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Chart Shapes

When reading someones chart it is important to look at the general shape of their chart to see their basic nature.

Balanced chart: A balanced chart has an even distribution of planets through the houses. All aspects of this person’s life will be stimulated and while this holds great potential, the energies may be spread too thinly when many goals are pursued at once.

Self-oriented chart: The majority if not all of the planets in a self-oriented chart are in the vertical half of the chart towards the Ascendant. These people usually have a self-directed personality and their energies are focused on self expression and individuality.

Other-oriented chart: This chart is the opposite of the self-oriented chart, the planets will be in the half of the chart towards the Descendant. This chart shape is usually a suggestion that there is a lot of emphasis on the persons relationships in life and that they feel others are more important than the self.

Inward-oriented chart: This is when most of the planets are in the bottom half of the chart, this person’s energies are introverted and focused inwardly.

Outward-oriented chart: Most of the planets are in the top half of the chart and the person’s energy flow is focused towards the world however this person may live in a sort of identity crisis, looking towards an empty centre.

Bowl chart: When all of the planets occupy one half of the chart, it is ideal that if you have a bowl, it is at a slight angle allowing constant replenishment.

Bucket chart: A bowl shaped chart with a planet opposite of the bowl as a handle, seen as a conduit between the sector of the bowl and itself.

Bundle chart: All planets reside in four signs or 120 degrees. Bundles indicate specialists who focuses primarily on those areas in which the planets fall.

See-saw chart: When the planets are in two opposing groups, this indicates that the person may feel pulled in two directions and needs to find a balance.

Locomotive chart: Planets spread evenly across eight signs or 240 degrees, this shape leaves one sector or area of life empty and unexpressed.

Splay chart: Tight bunches of planets in several signs or houses creating a choices for which area of life the person wants to focus on.

Split chart: When the planets are positioned in two unconnected area, the energy flow swings between the two and creates a dual personality.

Neptune in the 4th House

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The 4th House represents several things: our past, upbringing, and what keeps us comfortable. The 4th House is in the bottom of the chart, and it often provides a strong starting point and foundation for the native to work upon as the native grows up. Planets in the 4th House show the person investing part of themselves in maintaining this foundation.

Those with Neptune in the 4th may not have a truly correct and tangible idea of what their foundation of life is like. The foundations and values they were built up with can be a lot of things, but at the same time, nothing at all. These foundations and values may have been brought up by their family, or through the native’s past experiences. The native’s family and past are often secretive, yet confusing. With this confusion, a lot of the effects the native has gained from their past and family seeps out without the native consciously knowing.

The past of the native with this placement is hazy. The native may not talk much about their family, past, and upbringing because the native doesn’t know the past clearly. If the native does talk about the past, the native can fabricate stories and lies unconsciously, only noticing after the words have spilled from the mouth. Since the past is unclear, the native may be desperate and put on rose-colored glasses, thinking that an inaccurate view is better than no view at all.

There could be thoughts that a false foundation and past is better than none at all. The self after all can be built and strongly influenced by the foundation of the 4th House. If the native does not have a base, how can the native have a strong sense of self? The native can subconsciously and desperately seek for a past and family to cling onto to maintain a sense of self, even if it doesn’t exist. However, with this lack of existence, having Neptune in the 4th can provide the opportunity for the native to develop a foundation that is truly creative and true to themselves.

The family the Neptune in the 4th native may have grown up in was hard to describe. It may be hard for the native to know what was expected of them in the family, since the expectations can go from one extreme to another without the native noticing it. Perhaps the expectations are known, but the native has no idea on how to fulfill those expectations. These expectations depend on the sign ruling the 4th House.

The image of the native’s family can be very hazy for the native. One of the parents may have worked hard to maintain a certain image or ideal, and if the image and ideal wasn’t fulfilled, the parent may have tried to cover up that fact by putting on rose-colored lenses. Perhaps the native saw their past and family through rose-colored lenses. After all, secrets were never told, and a beautiful image may have been strongly maintained for the sake of tangible existence.

