breaks

My favorite kind of characters are those goofball, comic relief characters that are very happy and nice. then we learn bit by bit about them and their underlying traits, maybe some self esteem issues, maybe why they’re so happy and optimistic. they get some character development here and there and maybe a bit of subplot revolving around them

and then we see them break

Too many people are thinking these days, arguing about what’s right or wrong. Take a breath, accept life’s grey at best. Wear ugly sweaters in July while making cookies at three in the morning. Dance poorly to a song that isn’t playing with the person you love. Skip rocks with friends while you have time. Fighting for a cause and making things right is important, but it’s okay to tap out. Let someone else fight for you. The world will keep spinning if you take a moment to appreciate the little good that exists.
—  KJS // Excerpt from the book I’ll never write #75
And then one student said that happiness is what happens when you go to bed on the hottest night of the summer, a night so hot you can’t even wear a tee-shirt and you sleep on top of the sheets instead of under them, although try to sleep is probably more accurate. And then at some point late, late, late at night, say just a bit before dawn, the heat finally breaks and the night turns into cool and when you briefly wake up, you notice that you’re almost chilly, and in your groggy, half-consciousness, you reach over and pull the sheet around you and just that flimsy sheet makes it warm enough and you drift back off into a deep sleep. And it’s that reaching, that gesture, that reflex we have to pull what’s warm - whether it’s something or someone - toward us, that feeling we get when we do that, that feeling of being sad in the world and ready for sleep, that’s happiness.
—  Paul Schmidtberger, Design Flaws of the Human Condition

Imagine Loki is with the Avengers as punishment & he tries to help, but his general bad luck causes more destruction. You are told to befriend and romance him to keep his destructive tendencies in check. You do your job well and Loki falls for you, hard. He courts you properly and treats you like a queen. He feels happy for the first time in a long while, & it shows. But it makes you uncomfortable, knowing you’re lying. Then one day, he discovers the truth. It breaks him, & it isn’t pretty.

NEW UPDATE. 100 Tracks. Hit shuffle and enjoy.

Tracklisting.

