A little while ago, I was on a mission to show a friend of mine the best doggo in the world, Chica. I began to type ‘mark fischbach chica’ and as Google tried to read my mind, as it always does, I froze and tears welled in my eyes.
‘mark fischbach changing the world’ now at this moment I was mid sentence on Skype so my friend started to panic slightly because of my sudden pause. When I finally found my voice again I explained what had caught me off guard. To which my friend replied, “Why did that hit you so hard? The guy does charity work right?”
Years of watching Mark, all the skits, all the let’s plays, all the goofy stuff that falls in the mix as well, even if I didn’t necessarily like the video or find it particularly funny I always watched from beginning to end to show my support for his channel. Not because I was staring at his face [though he his a looker], not because of being his biggest fan [though I’m probably up there], not even just to have background noise [I like to actually watch the videos]. I would watch them in their entirety because maybe the money made from that time watching that particular video would enable him to do his next big event that would save people’s live by giving them the hope they had lost, fund another charity so its research could go on and maybe even find a cure, all of that and more.
Today I watched his PAX East panel, not in person sadly but live on twitch. At the end when it appeared he was going to break down and cry [all while I’m pointing and screaming at my TV for him not to cry over and over again because though I know he’s crying because his heart is full of joy and pride, it makes me tear up too, dang you Mark] His ending remarks both filled me with happiness and sadness.
Mind you now in the Skype call, showing pictures of Chica has fallen to the back burner [sorry Chica-bica] and I had began rambling about all the different charities Mark has helped raise awareness and money for, how his channel has become this massive community full of love and kindness and were only able to what it is today because no matter what video you click on of Marks, be it his oldest videos or one he posted a few hours ago, behind those dick jokes, infectious laugh, screams, two-finger defense strategies, and everything else; he’s still just a man who wants to change the world.
My exact words before the Skype call was ended with my friend saying I’m gonna go check out this guys videos [got you a new subscriber Mark! Woo!] were, “I froze when I saw that come up on the auto-complete search results because it’s amazing. I froze and damn near started crying my ****in eyes out because this man who one a daily basis calls himself a goof and acts exactly like a goof, is changing the world. Whether it’s meeting a sick child who is a fan of his videos, doing a live stream, going out and meeting his fans and doing skits that include them, answering questions at conventions, or just making people like me be able to smile from the comfort of my home and give me the strength to fight impulses that would be damaging. He preaches over and over again that to him we’re the heroes, hell he put it on the sleeves on his charity shirts, he’s too humble to admit that he is the hero or that he’s made his friends: Bob, Wade, Jack, Ethan, Tyler, etc. heroes as well for pushing for the goals with him and all coming up together with new and amazing ways to both entertain and improve the day to day life of everyone who will watch and listen.”
I sat here for a few minutes minutes, got my screen cap cut down to size, made sure it wasn’t too illegible. As I began to type my post, my Skype rang, it was my same fiend from before. I imagine the time lapse between end of call to now beginning of new call was maybe a total of two hours give or take.
I answer and all I hear are tears. I am instantly in [who do I need to kill] mode. After they calm down they explain they just searched for emotional play through’s. My mind immediately goes to ‘Presentable Liberty’, ‘That Dragon Cancer’, ‘Anxiety Attack’, among many others I could think of that could be labeled emotional.
After an awkward silence they asked, “What possessed this man, who has known such great tragedy and loss in his life to do everything he does for others.” I smiled, we were on video chat so they saw and then looked at me with confusion. “The answer to that one is easy, I think he’d agree. He’s seen difficulty, just like all of us, and THAT is why he continues to do it. He strives to make the burdens of this world less heavy on our shoulders, he raises money so that the sick can be mended and go home and play with their friends, he makes personal vlogs looking into each and every one of his fan’s eyes, tears brimming with whatever emotion he’s conveying so we all know he is there for us, he is proud of us, and he will never stop working to change the world.”
My friend nodded at me then told me they were gonna go rest on it, maybe watch a few more videos before laying down. I just made a terrible joke about FNAF [I will spare you the joke, trust me, it was bad] then the Skype call ended once more.
Now I’m left here with these thoughts in my head. Earlier I mentioned the PAX East stream, one of the things Mark said before leaving the stage was, “When we’re gone, you’re next.” Now this turned into jokes being made and all that because that’s what Mark and his friends do, they cut up and have a good time. It was the way he said it that stuck with me. Like he’s prepping all of us to take this bright, burning torch when he decides to step away from youtube as a career and that brings him almost to a blubbering mess because of all we’ve shown him we can do so far, I think he believes that whenever that time is. Whether it be a year from now, two years from now, or more; he knows that the community that he never dreamed he would have and be part of will continue to do what we do best, because we learned it from the one and only Markiplier.
So I had this idea on the way home from Beauty and the Beast- Adam has been a big furry beast for a really long time, so imagine his first winter since becoming human again. Like imagine him just going out walking in the woods in like, normal light clothes forgetting he doesn’t have fur anymore and Belle having to bring her shivering mess of a bf back into the castle and he’s like “Is it always this cold????” and she’s just like “Yes, this is normal, this is why we wear coats”
Can you do the reactions of the RFA + V to MC having a major panic attack? Sorry if it's of any bother, I've just been having a lot of panic attacks as of late and think this would help immensely. Thanks in advance!
(๑ˊ▵ॢˋ̥๑) Take care of yourself, dear! Panic attacks are hard. At my old job I used to struggle with them constantly, so I know how it is. Just be sure to breathe and do what is best for you, and don’t be afraid to ask for help!
- It was really uncomfortable being with him in public at times.
- Mostly it was dates, but occasionally when you went to go see his plays, his fans were a bit troublesome
- Some knew you, others didn’t, and even if they didn’t even interact with you much, you still felt yourself on high alert and struggling to enjoy his plays
- He was a great actor! But it was just so damn difficult sometimes.
