burn a bridge

anonymous asked:

What's your opinion on Scorpio moons?

as a scorpio moon myself it’s a bit hard to judge about this placement without bashing it all the time, because having a scorpio moon is really not easy to handle, but i rlly gotta admit that it depends which other placements and aspects influences it. 

A scorpio moon can be emotional wise, passionate, clever and really mature even. they are eccentric and bright minds, creative, even tho the emotions literally devour these indivduals. at the same time they are stubborn, very fixed in opinion, jealous and extreeemely paranoid. they can develop trust issues that will ruin their own life and relationships as they like to burn bridges when feeling attacked or uneasy, trust me, i can speak for myself and other scorpio moons at this point. also: they REALLY try to hold everything in and keep their emotions under the surface, they usually fake smiles, but the more they oppress their anger and sadness the worse the outburst is and that can be really nasty.

I like scorpio moons actually, emotions go deep here, and the quote ‘still water runs deep’ really is 101% fitting, people with this placement can be v interesting for others as they natural keep most stuff for themselves and always leave you guessing.
buuuut, after all I’d say that I LOVE developed scorpio moons (BLESS THEM) but cannot really stand undeveloped scorpio moons, always have problems with these folks, eh. 

The truth just hurts less when it is not parading around in front of us. See, I only doused myself in gasoline when you handed me that match because I was tired of being a metaphor. I mean, why is it always about burning? We never did find that bridge. Never did burn it down.
—  Sabrina Benaim, How to Unfold a Memory
DON’T WANT TO BE THE ONE BUILDING BRIDGES ANYMORE / DON’T WANT TO BE THE ONE THEY COLLAPSE ON / YOU CAN START ALL THE FIRES YOU WANT / I WON’T BE AROUND TO SEE THEM / I JUST DON’T WANT TO BURN ANYMORE / I JUST DON’T WANT TO BURN.
—  i’m letting go || s.o.

The other big thing from last night was Percy’s thing with Scanlan and that’s also definitely worth talking about.

The main takeaway from it for me was that Percy has officially disowned Scanlan as part of his family. His reasons for this are twofold, I think. 

The first reason is what Percy more or less directly told Vex: Percy knows that Scanlan doesn’t actually believe the things he yelled at them. Scanlan was just saying things that were hurtful in order to burn bridges and leave the party. There were a few bits and pieces of true things buried in what Scanlan was yelling about, but most of it was simply aimed to hurt and Percy is much more aware of that than the rest of Vox Machina, who have mostly taken it at face value.

Scanlan hurt the rest of them to make himself feel better and Percy’s main associations with that are his abusers and himself - none of which are people Percy is inclined to forgive.

The second reason is what Percy has never said out loud and it’s that he can’t stand the idea of somebody abandoning their family. The idea of just leaving a group of people who need you is abhorrent to Percy. Why? Because he did that. He ran and he left Cass behind and he left Whitestone behind and he kept running for five years and he hates himself for it. Percy considers himself a massive coward for his actions back then and now Scanlan is repeating them - and let’s not forget that Scanlan wasn’t originally going to leave with Kaylie. He was just going to leave everyone behind and Percy is Not Impressed by Scanlan copying the thing that is the source of Percy’s deepest self-loathing.

As for Percy’s actions, Percy said he wanted his things back, but the two things he mentioned were the Gatestone and the earring of whispers, neither of which are inherently Percy’s. They are, however, inherently Vox Machina’s. The Gatestones and the earrings were never intended for specific people but rather were for group usage. As far as Percy is concerned, if Scanlan doesn’t want to be part of the group anymore then he shouldn’t have group property - especially property they need. We saw how obnoxious it was that Tary didn’t have an earring and the Gatestones are hugely useful items. I don’t believe Percy actually knew Vex gave one to Scanlan (he was told Scanlan had it later but he had already left the room when Vex convinced Scanlan to take one of the stones) and he probably assumed Scanlan had it before and just left with it.

Now Scanlan actually does have a piece of property that is definitely Percy’s by rights - Scanlan still has one of the guns they confiscated on Glintshore and 15 rounds of ammunition. Percy is not aware that Scanlan has this and if he found out, his reaction would be pretty bad and Scanlan is well aware of that which is why he’s been hiding it from Percy since he took it.

Here’s the biggest problem with all of it:

Despite what Percy says and what he wants to feel, and despite the fact that he has bitterly crossed Scanlan off his family tree - he still cares.

Percy conned Keyleth out of the Scrying Eye by pretending to be a pervert and he did it because he cared where Scanlan was and how he was doing, and he knew the rest of the party wouldn’t agree to scry on him. But Percy is always willing to play the bad guy for everyone’s benefit and you can’t tell me Vex wasn’t relieved to hear Scanlan was fine when Percy told her. The whole party wants to know but they know it’d be intruding to check, so Percy checked for them.

The spy is the same thing. Percy doesn’t think for even half a second that Scanlan is going to do anything that’s worth his time to know about. He’s just traveling, having stilted conversations with his daughter, and entertaining farmers. Percy sent a spy so that if Scanlan gets into some shit or ends up dead, VM will know about it ASAP and they can get to the location to do something about it. That’s pretty much it. That spy is either going to be incredibly entertained or insanely bored for the next year.

Or, y’know, Kaylie or Scanlan will notice said spy and send him back home with a rudely worded message and a kick in the ass, but Scanlan’s perception is trash so that’s probably gonna be on Kaylie to catch him.

At any rate, the long and the short of it is that nobody takes betrayal quite as poorly as Percival de Rolo, nobody holds a grudge as stubbornly, and nobody loves their family quite as fiercely and as violently. And that’s why I can’t wait for Scanlan to come back to the group in a year’s time and for Percy to spend three months hissing and snarling at him like a scorned cat.

