AKA the Benny pines over Lanskiano fic

Benny watches them. He sees Luciano’s eyes follow Meyer around the room, ceaselessly and with a hunger Benny didn’t know other people could feel. He watches Meyer’s hands drift almost gently to trace the edge of Charlie’s sleeve, the seam along his shoulder. Benny watches them hold each other back, watches them as they demonstrate their friendship, their devotion to each other in a thousand ways. Benny watches, and burns and wants. He feels small, he feels alone, he feels unwanted.

Benny feels like the spare, the extra, the superfluous, useless member of the trio. It was only ever meant to be a duo, anyway. Everyone knows that, and Benny perhaps best of all.

After all, Benny watches. Benny sees.

Here on AO3

I know that the whole ‘someone stole my baby’ didn’t work for a lot of people as a motivator for their protagonist in fallout 4, but for me it did.

Primarily because that is my worst fucking fear, a real nightmare, that someone would steal my kid and I’d lose her forever.

That stuff played into my very real fear, and an emotion I can’t explain that may or may not be irrational. It’s the same reason I can’t watch news about missing/murdered children anymore, the fear that you can never protect the ones you love.

Because I’m a nerd with no chill, I was watching a documentary about the history of Las Vegas (obvs) and saw Bugsy Siegel with a familiar, horrible, suit jacket. I knew Bugsy Siegel was integral in starting the Flamingo Hotel with Meyer Lansky, and essentially creating the Las Vegas we know and love, but I didn’t know that anyone actually wore Benny’s fucking jacket in real life

Fuckin’ hell.

i haven’t always been a perfect person

an 8tracks playlist for Benny Siegel featuring:

Eulogy by Frank Turner, Benny Goodman by Saint Motel, The Outlaw Josey Wales by Zella Day, Bombastic by Bonnie Mckee, Wreak Havoc by Skylar Grey, Don’t Threaten Me With a Good Time by Panic! At the Disco, The Phoenix by Fall Out Boy, What Kind of Man by Florence and The Machine, Volcano Swing by Amanda Jenssen, Kings by The Pierces, Gimme That Swing by Cissie Redgwick, Wrong Crowd by Tom Odell, Arsonist’s Lullabye by Hozier, Tardigrade Song by Cosmo Sheldrake, Your Sins Will Find You Out by Eli “Paperboy” Reed, Dodged a Bullet by Greg Laswell, and Only the Young by Brandon Flowers.

Fanfic writer appreciation/recs

Originally posted by gif-007

So…pretty sure I’ve missed the actual day due to being at an event out of town but there’s no rule to say I can’t show my appreciation any time I want, right? :3


Fandoms: Fallout 4, Dragon Age, Mass Effect, Star Wars: The Force Awakens

If you want to take a ride on the emotional rollercoaster, treat yourself to @bugsieplusone‘s writing. My personal favourite is probably the Ties that bind because of how beautifully she captured Maddox and Samson, and their friendship…but make sure you have tissues nearby if you plan to read it.


Fandoms: Fallout 3, Fallout 4, Fallout: New Vegas, Dragon Age

I was lucky enough to discover some of @chocochipbiscuit‘s FO4 fics recently. Vee Wong is a great OC and I loved reading about her relationships with Marcy Long and Scribe Haylen - nice, thoughtful writing that does justice to the characters. And don’t think I won’t be checking out that Dragon Age fic soon!


Fandoms: Fallout 4, Dragon Age: Inquisition

As well as writing awesome fic, @chupacabrasmustdie has drawn some fantastic comics, like this one. Also great at writing kids - she manages to make synth!Shaun come across smart and mature for his age yet still childlike. Tell me your secrets, Chupa ;)


Fandoms: Dragon Age II, Dragon Age: Inquisition, Mass Effect, Gintama

If you like Samson or Calpernia, please treat yourself and go read @flore-purpureo’s Arsonist’s Lullaby series. Also writes some gorgeous femslash (definitely check her out if you enjoy Jack/Miranda). I haven’t read any Gintama fic as I’m not familiar with the series but I’m sure it’s excellent.


Fandoms: Dragon Age: Inquisition

Do you like Blackwall? Do you like smut? Then you definitely need to be reading @noseforahtwo‘s writing. Whoever she writes him with, the dynamics are great, and the sex scenes are most often hot and entertaining. Sometimes poignant, sometimes funny. Often both.


Fandoms: Dragon Age II, Dragon Age: Inquisition, Star Wars: The Force Awakens

Again, if you’re interested in Samson’s character and his life in Kirkwall, @scribbleymark’s ongoing story, By and Down, is an absolute must-read. If you’re not that interested in him, maybe you will be after reading this story. Both itt and How the Qunari Lost Her Horns are both well-written and absolutely heartbreaking. 


Fandoms: Fallout 4, Dragon Age: Inquisition

As expected from someone who writes brilliant meta (which you can find on her blog) @solas-you-nerd takes great care in writing canon characters - their motivations, actions, behaviours, personalities are always spot on. I still remember how moved I was after reading How Does Your Garden Grow? I hope you still have some of those tissues left.