break my heart more will you

i look at my eyes and they are filled with you. i look at my hands and they miss the softness of your skin. when did my heart went so weak? the more i try to catch the time the more it goes away. the rain still falls for your attention. my tears still fall for the way you left things between us. what kind of love is this? the silence breaks the promises. we break the hearts. we love into pieces. i look at your eyes and they are empty with the memory of us. i look at your hands and they don’t fit in mines anymore. nothing will be the same anymore.
—  k.m

“I want you to be better.”

Like holy shit Tony I know where you’re coming from I really do but it also absolutely breaks my heart that people have been telling you to be better and do more for so long that this is your go-to response when a kid tells you you’re superhero goals.

I mean come on you’re a genius, billionaire, literal saviour of the world are you trying to give your boy a complex?

Okay so, thoughts on tonight’s Holby (I missed the first 20 mins so sorry if I miss something):

Jasmine telling Zosia about Ollie staying over was sweet, and a nice bit of character development for her actually choosing to do the right thing

Serena absolutely broke my heart tonight, the scene in theatre was just devastating. Catherine Russell has been phenomenal in this storyline

which leads me on nicely (or not so nicely) to the dreaded Serena/Jasmine scene… All I can say is Catherine and Lucy Dryzek honestly blow my mind more and more every episode. Their scenes are some of the strongest Holby’s ever seen imo, and the part about “I wish it was you in the morgue” was just chilling

speaking of which, poor bby Jasmine always ends up in the wrong place at the wrong time :(((((( my heart breaks for her on a weekly basis, all she wants is to feel good enough and every time she gets knocked back. her little face just before she ran away from Serena on the stairs made me sob

I missed the Berena scene, but from the previews it was hella cute. plus Jason and Bernie’s relationship is adorable and I need more pls

Isaac finally lashing out at Dom physically gave me goosebumps all over. I don’t know if ive ever despised a character as much as him, which I guess is the point but he’s pure evil and I can’t wait for him to get his comeuppance. seeing Dom so broken and lost is awful, and both David and Marc are playing a blinder with this storyline

Ollie proposing to Zosia was v cute, and a welcome bit of light relief in an otherwise emotionally draining ep

oh and one last thing: where the HELL has Jac been the past few weeks???? It’s just not right without her, and i’m so bloody glad she’s back just in time to step up when Jasmine needs her the most. I already know next week’s ep is going to kill me lmao

sorry for the ridiculously long rant, I just have a lot of feelings about this damn show

ruthlessanduseless  asked:

I do not know how I have come to your blog, but omg, i've been reading your fics on ao3 for awhile, and whilst scrolling through your sprace tag (cause my babes) BUT LIKE HOLY SHIT I LOVE YOUR FICS, AND JESUS CHRISTI FOUND SO MANY MORE FROM STUMBLING ACROSS YOUR BLOG. THANK YOU FOR THE JOY YOU HAVE BROUGHT INTO MY LIFE THROUGH HEART BREAKING STORIES ABOUT MY LOVES

Omg thank you! Yeah I’ve amassed quite an archive of fics by this point! Sometimes I see people go through and favourite them all and I’m always super impressed by their sustained dedication.
I’m glad you enjoy my writing ^.^

anonymous asked:

So, I've been considering buying Fates and Furies after seeing you talk a lot about it here, and i was just wondering how much is gonna break my heart and if it has a happy ending?? just wanna know because everything I've read lately has been depressing, and i could use something a little more happy lol

Whee, I’m glad I’ve finally worn ya down! Unfortunately, I can’t say Fates and Furies is a happy read—but it isn’t entirely bleak either. You’re following a 20+ year marriage as they discover each other and themselves, so it runs the gamut of emotions. It’s honest to the point where you’ll sometimes laugh, sometimes swoon, and sometimes cringe. To sum it up, you’re gonna read it, then scurry on back here, like:


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  • Gibson’s friends and loved ones shared messages to her on Facebook in the hours shortly after her death.
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Okay, fuck it. I’m doing my analysis because I think this fandom is amazing and they deserve it. BUT MOSTLY BECAUSE I NEED TO CALM MYSELF DOWN AFTER THE SHIT DAY THIS EPISODE MADE ME HAVE. I’m serious. I talked to my coworkers about it and they bought me cookies to calm me down. I left work early. My heart was doing awful things while I was trying to work- it was pathetic. I’m pathetic. 

SO. Let’s get one thing out of the way: KATSUKI YUURI FUCKED UP.

