brain programming

Let’s talk about Bucky Barnes and Prisoners of War

I’ve seen a lot of people saying Bucky was guilty, Bucky should be thrown in prison, Bucky had no right to be “coddled” because of what he did. So, as a former USAF Staff Sergeant who is fiercely protective of those who served and gave so much for their country, I want to talk to you about POWs. Now I’m not great at these meta things, so bear with me, ok?

Let me begin by saying in America, Prisoners of War are not blamed for the things they were forced to do as prisoners. (Take this with a grain of salt, of course. I’m sure there’s a limit for everything, but for the intent of this post, that statement is relevant.) In our country, we understand that brainwashing and coercion happens and stuff that people may be forced to do is done under duress. 

When a person is taken as a Prisoner of War, they’re generally taken for a reason. Let’s look at how the Taliban/Al Qaeda like to take prisoners if only to behead them on live television. It’s demoralizing for the citizens of that prisoner’s country and uplifting for the terrorist bastards who enjoy that kind of shit. It’s all about hurting the enemy so the other guy can get further ahead, right? Right.

So let’s talk about what we know of Bucky’s time with HYDRA. 

The first time Bucky had opened his eyes after falling from the train, he was being dragged through the snow, his arm in pieces. The next thing he remembers is having the arm cut off and replaced with a metal one. You will be the new fist of HYDRA. Already, they were remaking him. He lashed out, got violent because that wasn’t who he was. Bucky was loyal to America and loyal to Steve’s purpose. 

How many times did they wipe his brain? They wiped his brain of all his memories including his very identity and reprogrammed him to be the loyal soldier they needed him to be. And correct me if I’m wrong, but they knew exactly who Bucky was. He was Captain America’s right hand man. If you don’t think that made him all the more gleeful over using him to tear the world down so HYDRA could build it back up in their image. 

So they wiped his brain, put in new programming, wham bam, you’ve got yourself a soldier. But there was more than that. There was the actual brainwashing. That’s different, actually. The brainwashing is doing stuff like telling a man that his work helped to shape a century, that he was making the world a better place, that his work was important. It’s being gentle and kind to that soldier, making them feel like what they’re doing is good and right even when there’s something in their chest that tells them it’s not. It’s seventy years of being used for one purpose and put on ice or wiped all over again when that purpose was finished.

Let’s think about those people who are saying Steve coddled Bucky. Steve saw his best friend who he’d thought dead as a man who didn’t even remember him when their lives had been so entwined, when their worlds had practically revolved around one another so long ago. Bucky didn’t remember him. Bucky had tried to kill him. That was not Bucky. But Bucky was in there, and Steve was going to do whatever he had to do to make sure the innocent man who had been tortured and wiped and brainwashed got a chance to live. 

Isn’t it time Bucky Barnes has a chance to live the kind of life and enjoy the freedoms that all those other men who’d made it out of the war had lived? 

Stop blaming Bucky- a veteran, a POW, a hero- for what he was forced to do. You all wanna talk about victim shaming? That is victim shaming.

A description of how Adderall affects the brain of a person who actually has ADHD

My brain normally: like 5 TVs playing all at once on full volume 24/7. It’s real hard to watch the “homework” TV when all the other ones are playing too (and they’re all playing much more interesting programs).

My brain on Adderall: only one TV is on. I still have to work to keep it on the “homework” channel (it’s way more fun to hyperfocus on the social media/talking with friends/making art channel) but at least I don’t have a bunch of other TVs going so it’s a bit easier.

TL;DR: ppl w/adhd aren’t taking meds for the “high” or whatever. Some of us really need meds to function. But also, meds aren’t magic and we still work hard to focus even when we’re on them.

anonymous asked:

You mentioned that whenever you deal with critique, you usually ignore the "armchair" part because the proposer probably wasn't "cognizant of the constraints involved". Well, then how do I become more "cognizant of the constraints involved" so I can make more informed critiques?

Back in 1999, there were a couple of researchers out of Cornell University named David Dunning and Justin Kruger who published a paper identifying a cognitive bias wherein people who were bad at a task would significantly overestimate their own skills at that task, and people who were experts at that task would usually underestimate themselves as merely above average. Their research found that the ability to evaluate one’s own skill came from the very skill one was trying to evaluate. In other words, those who were bad at something also couldn’t know how bad they were at it until they learned where they were wrong. However, the same people who performed badly also improved greatly at their ability to evaluate themselves with just a little bit of learning and experience.

