For I Have Sinned

CHAPTER 3

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I followed him down the hall to a room that held an array of things, from boxes to furniture. I stood in the door way as he move things around till he pushed a cot folded in half toward the door. He handed me an extra set of blankets, giving me a warm smile as he did and placed a small box on the cot before we left the room.

“Can you tell me more about the creatures?” He asked as we walked back down the hall towards his room, the wheels on the roll away squeaking as we went.

“They’re just shadows, crawling up walls, or ceilings. And they reach out for people, never actually grabbing them, and they are always trying to get me.” I explained, hugging the blanket close to me, trying to wave off a chill that wasn’t really there. “They fear nothing, but the light. They run from it, maybe it hurts them, I don’t know.”

“And you saw them earlier?” He asked, looking over to me.

“Yes, they are always around when it’s dark, bad things have happened when they’ve been around.” I whispered as we entered the room again, he left the door open as he opened the cot locking it in place. He turned, grabbing some cloth out of the box and handed them to me.

     “I’m sure you would rather wear something other then hospital clothes.” He smiled as I gently took them, he turned his back unfolding the blanket as I began to remove the mint colored top I had been wearing. The cold air hit my exposed skin, gooseflesh popped up across my chest and back.

     Father Barnes turn back to me, his blue eyes went wide as he stared at my bare chest. His mouth slightly open and his cheeks flushed before turning away suddenly. I’m not exactly sure why he had done that, it was an interesting response.

      “Hail Mary, full of grace, for the lord is with thee.” The priest muttered under his breath head casted up the ceiling, slowly I grabbed the top he had given me and pulled down over my exposed flesh. “Are you decent?”

    “Am I decent?” I asked back, confused by the question, how was I not decent before.

     “Do you have a shirt on?” He asked, exasperation in his voice.

     “Yes.” I replied, slowly he looked over his shoulder to me before he turned to face me fully. “What do you mean by decent?”

     “I meant did you have clothes on.” He sighed, walking over to me. “When you change next time, let me know so I may leave the room. I should under no circumstances see you indisposed like that.”

    “I did something wrong?” I don’t understand, somehow my bare body was wrong for this man to see.

     “Yes, well no, it’s just.” He took a breath running his hand through his hair clearly flustered. “I am a man of God, I am not to be tempted by the flesh of a woman. You did nothing wrong, Sparrow, but from now on please allow me to step outside the room.”

    “Yes, Father Barnes.” I responded looking down, another droplet of water fell from my eye.

    “Don’t cry, Sparrow.” He said softly, lifting my chin with his knuckle.

    “What is cry?” I asked, his thumb brushed the stray water that rolled down my cheek.

     “You really don’t understand do you?” He asked, staring into my eyes. “You cry when you feel lost, alone, upset, in pain, or scared. This..” he held up his thumb so I could see the water that he had swiped from my cheek. “Is a tear, it’s what happens when you cry.”

      I nodded slowly, I had done plenty of that, cry. I never understood why the water came from my eyes. But it always had, making it hard to see at times. I looked to priest as he smiled warmly gesturing to the cot he had set up. I walked over to it and sat down, watching as he walked over to the lamp.

    “Don’t!” I almost yelled, stretching my hand out to him. He stopped and looked over to me.

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     Bucky stared at the look on her face, twisted slightly with panic as his fingers rested on the switch to turn it off. Her eyes raised meet his, pleading with him silently not to turn the lamp off. It was the darkness she was scared of after all, she had told him that much. He nodded lightly walking back over to his cot, normally he would of disrobed and put on his bed clothes but with her in the room he had decided that was crossing the line.

    He knelt next to his bed, saying a silent pray as Sparrow laid down, watching him with curious eyes. He tried not to think about her as he laid down, giving her one last look before his closed his eyes. She was staring at him, her eyes tracking over every feature on his face, he didn’t think he had ever met someone so lost and clueless about normal human responses. She was genuinely confused as to why she shouldn’t just change before him.