- But you Refused to break down in public. So you barely managed to keep yourself together- Shaking, nails digging into your skin, nerves ready to scream if some one so much as looked at you funny
- It was easy to tell you didn’t feel that great, but you kept the ruse up enough that people didn’t question it.
- When he took you back to his apartment however, that’s when it all just crashed down
- Tears flooded your eyes and you shook violently, wanting to curse at yourself for not being able to at least make it into the bathroom before you broke
- Zen fucking Panicked. He was on you in a flash, carefully holding your arms and keeping you standing
- “Babe? Baby, what’s wrong? Are you okay? Are you hurt?”
- You couldn’t talk, you felt like your chest was on fire. Instead you just gripped his arms back as strongly as you could muster, but it was still a weak grip.
- He followed you onto the floor, gently pulling you too him as you struggled to breathe, tears soaking his shirt.
- “Shh, babe, I’m right here, I’m right here. Just…Let it out, cry for a bit, and then you can tell me what’s wrong, okay? You’re not hurting right?”
- Your chest was screaming, but you shook your head no.
- It took a while for you to be able to talk right. When you could finally speak, your voice came out almost cracked
- “I’m, I’m sorry. Panic attack.”
- He just nodded, and rocked you back and forth a bit.
- He’d want you to eventually tell him what caused it, so he could help you more in the future, but right now he just wanted to calm you down.
- He looked up to you so much, putting this lovable but nearly impossible weight on your shoulders
- He loved you. He was trying his damn best not to compare you to Rika, but the weight still held you down.
- One night a guest rejected your email, and you felt ashamed. I mean, the stuff they asked should had been easy for you to answer! But you managed to fuck it all up, like normal.
- You debated on how to react. Your whole mind was screaming against you, telling you to throw your phone and scream, but your body was as still as stone.
- You saw Yoosung peer over at you, and then frown as you didn’t respond to his wave
- God, he was just going to berate you. Get that sad little smile as you search his eyes for the words he won’t push out
- “Almost like Rika, but not enough. Shame.”
- Tears prickled at your eyes, and Yoosung immediately was kneeling down to look you in the eyes, your body refusing to move from your position on his bed
- “Hey, mc? Can you hear me? Are you okay?”
- You could only close your eyes, tears rolling down your cheeks. You weren’t ready for this, you weren’t ready to face the fact that you weren’t good enough for someone again
- But those words never left his mouth
- Instead he wrapped his arms around you, rubbing your back and holding you as tightly as he could without hurting you
- He let your tears fall, just offering a few shhs as you tried to talk. But he never said anything negative. Nothing.
- He refused to compare you to her ever again. Especially if just the idea of him doing so set you like this
- Once you could move, once you could talk without it being a stuttering mess, he would calmly ask you what happened. Did someone get hurt? Were you hurt?
- When you showed him the email, he scoffed and just kissed your forehead
- “Mc, it’s fine. One guest reject won’t harm us. Even if just one person came, we would consider that an amazing outcome, okay?”
- You nodded, unsure of the validity of his words, but you decided to take what you could get
- He continued to baby you a bit that day, and even though you felt a bit embarrassed, it felt so comforting to know you were loved.
- Every party you went to with him you managed to mess up.
- Stuttering constantly. Stepping on someone’s dress. Botching the pronunciation of a weird menu item.
- They never laughed outloud, or complained, but you could feel the white hot stares they bore into you, crawling up your spine, stabbing each of your ribs.
- You had your panic medication, but you refused to take that in front of any one. You needed to prove to yourself you could last just one dinner. Just one, god please just one
- And you were so far
- Until you spilled red wine all over the white tablecloth.
- The other woman let out a yelp, trying to stop her dress from being stained. She saved hers, while your dress took the brunt of it. The men didn’t offer much of a reaction, Jumin acting quickly and waving a waiter over before the wine could ruin too much,
- But you couldn’t breathe. Those familiar awful feelings were springing up on you, and. And did that man just make fun of you? But it was just- You just couldn’t-
- “I have to go to the restroom.” You sprang out of your seat and booked it.
- It wasn’t far off, but you dashed like someone was about to murder you. You slammed into the woman’s room, shakily shoving your purse on the counter as your hands searched for your meds
- Just two. Two would be enough. You had a few sips of wine, the wine would react to it, and your meds would speed up faster than they normally do.
- But suddenly someone else came in, and you were shaking so harshly your pill bottle was rattling.
- “Mc? Are you alright?”
- Jumin’s hands were on yours in an instant, stopping the pills from moving, holding your hands tight. You tried stumbling out a sentence. He couldn’t be in here, this was-
- “Shh. You were unwell. It’s fine, nothing bad will happen.”
- He takes the bottle from your hands and you want to scream as he reads the label.
- But, he just pops out two of the pills for you, holds them to your mouth.
- You numbly open your lips, allowing him to place the pills in your mouth. If this was any other moment, you’d feel shame and slap his hand away, but you needed these so badly, and you couldn’t stop shaking
- His worried expression softened when you took them, rubbing them against the bottom of your tongue. After placing the cap back on the bottle, he shoved it in your purse before pulling you tight against him.
- “I know you feel bad about these accidents, but trust me, mc, I’ve seen much worse. No one is judging you. They’ve been in your shoes before.”
- God, you just wanted to melt against him, to just sob out your stress, but you couldn’t. Not right here, even as your eyes watered, not right here
- He kissed your forehead, calling Driver Kim to come pick the both of you up. You tried to stop him, but he shook his head curtly. This wasn’t going to be discussed.
