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you woke up – 3a.m.
remembering her taste
her hands, circumnavigating your terrain and her mouth – sharing secrets and warmth, all for you
she’ll never come back, people don’t brake the kind of promise she made
and your neon heart is broken
but the fumes won’t leave, they’re in the room – watching you grieve
no tears, no sounds
just 3a.m. darkness and the empty promise of another wasted day about to shine through your blinds and take your life by storm – but not in a good way
everything will be a haze tomorrow but at least you knew a girl that could warm your sleepless bones…no kiss can last forever but the memories might never leave
you try to sleep – again

I’m tired of girls trying to invalidate their own feelings during times of pain, especially to their friends. Your break up meant something. That friendship you lost was a hard blow. I understand why you feel tired this semester. Sometimes this “modern woman” stereotype is patriarchy’s last attempt; patriarchy disguised as feminism. You don’t have to be “wise beyond your years”; your pain and crying does not mean you are not intelligent. If you feel your friends demand justification for your pain and ordeals, they’re not friends. You’re strong but human. Remind yourself emotional space is part of liberation.

I guess what I’m trying to say is,
If I never see you again,
I hope you at least think of me from time to time
When that song comes on in the car,
Or the sun breaks through the windows a certain way
I hope it makes you smile,
And somewhere,
I hope you are grateful too
—  “Untitled” by Meredith Grace @blatantwritings
You’ve made me doubt love. You’ve made me doubt everything. Your lies spin in my head all day, ‘How did you not see it coming,’ 'Why didn’t you see the signs,’ I blame myself for your mess. Your lies I trusted with my dying breath. You never said you were sorry. You never tried to explain. You just left when you got busted with not so much as a goodbye. Just suddenly, you were no longer a part of my life.
—  Maybe you were a catalyst for my growth, or maybe you were nothing but lies and pain from the start. ( @humanhealing )
Let him go, get him out of your head; Remember you’re not in his. Forget his birthday, his phone number, and the sweet things he said; Remember those were lies. Delete his texts, take his contact out of your phone; Remember he’s talking to all those other girls instead. Quit wishing he’ll come back, stop putting yourself down. Remember it’s not your fault; he had no good reason to leave. Just stop it, stop it all, and erase him from your past. Block out his name, ignore his texts, plug your ears when someone mentions him because trust me, you’re doing perfectly fine without him. Take every object and memory you have of him and throw it in the trash, and then maybe, if you’re lucky, you’ll escape him.
—  Unknown
How can you just leave someone’s life? How is it so easy for you? What do you do with all the memories of us laughing and talking at 4am, and habits of texting ‘Good morning’ and 'Goodnight.’ How can you just leave that? Did you never care at all?
—  I want to believe you miss me, but deep down I know you don’t. ( @humanhealing )