burn out hard


#kdramawomensweek || day eight: Happy International Women’s Day

Yoo Eun Jae (Park Hye Soo), Yoon Jin Myung (Han Ye Ri), Jung Ye Eun (Han Seung Yeon) , Kang Yi Na (Ryu Hwa Young), Song Ji Won (Park Eun Bin) ↦ Age of Youth (2016)

“Others are just like me. Other people are people, just like I am. They feel as uncomfortable as I do, and hesitate, just like I do. There are plenty of people who are as nice as I am.”  - Eun Jae

“Everyone has their own circumstances to deal with. And until you know the circumstances they’re in, you can’t tell people how to live their lives. I’m sure you have something like that about you, too. Something that others can’t understand about you, but you can’t help. That’s why you can’t judge people.” - Ji Won  

“I hate you because I want to become like you, but can’t. So I can’t help but hate you. That’s why it smells. There’s a rotting smell coming from my envy.” - Yi Na

“Sometimes, I want to cry out loud. I want someone to hear me crying. I want them to hear me cry, and tell me everything will be okay. I want someone to pat me on the back, and tell me that it’s not my fault.” - Jin Myung

“Lies may be similar to makeup. Just like one puts on makeup to hide their naked face, people use lies to hide the truth. I tell more and more lies as my makeup gets thicker. Since when did I start feeling that going out with no makeup on was embarrassing? Since when did I become so ashamed of the truth?” - Ye Eun

Each of the Belle Epoque girls is meant to play some sort of female archetype. Eun Jae is the painfully shy introvert, who would sooner walk over hot coals than willingly enter into conflict with someone. Ji Won is her near-perfect opposite, loud and bubbly, the perennial friend. Yi Na is the femme fatale, dangerous and seductive. Jin Myung is the Good Daughter, putting herself through college while paying off her mother’s debts, incurred while her brother lays comatose in a hospital bed. Ye Eun is the quintessential girl. The one who dresses just as she’s supposed to, the one with the frat boy boyfriend, with equally perfectly-dressed girlfriends to link arms with and walk around campus, giggling over the latest gossip. 

Yet, they’re so much more than these skeletal stereotypes might’ve forced them to be. 

Eun Jae swallows her anger until she can’t anymore, until she boils over. She tosses Ye Eun’s designer handbag out the window and screams at her housemates. When we dig a little deeper, we see that she has nightmares. That she’d been brave enough to protect her mother when she’d suspected that her father might kill her.

Ji Won knows everyone, making friends is as easy for her as breathing. She is the glue that holds the Belle Epoque girls together. And she’s a pathological liar. Falsehoods slip out for her as easily as the truth does. She tells tall tales, spinning them until she can no longer take it back. Yet, even as she spins her web of lies (with the ghost inside the apartment), she holds the girls together. Though her “ghost” is a made-up story, each of her roommates has heaps of baggage. That little lie in the end allows them to come to terms with their pasts and face their problems. She is the anchor; without her, they drift.

Yi Na suffers from a serious case of survivors guilt, to the extent that she carries the little girl who died when she lived, around with her like baggage. She looks after her housemates like a mama bear, protecting them (see: Ye Eun) even when they don’t wish to be. She carries heaps of self-loathing along with her designer bags, flashes her luxuries at her friends even as she envies them. 

Jin Myung stretches herself fifty different ways trying to do it all. And she wishes her brother would die, and put them all out of their misery. She wishes her mother would choose her, for once. She wishes she would stop having to be the one to sacrifice. She provides for them still. But she resents and she loathes, and it tears her apart.

Ye Eun shows off her perfect life, her perfect love life, while suffering through an abusive relationship. Through a petty, small, excuse of a man who puts her down at every opportunity. He is her captor, and though she knows what he does is wrong, she can’t help but crave his affection. She let’s go, eventually. She begins to overcome the abuse, one day. She’ll carry on with her life, because it’s what they do.

Every single one of these incredibly special girls has a spine of steel.

The media, society has a horrible track record when it comes to forcing women into boxes, restricting our actions. Yet Age of Youth takes hold of these archetypes and shows us all that there is no “one size fits all”. That one shoe fitting doesn’t mean it’s the only one you can wear.

Happy International Women’s Day, everyone!

Burn out.

Burn out is a real thing that happens and it sucks. But the silver lining is that it means you worked really effing hard.

I always thought it wasn’t a real thing. I thought burn out happens because you gave up or got into drugs or something, because that’s how it’s portrayed in the media. I’ve been really burnt out a couple times in my life, and I absolutely refused to take breaks, because burn out doesn’t exist, right? I pushed through it and pushed and pushed until I had nothing left to give, because that’s what I was taught to do. I never stopped working – I wouldn’t even give myself a break during the summer. At the time, it seemed like the right thing to do.

Because of all this burn out, I didn’t do well. I didn’t do well academically, in my personal, everything, because I had absolutely no energy. I had no brain power. Failing in my life made me push even harder and refuse even the tiniest breaks, because failures shouldn’t be taking breaks. In reality, giving myself a short amount of time, like part of a summer, to do nothing instead of cramming my schedule full of academic and social obligations, I probably wouldn’t have done terribly.

