break my heart now why don't you

Every now and then my mind begins to wonder into past parts it should not and I fight to stop it but it’s too late. I’ve caught glimpses and even if I turn back and stop looking now, I’ve already seen enough to send my heart breaking into a million pieces all over again. It’s a sickening feeling to not be able to rid your mind of what is poisoning it.
—  I wish I could forget what you did
The only call you are going to get from me is a couple months from now. I’ll be sitting on the floor in a bar bathroom at 2 am, drunk, and someone will have just got done butchering a Fall Out Boy song. In that second I’ll miss being in love with you but that will be it.
—  I’m sorry you hurt me so much

Someone told me one day: “Never let your happiness depend on somebody else, because in the end, someday that person goes” and look at me now…
A part of me goes with you, a part of my heart break off me and I see how that falling. I respect your decision but hurt that really hurt, I don’t know where you go, I don’t know why you go and I don’t know if you come back. But I hope you feel proud of everything you’ve done in the last five years. I love you and that never change. I think the reason because you go, is because you are tired of all, and because you want a normal life and I support that. I hope you know that we was here always and we still here Zayn. It’s not easy for anybody. You was part of the band who save me, and you know, one direction is not one direction without you.
It’s not one direction if they’re not all going the same way. Whatever happens I will never regret having called you a lifesaver. I hope you find happiness now, because you deserve.
I will not say goodbye because saying goodbye is forget and I will never forget you

Now my heart’s wide open
And you’re the reason why
I’ve been broken for the scars that I forgave
I’ve spent a long time running
But I know I’d do it all again 

I finally got a new tablet and I figured why not break it in by drawing these two losers.