He learned this thing from Jeff Bhasker, the words don’t have to be completely logical. Sometimes you can be not exactly what you’re saying lyrically and you’ll get the same feeling across. So I think this kind of serious thought behind ‘Sign of the Times,’ he was able to shade it a little bit, so that it’s not obviously about that. He talked about that song more than any other song. I think because it was a breakthrough for him. Everybody was kind of living together at this place, and they were all eating. He was so jazzed that there was no time limit on the studio, that it was available to them around the clock. He left this table and went and found a piano and was just trying out these chords using his phone to record whatever ideas happened. And ‘Sign of the Times’ comes out. And as he said, it was nothing like the song that he was trying to write. What it ended up being was kind of a statement about today without trying to be a capital ’S’ statement about today. In his mind, it’s about a mother saying goodbye to a newborn child, but I think he was a little shy about saying that’s what it was about period. I think that’s what it’s about to him, but it’s about whatever you want it to be about as a listener. He said, 'It’s the one song I listen to every word as I sing it.’ It has that kind of meaning to it.
Today I am gonna write about another DMT experience I’ve had a while back. It was around 9 pm or something and I had nothing to do so I decided to smoke some DMT. I smoked around 135mg of extracted N N DMT powder and in the moment I exhaled the DMT I already felt the first effects.
It started with a tingling located in my chest, close to my heart which began to take over in waves through my whole body. The tingling got more and more powerful and it felt like the ground I was sitting commenced to dissolve. My heart was racing more and more and the tingling feeling reached my head. I heard strange deep noises and a really loud rushing noise. The visuals also got more and more intensive. I saw psychedelic patterns all over my room and the walls were moving and breathing. The more powerful the tingling and the noises became the crazier my visuals began to be. The patterns were morphing into faces that seemed to be talking because they were moving their mouths. It felt more and more like that the ground and almost everything material was dissolving and then I heard kind of a really loud crack or bang and whoop.
I was falling through my ground faster and faster. I saw lights, colors and patterns moving beside me and everywhere were those faces I saw on my walls. The noises I heard began to sound more like super deep voices and it really felt like these faces were actually trying to communicate with me. The deeper I fell the slower I got until I stood completely still. I was looking around and all I saw was black and moving lights all around me. Theses dancing lights were in the most beautiful colors I’ve ever seen. Colors so exceptionally uncommon that I am pretty sure those colors don’t exist in our world. I really don’t have words to describe this breathtaking moment. It felt like I was enjoying this light-dance for hours and then something amazing happened. The lights got more and more, I was only able to see colors everywhere but they still got more. The more colors I saw the more it became white, which makes sense because white is basically every color at maximum. In the moment my view turned completely into white I heard another crack or bang noise and I was in the DMT-World again. I visited this world two times before that trip and I already wrote a trip report about my first arrival in this world but this time I try to describe it as good as possible.
I was on the shore of a lake with deep azure blue water, on the lake were many huge water plants with purple and red blossoms. Around this lake were big hills completely overgrown with trees or other plants and it looked like a rainbow with all these colored plants. The sky was slightly pink-purple-red and the sun went down. In the sky, I was also able to see other planets and two galaxies. This beautiful sunset and the galaxies were reflecting in the water and it was a really really beautiful light play. Around the shoreline were small buildings and small little creatures were waiting in front of their houses. The buildings were purple-blue and around them were pretty huge plants. It looked like those creatures built their houses in plants. The creatures were as tall as my legs and red-greenish patterned all over their body. The patterns they have all over their body are looking like many toothed wheels. Furthermore, they have big eyes and small elf-looking ears, that’s probably why most people call them Machine or DMT-Elves. I already met those creatures before, so I walked to them. The closer I got the more were the elves dancing and moving. It seemed like they were unbelievable happy to see me again. I reached their little village or whatever it was and they immediately started to dance around me and it sounded like they were singing. I was lying in the extremely green looking grass watching the sunset and around 7-10 DMT-Elves were holding their hands and started to dance in a hand-holding-circle around me. It looked really funny and I enjoyed it a lot. It was such a beautiful, colorful and peaceful place. I forgot all the fuckery we have on our planet, all the destruction that is caused by humans. Suddenly the creatures stopped dancing and one of them spoke to me. I freaked out because he was speaking a god damn language I was able to understand. He said something like: “We are pleased to see you again and we would love to keep you here but sadly… The time has come. You need to go” I answered totally perplexed: “How… How can I stay here?” The creature hesitated for a moment and answered with a really honest voice: “You need to die”.
The dancing lights were appearing again and my view turned white. It lasted a few moments and then the white light wore off and I was able to see my room again. I was still sitting on my ground and almost every DMT-effect was gone. I was extremely disillusioned and I tried to understand what this creature meant with “You need to die”. I thought for hours about it and I came to the conclusion that the only way I am able to live in this world is that my body needs to die. I need to leave my physical cage on earth and free my mind to permanently be in this place.
I couldn’t pick just one defining breakthrough role. I like to think that they’re all a part of me. There’s a part of my heart that forever has Anne Boleyn written on it, who I played in The Tudors. Equally, to some I will always be Margaery Tyrell from Game of Thrones, or Miss Julie who I played in After Miss Julie at the Young Vic.
AU where Geno and the pens are part of a secret organization that time travels to maintain the flow of historic events, and on one mission, Geno is tasked to go back to the 1820s to save a man (whose great-great grandson will eventually be key to a medical breakthrough that will change history) from a freak accident involving a horse carriage gone rogue.
Anyways, the man is super thankful and insists on treating Geno to dinner, and Geno is hesitant because he’s really not supposed to interact this much with the subject but the man won’t hear a no. So Geno gets taken to this guy’s estate and meets Sidney, the man’s youngest son, who is beautiful and intelligent and basically Geno’s exact type. So right there and then Geno knows that he’s screwed.