This is me March 2013. I was asked to be a bridesmaid in a wedding. I said yes initially because the friend told me I could wear whatever I wanted — that she wanted me to feel comfortable.

That answer didn’t really stick and I was no longer allowed to wear what made me feel “comfortable.”

At this time in my life I started to wear make-up again and go back and forth between the dapper look I have grown into today and feeling the pressure of being more feminine because that’s what beauty really is.

I understand weddings can be challenging with families involved and traditions I just know that I can’t hide who I am behind make-up, a dress (I WILL NEVER WEAR EVER AGAIN WHY?), and heels.

Don’t get me wrong I think I look beautiful and I also think I am just as awesome looking super handsome and dapper.

So one day I might make a handsomely dapper bridesmaid or a beautiful groomsman!

That said I can’t wait for all future weddings where I can flaunt my suit and tie!


Girl in a Bow Tie