    He tried not to think about how soft her skin looked, how full her breasts were. A part of him, a deep carnal part him want to touch her, to feel her skin. He closed his eyes tighter trying to force the image of her breasts out of his mind, he should not be having impure thoughts about her. Or thoughts about how he wanted to caress her breasts, feel her nipples harden under his finger tips.

    His pants began to constrict as he felt his cock begin to stiffen. Dear lord, he needed to stop this fantasy that kept rolling through his head, the one were his mouth was pressed tight around her hardened bud. He could feel his cock throb in his pants, it had a mind of own suddenly. He rolled to his away from Sparrow’s direction, the fabric of his pants brushing against the sensitive skin, making him bite his lip as a small wave of pleasure rippled through him.

     Bucky breathed hard, calming breathes reciting prayer after prayer, hoping for the impure thoughts to go away. Hopping and willing for sleep to take hold to stop his want of her body. He shifted his hips slightly hoping to give his lower half some more room, as his pants were becoming unbearable. The fabric rub against the head, sending a wave of pleasure through him. He knew he was in for long night.

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Siren Song

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Status: Complete

Pairing: CEO!Bucky x Reader (Little Mermaid inspired!AU)

Chapters: 8 + an epilogue

Summary: Tired to wait for the man you had had a crush on for years to see you as more than his secretary, you sign up for a matching app that showcases talent. Without seeing your face, WhiteWolf17 finds himself falling lured by your voice. But getting your boss out of your system is more easily said than done. 

Warning(s): Mutual pining, mention of car accident and depression, good old quiproquo, fluff. 

A/N: I’m not quite sure how many chapter will be written, I have like nine planned but things can change. This is my entry for @ciarawritesmarvel Disney AU 1K celebration challenge and I got The Little Mermaid. 

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Pairing: God of Death!Bucky Barnes x Mortal!Reader

Words: 3,7k

Summary: For centuries, the God of Death had known two things about mortals. One, they were his job, his to collect when their days came to an end, and two, they were obnoxiously odd beings. Their purpose ceased to make sense to him. Never did he understand why they created a life for themselves, why they loved, why they loved other mortals when they knew that none of it would last forever. It was nothing but sheer stupidity, but that was until he met you. A mortal unlike any other. A mortal that would make him question everything. A mortal that would teach the God of Death how to live.

Warning(s): whole bit of fluff, both parties being quite mesmerized by one another. 

A/N: I’m entirely blown away by the love on the first part, I truly hope you’re gonna enjoy the rest of it as well. You’re making my heart soar with love, all the love to you too babes! Bit longer chapter, I promise to keep the word count to less than 4k with each chapter!! 

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James knew locating you would be the easiest part of his job. It wouldn’t require anything else than closing his palm to teleport. It wasn’t a long quest through the living, so he waited. 

There was no explanation, but he was in need of time to collect himself. Time to understand why he reacted to you the way he did. You were a mortal, nothing more, nothing less, and even so, James was able to recall every detail of your orbs and the way they pierced through the facade he wore when walking amongst the living.

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Pairing : Tattoo Artist!Bucky x reader

Summary: My friends dared me into getting a tattoo and I’m already freaking out and then you turn out to be the guy I was crushing on in high school. Holy hell did my friends set me up?!”

Words: 5.3k (yeah, I know)

Warnings: all the flooff, anxiety, slight mention of self harm, Bucky being a big softie (very warm and fuzzy)

A/N: So, as promised, there it is! My entry for my baby @sgtjbuccky​‘s 3k followers challenge, which is ridiculous because she’s already up to 4k now but that’s only because she’s fucking talented and amazing and the best human being. Also, special shoutout to my cute little @ciarawritesmarvel​ for having helped me when my brain refused to cooperate with me. 


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“Come on, I’ll pay you a month worth of that weird Starbucks drink you love so much! Every day for the next four weeks!” you whined, rolling your head back when your friend Nat, short for Natalia, shook her head no. The taunting smile on her lips making you regret you ever befriending her.

“Too late, Y/N, you said you would get a tattoo so you’re going to get a tattoo. End of the discussion,” she chuckled, popping a bubble with her chewing gum as she took you by the wrist to make you cross the road faster. You let out an exaggerate groan that covered her taunting laugh.