The arts may have been a strong factor in the native’s family. Perhaps one of the native’s parents was artistic, creative, and compassionate. The parent may have been influential in an understated manner or through the undercurrents of the family dynamic. However, one of the parents may have had a strong use of substances. Those with Neptune in the 4th may have had to take care of one of their parents due to the parent being unable to care for the native. One of the parents may have been very secretive and also manipulative, often making a strong tie to the native. There is often a strong tendency of victimization throughout the family.

Those with Neptune in the 4th House may dream of a home, past, or upbringing they never got. Perhaps they know what their past and upbringing looks like. They may dream of a comfort that doesn’t exist, a home that is impossible to realistically implement. Having Neptune in the 4th House can provide a native a strong base to be creative, sacrificial, and loving to others. However, the native can struggle to establish boundaries in other areas of their life, since they were raised in a life with little to no boundaries in the first place.

astrological chart of the USA

looking at the chart of a country/nation can provide basic insights about its government’s/society’s attitudes as a whole. looking at the charts of nations or real-world events is usually called mundane astrology, which is what we’re looking at today. just as a general disclaimer, this is not meant to provoke or offend any with strong nationalistic attitudes, just to examine the chart of the united states with a critical eye. 

this is the chart of the adoption of the declaration of independence. this is what we will be considering as the “birth” of the country.

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Asteroid Series: Dark Asteroids

Okay so someone asked me to explain the asteroids and THERE’S SO MANY so I’m gonna make a series! Tonight I’m looking at dark asteroids because I mean… Pluto in the 8th House, go figure. To find the asteroids in your chart, get your chart on astro.com and when in the chart selection go to the bottom and put the number into the bar given.

Lucifer (1930): As I understand it, it represents our rise and fall, the thing that boosts our ego and can simultaneously break it (and others).

Kaali (4227): This is the asteroid that involves dark rituals and involvement with the astral planes.

Nessus (7066): This asteroid represents sexual abuse but also betrayed trust, any kind of abuse and deadly jealousy.

Dejanira (157): Shows us what we are victimised by

Karma (3811): Shows us where our karma appears, what we need to work on

Orcus (90482): A dwarf planet with similarities to Pluto with more focus on spiritual corruption and redemption.

DRACONIC CHART

lots of you already know your placements and what they mean. but prepare to get a whole new chart to learn about yourself -the draconic chart. the draconic chart provides information about the soul’s purpose. what you were truly born with. it can also describe the way you were like as a child. 

and if let’s say you’ve got two people who are in love but almost none of their placements are really compatible, the draconic chart may explain it. it puts north node at 0 degrees aries.  

my draconic chart is libra sun, virgo moon, taurus rising, sag venus, and leo mars. this actually explains why i love libras and sagittarians.

all my placements are different so i recommend you check it out! go to astro.com, and enter in your information. go to “free horoscopes” at the top, and click on “extended chart selection”. in “methods” when selecting your chart, scroll all the way to the bottom and the second to last one is “draconic chart”. 

Australia - Five leaders in five years

What could prompt a country to change Prime Ministers five times in just over five years? We’ve gone from Kevin Rudd (Virgo) to Julia Gillard (Libra), back to Rudd, then Tony Abbott (Scorpio), and finally Malcolm Turnbull (Scorpio). Above is Australia’s natal chart with data provided by Liz Greene. It shows Australia’s natal Sun conjunct Saturn in Capricorn, indicating the trend of more conservative governments. Sagittarius rules politics and exports, foreign investment, and higher learning. Uranus in Sagittarius could show a nation that is unsure about political values and may have a tendency for abrupt changes, especially when these are triggered by transits. Saturn is about to transit Sagittarius, meaning the theme of sudden change may come to a disciplined halt. Jupiter is transiting Australia’s natal Mars meaning the anger and rage of the public may have reached an overflow. Transiting Moon in Libra making an opposition to Abbott’s natal Aries Moon means his white flag was raised and  energy for battle were sublimated. Uranus is traveling over the top of the chart near the Midheaven, so abrupt and radical changes are often made in the highest positions. There can be trailblazing stuff happening. Part of this relates to the event of first female Prime Minister. Julia Gillard and Tony Abbott have natal Uranus in the similar ascended chart position. Rudd and Turnbull have no recorded birth time. Each of the previous leadership spills have occurred during a Lunar eclipse with a New Moon, while Abbott’s occurred during a Solar eclipse with a New Moon.