- Once the two fo you went home, he pulled you into bed with him, tucking the covers around any free side of you and holding you tight. He knew you loved cuddling, and if it helped, he would cuddle you all night
- A loud crash shattered against the cafe, you instantly dropping the plastic platter to cover your face
- This was the fourth time this month you had ruined a few cups. This time you even managed a saucer.
- You didn’t want to remove your hands. You could hear snickering, you knew you could, and you could feel your eyes well up
- They couldn’t see you like this
- But you couldn’t move
- You numbly heard Jaehee’s voice for a bit, sounding over the ringing through your head, through your ears, and you blankly followed as an arm wrapped around your shoulders, bringing you away from the mess
- After walking for a bit, calm but firm hands pulled yours away from your face
- Jaehee’s soft and worried face came into view, and as she saw the tears streaking your cheeks she instantly brought a tissue to your face, dabbing carefully
- “I-I-I’m so sorryIjustcouldn’t-”
-” Shhhh, shh shh, mc. It’s alright. It’s okay. Those were very cheap cups, don’t worry.”
- “Shush.” It was firm, but quiet. She sat you down at the table in the back room were the two of you were, silently getting a cup of hot water and a tea bag.
- She sat in front of you, steeping the tea a bit, then adding honey before sliding it closer to you.
- “It’s hot, but drink it. It’ll calm you down.”
- You shakily reached for it, almost wanting to dump the whole thing on you because you felt as though you deserved it. but…That’d just be another mess for Jaehee.”
- She watched you drink it, placing her hand over your free one when you could hold the cup with just one hand. Her thumb rhythmically rubbed a circle on the back of your hand, and she even started humming a bit.
- Soon, the quiet but warm setting of the room calmed your thumping heart, and you were able to breathe normally.
- When you finished the tea, she sat up and cupped your face in both hands, kissing your lips.
- “I love you, mc.”
- “I love you too.”
- Admittedly, you were so scared the moment he mentioned all the people that could come after him.
- At first you dismissed it, then you tried too later when the ‘hacker’ ordeal was over, but it kicked into full swing one night when the security system went off one day.
- It was all fine, just the system freaking out over a toy that had started up at 4 am rather than at 4 pm. Nothing that he couldn’t fix
- But you were on the floor of the bedroom by the time he came back from checking on it- Choking on your sobs as you held your knees to your chest
- He instantly dropped to the floor, sliding over to you and grabbing your cheeks, trying to get you to look at him.
- “Hey, hey, Mc, oh god, are you hurt? Are you okay?”
- “S-S-Someones after you-”
- “No, no honey, no they’re not, It was just a toy, I promise, I checked everything, It was just a toy.”
- “No no, shhh, shh, oh god I’m so sorry.”
- He held you to him, rocking you back and forth as he repeatedly told you step by step of what had happened. Explaining all the little details he did to absolutely make sure no one was after him.
- After ten minutes like this, your death-like grip on his shirt loosened, and he pulled back a bit.
- You were breathing almost normally, tears dripping slower, and he just kissed them all away.
- It was difficult, but he managed to pull you up and get you back onto the bed, where he instantly wrapped the both of you up tightly in the big fluffy blanket he had.
- He spent the night muttering loving things to you until you could fall asleep, so happy to be able to calm you down that much.
- V was one of the calmest people you had met
- He was so sweet, so caring, so soft spoken
- But one day you accidentally knocked over a plant of his- Completely ruining it and it’s pot.
- The both of you bent down to clean the shards up, but with a hiss he accidentally had cut his hand
- At the sight of blood you lost it
- You managed to hurt him, just like Rika had
- You managed to cause him pain, something you never ever wanted to do in your life time
- He didn’t deserve it anymore, he didn’t
- It took you a while to focus back on reality. Honestly, just thirty seconds, but you felt trapped in your mind for much longer than that.
- With his free hand he cupped your cheek, pressing his thumb against your lips
- “Shh, you didn’t hurt me. It was an accident. When she did it, it wasn’t an accident.”
- Oh god you were talking outloud. Oh my god. You started shaking, but he hushed you again.
- “Mc, shh. Focus, focus. There’s a towel in the kitchen. Get that for me, please.”
- You scrambled to your legs, nearly knocking oer a kitchen chair as you grabbed the towel.
- The whole time he dabbed at his hand, you felt your head point and static ring in your ears- And you swore you could feel static rubbing against your brain.
- His lips were moving,and it was so damn hard for you to focus at first
- “Mc? Look, it’s a very small cut, not deep at all. It won’t even leave a scar, okay?”
- Once the blood was wiped off, it…It really did look small.
- You started breathing a bit easier, your breath hitching a bit, as he pushed the broken pieces of the pot aside and carefully led you to the couch
- He held you against him, peppering your forehead and head with kisses, repeating over and over how it was just an accident.
- It would take a while for you to calm down, but when you did, he gave you such a warm, sweet, small smile
- “Mc, you are the greatest person to ever grace me. I promise, you could never hurt me like that. I love you, okay?”
- You woke up already in a panic, lingering memories running down your spine
- You already couldn’t breathe. You were trying to suck in enough air but it wasn’t helping
- With constantly shaking hands, you reached out to Saeran, who was laying on his back and deep asleep
- You shook him, one…Two…Three times. He didn’t wake up yet, and you were freaking out so bad you had already started crying
- You gave him a harsher shake, and he groaned and finally blinked a bit. Rubbing his eye he turned to look at you, then froze.
- “I-I I can’t think right I can’t stop shaaking-”
- Without any prompting, he instantly pulled you to him, burying your face in his chest as he just wrapped his arms around you.
- He held your head against him, just trying to make you feel safer and stop shaking. It took a while, but eventually your body stopped trembling so harshly
- “Mc, what happened?”
- “B-Bad dream. Bad bad dream.”