  1. 1995 – Emmit Fenn
  2. Act One – Stabby
  3. Air – Outrun
  4. All Gone – The Nod
  5. Alpha Dogs – LeKtriQue, Autodidakt
  6. Always – Wavedash
  7. Angel (Falling In Love) – Cookie Monsta
  8. Bad Motha – Boogie T, Whiskers
  9. Baddd – Bro Safari, ETC!ETC!, UFO
  10. Banana Bomb – FTSE
  11. Bass Boom – Walter Wilde, p0gman, Boogie T
  12. Bass Drop – Zero Hero
  13. Blink (feat. Aislinn Martin) – Protohype, Kezwik, Aislinn Martin
  14. Bones – LOUDPVCK, Michael Sparks
  15. Boombox – Dirtyphonics
  16. Borneo – Wolfgang Gartner, Aero Chord
  17. Brand New Love - Special Request Remix – Matthew Herbert, Zilla, Special Request
  18. Bubble Beam – Nanobii
  19. Burning For U - Purporangejuice Remix – MineSweepa, Purporangejuice
  20. Castaway - Instrumental – Goldie
  21. Chicken Soup – Skrillex, Habstrakt
  22. Creepstep – Virtual Riot
  23. The Cut – QUIX
  24. Dem Fraid – Boombox Cartel, Taranchyla
  25. Dream Away – Konstellation, Dolltr!ck
  26. Easy Go - Grandtheft VIP – Grandtheft, Delaney Jane
  27. Ectoplasm - Gentlemens Club Remix – Eptic, Gentlemens Club, MUST DIE!
  28. End Of The Night – NGHTMRE, Ghastly
  29. Escape – Figure, Niveau Zero
  30. Event Horizon - Original Mix – Malsum, Luisoko
  31. Everybody – Ak9
  32. Exterminate - Infekt Remix – The Aliens UK, Infekt
  33. Fear Spud - Original Mix – D-Operation Drop
  34. Feel So Good – Borgeous, Riggi & Piros
  35. Fire (Walk With Me) – Pane Mua
  36. Fortify – Holly, TWERL
  37. Foul – XaeboR
  38. Freesol (feat. Skyler Stonestreet) – Seven Lions, Skyler Stonestreet
  39. Get Deaded - Bassnectar Remix – Noisia, Bassnectar
  40. Godzilla – Anna Lunoe
  41. Gold - Jameston Thieves Remix – Max Styler, Devault, Luciana, Jameston Thieves
  42. Gong Tau - Benton Remix – Hypho, Benton
  43. Gunblade – Ebb
  44. Halfway – Hi I’m Ghost
  45. Help – Borgore
  46. Here Comes The Night - Junkie Kid Remix – DJ Snake, Mr Hudson, Junkie Kid
  47. Hexadecibel - Kermode Remix – Kermode, Vespers
  48. Hold Up – Borgeous, MORTEN
  49. Hush Hush – Taiko
  50. Hypernautics – Faethoms
  51. I Mean – Taiki Nulight
  52. In Love With the Devil (DMVU Remix) – Mark The Beast, DMVU, SEIDS
  53. Inhalant Abuse – Getter
  54. Jamming – Was A Be, Ne’ve
  55. Jump Pack – Tarquin
  56. Le Hospital – DubDiggerz
  57. LEVELED – Jphelpz
  58. Lezzerd – Spag Heddy
  59. Limbo – Adair, Nitti Gritti
  60. Lionart – AxH
  61. Lockdown – Sullivan King, Matt McGuire, Sam King
  62. Lotus – Shadient
  63. Mandelbug – I am Sid, Grax
  64. Mantra - Mat Zo Remix – Noisia, Mat Zo
  65. Manual Decapitation – Ikonika
  66. Me4U – Danny L Harle, Morrie
  67. More Dub – Baku
  68. Moving On – Marshmello
  69. Nightmares Vip – Culprate, Maksim
  70. Nike Shoes – Horsemen
  71. OG – Point.Blank
  72. Omoi – Akira Akira
  73. Plasma Funk – Broken Eye
  74. Prince of Crown Heights – Conrad Clifton
  75. Raindance – Vairo
  76. Rave Steppin’ – WiDE AWAKE
  77. Recovery – Duumu
  78. Reims – RL Grime
  79. Revolution - The Bloody Beetroots Remix – Crossfaith, The Bloody Beetroots
  80. Rhubarb Crumble – Jakes
  81. Right Here - QUIX Remix – Keys N Krates, KRANE, QUIX
  82. Right Now – Terravita, Bare, Tima Dee
  83. Samir – Spag Heddy
  84. Saturnz Barz (feat. Popcaan) - Banx & Ranx Remix – Gorillaz, Popcaan, Banx & Ranx
  85. Sayim – Squnto
  86. Send Nudes – GARABATTO
  87. Sidewinder – Revazz
  88. Sleaze – Shades, Ivy Lab, Alix Perez, Eprom
  89. Starship – Grant
  90. Swerve – Say My Name, Crichy Crich
  91. Teddy’s Song – Teddy Killerz
  92. This Time – Kayzo
  93. Time Dilation – Jonah Freed
  94. Traffic – LOUDPVCK, Botnek
  95. Try This – Ninja Kore
  96. U Betta – Machinedrum
  97. Used 2 Be – Wax Motif, Jevon Doe
  98. War – Truth, Killa P
  99. Wash Away – Wilkinson
  100. Whirlwind – Luca Lush

If you missed it here’s Aprils update.

Every track ever featured on a Strictly BASS playlist.

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808 State - Flow Coma (AFX remix), 2001

aphex twin doesn’t so much ‘remix’ a tune as suck it into his dimension 

I want to talk less and listen more. I’ve not been very good at truly, honestly listening to other people for quite a while. It used to be one of my main personality traits, and I truly wanna get back to a point where I can just be quiet and give an open ear to another person that decides to share something with me and trusts me enough to share their thoughts and feelings. It’s a gift and I wanna value that.

I want to find more inner peace and be less reactive to my emotions, my surrounding and to negative vibes. I have a love/hate relationship with me feeling everything so deep. Most of my life I was under the impression that it added depth to my life. But maybe there is tremendous depth in stability as well? I wouldn’t be able to tell, because I never really experienced it. When I’m happy, I’m happy and grateful with every cell of my body. When I’m upset though, it feels like I will die right then and there, and it also feels like it will never go away. When I love, i love so deeply that even people I just met can feel extremely comfortable around me. But when I get angry, there is an instant level of enormous drama, of shaming the other person, of me spitting poison like an outraged dragon. This behavior has been so damaging to both, the relationships I’m having with people that surround me and the relationship with myself. I’ll always be a person of extreme feelings probably, but I wanna learn to be my own expert, to recognize and understand my emotions and reactions towards them better. I believe that if I stop judging myself and my reactions, and get to a point of observing them, I will understand and learn much more. All the judgement didn’t teach me anything, it just made me feel like a failure. So maybe it’s time to try something new. Maybe it’s time for some non judgmental curiosity and compassionate self love. I never regretted that approach in the past.