Will the pattern of leadership change cease at the loss of Tony Abbott? Himself and Julia Gillard have similar chart features, and there is a saying that your enemies are exactly like you, just fighting in a different way. Gillard’s has the Sun in Libra with Scorpio ascending, while Abbott has a Scorpio Sun with Libra on the ascending. Venus was fighting Mars, the ancient planets of hegemony, notably prompting the misogyny and gender battles between them. Both have a bucket chart with the Moon acting as anchor, meaning the summation of their energies and talents are directed by and through emotion. Gillard’s in Gemini, Abbott’s in Aries. Both have the Mars in Libra, although Abbott’s first house Mars means his rage was directed through self serving means, Gillard’s in the eleventh house fights for a higher cause. They each have Mercury in Scorpio. Maybe they have fought many battles before, over many past lives. The same fate seems to have awaited both. When Abbott was sworn in during 2013, transiting Neptune was passing through the bottom of the chart over the IC. This indicates Abbott’s lack of vision (Neptune), and this was a large contributor to his downfall.

Pluto has been transiting Australia’s Sun and Saturn in Capricorn since 2008. Pluto is the demolition of rotten and corrupt forces, and Capricorn represents the establishment. Kevin Rudd was elected in 2007, and his leadership became under pressure in 2008, prompting the leadership spill in 2010 in which Gillard gained power. All of the Prime Ministers that have risen to the top job during this transit have had heavy Scorpio emphasis, Rudd with Venus conjunct Neptune in Scorpio, Gillard with Ascending, Mercury, and Neptune conjunct Scorpio, Abbott with Sun, Mercury, and Neptune conjunct Scorpio, and finally, Malcolm Turnbull’s Sun, Saturn, and Mercury conjunction in Scorpio. Each bring the formidable power of Scorpio to the position, but suffer the backlash of Pluto’s brutal forces. Australia’s natal Pluto in Gemini mean the media is a medium that can work very much in their favor, and also destroy and defame them. Pluto’s transit through Capricorn ends in 2023! We could not keep having leadership spills until then, or will Capricorn force us to heed Pluto’s lessons in the darkest way and re-emerge with leaders who inspire with the visionary Capricorn mind? Pluto is the fall and the rise.


-Cherry

where did we come from?

the fourth house in astrology is marked by the imum coeli. latin for “bottom of the sky,” this point in the natal chart indicates the very tip of our roots, and lays the foundation of potential from which we grew. what we find in our fourth house is profoundly insightful regarding our lived experiences as children, and this can help to understand how they shape our personality as adults.

☉ sun in the fourth house: homebody, identity is closely tied with the condition of the home, needing special attention/care, may hold the traditions of the family and live by this or rebel against the home to establish a totally different path.

☽ moon in the fourth house: closely tied to the mother, acute awareness of the emotional conditions of the home, emotions kept under the surface, intense emotions, either very healthy or very damaged home.

☿ mercury in the fourth house: thoughts are influenced by family, interested in history, may have intellectual parents, values family communication/togetherness, fixated on the past.

♀ venus in the fourth house: holds distinct fondness for the conditions of the family, comforting home, home was filled with beautiful things and trinkets, parents may have been collectors of a sort.

♂ mars in the fourth house: turbulent home life, someone who spends much of their energy trying to keep peace, either the instigator or pacifist within the home’s drama, tends to be the ‘bossy’ one of the household.

♃ jupiter in the fourth house: large family, generous parents/parents who spoiled, a need to be extremely giving to others, luck befalls you when you nurture, nice natural flow of the home, potent instincts

♄ saturn in the fourth house: mirrors the condition of the father/austere figure of the home, may be forced early on to be the ‘mature’ one of the house, thinks critically of home life, difficult to express emotions, especially to family

♅ uranus in the fourth house: desire to rebel, breaks traditions of the home, wants to ‘break the cycle’ present in family, sense of detachment from family members, may feel like the black sheep.

