but I am just still so amazed about this relationship

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Tom x Tara for finchmackee

Dear Tom,

I’ll tell you what I remember, seeing as you asked. That after we made love that night in my parents’ house, you asked me to get out of bed, naked. Remember how I felt? I mean we had just had sex, so that’s as intimate as I thought it got, but it’s funny that I don’t remember that part as much as you making me stand in front of you with nothing on and we were freezing cold and I felt so exposed, like I felt you could see inside the guts of me. And remember, I cried? And you were like, Shh, shh, don’t. You’re beautiful, and I can’t believe I’m writing this now, but I don’t think I’ll ever forget your voice when you said that. I think I loved you at that moment. 

But then Joe happened, and you didn’t ring or anything. You didn’t let me see you exposed from all your pain. You hid and you left me there, starkers, and for so long, for so, so long, I felt raw. Don’t ever ask anyone to do that again, Tom. Don’t ever ask them to bare their soul and then leave it. It’s fucking cruel and no matter how much pain you were in, you had no right. Because sometimes it makes me want to shudder, because sometimes I still think I’m there in my bedroom standing naked, except it’s like the whole world can see me, and they’re laughing like sometimes I remember people laughing at me behind my back in high school. And it makes me just want to cry with shame.

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Dear Tara,

If you think I’ve forgotten anything about that night, you, most gorgeous girl, are laboring under great misapprehension. I remember everything. I remember your petticoat.. slip… whatever the hell it’s called, and how you let me take it off. You made me close my eyes and that was even more of a turn on.

You’ve always seen through me and that’s freaked me out. You saw the stuff I didn’t show other people. The part of me that sometimes can be a bully, because I come from a family of it. Learned behavior because I think my dad was taught by Bill and Bill was taught by his father and sometimes I feel it inside me as well, except we’re not actually comfortable with it, but it’s there and it frightens all of us. And that night you saw the fear. You made it go away for just one minute and then Joe happened and I couldn’t speak anymore and the numbness-please, God don’t ever let me feel that numbness again. I think I was scared that you wouldn’t be able to make the numbness go away and if my mum and dad and Anabel couldn’t, and then you couldn’t, I didn’t know whether I could handle that.

I know I stuffed up and I know your peacekeeper probably treated you like gold and I’ve treated you like crap but I want you to know that I remember the conversations we had in Year Twelve, when you told me you wanted to do a cultural studies degree because you believed in trade, not aid, and you believe that the only way was to ask the questions and listen to the needs of the people and I remember thinking that exact moment, I want to change the world with her. And I remember feeling that again in Georgie’s attic. That’s a powerful gift you have there Ms. Finke. To make the laziest guy around want to change the world with you. So next time you remember standing in your bedroom naked, know that it is the most amazing view from any angle, especially the one where we get to see inside.

Love always,

Always,
Tom

Calvin’s interviews

These are evertyhing. The way he just talked about Taylor and said their relationship was fantatsic  just was so amazing. He really does love and care for Taylor. The fact that they hang out and watch Netflix like normal couples is so cute. I’m glad they both found each other, especially since he didn’t wanna date a celebrity and she didn’t wanna date anyone because of the media. Calvin must be really special. This interview truly proved how different this relationship is. For Calvin to openly talk(and basically say how much he loves Taylor) is different and amazing. It truly feels like he is the one for Taylor. He cares about her so much-he doesn’t care about all the cameras. He even said it could be much worse and he would still be insanely happy. They love each other so much and I am just so happy for the two of them.

anonymous asked:

It's 1:59 am. It's been a year and a half. She left me for someone she told me to never to worry about. She promised forever.

I’m so sorry you’re still struggling with this loss. Sometimes people cross paths with one another at the wrong place in the wrong time. At one point two people can have the best relationship in the world, but it doesn’t mean they are meant to last forever. Just keep in mind and remember that you are more than this. If she could move on from someone as amazing as you, then you can, too. I know it’s hard to understand but in the grand scheme of things, there is so much more than one girl who once broke your heart. Sending you my love and I hope you’re able to get past all of this.

anonymous asked:

She's a best friend of mine, we always talk. Sometimes she'll call me late at night or early in the morning to vent to me, or if she needs to feel safe/secure. Im one of the few (by her words) people who really get her and can say the right thing (Even if I dont feel I can) we're great companions. Sadly she does have a boyfriend, but I am so happy to be as we are, that Id be happy if we progressed or stayed as we are. Shes just so pretty and sings great and is one of the few I trust implicitly

She sounds amazing.

Sometimes boyfriends are temporal. Even good relationships end. I still have hope for you two.

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