If Nat hadn’t had been your best friend since elementary school, you probably would have ran away in the opposite direction but, unfortunately for you, she knew where you lived. “Did you bring your drawing?” the redhead asked, letting go of your wrists once you were on the other side of the road. You knew by the mischief sparkling in her eyes that you were approaching her favorite tattoo shop.

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The White Wolf: Part 2

Summary: James “Bucky” Barnes is the most feared man in New York. What happens when a flower shop owner gets tangled up in his empire?

Warnings: language, fluff, a tiny bit of angst, Bucky just wants to find love!

Pairing: mobster!Bucky Barnes x reader

Word Count: about 1800

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A Polyamorous Roommate AU

-; In a city like Brooklyn, finding a new apartment at short notice is next to impossible. Luckily for you, your best friend Wanda knows two friends who’ve been searching a third roommate. Bucky and Thor are ideal housemates, almost too good to be true, and they both want to show you how much they care about you - together.

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Siren Song - Part 6

Pairing : CEO!Bucky x Reader

Summary: Tired to wait for the man you had had a crush on for years to see you as more than his secretary, you sign up for a matching app that showcases talent. Without seeing your face, WhiteWolf17 finds himself falling lured by your voice. But getting your boss out of your system is more easily said than done. (Modern AU, Little Mermaid inspired AU)

Words: 2.2k

Warnings: None, just fluff and a bit of doubts. 

A/N: Yeah, things are about to get real, I guess? This is my entry for @ciarawritesmarvel Disney AU 1K celebration challenge

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Hectic, that was how you could describe the past couple weeks. And, to be perfectly honest, you were quite happy about it. You had had the past week off work to be able to fully focus on Peggy’s wedding, suddenly not cursing her so much anymore about having her entire family living in Europe. Anything not to be at work right now. Although your professional conscience didn’t keep you from checking your emails and adjusting Mr. Barnes schedule from afar, but at least you didn’t have to see him. At least not until today.

WhiteWolf17: I bet you look amazing today. Well, I bet you look amazing everyday, but especially today.

You chuckled at your phone, allowing yourself a short break while Peggy’s mom was helping her into her dress. You looked at your own gown, the long shimmery emerald dress was certainly not something you would have ever thought of, but the bride knew better, as usual. The color was surprisingly flattering for your skin tone and the mermaid shape did wonders highlighting your figure in the best way. It had been a long time since you had felt so good.

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The White Wolf: Part 3

Summary: James “Bucky” Barnes is the most feared man in New York. What happens when a flower shop owner gets tangled up in his empire?

Warnings: fluff, language, angst

Pairing: mobster!Bucky Barnes x reader

Word Count: about 1700

A/N: I AM A BIG CHEESEBALL

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Discovering the cute guy you just flirted with is the heir of a rival bakery, you suddenly find yourself running into him all over the city. Can your small boutique bakery compete? And how do you deal with the guy who seems determined to make your life a living hell? Luckily you’re distracted by a secret admirer…But who is he? (Inspired by “You’ve Got Mail”, Enemies to Lovers)

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Siren Song - Epilogue

Pairing : CEO!Bucky x Reader

Summary: Tired to wait for the man you had had a crush on for years to see you as more than his secretary, you sign up for a matching app that showcases talent. Without seeing your face, WhiteWolf17 finds himself falling lured by your voice. But getting your boss out of your system is more easily said than done. (Modern AU, Little Mermaid inspired AU)

Words: 3k

Warnings: fluff, nothing but the fluff, domestic!Bucky for the freaking win!

A/N: Okay so I’m going to pretend I’m not emotional but, here it is guys, the last chapter of Siren Song. I’d like to thank you all for the tremendous support I received on this fic, I’m still blown away and I hope I made these babies justice with this last part! I hope you’ll like it too! Lotta love!