- He didn’t laugh, he didn’t make fun of you. He kissed your head and started rubbing your back, repeating “You’re okay” over and over, until his warmth and voice was all you could focus on.
- He didn’t stop until he knew you were asleep. He pulled away a bit, situating the two of you into a much comfortable position, before kissing your head and going back to sleep with you firmly in his arms.
- everyone’s always saying how lucky you are for having such a cool and handsome boyfriend - but you’re like uhhh “cool” and “kim mingyu” shouldn’t be in the same sentence LOL - for your first date, mingyu takes you to the seoul lantern festival - and it’s honestly such a beautiful experience - he takes you out for street food near sunset, and after that, you both walk around the festival area, waiting for it to start - the second it gets dark, one lantern lights up, then another and another - before you know it, there are hundreds of beautiful lanterns floating in the water and they’re so vibrant and colorful in contrast to the dark night sky - seeing just how amazed you look, mingyu takes out his phone and asks a nearby person to take a picture of you two in front of the lanterns - the person agrees to it and counts “one, two, three…!” - on three, mingyu cups your face, turns you in his direction, and kisses you right on the lips - and under the stars, under a sky illuminated by lanterns of all colors, is where you both share your first kiss - you’re not even going to lie, he was pretty cool that time, but now that you know him so well…… yeah he’s not cool at all - mingyu likes to tease you a lot - he likes to place things up high just to make fun of you - but then while he’s laughing, he hits his head against an open cupboard and you have to hold ice against his forehead like good job mingyu - the type to act manly while you’re both watching scary movies when he knows he won’t be able to sleep that night - he loves lying his head on your lap - you used to do that until he sneezed in your face and you were like honestly. wtf. - “(name), are you still mad?? it was an accident!!” “don’t talk to me” - when you catch him coughing in his hand or sneezing into it, right before he touches you, you slap his hand away and take like three steps back - “mingyu, i am NOT coming near you until you wash your hands i swEAR” - you both have matching SOCKS and it’s actually so cute??? - you have like five pairs and you both wear a pair when meeting up without telling each other, hoping that you’d both wear the same one coincidentally - it took like seven tries but still - his lock screen is a stolen shot of you petting a puppy and he’s going to keep it that way forever because it has the two things he loves the most in one picture - good luck with his lame jokes - he likes to say as a joke “aren’t you lucky to have kim mingyu, seventeen’s visual, as your boyfriend?” and once you said “what? isn’t junhui the visual?” and he was so OFFENDED - he even went up to junhui and said “how dare you” and junhui was like “…did i do something wrong?” - for someone who could cook and eats a lot, you’d think mingyu’s favorite food is one of his own homemade meals or at least something from a really popular restaurant but no - he loves your cooking the most - the type to crack jokes in the middle of something really romantic and just completely ruining the moment - like you’re both about to kiss, but then he’d make a pun or just a lame joke in general and you’re like “ok no that’s it, you ruined it i’m leaving” - he gives you piggyback rides all the time - it’s not like he offers, you randomly jump onto his back and he laughs and just walks around while your arms are wrapped tightly around his neck - he has to cover his red face whenever you wear his clothes because they’re so big on you and he thinks you look too cute in them - bumps into everything, drops everything, trips over everything, makes a mess, forgets to bring things, he’s a tall mess LOL - he loves holding hands with you and you guys always are whenever you go out - the story behind this is that once, you were both walking through this crowd of people and guess what you lost him in the crowd - you were like are you kidding me???? thanks to his height, you were able to spot him but geez mingyu you can’t just walk off like that when something catches your eye - so holding hands is mostly just so that you both won’t get separated LMAO - (unknown to you, it was all part of mingyu’s plan, he just wanted an excuse to hold it all the time NICE) - mingyu loves forehead kisses, he actually melts after receiving one but his cheeks also turn bright pink when asking for another one - he loves kisses on the lips because he likes seeing you go on your tippy-toes to reach his - kisses are slow and breathy, and he always has his hands on your waist, or his fingers are tracing circles on your arms or the small of your back - he likes giving you back hugs and swaying from side to side while you hold onto his arms - always does something so unnecessary to show you that he still and will always love you after a fight - “TO PROVE MY LOVE TO YOU, I WILL EAT THIS PING PONG BALL” “please don’t” - these stupid antics never fail to make you laugh and that’s exactly what mingyu was hoping for - he never wants to frown, he never wants you to cry, he never wants you to feel pain - this is inevitable of course, but at least around him, he wants you to smile because he’s so happy when he’s with you - and he only hopes you feel the same way - “can you reach that for me please?” - mingyu takes the item down for you, and you reward him with a kiss on the cheek after he gives it to you - “thanks mingyu, i love you!!” - “(laughs) i love you too, shortie”
Prompt: so remember episode 2 season 1 where pidge shocks lance with her bayard and he fell over? Well i was thinking what if he didn't just pop back up and continue training. What if that like triggered him to start having a seizure, everyone starts panicking, crying etc... (some klance in there too)maybe some lance accidentally spewing his insecurities after since people are usually confused coming out of a seizure. You can add some more angsty stuff.(like maybe puking too) Langst is great man
This, my friend is amazing! <3
“Awe you got a cute little bayard~” Lance leaned slightly forward to get a closer look at Pidges bayard.
Pidge swiftly shocked Lance with her bayard, resulting in him falling on the ground. “Yeah it is pretty cute.” A smirk growing on their face as everyone laughed.
It only took a few seconds before those laughs turned into panicking screams. Lance was still on the floor shaking, his muscles tense, eye slightly opened.
Everyone stood in shock for a few moments before Keith bolted towards Lance, falling down to his knees and grabbed his shoulders.
“Lance! Lance! Can you hear me?” Keith frantically spoke and he attempted to stop Lance from whatever he was doing.
By then the entire team had rushed over and was kneeling beside Lance.