It’s a great thing to work hard, but you also need to work smart. Know what you’re capable of. Know when you need to take breaks. You might need it.

onthebanksoftheriverstupid  asked:

I want to thank you for all of the encouragement you give people who ask you about art. That being said, where have you found the bulk of your encouragement when you are doubting yourself or your skills?

it’s my pleasure!! young or beginner artists deserve to know that other artists have all been in the same place at some point or another.

and i had to think about this for a while, but i think i’ve always been encouraged by other artists indirectly. looking at it, i’ve always had a natural curiosity when looking at another’s work and thinking “how did they do that??” which made me look past my doubt and focus on something fresh

i also once followed an artist who had an awesome style, but they were asked “could you tell us what you learned in this [art college course]? i’m really interested in that” and they gave the response “no, and if you want to know, afford the tuition yourself. i’m not giving away this knowledge for free” and i found that to be………..MASSIVELY discouraging, and i promised myself i would never withhold the knowledge i’ve gained, if only in effort to help encourage artists to push forward themselves.

sometimes all it takes is hearing the words from the person whose work you enjoy to push you most 

Anonymous said:

Your art is pretty amazing! (I’m not an English speaker, so I hope it doesn’t make it not amazing or something^^“”“”“”“”“”“”“”“” I love your art very much!!

looks great!! i appreciate your efforts! thank you so much ♥♥♥♥

anonymous asked:

what causes the chocobros to be petty?

This request gave me a little bit of a laugh… I filled them all nearly on-impact but Gladio took me a couple of days to think of…

For Noctis, literally just mess with his sleep schedule one too many times. The boy loves his sleep. I feel like Noct would be the definition of, “I ain’t got no sleep ‘cause ‘a y’all, y’all not gon get to sleep ‘cause of me!” whenever he’s petty. 

For Prompto, repeatedly use all of the hot water during the rare times they actually get to stay at a hotel. If it happens once or twice he’ll let it slide because hey, these things happen… but repeatedly, when you know he’s gotta take care of his hair? (He hates washing his hair with cold water.) It’s on.

For Gladio, spoil a book for him. He normally reads historical books, but in the rare times that he finds himself with a fictional book, if someone spoils it for him he’ll be rather upset about it. Finally, he found some fiction that seemed interesting, and someone just had to ruin the ending…

For Ignis, drink the last can of Ebony. Whether accidental or intentional, whoever drank the last can will have to keep an eye out for the comeback… even though they’ll never see it coming. 

the day after anxiety attacks and urgent care

we decided to ADULT

we got the houseclean for the landlord to do a walkthru

(mostly the husband, while I was sleeping, he has evil insomnia, but now our house is so pretty?)

and then we got a realtor

and actually went and looked at a house

with a horror movie room, istg 

it made me think of that twitter spiel that’s been wandering around, with the lady who said she suddenly realized she was every dumb white lady in every horror movie ever and all because of some roses and a porcelain tub? I mean, we actively noticed the creepy, but still

for one thing the place didn’t smell right

the realtor was all, dogs maybe?

but I’ve been in scuzzy pet stores and shelters, I’ve known people who had sick pets or sick people and got behind with the pets

it was not dogs

(speaking of, they just had the dogs in the backyard, running around while no one was home, so not only is that not safe for the dogs, we the people viewing the house couldn’t actually look at the back of the house, or the foundation, or the yard, or the fence, because free-range unknown dogs jumping about.)

the smell also wasn’t, you know, oh we forgot to take the trash out and it sat for a week, or oops we should’ve shampooed the rugs this was

unpleasant and yet completely unidentifiable

(I mean, I don’t think it was a dead body smell, to judge from previous experience with roadkill and that one time we got squirrels in the walls when I was a kid? but it was not a good thing either)

and one of the bedrooms was locked

both doors 

including the one from the bathroom, like, have you ever seen a bedroom-to-bathroom door that is lockable from inside the bedroom rather than the bathroom?

and no one was home, but both doors were locked so like … how did the owner get in there?

why would you lock a door when you have an appointment for a realtor to show your house so people have to be able to walk through it?

what were they hiding?

so yeah, we’re definitely not getting that one

burn-gormans-eyelashes  asked:

I made irresponsible promises and now that young McCree and tiddy Genji are out I have to fulfull my debts and become a Genji/McCree main. I main Lucio and Symmetra and have no idea what to do but at least I'll look hot and sexy while doing so. (I just wanted to vent with someone who would probably sympathize)

holy shit dude i 1000% sympathize i learned how to play hanzo just bc i love him w/ a passion :’’))) gO FORTH AND BE HOT… MAKE ME PROUD

Lose my mind (Damian Wayne imagine)

Requested: No
Request: No
Summary: Exam season is taking a toll on you
Word count: 456
Warning(s): stress ? 

It was one of the most stressful times of the year, exams taking a hefty toll on your mental health. These exams determine pretty much the rest of your life, from what school you can go to, to the jobs you can have in the future, and it was just way too much.

