Uh oh, it looks like you’re too caffeinated to sense energy or receive messages accurately! Do you:
Wait a few hours and try again
[B] Keep chugging coffee until you transcend to another plane of existence and you think you can feel the veil between Here and There thinning, then later drug yourself to sleep before that Mania™
can really set in and convince you the government is watching you through every electrical device or you’re ¼th more impervious to gravity than the average person or some other ridiculous shit
do you ever think about guarnere being 21 when he lost his leg? toye being 25? do you think of the boys who were their ages- or younger- who faced the same thing and worse? twenties are the time everyone discovers themselves after they leave their parents. they still usually have the comfort of coming home when they want. these boys (and most of them really were. boys forced to face unspeakable horrors.) didn’t have that. these boys left everything they knew and could come to know for a cause they believed was right. hell, maybe because they got drafted or the pay was better than a dead-end job. happy d-day
I’m sorry. I wanted to say that first. I am so sorry I left when you needed me. And that I’m leaving again, and that I left so much when I came back. I am going to come back. This time, I’m not leaving cause of some bullshit moral high ground decision. I’m leaving because…I just need a break from everything that’s happened.
Every day I’m worried I’ll hear you, or one of the others, or an anon got attacked. I’m worried that someone will pop up in my room bloody and dying. I never want to see someone die again. I thought Imaj did once, and then I saw another in front of me.
I remember a lot more. I remember us now. I remember the four years we dated and how oblivious I was to our feelings. I remember almost burning down the kitchen (Astro is also a terrible cook). I remember dates where we spent a night on the roof…and fell asleep there and got in trouble because Mo didn’t want us getting sick.
The box on the bed is the puzzle pieces you gave me, and some letters I never sent you. Read them, or don’t. Trash them if you want. But. To me, these represent our old forever. Before the trauma happened. I still love you Logan. A lot, honestly. I didn’t want to tell myself I still did, because I honestly didn’t think I deserved you. After what I did.
Our old forever, it’s over. We can never replicate the old way we acted around one another. The old feelings and innocence and lack of just-fucking traumatic events. But…if we want to work with each other and ourselves…we could make a new forever. I want to, but, I totally understand if you don’t want to.
Just, take care of yourself, okay? See you soon, promise. -Phoenix.
I wrote down my wake up times again last night. (Not on tumblr in a state of delirium, alarming everyone, yay!) I’m gonna do it though the weekend and see if not having to go to work in the morning changes how much I wake up, but right now it looks like I only sleep about an hour at a time and then wake up.
Apparently chief causes of this are anxiety (haha, every problem I have and Google has this as a cause) and not eating a perfect diet (we all know how much I hate making food). Sooooo I have to make some bullshit decisions about suffering through therapy and meds soon, I guess.
Why do you hate all the Gracie's so much? Including Helio? Please make a top 10.
Because they’re ASSHOLES even the ones that everyone thinks are cool. I can hear the “Wat about Renzo?” right now. Well…
and he spat on
Michiyoshi Ohara during their fight. So fuck Renzo as well. I’m not going to do a top 10, because its as simple as them being losers, ESPECIALLY Royce. Always had to complain and make excuses when they lose, wanted special rules all the time, bad sportsmen, and Royce juiced himself up to earn a bullshit decision over Saku in the rematch. Rickson flatout would not fight Saku or Bas Rutten.
Remember how President Obama issued groundbreaking protections for transgender students via Title IX?
A federal judge just issued a nationwide injunction blocking those protections. Texas and 10 other states asked District Court Judge Reed O'Connor to suspend the trans-affirming policies, and he did. Basically, there’s no longer a way to federally enforce the policies, which included supporting trans students’ affirming bathrooms and correct name and pronoun use.
“Defendants have conspired to turn workplaces and educational settings across the country into laboratories for a massive social experiment, flouting the democratic process, and running roughshod over commonsense policies protecting children and basic privacy rights,” the states’ complaint stated.
In his 38-page order, O'Connor ruled that the states had standing to bring their lawsuit because the administration’s "Guidelines are clearly designed to target [their] conduct.”
The court found that the Obama administration’s actions likely violate the Administrative Procedure Act for failing to follow proper notice and comment procedures under the law because, the court found, the policies are “legislative and substantive.” Additionally, the court found that, under the text of the law, the Obama administration’s interpretation is incorrect — a ruling that contradicts an earlier decision from the 4th Circuit Court of Appeals in a related case challenging a Virginia school district’s policies.
While the administration argued that the guidance is allowed because the use of the word “sex” in regulations implementing Title IX is ambiguous, O'Connor disagreed.
“[T]he Court concludes § 106.33 is not ambiguous,” he wrote. “It cannot be disputed that the plain meaning of the term sex as used in § 106.33 when it was enacted by DOE following passage of Title IX meant the biological and anatomical differences between male and female students as determined at their birth.”
Holy shit. Just like that. I’m in awe. Trans and nonbinary family: You are not alone. You are loved. You are supported. This is a bullshit decision and we’re going to fight it however we can.
These judges are crazy majority decision is bullshit. Connor had 1-2 and Diaz had 3-4. 5 could've gone ether way but I definitely thought Nate won by split, Connor ran most the time. He definitely hit him hard but nothing that would say a majority decision. I'm proud of Nate he definitely came in and showed up
Okay, that elimination was ABSOLUTE. FUCKING. BULLSHIT. The ONLY reason Roxxxy has been able to stay in this competition is because ALASKA DOESN’T WANT TO ELIMINATE HER FRIEND. ROXXXY SHOULD HAVE GONE HOME SO MANY EPISODES AGO. WHAT IS THIS, HER 6TH TIME IN THE BOTTOM?? ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME??? REALLY?
ROXXXY ANDREWS SHOULD HAVE GONE HOME TONIGHT. ROXXXY ANDREWS DESERVED TO GO HOME TONIGHT. TATIANNA DESERVED TO STAY. ROXXXY. SHOULD. HAVE. GONE. HOME. IT. WAS. HER. TIME.
Tatianna has displayed TALENT AND LOOKS. Roxxxy has only consistently displayed LOOKS. She is TALENTLESS as far as RPDR challenges go. This is ABSOLUTE FUCKING BULLSHIT. MY FAVE WENT HOME, FOR WHAT? SOMEONE WHO CAN ONLY TURN LOOKS!!! I’M SO FUCKING MAD!!! I’M FUMING!!!!
That was PISS FUCKING POOR JUDGMENT on Alaska’s part. I am so disappointed in Alaska. That was a bullshit fucking decision. Tatianna did not deserve that. Her commercial was better than Roxxxy’s. Oh my god I’m so mad. I just, I cannot believe the baffoonery that just took place. The bullshittery. I am so fucking mad.