britney lonely

Don’t tell me how to feel or say that you’re for real. My mind’s made up. I’m cool without you. You got no more appeal. Now this girl don’t need no man. Says what she can do, what she can. Now I live for me. Boy does that make you weep? Not this time. Because I realise, I’ve heard it all before. And I-E-I-E-I, I think of all the time that I’ve wasted. I think of all the times that I took you back. Ain’t no way I’ll be lonely. I don’t wanna let you back in. Let’s just face it, face it. Better off alone and I won’t turn back. Thought that I would be lonely. I don’t wanna let you back in.
—  Lonely by Britney Spears

Monday 8:27am
I woke up with you on my mind.
You called me babe last night —
my heart is still pounding.

Tuesday 10:53pm
Today I realized we won’t work.
What we are is hurting her.
And I think she matters more to me than you do.

Wednesday 11:52pm
I broke things off with you today.
She barely said a word.
I’ve never regretted anything more than this.

Thursday 4:03pm
I shouldn’t have sent that message.
You shouldn’t have been so okay with receiving it.

Friday 9:57pm
I almost messaged you today.
I didn’t.

Saturday 8:49pm
I’m walking around town in search of alcohol.
They say that liquor numbs the pain of having a broken heart.
I want to put that to the test.

Sunday 2:32am
I heard you texted a girl you’ve never spoken to before.
I wonder if it’s because you’re trying to replace me.
I can’t help but wish you weren’t.
I thought I was irreplaceable.

—  a week with you on my mind, c.j.n.
Move on, leave, run away, escape this place… but don’t forget about me, about us, about this town. Always remember where you come from so you can appreciate how far you’ve come.
—  c.j.n.