No matter how much you studied, you still managed to find things you didn’t know or wasn’t extremely sure of. No matter how many practice questions you answered, something still managed to catch you off guard.

Energy drinks had become a lifeline and of course, when you needed it the least, you managed to spill it all over your notes, taking away valuable time you could have spent revising with having to re-write most of them.

You couldn’t go out with friends and most social interaction was limited to asking about concepts that you weren’t sure of or questions you didn’t know how to answer. Damian was beyond worried. He saw the bags under your eyes, the nervous ticks that only come out when you’re stressed, the anxious tears you were so desperately holding back. The lengths that you’re willing to push yourself just for one exam just so you could get the points you needed.
He saw everything but didn’t know what to do. He watched you spiral out of control, your physical and mental health both taking a plummet. 

For once Damian felt helpless and useless, as he watched you over work yourself day in and day out.
“Beloved, please, you need to eat, you haven’t eaten since this morning and it’s already 8 pm.” He says trying ever so desperately to get you to eat. “Is it really that late already, I swear it was just 9 am.” You say in quite the surprise. “You’re going to burn yourself out working this hard, take a little time off, we could watch a movie and eat. You’ll do fine on the exam.” He pleaded, resting his hands on your shoulders, as he stood behind you. 

“There’s still so much I don’t understand or know, I just can’t fail this Dami, I feel like I’m losing my mind” you sigh resting your head on the back of your hand as tears finally spill.

“You won’t fail, please, this is destroying you, you need some time off.” He said massaging your shoulders before crouching next to you, pulling you into a tight loving embrace, as you quietly sob as you grab a fist full of his shirt.
“If you eat and relax for an hour or two, I’ll help you study, okay?” He asks, tilting your head so he could see your face. You nod, as Damian guides you to your feet, taking you to the kitchen.

After getting a bite to eat, you two cuddle up on the couch, watching your favorite movie, and not before long your gentle snores fill the air as Damian smiles, kissing your hair. 

Damian knew he succeeded for the night.


With love,


Killer Miller


I am so tired I would pay someone to swing a golf club at my head and knock me out for a week.  :D  Bed time tonight, I think.

In other news, I look at these and think this game is being interpreted here as being more fun than it is.  Probably.  Maybe.  Definitely not on a single EP basis; all of this is all-EP, near-all-SP, plus heavy mod stuff.  Idk.  I find it just as amusing as depicted but most people burn out hard on this game and I wonder who is unusual here, them or me?  xD (Don’t answer that.)

hey everybody, and thank you for joining us for another episode of million dollars but. 

gosweetcaramel99  asked:

Yuni!!!! Don't get yourself to be overwhelmed ! If you need to have to take a break, you can go ahead <3 . Your well being is more important

Bless you for the kind words! I managed to do a couple but I’m feeling tired and it’s getting late, I can only apologise for not getting to all of them like I had hoped I would <333

Post ITA headcanons

Me and my friend had a very tearful discussion about our boy cole and rubiam post ITA and reached the following conclusions:

1) Ruby would probably want Liam to see and understand Cole the way she did. She’d probably end up telling him about the scar and what follows will be one of the worst breakdowns she’d ever seen Liam have. But together, they’d make it through this rocky patch.

2) Cole would never leave them. They’d see him in every red they helped. Yes, Ruby would try to help as many reds as she could. And then Liam would make sure they had a place to stay after they’re themselves again. Together, they’d make Cole proud. And then they’d finally name their first born Cole.

3) They’d bless their son with stories about Cole about the kind of man he was and how he led and helped others. Our boy Liam would do the storytelling mostly with Ruby adding in.

4) Little Cole would come home with drawings of the family with Cole in it too. The first time when Ruby sees it, she’d probably be close to tears. Because it could’ve been better. It should’ve been better.

5) Cole JR would hunt for newspaper clippings about Cole. At a point, Cole would become his hero. One day, Ruby would probably stumble upon the clipping and she’d break down and Liam would hold her.

6) They’d definitely take Cole jr to Cole’s grave.

“I want to be more like you.” Cole jr @ cole

“Don’t be like me. Stay true to you. Don’t let the flame inside you burn out. I didn’t fight hard enough. Be the better man. Be like your mom who fought so hard and like your dad who stood up for what he believed in. Make your parents proud.”

Mooore bracelet girls magical girl AU sketches

Their general transformation appearances are like so…

Their eye colors change to the color of their bracelet color (which in Serena’s and Rin’s case isn’t that interesting haha…), and their bracelet jewel itself appears on their head somewhere.

Yuzu’s draws power from music and flowers, of course, and Serena draws power from the moon (while obtaining a cat-like appearance in her transformation). More details on their weapons yet to come though…

I’ve still yet to figure out Rin and Ruri’s exact outfit and powers (because their cards haven’t been revealed yet) but I wanted to show at least their appearance from the neck-up. Ruri’s hairpiece would be the double-winged design that’s seen on her bracelet, but that’s a little hard to tell here… And Rin’s was hard to figure out because I don’t have a very good reference for her bracelet Q 7 Q In general though, it will be like a tiara, since she has nothing in her hair in canon to replace it with haha