“I think he’s having a seizure.” Shiro spoke and started to push Keith’s hands away from Lance. “Try not to hold him down, this will pass.”
Kieth nodded quickly and shifted to Lances head so he was laying on his lap, and Shiro shifted his body so he was on his side. A puddle of drool quickly forming.
Keith attempted to remember how to help someone during a seizure. One of his foster homes had a daughter with epilepsy so he had seen seizures before, but could only remembered that touching helped sometimes. He tentatively started to run his fingers through Lance’s hair.
Pidge tried not to but they started crying, Hunk wrapped his arms around them as he watched Lance spasm.
After, what felt like the longest minuet of anyone life, Lance finally stopped convulsing. His eyes closed, then opened slowly, not evening focusing at anything in particular.
Everyone surrounded his, asking a million questions a second. Lance couldn’t focus on any of them, he could barely feel the fingers that were moving through his hair. He felt a pit in his stomach form and thank heaven that he was rolled to his side and released all of the contents that his stomach had. He attempted to murmur an apology but was cut off by his stomach lurching again.
Shiro was rubbing his back talking about anything, but his words fell on closed ears since Lance only heard ringing.
After a few minuets Lance regained his bearings and quickly found the first two words he needed to say “I’m sorry.”
Silence filled the room as everyone process what he said.
“Why are you apologizing?” Hunk asked.
“If anyone needs to apologize its me.” Pidge wiped their face and attempted to calm themselves. “I don’t even know why I did that? I didn’t think that it could, god I’m so stupid.”
Hunk hugged them tighter and Shiro looked at them with his dad™ expression letting them know that they would have a talk later.
Lance sluggishly shook his head, “No, I always bring people down, I always mess up. Now I ruined the floor.” Lance was still shaking slightly.
“Where is this coming from?” Kieth asked hesitantly.
Lance slowly turned his head towards Kieth, he took a moment until he realized who it was. Lance took a shaky breath an closed his eyes “Back at the Garrison I was always compared to you. You were always better. I could never please anyone.”
Lance started to sit up feeling his head start to clear, he looked around at everyone. “That’s why I don’t know why I was chosen to even be a part of Voltron. I’ve never been able to do anything right or be at the top of anything. Just ask my parents.”
“Stop!” Kieth screamed, his fist shaking.
Lance looked at his and narrowed his eyes “You didn’t even remember me.”
Kieth started at him, and looked at Shiro for support but Shiro adverted his eyes knowing that this wasn’t his battle.
Lance started to stand and Hunk rushed forward to help him. Pidge started o apologize once more but lance silenced them
“Lets just forget that all of this happened and go get the lions.” Lance reached down and picked up his bayard and shook the rest of confusion out of his head. Hopefully they will forget everything I said.
After the mission nobody brought up what he said, and Lance was grateful. Nobody would question him on that matter, and he would simply remain under Kieth's shadow, just like back at the Garrsion. Just like home.
I am very sorry that this took me so long to post, I’ve been swamped with work.
is inspired by the song slow hands by niall horan, you in no way need to know
the song but I recommend it. Basically you go to a bar with newt and the rest
of the gang but newt gets a bit too drunk and says some things he can’t un
confess… and then smut because why not
in the mirror at your reflection and you could see Queenie in the background
giving you a reassuring smile, you had let her pick out your dress for the
night. You were headed out to a wizard bar with Queenie, Tina, Jacob and Newt. “Oh
Y/N that dress looks so good on you, Newt won’t be able to keep his eyes off
you” Queenie said, you responded “Queenie I don’t think newt likes me that way,
he has clearly shown he only wants to be friends”. Queenie smirked “I wouldn’t
be too sure about that Y/N and I don’t have to read his thoughts to know it”
you blushed at the thought of Newt possibly liking you but you were worried you
would mess up your friend ship if you said anything but the timid boy would
never make a move.
were travelling by Apartition to the bar and when you were getting ready to go
Newt reached out his hand for you and you grab it, quickly getting butterflies,
but they were immediately killed by the similar but different twisting feeling
of the teleportation spell. When you arrived you landed and stumbled into Newt,
him catching you which resulted in a light blush across both your cheeks. You gained
your balance and newt said ”you alright Y/N” you looked at him and replied “oh I’m
went on as they always do, you guys sat at a table near the corner of the bar
where the music wasn’t too loud so you guys could drink and talk and take a few
trips to the dance floor. You and queenie were dancing and she was trying to
convince Jacob to join but he hadn’t quite had enough to drink yet to get him
dancing, but Newt on the other hand had his fair share of drinks so early into
the night, he smiled at you from the table making you blush.
finally joined the two of you they mostly danced together but you were fine on
your own, you didn’t like when guys approached you and asked you to dance or
what not and you had a bad habit of sort of running away from any man who came
close to you instead of talking to them because you didn’t want to.
back to the table and sat beside newt who had a stupid grin on his face and you
knew he was drunk “having a good time Newt? he looked at you and said “wonderful,
I could watch you dance all night, you guys, all of you, I , I could watch you
all dance all night” he stuttered steering away from the direct compliment but
you knew what he meant and you smiled back at him. You ordered another drink
and stayed beside Newt Just enjoying the music and when he rested his hand on
your thigh you nearly jumped, he wasn’t the touchy type especially since your
dress had ridden up and his hand was directly on your skin.
point you and Newt were the only two at the table sitting very close, he was
talking to you with his face even closer to yours looking directly into your
eyes and losing his train of thought, “Newt? You were in the middle of talking
and you just stopped? what were you saying?”, he looked from your lips to your
eyes “Y/N your eyes are so pretty I lost my words” he admitted in his drunken
state an didn’t even try to take back the complement he let the words float off
of his tongue as he continued to blatantly stare at you. You blushed and he
smiled at how flustered you were from such and innocent compliment. Newt moved
his hand from your thigh and pressed it on your cheek. He looked into your eyes
once again, as if he hadn’t already done that enough, looking for a sign of permission
as you lightly nodded not sure what he was doing and he leaned in and kissed
you almost bumping noses.
