Oh jeez, look how sad J is in that top shot. He’s losing a dad, and the Good Dad at that. When he’s like, ‘see you around’ and Mike’s like, NOPE…it’s like, do you get it now, Jesse? Do you? You can be free too! Ugh.
And, that loving look from Mike. (*-_-) If only he could take Mike’s advice and just look out for himself, i.e. run the fuck away and don’t look back.
So, I’ve been sitting on this one for ages. I love this scene so much and I’m like, how do I do it justice in my own stupid way? ◔.◔
Babe is in casual mode with a burgundy v-neck, grey hoodie and what I think is a black, coated denim jacket. It could be just a synthetic mimicking that look, but it’s effective regardless. I love casual Jesse, not just because he’s super cute in layers, but because it’s in his casual, ‘out of hours’ moments we get many of the best, emotionally raw scenes with Walt. The amount of times he nearly cries in this scene, but holds himself back, murders me. ⊙﹏⊙ That burgundy v-neck he wears gives us foreboding bad vibes, which feels right considering he gets his ass Heisenburn’d to high Hell here. He’s come to see Walt to tell him he’s out of the business, but is Walt having that? I should think not. Here’s a nice little summary of Walt’s Heisenburns from this scene:
You have nothing in your life except video games and go karts (extra points for burning J on a hobby he invited you to do with him)
If you aren’t working as Mr. Meth Maker, it’s only a matter of time before you turn to drugs again ↜ LOW
Let me remind you of your terrible, laughable coping skills, ie. curling up in a ball and crying, and hiding away to get high whenever something bad happens
We’ve done things just as bad as Todd killing Drew Sharp, but mostly GALE. You. Killed. Gale.
You’re a quitter who’s laying down like you’re already dead in Hell since you don’t want to cook meth with me any more (a bit over the top even for Walt, methinks)
You’re pure and have great emotional depth, and so you deserve no filthy blood money (he wasn’t even hiding his burn level behind manipulation at this point, it was just straight up imma cut you)
So, Walt brings up the concept of Hell here when he’s laying down the sick burns. After making a point of reminding Jesse that he killed Gale, he says: “If you believe there’s a Hell, I don’t know if you’re into that, but we’re…we’re pretty much going there, right? But I’m not gonna lie down until I get there.” The crappy philosopher in me wants this scene rewritten so badly so we get a direct response from J (I wonder what The Schnauz would have written into Jesse’s mouth!). Does J think he’ll burn in some sort of Hell for everything he’s done, or does he believe redemption is possible?
❛ Say my name. ❜ ❛ Sometimes it feels better not to talk. At all. About anything. To anyone. ❜ ❛ There are two sides to every story, always. ❜ ❛ You either run from things, or you face them, [name]. ❜ ❛ I did it for me. ❜ ❛ Say you want this. ❜ ❛ My name is [name], and you can go fuck yourself. ❜ ❛ No more half measures. ❜ ❛ Stay out of my territory. ❜ ❛ Don’t bullshit the bullshiter. ❜ ❛ The thing is, if you just do stuff and nothing happens, what’s it all mean? ❜ ❛ Never make the same mistake twice. ❜ ❛ If you’re committed enough, you can make any story work. ❜ ❛ Just because you shot Jesse James, don’t make you Jesse James. ❜ ❛ Name one thing in this world that is not negotiable. ❜ ❛ Maybe your best course is to tread lightly. ❜ ❛ I’ve still got things left to do. ❜ ❛ I am the one who knocks! ❜ ❛ May his death satisfy you. ❜ ❛ Yo, Gatorade me, bitch. ❜ ❛ What I’m saying is, the devil is in the details. ❜ ❛ You cross me, and there will be consequences. ❜ ❛ If you try to interfere, this becomes a much simpler matter. ❜ ❛ Shut the fuck up and let me die in peace. ❜
Our dove carried forward this outfit from the last episode. He was wearing it when Mike tried to off Walt, and babe begged for him to hear Walt out. Oh, the humanity.
J is in all black, which is a beautiful rarity for him. Also a rarity: a button-front top hiding under that leather jacket. The noir look must be to highlight how J is backing the wrong horse here. He doesn’t want anyone else to get hurt, so clearly Walt falls under that category, but dude should have let nature take it’s course a bit there. Anyway, his support of Walt leads us to this eye-roll moment wherein Walt makes a point to tell the gangsters he’s trying to woo that Jesse is one of the best meth cooks EVER, just like him. And, I just love Walt dialling up the sycophancy in this episode toward J. His manipulations have never been more overt, nor have Jesse’s reactions to them. Ever since the whole whistle-through-the-grief moment, he’s like, is this guy for real?
And so, Jesse tries to follow in Mike’s footsteps with the “I’m out” business, and Walt steamrolls him like a Dad making you sit through family dinner before you can talk about that ski trip / prom date / whatever the fuck y’all had to talk through with your ‘rents. I was 100% spared this kind of parental fuck-shittery so it makes me cringe all the more. What, is he going to make J write out a little pro and con list so they can really talk that shit through? Ugh. I just want to shake Jesse and be like, DUDE, you are free. It’s just a mental prison. Fly away, little bird.