A year and a half later, Dean is in a wheelchair and lives in a care home in Kansas, where he spends his days waiting to die. It’s only when Castiel Novak starts volunteering at the care home that Dean starts to wonder if a changed life always equals a ruined one.
  • Out of the Deep by riseofthefallenone | 488,608 | ‘Stay away from the light-beds. Stay in the deep.’ It is the first thing hatchlings are taught the moment their fans unfurl and they can swim without their parents to buoy them along. It is the first rule, the first law. It is the beginning of every boogey-monster bedtime story told when they settle against the cliffs to sleep. Castiel should have listened better.
  • Don’t Panic by deans1911 | 8,991 | Dean is a Secret Service agent. Cas is his ex-KGB handler. (Link to PDF file.)
  • Carry On by TamrynEradani | 148,087 | When Sam gets into Stanford, Dean needs a bigger paycheck than Bobby’s garage can give him. Luckily, he knows a guy. (Dom!Cas, sub!Dean, BDSM, paid relationship that becomes romance.)
  • A Hole in the World by AnnelieseMichel | 293,288 | Dean Winchester never wanted to go home again. Going back to Lawrence meant people who knew what he was, who didn’t buy into the lie. But with a tragic accident, he’s back and dealing with the death of his father, the social stigma and objectification of being an out Omega, and the lingering aftermath of a long-ago crime.
  • The Sawdust Men by linoresearch | 123,363 | Castiel Novak is an inmate at a labour camp. Life is brutal and no one ever gets out. Castiel’s only goal is to go unnoticed by the barbaric guards, and the violent inmates. Dean Winchester is a soldier without a purpose since the civil war ended. Dean accepts an assignment at a labour-camp, under the mentorship of Alistair, the Commander. From the start, Dean and Castiel are drawn to each other, and their relationship develops in a way that changes their lives. (Trigger warnings for some pretty grim and violent stuff, but this is so incredibly well-written, I absolutely love it.)
  • Convenient Husbands by Annie D (scaramouche) | 39,283 | “It’s only temporary, right?” Dean says. “Just until you’re healed up, and then we’ll never have to see each other again. So what do you say, Castiel, do you want to marry me or not?” (Creature!Castiel, telepathy, marriage of convenience, wing!kink.)
  • A Beginner’s Guide to Communing with the Dead by suspiciousflashlight | 77,159 | Dean is pretty sure he’s going completely, certifiably insane. Sure, he hasn’t started wearing all his clothes inside out, and he still showers on a regular basis (anyways, that’s not crazy, just a little eccentric); but there’s no getting around the fact that he just threw away his life, his career, and his reputation by dragging out his mom’s old necromancy book and summoning a Class A Forbidden Entity to his attic. A cranky one, too. With horrendous bed-head.
  • Shut Up (Put Your Money Where Your Mouth Is) by kototyph | 23,878 | Dean’s done some pretty stupid things, but getting drunk-hitched in Vegas to a colleague he barely knows might just take the cake.

There are a bunch of popular fics I haven’t gotten to yet cause I’m kind of a slow reader, and some popular ones that aren’t my cup of tea, so this is the best I’ve got for right now. I highly recommend each and every one of them.

A couple of Random Things about 10x10 "The Hunter Games"

So I finally re-watched the episode and thought I’d write down a couple more random things that stood out to me on 2nd watch:

  • Fiction vs. Reality: The parallel of Rowena sending out nightmarish visions to her son and starting her ploy to weaken him and Dean flashing back to the night of the massacre.
  • All you have to do is listen, Tin Man: Every time we see Dean remember killing or torturing Metatron and unwillingly feeding or activating the mark, we no longer hear the “evil little steam whistle”, but his heartbeat. So loud that it is drowning out almost every other sound.
  • The Great Escapist: The callback to 10x02 “Reichenbach” (see here) when Metatron told Cas he’d get free and probably also knew who he would owe getting out of his cell to: The Winchesters.
  • Humanity: “I approached you, because I know you share my belief that it is angels’ mission to protect humans. It’s possible I can elimiate a great threat to them, but… I will need his help.” - For reasons unknown I only now realize how deep Cas’ words actually reach. 0_0 He is talking about Dean here after all - or if you want to keep it more open: The Mark of Cain - the one person, who always was the epitome of humanity and fought for humanity with all his power suddenly is the one to endanger it. It’s just endlessly tragic.
  • Colourful Dresscode: All throughout the episode we see Rowena dressed in different shades of blue. In the introductory scene she is wearing a royal blue dress and the royal blue is actually a pretty head on description of what might be her plan: Taking over the throne (as we see her try a little later in the episode).
  • Figures of Speech and Silent Storytelling: Twice now we have seen Cas and Claire interact in a room that has ships and boats in the background. First at the restaurant and this episode in the hotel room. On top of that Claire even says the chances of her to live a normal life are next to 0: “That ship has sailed.”
  • Mommy Dearest: Crowley never getting sung to sleep, but dosed with whiskey <=> Dean getting sung to sleep with “Hey Jude” and being told hat “Angels are watching over him.”
  • What’s the tune: I have been wracking my brain over this, because I know the tune Rowena is hummng when she prepares for the spell to listen in on Crowley’s chat with Sam and Dea, but every time I think I have it, it slips through my fingers again. I think though that it might be really really decriptive and telling about her character and possible plans
  • “This would be THE Crowley who let the blade turn Dean into a demon?” - I just LOVE furious Cas. I just LOVE him.
  • Emoticons: Cas loving to use moticons might be one of the most beautiful things this episode has established. And wouldn’t it make sense for Cas to enjoy using emoticons - emotions to undermine what he wants to say since for millenia he wasn’t allowed to feel a thing?
  • The King’s Crypt: I’d say this set is going to be of import later. Why show us the crypt, with Crowley’s bones if not to revisit it? That’s Chekhov’s gun. Plus: He even was stupid enough to say where it is. So I think either they’ll come back to Crowley’s crypt, because that’s where he stashed a couple of other helpful things - as the demon tablet maybe - and maybe burn his bones. The first scene his mother implanted into him of dying in his crypt at least makes room for the possibility. Also: There seems to be painting of some kind right behind him saying “Clarence”, which is sort of interesting given Cas “is” Clarence.
  • The Harry Potter in SPN: “The River shall end at the source” / “I open at the close.”
  • The Axe Moment: It is actually such a great continuation to Sam telling Dean that maybe he has to be that powerful force and has to fight against giving in. While neither Sam nor Cas were truly able to get through to Dean, Claire screaming “No!” got through to Dean immediately. Claire, who is basically a mirror for Dean and how his life unfolded. In many ways one could say the fact that Claire got through to Dean is a first step of Dean starting to fight it. He overcame the mark in that moment. He didn’t kill then and there, even though I assume the mark was screaming for it. Instead of doing what it wanted to, he shifted it and rammed the axe into he bench.
  • Claire’s Goodbye: It kind of pains me to write this, because I had this feeling on first watch already, but maybe this is just my perception, but when Cas turns away to get into the car, for a moment it looks like Claire had hoped for a hug before parting. And of course again, it’s at a port - ships and boats in the background. Yes, that ship has sailed, but it’s never too late to turn around. And in general, while she says she needs to be alone, to me her body language says something else. She wants him to stay - or rather her father - but she wouldn’t ever admit it. Who else do you know still has troubles to ask Cas to stay?