♆ neptune in the fourth house: parents project their idea of who you are onto you, overly loving to others, wanting the ‘perfect family’ and being unable to achieve it, avoiding maturity in the home, too lenient of parent(s), irresponsible.

♇ pluto in the fourth house: abandonment issues, a parent who is not around, fluctuating/stirring emotions, intense shifts and changes of the home, guilt or secrecy about the home, life events and changes are kept hidden.

*those with a fourth house stellium are more sensitive and receptive to the environment of the home. what happens in their home sticks with them for life, and they cannot repress or move on from events (especially unpleasant) as easily- especially if the sun and/or moon is involved.

actualcarlbarat  asked:

crash course on arctic monkeys? pls

The Band

Alex Turner

  • singer, songwriter, guitarist
  • deceptively tiny - a beAN in fact
  • many different hair eras - pick your favourite and defend it with your life
  • a lyrical genius but unable to string a normal sentence together in everyday conversation (that rock ‘n’ roll, eh?)
  • used to go out with Alexa Chung, they were beautiful and looked like a renaissance painting when they kissed and everyone cried when they broke up
  • dances like a drunk uncle at a family barbeque but no one will stop him? someone please save him from his own hubris

Matt Helders

  • drummer, aka the agile beast, aka matthew j helders iii
  • strong and friendly
  • FALSETTO
  • a beautiful and funny man
  • is engaged to the girl (Breana) in the suck it and see video, a fact thay makes me die of of laughter everytime i think about it. recently announced that soon they shall be parents
  • Kayne once said he was almost as good as Phil Collins, Matt probably cried when he heard

Jamie Cook

  • guitarist
  • he has the strongest accent of them all it’s glorious
  • “”jameh””
  • hates twinnings tea
  • married to the wonderful katie, also soon to be a father
  • the babies first word will probably be “eh”

Nick O’ Malley

  • bassist
  • an unproblematic cinnamon roll?
  • Yellamo Salohcin
  • Has a beautiful baby boy named Hearst, the first tru Dad of the band
  • only joined after the first album was out for four months, replacing andy nicholson, learned the entire repetoire in two days

they’ve all been friends since they were tiny so there’s never any drama or fights or anything, it’s all good vibes and happy times? a good bunch of people


The Albums

Whatever People Say I Am, That’s What I’m Not

  • sort of a concept album except not really, deals with themes of growing up and going out in the north of england
  • “oh well they might wear classic reeboks/or knackered converse/or tracky bottoms tucked in socks”
  • a massive massive success, fastest selling album in british chart history etc etc
  • makes u all nostalgic for the good times u never experienced u kno

Favourite Worst Nightmare

  • sounds harder and louder sort of
  • a lot of ppls fave album? i can see why its very very good
  • went straight to mumber 1, won awards etc etc
  • srsly its so good
  • LETS’AVEAGAMEONTHETEDDYPICKERNOTQUICKENOUGHCANI’AVEITQUICKERALREADYTHICKANDYERGETTIN’THICKER

Humbug

  • my favourite album
  • some o’ that ‘umbug music, that full moon music eh?
  • lyrically out of this world, above and beyond anything else ive ever heard
  • produced by josh homme, divided fans over their new sound
  • dance little liar?? secret door?? pretty visitors?? crying lightning?? what a good glorious album??
  • the best hair era imho
  • atmospheric and dreamy like alexs voice is so? but still really exciting, lots of good sing-along songs too. but dark and broody u kno

Suck It And See

AM

  • the album that got me into the arctic monkeys
  • made them the global sucess they are today, but also like. divided fans once more bc suddenly am were popular and that always shakes things up
  • [[quiff and leather intensifies]]
  • i still unironically love it i listen to it like once a week
  • the last song is actually a john cooper clarke poem al reworked
  • alas al has now lost the quiff and is now growing some sort of gel monstrosity on his scalp, also he refuses to shave, maybe his new girlfriend taylor can help

