“Then tell her. I’ve seen the way she is with you. She really loves you and you’re just letting her slip through your fingers. Don’t let your stubbornness ruin this for you. Some things are more important than your pride.”
Can you trust him?” She asks, the cigarette dangling from her fingers. “Can tell him anything without feeling judged? Can you call him and know he’ll answer, or call back as soon as he can? If you’re hurt, and I mean really hurt, will he drop everything and get to you as soon as he can? Will he be there for you when someone you love dies? Will he look after you if you’re sick? Will he hold your hair back after too many tequilas? Will he be there? Does he try to see you, even if he has work early or a busy week?” She holds my gaze as she brings the cigarette to her berry lips. “If the answer is no to any of those things, maybe he’s not the one?
Excerpt from the book I’ll never write// alter ego advice
I was a huge fan of the show, because I was 13 at the time so it was right up my alley. I remember that breakdown came out for April and it was: ‘teenage girl, quirky, has story line with Luke’ that was all the information that was given and because I was crazy and obsessed with the show I was like “*Gasp* they’re giving him a daughter! because, because they need to break up Luke and Lorelai" because they’d already broken up once and if anyone watches TV shows the main characters break up like 3 times before they ever get back together right. Sam and Diane, Ross and Rachel, like it’s a thing.
So I was like tormented because I don’t want them to break up, but at the same time I want to be on Gilmore Girls.”
I think you need to just close the fucking chapter on him even if it was long enough to be a fucking novel itself. You’ve cried over this boy so many times before, when are you going to put yourself first? When are you going to realize this is not what you deserve? When you were little would you have ever wished this for yourself? Why are you putting yourself through this? You are so goddamn important and he is a fucking idiot who didn’t deserve to know you the way he did. Let him go, let him go, let him go. There is nothing more you can do.