S̩̟̱̱̱O̧͕͉̪̺͓ ̩S͟Ḫ͈̣͍̜͕A̪L̞̯͖͓͔̲L̖̣̠̯͝O̤W̹̜̙͓̭̙̰ ̢͖̭͖͎
͏̦ͅS̷̘̜̣̩O͓̫̯͎͚ ̹H̡̪̬͙̞̮͍̮O̭͎͎̝ͅL̴̟̤̗̱L̨̩̺O̮͓W̜͍̙
̀N͕̬͙̫O̯̹͖͇̯T͇̼͓̳͝ ͔̦̤B̡̩̰̠̗͔̮U̝͍Y̜̻̼I̵̱̬͉̥Ṇ̛̭̟̺G̛̻ ̴̙W̤̰̹̖͝H̸̟A̤͠T̥̫͔̱͖ ͖͙Y̢Ọ̺Ṷ͎̠'̞̰̞̻̪̳R̸̙̼͈̹͔͚͉E̸̖̹ ̰̰̖͍͉́ͅT͖͉͇̲̭̫R͈̱̯̱ͅYI̱͕Ṋ͈G̱̱͙͎͖͝ T̝͎̩̙O͖̫͚͝ ̷̬̳̥̰̬̜̳S̟̬E͎͝L͞L͓͎ͅ

W̵̥̖͓̤͇̭̽͋́E̯͍̮̩͓̬͂̋ͪͭ͂̃ͬL̖̫̠͙̪͑͆̉̾̅̐́L͎̗̙̭̜̗̝͗ͪ̚ ͚̭̻̤̞̘͚̔̂̎̋͢S̛̳̙̳͙̆̀̄̍Ő̯͚͊̚͠ ͕̽̍L̜͖̜̠͔̉ͧ̂͢O̫͐ͧ͊N̯̣̟̺̪̟̆ͩĜ̬̹̮͙̋̾ͩͨ
͗ͪ̓͌͋҉̲͚̺̭̱̱A͚̐ͯN͕̟͔͙̺̞D̺̜̩̈̔͑͆̈̊ ̘̫̯̠͓̜͚ͬ̑̃͐͊͂̏F̠̼̰̤̭̻̦͠A̜͉̮͙̙ͭ͐ͭ̈̚͠R̯͚͕̼̃̓ͯE͒͐̂̅W͕̥͇̺̼̻̗̊Ĕ̮͓̰͈́ͭ̇L̊ͨ͡L͇̪͚͓̯͉̖ͦ͒̎̅̉̌
͈̝̰͊͆̓̅I̥̥̗ͅT͇̳͈̱̬̟̥̎͟'̐͟S̵ͮ̿ ̲̔́̏̔̈́̾̀Ǹ̮̭̓O̘̖̟̜͖͚̝̽͗̅͋̋T̩̗̭ͧ̀̎̋ͫ̑͛ ̗̋̃̾ͦͭͩG̮ͭ͒ͪ̊͗O̫̯͖̦ͤ̉ͨO̲̹͍ͫͣ͐̉̽̓D̦̩͓̗̩͈̒ͥ̾̇Ḇ͎͔̯̞̦̹ͭͦͦ̾͌̚Ÿ͎̖͔̝̺́ͧͨ͛͋ͅE̠̬̮͙͔̠ ̛̒́̈́ͮ̑̚C̸̜̙̻̈͑ͧ̓A̶͍͖̼͎̟͖̾ͬͨ͐ͨ͛͊U̟̞͉̣̯̱S̢̭͐ͣ̀̐E͔̤̗͕̼ͬͦͦͪ̀ͪͭͅ
̽
I̡̛̫͖̭̙̺ͅ'̵̡̬̲̥̜̖͇͖̹̝͇̟͙͓͕͢͢L̡̛͕̦̺͖̘̲͔̳̺Ĺ̵̷̻̗̹͓̝͕̖̣̩̜ ̰̺͓̻̩̪͖̹͔̠́́ͅS̨͏̞̫̦̦E̴̤̜̺̫̲̣̩͕̟̯͔̱͉̠̭̗̠̞͘͠ͅE̡҉̛̹̮͍͉̭̟͍̲͎̠̝͕̯̜̮̭ ͇̩͓͇̭̜́͟͡Y͖̮͓̫̖͇͙͕̫̺̱̬̝̣͘͘O̶̧̠̮͚̮̥̠̝͓͈̮̣͚͝U̵̸͢҉̦̖̗̲̩̳̦̪͈̯̹̞͇ͅ ̢͘͠҉͏͓̘̻̟̹̺͖͎͖̣̮͎͔̞͓͙͓̗̹Ị̸̸̡̗̠̹̹̟̙̟͇͝N͏̸̢̠̳͕̩͇̻͇͎̲͙̠͈̘̕ ̶̸́҉̲̗͚͖̭̖͚͔̖̱̥̫̺̪̘̪̜ͅͅH̷̢̹̩͙̳̫̠È̶̶̳̤̪̠͙͔͇͎̙̫̦̥͍̤ͅͅͅL̨̗̞̲̗̤͔̥̣̼̗̯̮͕̬͠Ļ̸̩͉̱͎̳̳̬̱̭͖͇͎͟ͅ

Here’s your problem.
You don’t believe in forever because you automatically give people an expiration date the moment you meet them.
Nothing will last for you.
You lay there and you wonder why you feel so empty.
How can you be emotionally full when all you do is push people away the moment they try to get close to you?
You burn bridges that shouldn’t be burnt.
And so you sit at a party full of ‘friends’ and yet you feel alone.
You wonder why everyone leaves. 
But who would want to stay if you don’t give them reasons to?
— 

-Read it, and let it sink in. Maybe then I’ll stick around.

-m.t.t.