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Originally posted by violet-blur

Groaning slightly, you scrunched your nose and lifted the heavy comforter above your head to protect your eyes from the bright light filtering through the thin cream-colored linen curtains. Rolling over in the process, you muffled a sleepy chuckle when you were met with the too familiar warm and hairy form occupying a too large spot in the bed.

“Max, whatcha doin’ here, baby?” you slurred, peaking your head out of the comforter to see the dog occupying the empty spot next to you. He opened an eye and immediately lifted his head when he noticed you were finally up.

Happily wiggling his tail, the dog crawled closer to you, sniffing your face and making you giggle sleepily. You wrapped your arm around him, kissing his head before scratching that spot he loved so much as you looked at the bedside table. You frowned when your eyes met a little note covering the digital clock.

Propping yourself up on one arm, you picked it up and smiled when you recognized the too familiar writing.

“Don’t be mad, Sleeping Beauty. You looked too beautiful to be disturbed ;)”

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request by @negcns “could u maybe do one where the reader and bucky have been keeping like a lowkey relationship/fwb type thing and then there’s a huge christmas party and bucky has a date and reader is super distraught so she gets super drunk and flirts w other guys that she’s always found attractive (like maybe steve) and bucky gets super SUPER jealous and then they both wind up blowing up and having an argument which then leads to smutty time which is super passionate and where they say they luv each other?? idk” 

fck jealous bucky DOE S THINGS T O ME!!! also ok this isn’t like…super smutty?? idk im sorry about that but here ya go

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Bucky was uncharacteristically late for this party. He wasn’t a huge fan of Tony’s parties, so he always came on time and left early.

From your seat at the open bar, you watched the doors like a hawk, pretending to be more interested in your drink, swirling it around disinterestedly whenever anyone came over to talk to you.

You tried to tell yourself that you just wanted him there because he was good company, but you also knew this was a flat out lie. He wasn’t just good company for you; he was the man you were in love with. It was hard for you to admit that, but it was the truth.

Finally, Bucky came through the doors. he was in a black tux, looking so unfairly beautiful, that you barely noticed the woman. Standing from your place at the bar, you planned on going over to talk to him, but froze. The smile slipped off of your face when you saw a beautiful girl hanging off of his arm.

In a clingy red dress that hugged her curves with her blonde hair in a perfect platte down her back, she was stunning. 

What wasn’t stunning was the fact that her arm was looped through your-

No. He’s not mine. You thought bitterly, taking a seat back at the bar.

As soon as the pair walked through the doors, you were pounding back shot after shot. In hindsight, that was probably the worst thing you could have done, but you just didn’t want to think about Bucky and the beautiful blonde that was currently draping herself all over him. 

Your eyes surveyed the girl, but you had to look away when she rested her perfectly manicured hand against Bucky’s broad chest. This was such a cliché, but it made sense. Beautiful people always belonged together.

You had been sleeping with Bucky for about two months now, and now that he was actually here with someone, you had realized that maybe your…arrangement with him was incredibly stupid of you. It was just sex. The two of you would fuck, and then that was that. The one other rule was that you couldn’t kiss him, for whatever reason.

But, to think that you wouldn’t fall for him-

Shaking your head, you tried to make eye contact with the bartender, but he ignored you. Letting out a frustrated sigh, you leaned to your right to try and get the guy sitting next to you to order you a drink. 

Instead, a familiar figure leaned up against the bar to the left of you. He gently touched the small of your back and reached over to whisper in your ear. “I’m cutting you off for the night darlin’.” 

“Tony, I’m fine.” You whined, pouting a little bit in his direction. 

“Y/N, you’re drunk.”

“Everyone is drunk.” You retorted, rolling your eyes.

“Ah yes,” He brought a glass of amber liquid to his lips, “But you are drunk for all the wrong reasons, and it can’t be that fun chasing your feelings away with all of that.” Tony said, motioning to the several empty glasses in front of you. 

Sliding off of the bar stool, you tried to walk away.

“I’m not that dru-” You stumbled a bit, not noticing how the walls were starting to spin around you. Closing your eyes, you anticipated the impact of the floor, but instead you found a warm pair of arms holding you up. 