Other Projects

Miles Kane + The Last Shadow Puppets

  • on the FWN tour the monkeys were supported by a band called The Rascals, fronted by one Mr. Miles Kane, a beautiful and talented turtle from liverpool
  • Miles and Alex immediatley fell in love became best friends and started writing songs together
  • in 2008, in between FWN and Humbug, they released an album called The Age Of The Understatement under the name of The Last Shadow Puppets
  • wikipedia describes it as ‘baroque’ and i really cant fault that
  • its big and loud and glourious and beautiful and it sounds like a western or a thriller or some other massive vista spanning soundtrack
  • its honestly the best thing either of them have ever done
  • Al and Mi keep doing things that make us think there’ll be another one, in the last few weeks the rumour mill has been especially busy
  • Also you should definitley listen to Miles’ own albums, Colour of the Trap and Don’t Forget Who You Are, as Miles is beautiful and stylish and one of my favourite people and an astoundingly talented musician and both Noel and Paul Weller guest star on his albums
  • oh yeah and alex bought him and miles matching turtlenecks for christmas
  • a handy and useful masterpost of Alex and Miles interactions
  • Alex and Miles are also. Uh. Look one time NME gave them the “Pete‘n’Carl” award.
  • i mean look at this

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Submarine Soundtrack

  • Richard Ayoade is an old friend of the band and asked Al to do the soundtrack to his film, Submarine, so Alex did and its beautiful
  • it sounds like stars and dreams and midnight and fireworks
  • i cry almost every single time i listen to it

More Fun Arctic Monkeys Facts

  • the NME is obsessed with them they had an entire issue dedicated to AM when it came out
  • oh yeah the band also has like a secret “”alter ego”” called The Death Ramps which is like? a fake biker gang that alex made up so they could release stuff pseudonymously. also miles kane is a member and alex made them all matching death ramps rings and he and miles never take theirs off
  • this is a very useful masterpost and has more accurate info
  • and this cover compilation is also very nice indeed
  • jamie cook used to work as a tiler even when he was still in the band
  • matt is also a dj he’s very very cool like that
  • matt’s tour diaries are essential viewing
  • oh yeah and alex’s short story A Choice of Three which is really good
  • al contibuted to the Mini Mansions song Vertigo and it’s awful but his verse is weirdly mesmerising. but the rest of it is really bad, als part is from 1:29 to 2:15 so u can ignore the rest
  • honestly one of the coolest and my most favourite bands please enjoy your journey

anonymous asked:

OMG It's not rape culture to need sex! Y'all nut jobs might not need sex, but there's a reason why it's on the bottom levels on that hierarchy of needs chart. NORMAL ppl need a complete physical connection to their intimate partner to be fully actualized. You don't want it, that's fine. No one should force you. Tell ppl up front so they can avoid you. Date your own kind and leave normal ppl alone! I don't even want to socialize with things like you bc you're not human. You're sad stunted freaks.

Let’s get one thing clear;

No one ‘needs’ to have sex. Ever.

You don’t need it to actualize a relationship. You don’t need it to actualize yourself. You don’t need it to enjoy your life, or your relationship with other people. Never in anyone’s life is sexual activity an obligation. If you really do need sexual contact to that level, that’d be a symptom of hypersexuality, which is a method of destructive self-harm.

What you’re really saying is that you need to have sex with someone in order for you to stay motivated to maintain the relationship. And that’s completely different. 

Relationships have limited or no sexual contact for multiple reasons, even barring asexuality altogether. If your requirement for a relationship equates to an obligation to sleep with you, and you equate that with ‘no aces ever’, then by all accounts, people like you are the actual problem.

We’re always the one expected to make the compromises, and it’s not fair to us? Like hell the rest of the world would be suppressed in their dating lives if they for once centered their sex lives around our boundaries instead of their desires. I guarantee that plenty of people who might think they ‘need’ sex actually definitely don’t. They just grew up in a world that taught them a single way to define a relationship.

But thanks for dehumanizing the ace. It’s not like we’re gonna clamber over for someone like you.

- Fae

4

Cor and Aravis started together and will probably end with each other.

They were introduced to the music world with their band, The Calormen (Breakout album Runaway, top left image) and became popular public figures for a while.

After the band broke up, however, everyone thought they were though with music.