This applies to game dev, just like it applies to just about anything. If you really want to understand what sort of constraints are involved in game dev, there’s no better way to learn than firsthand experience. Your best bet is to pick up an engine like Unity or Unreal and start building stuff yourself. And I don’t mean just poke around and try a few tutorials, I mean actually scope something out and build it. If you think it’s easy it shouldn’t take long, right? Come up with a feature set for a small game and actually make it work. Code it, animate it, create the entire thing. Take it to your friends for playtests. Find and fix those bugs. Make it fun. Finish it

Then start thinking about how long it takes for you to learn and bring things to life. Given a specific time frame, how much do you think you could get done? How would you test your work to make sure it is behaving the way you expect it to? What about making changes to the visuals of something? You could try animating something, or modeling something, or lighting a scene, or building an environment. Get your hands dirty and do it. Consider how much work it takes for you to get something done, from start to finish. Think about your scope. Then think about the scope of the tasks professional game devs are doing. Think about how to break down the thing you’re asking for into individual tasks. That’s how you get context. You learn by doing. 

PS. [Here is a link to my Game Career FAQ]. There’s a list of links to various engines and tools in it. Good luck!

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It’s too bad hyperfocus is the only way I can do impressive work, given that it’s super unhealthy for me.

Like, two days ago I was standing on tiles barefoot so I could stay awake and alert at 8am, because I had been coding continuously for the last 11 hours.

And today I decided to be a decent person and go to sleep closer to midnight, and I can’t because I literally can’t think about anything other than programming.

Focusing on a calm beach? There’s a beach environment in the text adventure I’m writing, and the coastline object would really benefit from special properties. Meditation? Isn’t clearing your thoughts really just garbage collection? (Which is extremely poorly implemented on my mental system, apparently.) Thinking about sex? Isn’t fucking pretty similar to Python package management? (No, really, that’s the association my brain formed, somehow.)

So now I’m trying to blast my head with dissociation-inducing music so I can enter that sweet, sweet oblivion from which no Interrupt can rouse me. Jesus fuck, what a shitty way of making brains.

(As of midnight, this is day 5 since I started this project. If this continues for another 5 days, send help.)

for real there’s nothing worse than seeing actual teenagers trot out the “your brain isn’t fully developed until you’re 25!” bullshit. that is a view of brain development that falls somewhere in the spectrum between “way oversimplified” and “just plain wrong”. it gets pushed and repeated because it helps prop up social norms that include robbing young people of autonomy and consent, regulating them out of the public sphere, and silencing their voices on important issues. and my heart just breaks to see teens internalizing this narrative of “you’re inherently stupid and untrustworthy because your brain is programmed to be shitty for another 10 years”. it’s like some kind of mass stockholm syndrome. young people please love yourselves and realize you do not have to wait until your mid-20s to be a whole and real person with the right to be taken seriously.

  • me: I'm aware that my robot/human otp is nothing more than a crack ship. I accept this new woman character with open arms. I am willing to consider polyamory between my otp + this new English lady.
Most criticisms of television have to do with the television program content. People say if there is less violence on television or less sexism on television, or less this or less that, television would be better. If there were more programs about this or more programs about that, then we’d have “good television”.
My own feeling is that that is true – that it’s very important to improve the program content – but that television has effects, very important effects, aside from the content, and they may be more important. They organize society in a certain way. They give power to a very small number of people to speak into the brains of everyone else in the system night after night after night with images that make people turn out in a certain kind of way. It affects the psychology of people who watch. It increases the passivity of people who watch. It changes family relationships. It changes understandings of nature. It flattens perception so that information, which you need a fair amount of complexity to understand it as you would get from reading, this information is flattened down to a very reduced form on television. And the medium has inherent qualities which cause it to be that way.
—  Book summary of Four Arguments for the Elimination of Television

When you are a child and you feel ignored, your brain has actually been programmed to ignore your feelings.
As you age, it will be the ‘norm’ to feel invisible.
And you will naturally feel invisible to your own Self.

You will struggle to ‘see your feelings’ and 'feel them’ and to ultimately be able to 'identify and claim’ these feelings as your own.
You will seek outward validation, cues, signals and signs as a means to help you clarify and justify what is happening inside of you.

This is a consequence of being raised by self absorbed parents.
To 'feel seen’ in an authentic way, we must be willing to 'see the self’ and learn how to embrace as well as shatter any illusion ever created that had us believing we were not good enough.

F**K that programming dear one!

You were always good enough, and when you understand this at your core–you can make the Self your new best friend.
You can be silly, and free because you know it’s okay to be you.

When you develop this self humility and self acceptance, you are able to attract people who can see the real you as well. When they say they love you, you can believe them because you are showing them who you really are. When you hide yourself, and people say they love you,
you will always doubt whether they do because on some level you will know you have hidden some aspect of you due to fearing what they may think of you.

Just be your true Self…own it–accept it…honor it–and don’t expect anyone to change you–and don’t expect anyone to change for you…just be you!

—  Lisa A. Romano