Okay… Don’t think about Lucretia arriving at the beach dwarves, the safe place she left Merle, only to find Hekuba and her child with Merle who doesn’t care about the whereabouts of her ex-husband. She begins to worry, but doesn’t panic on the outside, I mean people get divorced all the time right, that doesn’t mean anything bad happened to him?
Don’t think about her trying to track down Taako and finding Glamour Springs, since that’s the last stop on his tour,desolate and the bodies still in the streets since there aren’t enough people left in down to bury them. Her searching each and every body fervently trying to see if Taako is among them tears in her eyes hoping that he wasn’t there not caring who saw her morbid task only to be relieved that he wasn’t. Her tracking down his abandoned stagecoach only to not find him. And then her dashing to Raven’s Roost not even thinking about the bubbleships and just going on foot because she’s breaking down now.
Don’t think about Lucretia arriving at Raven’s Roost the safe home she left Magnus, and finding it destroyed. It was once a thriving city where she knew Magnus was safe, happy, in love and then finding it collapsed upon itself. She can’t even search for his body like she did with Taako because the town is just so ruined that it would take years to sift through the rubble and even then she knows she’ll never know.
Then think about Merle, Taako, and Magnus walking in with Killian and her stopping herself from running over to three best friends in the world that she was forced to betray and not sure if they were alive. Yet here they are and she can’t help them remember, but for the first time since she founded the Bureau of Balance she knows they’re safe and for now that’s enough