Opening your eyes, you slowly blinked when you realized that Tony had caught you. Your arms were currently clutching his biceps, while an amused smirk found its way on his face. 

“Thank me later.” He whispered, his eyes flicking behind you before resting back on your gaze. Leaning forwards, he pressed his lips to yours, catching you off guard.

It had been so long since someone kissed you, and you leaned into it, relishing the feeling of warmth spreading through your cheeks. Everyone had to have been staring at this point, but you didn’t care. Reaching up, your hands found themselves behind Tony’s head, pulling him closer to you. 

It wasn’t that you had feelings for Tony Stark, but he was a pretty face and you were drunk and ready to make bad decisions.

After a few minutes of intense kissing, Tony pulled away. He gave a quick wink, and waltzed off, humming an unfamiliar tune. 

Dazed, you turned, your eyes instantly drifting towards Bucky. He stared back at you, an angry look on his face. His face fell for half a second, but then his guard was up. The look he gave you immediately sobered you up. He tore out of the room, ignoring the girl that he had brought. 

“Wait!” You called. Bucky slammed the door, and you raced after him, needing to explain what just occured. 

“Go away.” He growled out from ahead, still barreling forwards. 

“No!” You called, still chasing after him down the empty hallway. He stopped finally, giving you a chance to catch your breath. Bending over, you put your hands on your knees and panted. Although you were friends with the Avengers, that did not mean you were as physically fit as any of them. “You…you cannot get mad at me.”

“Well too late.” He grunted, refusing to meet your gaze.

“Bucky, are you fucking serious?”

His dark gaze flicked towards yours. “I’m…angry.” He said softly, clenching his fists. 

“Well you don’t get to be angry with me.”

“And why is that?”

Blinking up at him, you felt anger rise in your chest.  “Because you brought someone! Because y-you said you didn’t want anything more than someone to…to fuck. And then you get mad when Tony kisses me? I just-I don’t see how that’s fair.”

Bucky just huffed. 

“You aren’t going to say anything?” You growled out, throwing your hands into the air. “God, Bucky, you-you are so goddamn frustrating!” 

He shrugged and took a step closer to you.

“I-I didn’t like him kissing you. I didn’t realize it until it happened, and…” He trailed off.

“And what?”

Bucky suddenly had your back against the wall, his arms on either side of your face. Leaning in, he whispered, “I don’t want anyone to kiss what’s mine.”

Dipping his head down, he began pressing hot, open mouth kisses to your neck. Tilting your head, you automatically gave him better access to your sweet spot, moaning when he found it right away. 

Bucky knew you like the back of his hand.

He suddenly scooped you up, pushing open the door to his room and throwing you on the bed. Nothing with Bucky had ever been this rushed, but you were not complaining one bit. 

Soon, you both were stripped of all of your clothing, touching each other feverishly like this was the last time.

“Bucky I-” He cut you off with a kiss and placed himself at your entrance. Before he rolled his hips into you, he placed a soft kiss under your ear. 

“Y/N I…I love you. I think I always have.” 

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You found him lounging on the couch, his feet propped up on the coffee table, a GQ magazine (with his face on it) sitting open on his lap. 

“Hey Y/N.” Tony said cheerily, not even looking to see who had padded into the room. You balked, astounded at the fact that he seemed to know everything. 

“Uh, what you said earlier, I…came to thank you.”

Tony laughed, “Anytime sweetheart. Barnes needed a push in the right direction. I was getting sick of you two shooting love struck looks at each other when you thought the other wasn’t looking. It was disgusting.”

“Thanks,” you said dryly, rolling your eyes.