The kiss was
quick because there was a bit of sober Newt pulling him away slightly embarrassed
of his brash actions but you quickly re assured him by kissing him back, easily
wrapping your hands around his neck only stopping the kiss once you remembered
you were in public. You both pulled away and looked at each other until
everyone returned to the table un knowing of what you guys had just done.
the time “oh, I better get going, it’s getting pretty late” Newt turned his
head quickly “wait your leaving? “ Newt looked a bit sad but you grabbed his
hand pulling him out of his seat and said ”yeah , you’re walking me home right
?” Newt smiled happily at your words but before he could agree you said in his
ear “there’s no chance that I’m leaving here without you” Newts cheeks blushed
and he got excited by your words he couldn’t get you home fast enough so he
grabbed your hand and did the Apartition spell bringing you both to your
no time now that you were alone but he was still very drunk and clumsy about everything
he was doing. “Y/N I’ve been thinking about you all day, and once I saw you in
that dress and your eyes looked so pretty tonight” he would have kept
blabbering on but you shut him up by kissing him. The kiss deepened as newt pushed
you against the back of your door getting as close to you as he could. He slowly
moved his hands to around your waist and then slowly they moved lower. You
wanted things to be moving faster but you remembered newt was drunk and he does
everything slow when he drunk, you almost groaned at the thought of how much of
a tease he would be tonight but you stopped yourself.
your back off the door and without breaking the kiss that was deepening as time
went on, you moved to your bedroom and you pushed Newt onto the bed straddling him
and grinding into his hips creating a small moan to fall from Newt swollen lips
as he continued to kiss you. You started grinding faster gaining more friction
but newt stopped this kiss “I just wanna take my time with you” he almost
whispered and rolled you over so he was lying almost beside you and you sighed
at the loss of touch. But before you knew it newt was pulling you close to him
and sliding his large hand up your thigh almost painfully slow, stopping when
he reached your panties, he pushed them to the side carefully and traced over
your entrance staring into your eyes, you moaned softly at the touch, moving
close to him, his pace was dreadful but you didn’t want to push him.
a finger inside of you making you gasp and then placing a second in right after,
he started pumping his fingers, he may have been drunk but even at his slow
pace he was so good. You thought about asking him to go faster but you knew
there was no stopping his plans he had for you or stopping his slow hands.
pumping faster as you rapped your arms around him and he kissed your neck, he wasn’t
thinking so you knew he was going to leave marks, you were reaching your high
and he started dong circles on your clit bring you there, leaving a mess on his
fingers and moaning his name while pulling lightly on his hair.
up at you again and smiled cheekily happy at the pleasure he had just brought
you but then you decided it was your turn to be in control. “Newt as much as I
love your slow hands we’re going to need to pick it up a little” You rid yourself
of your panties and pulled down Newts pants slowly grazing over the bulge in
his pants. You straddled him and started removing his shirt he immediately copied
you, pulling your tight dress over your arms and head leaving you both there
naked. “okay miss don’t want to be so slow, hurry up” Newt said and you giggled
kissing him as you sat up putting his hard length in your hand holding it in
place and slowly sat back down on him, taking all of his length inside you, you
started moving faster moaning every time you went back down.
grabbed your hips moving you how he wanted you picking up speed, you could feel
yourself reaching your high and by the way newt was twitching inside you , you
could tell he was too. You both came together, Newt released inside of you and
you moaned into a deep kiss not removing him from you for a minute.
You slowly laid
down beside him and he turned over to look at you seeing bruises appear on your
hips “wow those are some dark marks from such slow hands” you teased and Newt
just nuzzled his head into your neck kissing you and apologising for bruising your
skin. You brushed it off and laid your head on his chest slowly drifting to
okay I’m just gonna say something real quick…. can you just idk stop bringing Louis into your messes??? because he is literally just doing his thing, he isn’t bothering anyone, he is just out there dressing with oversized clothes, being soft and sitting on roofs with red tracksuits. so please, let him be… just for once.
wait okay so I'm that same anon that sent in the headcannon about lena needing kara to help her pick out outfits cause shes color blind and kara having to bring lena different clothes when she messes up and I just thought of what if as kara and lena are going out lena slowly starts wearing more colors than just black and neutrals cause she has kara to help her put different things together and now im dying inside
THATS SO FUCKING CUTE U JUST STRAIHGT UP MURDERED ME. LENA ADDING COLOR BECAUSE KARA CAN PICK THEM OUT FOR HER IS FUCJING!!!!!!!!!!!!! FUKCINGN THE CUTEST SHIT IVE EVER HEARD
Have you ever messed up so badly that it left you believing God wants nothing to do with you? And if that’s you today, I want you to know that Jesus loves you and will do anything to reach you. Jesus left heaven and came to earth to restore anyone who is willing to be cleansed. Today, you can meet with Jesus, bring Him all your mess, and allow Him to cleanse you. Whatever the mistakes, give it all to Jesus. He is willing to forgive you and give you a fresh start. Because He Himself suffered when He was tempted, He is able to help those who are being tempted. Hebrews 2:18
Are you sure that you are not my girlfriend from dimension 0013 who got lost while we are dimension hopping together? I am looking everywhere. I will ask Ford if I get the right girl this time by bringing you.
