Sleep (Bucky x Reader)

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(kk dudes i have officially slept 6 hours in the past two days but this is the only inspiration i have. i have to thank the grammerly extension bc it saved my life like 26 times thanks)

           Bucky woke with a start, sitting up quickly in bed and looking at the empty space next to him. Even in the dark, he could see your side of the bed, made and untouched since you had left. He reached for his phone, quickly finding your number and pressing the call button. Even though it was 2 o’clock in the morning, he tried calling you anyway. After a couple of rings, it cut straight to voicemail, and Bucky could feel his blood go cold.

           Bucky was used to the nightmares, about his friends, about civilians, but the ones that affected him the most were the ones about you. For the past two weeks, Bucky had barely gotten any sleep at all, because he couldn’t stop dreaming about you. The good dreams about you hurt because when he woke up, he would realize that he had broken things off, that he had let you go. The bad dreams about you hurt because he knew he couldn’t make sure that you were okay, he knew that when he would wake up, you would no longer be next to him.

           He had let you go because of his nightmares, he had woken up from his sleep, his hands wrapped around your neck. That very same day, he packed your bags and told you to leave, he wasn’t worth the pain he put you through. But right now, he knew he needed to see you. He needed to make sure that you were alive, that his dreams weren’t real, that you were okay.

           He got out of bed, throwing on a shirt and his shoes and walking out the door and all the way downstairs. You weren’t an avenger, but since you were friends with Tony and dating Bucky, Tony had found an apartment for you about 2 miles from the tower. Bucky could feel his heart beating in his chest, and the panic flowing through his veins as he walked down the lit streets. His nightmare replayed itself in his mind, of you alone on the floor of your apartment bleeding out.

          He entered your apartment building, quickly finding his way to the stairwell and making his way up to the 8th floor. He knew this place like the back of his hand, seeing how he would stay with you a couple nights a week when you couldn’t make it to his place. He could never stay away from you for long, which is why these weeks seemed to drag on without you there.

           You were sitting on your couch, dozing off while watching Netflix when you heard the loud knocks echo around your small apartment. You looked over at the clock on the wall which read 2:30 in the morning, and you could feel the anxiety creep into your mind. You slowly inched towards the door, where the knocking continued, growing faster and more panicked as the seconds passed.

          “I’m going to call the police!” You shouted warningly, your voice small and hoarse. The banging stopped, and for a moment, you felt your heart calm down in your chest, right before you heard his voice. His dreaded voice speaking through the door.

         “I- I need to see you,” Bucky said, resting his head against the doorframe. He thought he could physically feel how close you were to him. He looked at the wooden door, resisting the urge to just break the lock and see you. “Please.” His voice cracked, and you could feel your heart drop in your chest.

          “Why do you need to see me now?” You snapped on him, opening the door and watching as he nearly fell from the loss of support from the door. “After these two weeks, why would you want to see me now? Why the hell would you come now?”

               “I can’t sleep without you there, Y/N.” Bucky pleaded, but you ignored him, walking away. He walked in after you, shutting the door behind him and watching as you ran your hands through your hair. “I’m sorry- “

               “No, you don’t get to be in pain Bucky.” You pointed a finger at him, “You’re the one who kicked me to the curb, you’re the one that ended it with me, YOU’RE the one who broke my heart. You’re not allowed to be in pain, Bucky.”

               “But I am in pain.” Bucky argued, “I didn’t want to put you through this! How am I supposed to protect you when I’m a fucking monster, Y/N? How am I supposed to be your protector when I’m the one hurting you?”

               “I can handle myself!” You shouted at him, causing him to stop in his tracks. “I don’t need you to protect me Bucky, and making my choices for me wasn’t right! You hurt me Bucky! I was- hell, I’m so in love with you and you threw me away! You chose to throw me away!”

               “I didn’t know that you were so hurt.” Bucky looked away, trying to regain his composure before he broke down. He wasn’t good at dealing with you angry at him, and he couldn’t stop himself from walking to the door. “I’m- I’m really sorry. I just- I don’t want to hurt you anymore.”

               “Why did you come, Bucky?” You whispered, tears streaming down your face as you slumped in defeat. Bucky slowly turned, his blue eyes boring into yours.

               “I can’t sleep without you there,” Bucky answered, taking a deep breath and closing his eyes. “I had a nightmare- I just needed to make sure you were safe, I needed to make sure you were still okay. I tried calling, but you didn’t answer. “

               “But I’m not okay, Bucky,” You whispered, moving towards him. He could see the bags under your eyes, and the redness of your cheeks. “I can’t sleep without you here, and it kills me.”

               “I know it’s not what you want to hear- but I’m sorry,” Bucky whispered, letting a tear stray down his cheek. He reached up to your cheek, stopping right before his skin contacted yours. “I just- I’m so afraid of hurting you again.”

               “I need you.” You whispered, using your hand to pull his hand to your cheek. “I don’t care about the risks, I miss sleeping, I miss you. God, I miss you.”

               “Y/N…” he trailed off, and you sighed. “Can I stay tonight?”

      You nodded, before grabbing his hand and gently dragging him to the bedroom where you both use to sleep. He could see his side of the bed, neatly made, pillow in place, ready for him.

     You climbed into the bed, looking up at him with teary eyes. He climbed in after you, hesitantly reaching his arms around your frame and pulling you closer to him. You closed your eyes and embraced the feeling of his body against yours, and he closed his eyes and appreciated everything about you again. He could feel you kiss the skin on his shoulder lovingly, and he let himself relax for the first time in two weeks. This was the first night you both would get some sleep again.

Destiny Is Calling (4/?)

Part 1 | Part 2 | Part 3 

Bucky Barnes x reader

Summary: who would say that destiny would make you come across with the man you hate?

A/N: next parts are not going to be as ‘calm’ as this one, I promess. Enjoy this!

Tags: @myhighanddry-blog @aeillo @smilexcaptainx @jaybird6232 

Originally posted by stanxstan

(Credits to the owner of the gif.)

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Originally posted by three-rivers-deep---book-series

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Pairing: Bucky x Reader

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