I wanna find back to a daily practice of gratitude. A few years ago I was practicing self love and a grateful mindset every single day. For some reason, without anyone telling me what to do, I was really determined on my way towards a healthier relationship with my own mind, body and self. Some practices I came up with I later found in self help books of really experienced therapists and psychiatrist, which made me kind of proud and also reassured me that what I was doing was really healthy. Right now though, this former healthy drive has transitioned into some sort of “self development addiction”, and causes quite the opposite of what it should. It adds more stress and confusion to my life, and the former stability and clarity is being shook by it. On our self development journey we need rest days as well. We need times where we stop the input and simply allow the things we understood and learned to sink in. Mental rest days are as important as physical rest days. It’s not healthy that I feel guilty when I’m doing “nothing”. It’s not healthy that I always feel like I should be doing something, that I should make good use of my time and work hard on myself every minute of the day. I want to find back to a place where it’s okay to just be. Where it’s alright to “waste time”. Where I’m allowed to relax even if I don’t actively work on bettering myself and my life circumstances. I actively want to take breaks, real ones. Because currently my mind and body still have to have breakdowns in order for me to slow down and relax. I wanna develop a level of balance where I can just take a break without breaking down and then having to rest longer. When I wait until I break down, I’m kind of forced to start from rock bottom, where I can’t really do anything but lay in bed feeling miserable about having “failed again”. I wanna break through these cycles of wearing myself out with an unrealistic work load, and then find myself physically and mentally exhausted from having done too much at once. I want a balance between productive, creative, open minded work time, and noticing early enough when it’s time for a healthy break and some real relaxation. I think I’m everything I do I would be happier and healthier if I would achieve a good level of balance.

So this is what I want to integrate more into my life: healthy balance. And more play. 🌻

Let Me Go

TITLE: Let Me Go

CHAPTER NO./ONE SHOT: One Shot

AUTHOR: wolfpawn

ORIGINAL IMAGINE: Imagine Loki’s friend being in love with him but only starts to pay attention to her when another friend Fandral is interested. She realises that is the only reason he is interested and it breaks her heart. Loki doesn’t want her, but he doesn’t want anyone else to have her.


RATING: General

NOTES: Done as a result of a prompt by DeathByUKMen and the name Runa  means secret love in Nordic


It was as cliched as it comes, falling in love with one’s best friend, it was as though it was a stupid book, it was ulcer-inducing really. And to make matters worse, said best friend put the Prince, in Prince Charming. Prince Loki, second son of King Odin and younger brother of the loud boisterous and sometimes idiotic Prince Thor. Loki was more cunning, a trickster in every aspect and often dismissed as a foolish prankster, but he used that to his advantage, and how Runa adored watching him do it.

Her father was Odin’s right-hand man, the General of his armies and a Grand Duke of the court, so essentially, she was raised alongside the royal princes. Thor paid her no heed in the earlier days; until the day Lady Sif came to the battle arena and defeated most any man in her wake, Thor thought girls pointless and boring, his opinion being that all they did is be girly and play dress up and tea as youths before developing into giddy social climbers. But Loki, he had decided she was someone worth talking to, and soon realised she was his unfaltering ally. Using her own wits and mind to assist him in his mischief, as well as her sex to get her out of trouble that he would have been more harshly punished for, should any have caught him. She took the blame for his actions more times than either could recall, without prompt and without request and in return, Loki had remained as loyal to her.

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5-minute break ideas (for the pomodoro technique)
  1. play video games
  2. write/draw/paint
  3. listen to music/make music
  4. count to 50 (or until needed)
  5. take 10 - 20 slow, deep breaths
  6. blog your feelings/reblog
  7. go for a walk
  8. clean email
  9. work out
  10. do some chores - dishes/laundry
  11. plan your week
  12. make your bed
  13. wash face
  14. play with a fidget toy/stress ball (if you have one)
  15. call or text a close friend
  16. origami
  17. take some cute/handsome selfies just for you
  18. read a book
  19. play an instrument
  20. sit and let mind wander
  21. watch a movie/Netflix marathon
  22. pick a song and dance to it
  23. drink water
  24. make tea and drink it during your next break
  25. draw
  26. cook your favorite meal (or close to it)
  27. eat a snack
  28. eat a banana
  29. clean house
  30. stand up and stretch
  31. tidy desk
  32. hang out with a close friend/relative
  33. do yoga
  34. meditate
  35. do some photography in/of nature
  36. do a puzzle of any kind
  37. create something, anything