break-ups

I know it’s hard for you to talk to anyone right now, but how much do I wish I could tell you this: love isn’t everything. You don’t always have to live on the feeling of being in love. You are not a half of a whole seeking for your perfect other half; you are whole. You could be capable of creating masterpieces if you tried to reach for the sky. So please don’t get stuck in your hopeless circle, waiting for love - you are so much more than that person you said you are.

You deserve someone who will love you the way you love them.

“How are you doing?”

The question kind of stops you. Because you’re okay. Your world is still spinning and you’re still smiling and you’re okay.

But then sometimes you’re not okay. Not even one little bit. And you don’t really sleep at nights because your bed is as empty as your arms. And there’s a space on your wall where his photo used to hang. And sometimes you can’t even eat because he’s gone and the sick feeling in your stomach just becomes a permanent part of you. And when you kiss someone new their lips are wrong and their hands don’t tug your hair and their body doesn’t feel quite right beneath your wandering hands. And sometimes you cry and you don’t think you’ll ever stop.

But you don’t say that. They don’t want to hear that. You just smile and say, “I’m okay I guess.”

—  Even when I’m okay, I’m not, 08/10/2016
You didn’t just break my heart, you weren’t real with me. You couldn’t just tell me you didn’t love me, you lied and said you did. I asked you several times if you felt the same about me and you said you did. I’ve been giving you my all and you couldn’t even give me honesty. You didn’t know how to tell me, but somehow it was better to let me worry about why you were acting different and why you started treating me like shit. I don’t understand. But I hope you’re happy now without me and I hope you feel better now that you got it off your chest that you don’t love me and I hope you find someone that can make you happy because I couldn’t.
—  I miss you 

I know this can seem the simplest cure, but it often causes more harm than good. there was a reason you left, there was a reason they left. you will become stronger, I promise.