Oh Anon, I’m pretty messed up. I don’t even think I have a boyfriend or girlfriend in other dimensions.
i don’t like doing this but i’m going to make that post because i want there to be a post that isn’t from someone w/ a raging hateboner for either
as a southeast asian woman, the thing gigi did hurt. “asian eyes” is a very loaded topic bc it ties in w/ stereotypes and yellowface and all that ugly stuff. it’s obviously wrong and the right thing for her to do would be to apologize and admit what she did was wrong.
the thing zayn did was not any better. yes zayn is asian like me. but besides the whole “a person gets a pass bc they’re dating someone of that race” (i don’t want to open tht can of worms rn), zayn has no place speaking in what gigi did.
the asian community is large and very diverse (and sad to say, still very divisive bc of the intra issues tht include colorism, classism, and discrimination within the whole community). the asian eyes issue does not really affect zayn because this is an issue that’s tied to southeast/east asians. it’s the same way desi issues would not affect me. so in turn, like i would have no place to speak about being called a terrorist, zayn has no place to speak about the thing w/ asian eyes.
i still love them both but what they did was wrong and hurtful to a group of people and that does deserve some calling out and people in that group are allowed to feel what they feel. this doesn’t mean they are inherently bad people, it just means they did something messed up and it shouldn’t be defended.
also discussing this topic, ppl needn’t bring up past mess ups because that has absolutely nothing to do with the actual topic at hand and it’s v obvious ppl who do so only do it to fuel the fire.
i wanted to make this post bc asian issues esp across different cultural and ethnic groups are v nuanced and many people don’t seem to understand that. also i wanted it coming from a genuine place, not just from someone who severely dislike either zayn or gigi or both.
Duddette... It's TERMINATOR SHIT. "YOU" IS DEAN FROM THE FUTURE!!! I'm a mess too, but you are More coherent to write about it. OH MY CHUCK *heavy breathing* I spend the last hour analyzing all the frames of the promo in my tablet because I'm at work, on a training stuff that gives me more time and freedom. Anyways, this is Enverse!Dean I can bet my honor as a wich. But this is THE FUTURE.
2. who the hell was that ?!?! at the end of the promo when cas says “you?”, do you have any speculations? benny? adam maybe? jk XD, no but for reals, who do you think it is ??
3. What’s your thoughts on the last second of the trailer (the bit with Cas on the floor, looking up and “you”) ?
Hi, 3 anons about the promo vid and Cas - here is my half baked totally wild random ass off the top of my head theory!
Time travel? I was like naaaaaaw…. then I was like SHIT he does look a little bowlegged! But… not entiiiiirely convinced I’ll be honest. I’m also spitballing… Chuck?
IDK if this is the same guy or the same scene…. but I also head canon that this is Dean, but brainwashed Dean, so Cas is like “are you… YOU?” which is why we hear the “you?” maybe in the video?
As @super-sootica just reminded me - ENDVERSE CAS KNEW THAT DEAN WASN’T FUTURE DEAN!!!!
And why is Dean brainwashed? Well, we know there is a flashback scene so for me this is Dean’s ultimate DECONSTRUCTION OF PERFORMING DEAN MOMENT - Dean has to finally address his past to allow himself to move fiorwards, its his childhood and his view of his parents especially John but his idolatry of Mary that meant that he kept the facade up for so long. I have written like thousands of words on how Amara was the exposition of Dean’s inner feelings and Mary is the extension of this this season, so going back in time to flashbacks of his childhood and facing it with Mary the ULTIMATE way for Dean to look at his inner selfand move towards accepting himself as he is….
Then there are the electrodes and we know that MARY has been brainwashed and again, in 12x21 there was the clear allusion to the 8x17 crypt scene, where this time Dean cannot break Mary out of it, but what if now we get a REAL REVERSE CRYPT SCENE? I DONT KNOW WHAT I WILL DO IF THIS ACTUALLY HAPPENS I HAVE BEEN TALKING ABOUT THIS FOR WHAT FEELS LIKE YEARS!!! WHERE DEAN IS THE ONE WHO IS BRAINWASHED?!
And ok, we are terrible for riling each other up and screaming at each other, but @amwritingmeta said in this post :
“What if Dean is willingly brainwashing himself here? Sitting there, looking so fucking DETERMINED.What if he makes the choice (after possibly first refusing) because he realises IT’S THE ONLY WAY HE CAN ACTUALLY FACE CAS AND KILL HIM IF HE HAS TO?”
But Cas manages to Crypt Scene him out of it because - well CAS IS RIGHT ABOUT THIS AND ITS CAS MAN!
Given that I am all about the fact that the nephilim will not be born INATELY either good or evil, because that is the whole point of the show, I love the idea that it could have brought Dean from the future to get him to help Cas and convince himself and Sam (or tell Cas how to convince him - reverse crypt scene please and thank you) to raise the Nephilim right.
Because as it stands right now? With Sam and Dean potentially brainwashed by the mol? Even if they aren’t still going against Cas? While I believe that Cas is actually the one who is right here? If they continue to go against him THIS is how it ends up as another apocalypse.
So what needs to happen? TFW need to be TOGETHER, on the same track, raising the nephilim together and leading him on the righteous path because in the end it is all about the nephilim’s FREE WILL and his/her CHOICE whether to be good or bad.
I mean, this might be total rubbish. But my theory about this and the fact that Cas is actually the hero here and will earn his endgame arc this way just kinda ties into all and every theory I have running around in my head.
Regardless of the intimate details of the promo, of the pics etc. I really feel like this is overall the way it’s leading: that they need to allow the child to make a CHOICE and hopefully, if my faith in the show is well placed, it will lead to the child choosing the RIGHTEOUS PATH and GOOD, to raise the world to it’s feet and as @amwritingmeta says, to BRING BALANCE TO THE UNIVERSE.
They other day, I was looking through @rusalnaia ‘s “Depressing Rick and Morty headcanons, theories and headcanons for theories”, when I came up with the idea of an AU kind of thing, inspired by one of them.