Siren Song - Part 5

Pairing : CEO!Bucky x Reader

Summary: Tired to wait for the man you had had a crush on for years to see you as more than his secretary, you sign up for a matching app that showcases talent. Without seeing your face, WhiteWolf17 finds himself falling lured by your voice. But getting your boss out of your system is more easily said than done. (Modern AU, Little Mermaid inspired AU)

Words: 2,2k

Warnings: Fluff, but mostly angst. I’m sowwyyyyyyy

A/N: Please don’t hate me too much after this! This is my entry for @ciarawritesmarvel Disney AU 1K celebration challenge

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Originally posted by deziderium

If there was something you loved more than using your break to have lunch on the beach, it was using your break to have lunch on the beach with Peggy. The wedding was only two weeks away and you two needed to fix at least a few hundreds details before the big day. You knew she also lowkey used the excuse to sneak into Steve’s office while you finished a couple tasks but who cared? Picking you up for lunch was how the two of them had met in the first place, so it was like walking down memory lane.

You probably looked dumb, smiling to yourself and relishing in every single sensation the sea could bring you but you didn’t care, everything was perfect. The wind that made your lips taste salty, the warm sand in which you had dug your bare feet and Max sprawled at your side. The large stray dog seemed to be living on the beach, everybody around here knew him.

You had met Max when he walked into Mr. Barnes’ office for the first time  about a year ago. The window bay had been left opened so the place could be filled by the cool breeze and soothing sound of waves crashing against the shore. Both of you were so focused in your tasks, you hadn’t noticed the dog taking a nap on the large carpet near the couch.

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The White Wolf: Part 6

Summary: James “Bucky” Barnes is the most feared man in New York. What happens when a flower shop owner gets tangled up in his empire?

Warnings: angst angst angst angst angst your poor little feelings; Steve accuses Bucky of domestic assault (I promise that is NOT what happened but I thought I should include a warning anyways); drugs in the form of spiked drinks

Pairing: mobster!Bucky Barnes x reader

Word Count: about 2000

A/N: Hi henlo I’m v sorry

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White Lies: Part 6

A Bucky x Reader / Fake Dating AU Series

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A/N: The response I got from Part 5 was so incredibly awesome, I teared up a few times. You guys are seriously so amazing, and I cannot thank you enough for all the love. I really hope you guys like this part. As always, please feel free to send me asks, reblog, like, reply, whatever you can. Your feedback makes me want to write more. Let me know what you think! ♥

Word Count: 1,906
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- Bucky is a shithead.
- language.

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Hot tears streamed down your cheeks, as you ran up the stairs and slammed the door to the guest bedroom. Putting your entire weight on the door, you slid down the cool wood, ending up in a sitting position on the floor. Curling your knees to your chest, you wrapped your arms around them and cried into the void. All the emotions you’d been storing since the day you met Bucky, right up until the moment he told you he didn’t know how he felt about you, came pouring out in a whirlwind of salty tears and snot.

Why had you given your heart so fully to a man that couldn’t care less about your feelings? Why was he acting like he didn’t care, when all the signs pointed towards the opposite? Why did you still care so much it pained you physically, even though he clearly didn’t give a shit?

A soft knock on the door behind you made you jump, quickly jumping to your feet and wiping away your tears.

“Doll?’ Bucky’s soft, muffled voice murmured through the wood. “Can I please come in?”

“Why?” your voice responded, sounding more hurt and bruised than you wanted it to.

“Because I’d like to talk to you…”

You stood silent, watching the door; the shadows of his nervous, shuffling feet moving back and forth in the small crack between the wood and the floor. He was just as nervous as you. The nervousness between you now had never existed before, and this trip had brought it upon you both.

“Y/N, please,” he begged. You heard a dull thud, as his forehead rested against the door. “I’m a total shithead, okay? Can I please just come in and we can talk about this?”

“You want to talk now?” you asked, your arms folded across your chest.

“How many times do I have to say I’m an asshole before you let me in?”

Rolling your eyes, you huffed and stomped to the door. Swinging it open, Bucky almost fell forward, as he was still leaning against it. It would have been fucking hilarious, under totally different circumstances. You held your ground, your arms crossed and your eyes narrowed. There was no way you were falling under the Barnes spell again.

His hair was totally disheveled, as if he’d been tugging on it profusely. His lips were plump and red from him biting them in panic, and he was pacing back and forth, unable to look you in the eye.

“You wanted to talk,” you said, quickly wiping away one stray tear. “So talk.”