Wrong.

Aravis hit the ground running, producing her album Stories (top right image) just under a year of the band’s breakup.

It was a smashing success, bring both her and Narnia, inc. a lot of fame and success.

Cor wasn’t very far behind either, his album, New Royalty (bottom left image) rising to the top charts as well.

But somehow, fate brought them together again.

After collaborating for a Narnia, inc. promotional album, they rekindled their earlier friendship.

Just last week, they debuted their first album as a duo, Archenland (bottom right image). The official numbers are yet to come out, but the buzz is clear: as much as we all liked them apart, we like them much, much more together.

(By Lilly Miller. See the rest of the news on Archenland, Aravis and Cor, and Narnia, inc. on page 12.)

Home

Cameron:
“Kirsten,” Cameron said as he gripped her fingers tightly, not even sure if she could feel his touch. Hoping she could at least hear the desperation in his voice, his desire for her to come back to him, he continued, “I know it’s hard. I know all of this has to be so hard for you, the pain, the guilt, the hopelessness, but you can’t just give up. The Kirsten I know is a fighter; she’s a problem-solver.

“I don’t know where you are, but I promise you, it’s not real. Real is out here with me and Camille, Linus, Maggie, and Fisher and everyone else in the Stitch lab who cares about you. Come back to us - come back to me - and I’ll take you home.”

The lab was silent. The time on the mission clock had long run down. No one moved; it seemed as if no one was breathing. All eyes were on Kirsten. Maggie emerged from her office, the clicking of her heels breaking the deafening silence, but Cameron stayed focused on Kirsten.

She looked so peaceful, so serene. Looking at her, you never would have imagined the war waging within her. He felt a little guilty that he hadn’t noticed sooner. He’d been so wrapped up in his personal drama with Nina, he’d neglected some of his duties. His job wasn’t just to make sure Kirsten was physically safe, but emotionally too. The way she showed up to his apartment - distraught and in tears - should have been a clue. Hell, it should have been a big flashing neon sign that something wasn’t right, but if - when Kirsten emerged from the stitch- he’d make everything right somehow.

Squeezing her fingers, he brought her hand to his lips in a tender kiss and repeated the words that brought her back the last time she was lost to him. “Come on, Stretch. We still have work to do. Make the bounce.”

But Kirsten remained still. The steady rise and fall of her chest was the only indication she was still alive.

Cameron’s desperation grew; he didn’t know what to do. With every growing second, Kirsten was slipping further and further away, and it was going to be his fault if she was lost to them all for good.

His voice caught in his throat knowing that all he could do now was beg.

Please, Kirsten! Come back!”

A few more moments of silence passed. He heard Maggie make her way toward him. Knowing what she was about to say, he banged his free hand on the fish tank and practically growled, “Dammit, Kirsten! Make the bounce!” And as if by some miracle, Cameron heard her whisper, “Okay.”

If he hadn’t been watching her face, if he hadn’t seen her lips move, he would’ve thought he had imagined it, but she said it again, just loud enough for him to hear, her hands slowly moving to the keypads.

Cameron grabbed her hand again before she could start typing.

“Just a second, Stretch.”

He turned to face Camille. “Man the controls, will ya?”

Camille shuffled over to his station without a word, giving Cameron a small nod when she was ready.

Cameron released her hand and said, “We’re all here waiting for you, Kirsten.”

Kirsten’s fingers hovered over the keypads. Her voice trembling, tears escaping from the corners of her eyes, she said, “I’ll see you soon, Mom,” before punching in IHEARTLINUS.

Kirsten:
Kirsten opened her watery eyes to find Cameron’s green ones staring back at her, filled with relief. He threw his com aside and spoke directly to her. “Hey, hey. Look at me. Look right at me. I’m right here. I’m not going anywhere, Stretch.”

She nodded, finding herself too tired to speak as everything that had occurred hit her all at once. She didn’t understand how people survived with emotions all the time. She’d only had them for a few months and she was overwhelmed and exhausted. There was too much to feel, too much to process. She was pissed at her father for leaving time after time and for killing the only father she knew; frustration at failing to find him; elation knowing that her mother was alive, desperate and every bit determined to find her. Despair and grief at having to leave her behind because for the first time that Kirsten could remember, she had felt all the warmth, contentment, and mirth that accompanies being loved unconditionally. It was intoxicating and beautiful, like the first rays of sunshine after a bad storm.

