you have probably answered this before, but do you think silverflint might happen? i didn't used to think it would but for some reason all the things they've said lately about season 4 has made me think that maybe it could? like its just a vibe ive gotten? im still like 95% in doubt, just down from 99%.
oh god. oh man. oh boy. here we are >:) fjskldfjldsfjdsf. I actually don’t think I’ve ever (officially) answered this before. but I’ve talked about it with so many people and the discussion ALWAYS goes something like this:
“yeah, I’m not getting my hopes up. it’s probably not going to happen and even though it would be amazing if it did, it’s fine if it doesn’t! their relationship is still so incredible and fascinating. so YEAH. no expectations because it probably won’t! :o)” [exit stage left]
…………………….[running back on stage] “bUT LIKE WHAT IF IT DID THOUGH?!?! what if it DID happen, for real!?! WHAT IF?!?!?! WHAT IF!!!!”
anyway: I’m not even gonna pretend like this isn’t gonna get long so I’ll just say…MORE OF ME TALKING UNDER THE CUT >:)
the fondness for poetry started when she was young ————— roughly five or six ————— when her grandmother purchased her ‘ falling up ’ by shel silverstein. she developed an appreciation for the fluidity of words, how they felt on her tongue as she read them back to her mother on the couch as a learning exercise. ( her love for poetry as a young girl can also be attributed to the time it actually allowed her to spend time with maggie. as a newly single mother, with kevin having just recently left town, there wasn’t much time to spend with emma between working constantly to make ends meet. however, every night was reserved a half hour for emma to curl up on the couch next to her mom with her favorite book of poems ————— pages dog eared on her favorites & tattered at the edges from constant use ————— to spend some quality time with her. some of her fondest memories from her young childhood ————— & some of her healthiest ————— come from sitting on that couch right after dinner & reading with her mom. it was a constant : a steady in her world that was turned upset down when her dad skipped out. ) there was a natural knack for reading the rhythm & feeling the words. maggie encouraged it & it stuck.
reading poetry progressed naturally to dabbling in writing poetry ( outside of mandatory school assignments she wasn’t overly fond of doing to begin with ) around sixth grade ————— roughly 11-12. her first poems were admittedly terrible, written about the family dog ( a golden retriever named ‘ lucky ’ because all golden retrievers are named lucky… even if they’re not) or about how much she hated doing homework. eventually, her topics expanded : the weather, school girl crushes, best friendship. superficial on the surface, but if one were to take a closer look, there was something there that was a bit deeper ————— an underlying currant. potential of sorts. she expanded her vocabulary & experimented with different styles & read quite a far bit. ( seriously ————— emma didn’t go anywhere without a book. waiting for food at a restaurant ? book. having to visit her mom at work after school ? book. going over to audrey’s house for a sleepover ? book… & she still found time to read it. )
her most emotional work ( prior to the murders ) came with puberty ————— around 13. her writing took on a slightly darker tone in reference to her struggles with her own sexuality( & trust me, emma fought against / struggled with / denied her sexuality for literal years before ever accepting that she liked girls as well as guys, maybe even moreso ) as well as finally confronting the emotional loss of her father & dealing with the resentment she harbored for him after he left. her poetry was essentially a diary : things she could never say aloud, but things she needed to say nonetheless. the majority of her poems were concealed in notebooks she hid in drawers or one she kept on her person at all times. poetry written on scrap paper was either taped into said notebooks or discarded immediately. she never left her name on anything as she didn’t want her name attached to it if she were to lose it. she hit long patch of writer’s block the year she stopped talking to audrey, solely because she had no desire to write. ( she lost her best friend since childhood over her own superficial / selfish desires ————— she wasn’t really in the headspace to write much of anything. ) her writing eventually picked up again at 15, after fully integrating herself into nina’s friend group & beginning a relationship with will. her writing regarding will was almost taylor swift-esque. bland / cliche / stereotypical. she didn’t mind.
her affinity for sylvia plath & her dark turn in poetry began after the murders. her favorite work of sylvia plath : ‘ mad girl’s love song ’ ————— a poem plath wrote as a student that was never formally included in any of her published poetry collections. (i shut my eyes and all the world drops dead ; i lift my lids and all is born again. i think i made you up inside my head. ) plath’s work inspired a lot of emma’s writing ( style & theme ) after the murders as a coping mechanism that she’s never revealed to her friends. she considers it an outlet now more than ever & takes extra care to conceal it from her friends / her mom given the content, as she doesn’t censor herself within her work. ( i suppose what i mean by this is : emma’s graphically writing about murder / the struggle to survive / survivor’s guilt / her mental illness. though she would never act on any of the topics in her writing, it’d be a big eye opener to see the girl who’s fairly bright / quiet / reserved write about such topics. she doesn’t want to lose her outlet, which is something she fears might happen if someone were to come across her work. she also doesn’t want to worry her friends when they have bigger fish to fry. ) her recent work, though morbid & often times, highly emotional, is something she considers beautiful. it’s important to her in the way stavo’s art is to him, in the way noah’s podcast is to him. it’s simply her method of coping with her lived trauma & her outlet for pent up emotions ————— treatment encouraged her poetry, as it’s a healthy means of expressing herself. & thus, poet!emma was born !