So. When a Rick dies, he’s usually leaving a more or less grieving family behind him. More especially, he’s leaving a Morty, when they didn’t died toguether. And a Morty without his Rick, despise what all Ricks are saying, is unpredictable. So the Concil has hired a Rick
whose job is to make
sure that the Mortys won’t try to bring back their grandfather, won’t mess with the timelines, won’t go on
adventures by themselves, or
won’t, in general, do something dangerously stupid. It
already happend more than once, and the Concil wants
to avoid it by any means. This job would usually require to take
the place of the deceased Rick long enough to destroy the
relationship between him and his family, so when he fake his death
miss him (and eventually, the Morty would be assigned to another Rick, and vice-versa). But under certain circumptances(for example, if a Morty witness the death of his Rick, and survive, it makes the substitution impossible), or if a Morty has already begun doing shit before the Concil’s Rick arrival, he would be in charge of killing this Morty.
I might improve this bit by bit later (at least I intend to), ‘cause I have a looooot of ideas for it, but if you have some, I would gladly hear them.
The boys finding out their
s/o can get easily overwhelm with affection and will hide their face in their
hands because they’re blushing so much mainly because they’re not used to
getting affection before? Please and thank you!
Sorry for the wait! I hope you like it!
His hand reaches to hold
And gets smacked out of the
way when yours flies up to cover your face!
It puzzles him
None of his past lovers
have ever reacted like this to hand holding…
You tell him it’s nothing -
you just aren’t used to affection, which causes you to react this way
His initial reaction is
What was he doing wrong?
His beautiful s/o isn’t used
to feeling loved?
That won’t do.
He must fix this.
Shinguuji decides to hold
your hand and show you affection as much as possible
He shows up to dates with
Compliments you every
chance he gets
You still blush every now
and then - and he thinks it’s adorable
You’re his lovable s/o,
He first realises when
you’re sitting on the couch together and he goes in for a peck on the cheek
Your phone nearly flies out
of your hands!
Amami what are you
“S/o…? Did I hurt
You say to him that you’re
not too used to affection, it’s definitely not his fault, and that it’s really
nothing to worry about
He’s not worried, but…
He still makes a mental note
to try harder.
Aside from that, he thinks
it’s really cute when you cover your face out of shyness
He finds you even more
adorable when you blush
He gives you cute nicknames
to match how cute you look when he shows you affection!
Hugs become a lot more frequent
in the relationship
“I hope I make you
feel loved, s/o. You really are important to me.”
The grin on his face
when he sees you blush after he’d kissed your cheek
“The Supreme Ruler’s
mere presence is enough to bring anyone to a blushing mess!”
You giggle at his joke, but
tell him that really isn’t it at all
Instead, the reason for
your blushing is that affection isn’t something you’re used to
He still teases you - it’s pretty adorable seeing your face go all red the way it does
He’s actually pretty
surprised - you’re the most incredible partner in the world
How could you not be
used to affection at this point
You tell him it’s because
you hadn’t received it often in the past.
On the inside, he’s pained
He’s angry at your past
lovers - how hard is it to love your own partner?!
Especially when they’re as
perfect as you?!
He holds you closer than
He reminds you of how dear
and important you are to him
He loves you more than
anything else in the world
He finds out the first time he tells you he loves you
“…I love you so much,
Both of you are blushing
You both share an internal
You’re so overwhelmed by his words that you can barely reply
You’re just blushing and
staring at him like !!!!!!
And he’s staring back like !!!!!!!!
waiting for your reply
You finally manage to tell
him you love him back, a few moments later
You apologise - you weren’t
used to hearing people say things like that to you!!
He can’t believe it
He promises that he’ll tell
you he loves you every day if it helps!
But all that does is make
you blush even more
And now he’s blushing back
“OH GOD S/O ARE YOU
OKAY WAS I TOO ROUGH WHY IS YOUR FACE RED I’M SO SORRY-”
He pries your hands away
from your face to see if you’re alright
It is red
That can’t be good!
Was his surprise hug too
much of a surprise for his cute s/o?!
You explain why you reacted
that way to his hug
At least you’re not hurt…
He’s surprised someone like
you hasn’t received much affection in their past
It’s fine, though,
It just means he’ll have to
give you extra affection!
And he’ll happily oblige!
Anything for his awesome s/o!
The boy is super confused
All he wanted was a cuddle!
He thought humans liked
Was he doing it wrong????
Was his body too sharp??
“Why are you covering
your face like that, s/o?!”
When you tell him he didn’t
do anything wrong, he is so relieved
He understands now!
More than anything, he’s
glad you’re not hurt or afraid of him
He does find it really cute
whenever you blush or hide your face in your hands!
In fact, the blushing is
Now both your faces
go red whenever any of you show affection towards the other!
“Gonta picked flowers
The alarms go off in your
That’s!!!! So!!!! Sweet!!!!
You squeal a little bit and
your face goes red, and your hands rush to cover it
Gonta is now worried!!
Gonta wants to know if s/o
Faces aren’t supposed to be
It must be the flowers!
Gonta should call a doctor!-
You calm yourself down and
assure him that it’s fine - you get like this when shown affection because you
aren’t used to it
It’s not very good that you
aren’t used to affection - he’ll be sure to give you extra flowers from now on!
But he’s really glad you
And that he hadn’t
accidentally hurt you!
Much like Kiibo, he’s
Why are you covering your
face like that..?
You remove your hands to
show your blush
He admits, you do look
Then he learns the real
reason why you’re reacting this way
He denies it
There’s no way you aren’t
used to affection…
It makes no sense…
You’re so beautiful, kind,
The list goes on and on
Words couldn’t explain his
love for you
He can’t imagine a world
He tries even harder than before
from then on to make you feel like the most loved person on the planet!