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“I feel homeless. Like this isn’t the place that I thought it was. I feel like I don’t understand where I am. Where we all are. Last week students started chanting ‘build the wall’ in the lunchroom of a local middle school. Some of the Hispanic children started crying. If you’re the principal– how are you supposed to stop that behavior? If the president can behave in a certain way, how are you supposed to tell a child that it’s unacceptable? How does that hold up? It breaks my heart. I’ve had friends reach out to me. They’ve told me: ‘I understand the reasons that you’re upset. But those aren’t the reasons I voted for him.’ And I’m just starting to understand that. I’m realizing that a lot of people wanted change more than they wanted kids not to cry. We all have our own code of ethics. My bottom line happened to be tolerance. Their bottom line was abortion. Or the Supreme Court. I guess we all have the right to choose our own bottom line.“


Have you ever found yourself wanting a metric ton of DAI music? Have you ever thought to yourself, aw man, DAI’s soundtrack was 15 hours shorter than I wanted it to be? If that sounds like you, then this is a link for you.

I’ve ripped all the music from this game - that is, all the ambient snippets of music that you hear while running around in the world, and all the music that happens in cutscenes - and it turns out there’s 16 hours (1.6 gigs) of it.

(- here’s the download link -)

So if you’ve found yourself wishing you had the heaps of music that never made it to the official soundtrack, you can now roll around in hours of it. 

There are boxes of clementines
in the kitchen and the thing is that
I love you again. The thing is that
I love what orange tastes like so
I eat too much of it and end up sick.
Last year, I brought up questions
about mending after loss
and all orange could bring was 
eye spasms and stomach aches.
But now the only pain left is left
in rinds, and there are plenty of ways  
to remove it from the heart.
I won’t do it, though. Instead, I will
mock the break with more breaking
and eat all the clementines again.
I only say “again” because
I don’t know how to say
I never stopped.
—  Alessia Di Cesare, The Side Effects of Eating Too Many Clementines
at some point you have to sit with yourself and learn who you are. you have to take responsibility for the way you’ve been treating yourself and the way you’ve allowed others to break you down. you have to go back to wherever you abandoned your love for self - thinking that someone’s love for you is more important than your own - and pick you back up! you have to ask yourself, “why do I treat others better than I treat my own self?” then you have to accept yourself.. because at the end of the day, the only person who’s forced to deal with the broken pieces of you, is you. don’t fault yourself for any of the past - just accept who you are today. accept your truths, your hurt, and your heart. and finally, you have to love YOU. love every piece of you - and never ever let anyone come in and damage you again. Heal your heart and Protect yourself better.
—  Reyna Biddy

You know what? At this point of the episode, I realize I stopped caring about Yuuri winning. I didn’t even care that despite his quads, he lost to Phichit (I love him too no worries). Heck I’m not even worried about the GPF. Don’t get me wrong, Yuuri winning with/for Victor would be awesome, yes, but I also realize, that more than that glory, all I want is, for the love of gOD PLEASE DON’T TEAR THESE TWO APART BY THE END OF THIS SERIES.

Please. Please give them a reason to stay together. PLEASE. 

you know what also breaks my heart? how the general public in the mcu does have this awareness that tony is mentally/emotionally unstable (we know that from the media reports) but not only is that demonized, it’s also – and arguably more prominently – sold as entertainment

the public/media straight-up fetishizes tony’s trauma, honestly, you get entertainment TV reporting on a stark-funded gala like “oh but tony stark is not coming, sources hold that he’s got PTSD and has been bed-ridden for weeks! [switches to picture of tony looking disheveled during his last press conference].” in iron man 2, the whole shtick is that tony’s too unstable and self-destructive to be iron man but oh yeah everyone goes to his birthday party and cheers as he drunkenly dons armor and destroys his own home. they run closer and try to snap pictures of his assassination attempt – and mind you, the fact that pepper and happy are the single two people that are WORRIED that tony just randomly took the wheel of a formula 1 car during a professional grand-prix just fucking BLOWS MY MIND like that is damn well near-suicidal reckless self-endangerment for absolutely no fucking apparent reason other than “you know what? i wanna do it” and people watch that like it is the most fascinating spectacle ever

tony’s in the hospital visiting his comatose friend and the SECOND he steps out there are reporters all over him and RANDOM CIVILIANS with their SMART PHONES specifically pushing him for a reaction like “when are you gonna catch this guy! [shrug] just sayin’” – and this whole scene still stands as one of the best bits from IM3, possibly the whole mcu re: the treatment of tony by the media, because that’s the one time tony’s awareness of the abuse and resentment toward it reeeeeeally shows – he’s like “oh is that what you wanted” after delivering his statement and then he CATCHES THE GUY’S PHONE AND THROWS IT AGAINST THE WALL, “BILL ME” holy shit

anyway like?? it’s so messed up?? and it’s a 616 tony thing too, especially re: the media ~darling topic of The Alcoholism. tony has to deal with his trauma in front of a merciless and fetishistic audience and that’s just…. yikes :(