He stopped in his tracks, his hands still fidgeting as he tried to figure out what to say. Finally, he looked at you, and your stupid heart skipped several beats.

“I made you cry.”

“N-no,” you stammered, looking everywhere but at him. You’d be damned if he knew just how much he affected you. “I’m fine.”

“Y/N, I can see how red your eyes are,” he said, taking a step towards you but thinking twice about it. His hand extended out to touch your face, but he pulled it away, as if he was stung by an invisible insect. “Shit…”

“It doesn’t matter,” you sneered, waving his emotions away. He didn’t get to be upset with himself. “Bucky, I told you I’d put on a show for your parents for the rest of our time here, so why are you here?”

“Because I care about you,” Bucky replied, his face wounded. “How could you possibly think I don’t? You’re my best fucking friend. I clearly made you upset.”

There that word was again - friend. Even after everything you’d said to him not an hour before, he still couldn’t give it to you straight. Your blood was boiling in your veins, steam coming from your ears. It was your turn to run your fingers through your hair and tug in frustration.

“Look, I get it, okay? You don’t feel the same way about me that I feel about you. Story of my goddamn life, so you don’t have to feel bad for me. I can get over it, just like I got over every other man who let me down. Just give it to me straight.”

“What do you mean?”

Was he dumb? Did he not understand? Did he need a slap back to reality?

“Tell me exactly how you feel, without worrying about hurting my feelings. Don’t sugar coat shit, Bucky. It’s me. Tell me the truth.”

He cleared his throat, hearing the anger in your voice.

“Doll, I can’t tell you how I feel… because I don’t know how I feel about you.”

“You don’t know?”

“No, I–”

“So after all the flirting we’ve done, the cuddling - after all this time, that meant nothing to you? That kiss meant nothing to you?”

“Now wait a damn minute,” he cut in, anger flaring in his nostrils, his brow furrowing. “I never even said that. Stop putting words in my mouth!”

“Then Jesus, Bucky. Say what you mean! I tell you I love you and you tell me you don’t know. What am I supposed to think here?”

“Wait…” he said, putting up his hand. “Do you love me or are you in love with me?”

“Does it really fucking matter?”

“Well, yeah. I mean, how many times have we told each other ‘I love you’ before getting off the phone, or before we go to bed at night? I tell my mom I love her everyday, but that doesn’t mean I’m in love with her…”

You opened and closed your mouth, unsure of how to respond. He had a point, and it pissed you off.

“If I told you I was in love with you, would that even change anything?” you asked, feeling the tears start to well up again. You dug your nails into the palm of your hand to stop them.

Bucky stepped forward and took your hand, and you let him. He squeezed it and looked you in the eyes. The Barnes spell washed over you like a flood, reeling you in; his sapphire orbs looking straight into your eyes, into your soul.

“I’m gonna be completely honest with you, alright? Just like you asked.”

You nodded, using your other hand to brush the hair out of your face. Your heart was beating so loudly in your chest, you could hear it’s pulse patterns in your ears. Bucky took a deep breath, exhaling it out loudly.

“You are completely out of my league. You’re smart, gorgeous - literally everything a man could ever want. But I’ve never had a serious relationship before, Y/N. My mom sets me up with all these random women, because she thinks I’m getting too old, that I need to settle down now or it’s never going to happen for me. I brought you here because you’re the perfect package. You’re everything my mom wants for me. Except I don’t know how to treat you the way you deserve to be treated. I can’t give you everything you want. I can’t be who you want me to be, because I don’t know how. I’m a big, dumb idiot, who can’t do anything right.”

Your heart dropped into your stomach. After all this time, you thought he was doing this because he was selfish, or dumb; that he didn’t take your feelings into consideration. And all along, it was the complete opposite.

“Bucky, I have never thought any of those things about you ever. I don’t just fall in love with anyone. You’ve been there for me more than anyone else in my life ever has. I fell in love with the person in here,” you managed to reply, putting your small hand over his heart. “What’s in here is big, and pure and has so much love to give. I just wish you could see what I see.”

