How I Fill My Prescription
1. Find a time to schedule a doctor visit within the 2-day grace period for refills. This must usually be done months in advance. Nothing may interfere with the scheduled visit or I do not get meds this month.
2. Visit doctor–only available during regular business hours, meaning either a $5 bus ride and 2-3 hours of lost wages or a $10-15 Lyft and 1-1.5 hours of lost wages.
3. Convince doctor that I really still need the medication.
4. Convince doctor that I am not using the medication recreationally
5. Receive hand-written paper 30-day prescription
6. Pay for the office visit [$30]
7. Go directly to the pharmacy, since it must be filled immediately [see point 2 re: lost wages and transportation costs]
8. Be looked up in a directory of schedule II patients to ensure I’m not filling too early, or at a different dose, or by a different doctor, or any other factor that will cause me to be denied and/or treated like a criminal
9. Have my insurance run, separately
10. Wait for and then pay for the medication [$45]
11. Defend the bottle and the prescription saying I’m legally allowed to have it with my life, lest I end up in jail
12. Fear for my employment, let alone dignity, every time UDTs come around
13. Live with the crushing awareness of how heavily stigmatized both my condition and medication are; be treated as a faker, an addict, a liar, or a literal child by friends, family, and medical professionals alike
14. Know that I could be denied or made unable to access treatment any time, for any of a number of bullshit reasons
15. Have the difficulty of EVERY SINGLE step magnified tenfold by the very symptoms I’m trying to treat
Now, did I describe the process of getting my pain meds, or my ADHD meds?
Trick question, the list is the exact goddamn same either way.
Stop. Throwing. Disabled. People. Under. The. Bus.
We are all suffering, we are all up against the exact same monstrously unfair, unjust, cruel machinery of ableism. We are all treated poorly, we all deserve better.
And we are the only ones we can count on to stand up for ourselves and each other. Without solidarity, we all lose. We must, always, be mindful of whether we are standing together or tearing each other down.