“I never thought about how I felt about you, because I never thought I even had a chance with you. I do love you, but I don’t think I can love you the way you want me to love you.”

Your heart shattered in your chest, the splintering pieces puncturing your lungs, unable to breathe.

“O-okay,” you stammered, the tears flowing freely again, your body floating in broken heart purgatory.

“Hey, listen to me,” he said, taking your chin and making you look at him. “I have so many feelings for you it’s insane, okay? I just have no idea what exactly those feelings are, and what they mean. I don’t want to tell you something, get your hopes up higher, and I fuck it all up.”

You sniffled, just wanting to curl up and die. But because you loved Bucky so much, you had to tough it out here for the next couple of days.

“Can you please just give me a chance to sort all of this out? Give me a chance to see us in the light that you see us in.”

His hands were on your shoulders, squeezing, squeezing; as if he was begging you to just give him more time.

“Please,” he begged. “I can’t lose you, doll.”

You searched his eyes, and you could tell he was telling the truth. He wasn’t stalling you just to get through the rest of the week, and he wasn’t doing this just to placate you. He was serious.

Fine,” you blurted out, your lip trembling. “Just promise me you won’t lie to me to make me feel better?”

His hands moved up to your face and cupped it, and his eyes looked straight into yours again. No matter what, you were always puddy in his hands. You were just sick of being the puppet and he, the puppet master.

Slowly, Bucky dipped his head down and placed his lips to yours again, sending fire throughout your veins. You should’ve pushed him away, should’ve stopped him, told him to fuck off, but your body relaxed into the kiss, treasuring the taste and feel of his lips.

“Regardless of how this works out,” he said, brushing the hair away from your face. “I do care about you more than I care about myself, and I appreciate everything you’ve done for me the past couple days and, well, forever.”

“I know you do, Buck,” you replied, forcing a smile. “I’m starving. Let’s go eat that pizza.”

As he took your hand and led you back downstairs to the pizza, your stomach growling, you were pondering in your head if you were really doing the right thing. Your brain was screaming at you to pack your shit and take a bus straight home, never to speak to him again. He would hurt you, he would leave you, he doesn’t love you. And yet your heart triumphed over the voice of your brain, whispering that there was always that small chance that he’d fallen in love with you too.

Walking down the stairs, you felt in your heart for the first time in years that maybe something would come of this. Until a gorgeous, red-haired siren appeared in front of you, shattering your hopes and dreams.

“Natasha?” Bucky stammered, his hand quickly leaving yours; the emptiness engulfing you. “What are you doing here?”

She looked from you to Bucky, a smirk playing on her lips.

“What do you mean what am I doing here, silly? You invited me.”


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Part 7

Flour Girl {15} (Bucky x reader AU)

Characters: reader, Bucky.

Summary: Discovering the cute guy you just flirted with is the heir of a rival bakery, you suddenly find yourself running into him all over the city. Can your small boutique bakery compete? And how do you deal with the guy who seems determined to make your life a living hell? Luckily you’re distracted by a secret admirer…But who is he? (Inspired by “You’ve Got Mail”, Enemies to Lovers)

Warnings: none! Mild swearing? Bit of angst. Whoops. :) 

Word Count:  3.2k

A/N: It’s here!! Finally, some answers. Whew! I think the previous cliffhanger wait will be worth it. I hope. ;) I can’t wait to hear your thoughts! I always love to hear from you. Any feedback is appreciated. I love you all!! 

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Previously:

Confused, you took a step forward and opened your mouth to speak before you looked down and saw the t-shirt he was wearing. The Rolling Stones. In that moment, it all came together in your head and the blood drained from your face. 

“You?” 

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All the pieces clicked into place as you thought back to the past few months, a sick feeling burrowing into your stomach. Your skin felt hot as you broke into a cold sweat, feeling too many eyes on you. It was a set-up. They were in on it, you were positive. It was all a ruse. A joke at your expense. Tears blurred your vision while your heart beat loudly in your ears, so much so that you almost missed his words.

“Hey, Y/N,” he said with the slightest of smiles.

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