Her mother had been so beautiful, so perfect, exactly as Kirsten remembered her. She could have stayed in that memory forever, but it wasn’t real. No matter how badly she wanted it to be, it wasn’t real.

But Cameron was, and so was her mother, somewhere. Repeating that to herself was the only thing that made her bounce - knowing that out here in reality, she could one day be with her real mother again.

She knew the idea should have made her happy, but the very thought made the tears start up again. The idea of starting another search, against the NSA nonetheless, made Kirsten feel more powerless than she already did.

Sighing heavily, she turned to Cameron and said, “I just want to go home.”

He gave her a sweet smile and said, “Of course. Let’s get you outta here.”

Kirsten watched with half mast eyes as the lab woke around her. She hadn’t noticed the stillness until everyone began to move. Cameron began working on her harnesses. Camille, Fisher, Maggie, and Ayo started towards her, but Cameron said, “Giver her some space,” verbalizing her thoughts without even having to ask. She gave his arm a gentle squeeze in thanks.

When he had worked her free, he held out his hand and said, “Whenever you’re ready, I’m right here.”

Offering her hands to Cameron, she let him support her weight, her slight body feeling surprisingly heavy as she moved to climb out of the fish tank. One arm held the side of the tank as the other wrapped around her back. The moisture from her suit soaked every part of his body that touched hers, but he didn’t seem to mind.

Camille and Ayo were standing at the bottom of the ladder. Ayo with a chart, thermometer, and stethoscope in hand; Camille was holding out a towel which Cameron steered her into.

“Camille, get her dressed. Ayo, I’ll take care of all that and get the information to you once I get her home.

Ayo looked reluctant but turned away when she saw that Cameron wasn’t changing his mind, and before Camille shuffled her off to change, he rubbed his hands up and down her arms a few times in a soothing gesture. “I’ll be out here when you’re ready.”

Kirsten nodded and felt Cameron’s eyes on her as Camille applied a small amount of pressure to the small of her back, guiding her towards the locker room.

Camille hesitated at the door as Kirsten padded over to her locker.

Out of the corner of her eye, as she began digging through her bag for her clothes, Kirsten could see her roommate cross her arms and lean up against the wall. Kirsten knew there was a question coming.

Camille quietly asked, “You wanna talk about what happened out there?”

With a slight shake of her head, Kirsten said, “No. Or at least not right now,” her voice sounding foreign to her own ears. “Maybe later. Right now, I just want to go home and rest.”

Camille gave a curt nod but said nothing more. Kirsten was grateful she didn’t push the issue.

Kirsten entered one of the stalls and dressed as quickly as her body would allow. Her muscles were tight; the tension in her neck and back were enough to momentarily halt her movements, but a few deep breaths and she was able to power through.

When she stepped out of the locker room, everyone was busy performing post-stitch procedures, but no one rushed her and bombarded her with questions or tried to check her vitals. In fact, no one really paid her any attention at all. She wondered if it was Cameron’s doing as she made her way over to his desk.

Finishing up whatever he was working on, he looked up at her and with his crooked smile said, “You ready to go, Princess?”

Kirsten nodded.

Cameron pressed one last button, shutting down his station. Taking Kirsten’s bag, he yelled up to Maggie, “I’ll call you with an update in the morning.” Turning back to face the lab, he continued, “Ayo, I’ll call you in a few hours.”

Guiding her towards the elevator, one of Cameron’s arms circled the small of her back, holding tightly to her waist. Kirsten couldn’t help but think that he was being extra hands-on, considering what happened between the two of them yesterday and the conversation they’d had before the stitch. Normally, she would have been weirded out, but at the moment, she appreciated his closeness as she let her head sink to his shoulder.

Exiting through the back door of the Jade Frog, they walked the few steps to his car. Kirsten closed her eyes as soon as her body sunk into the familiar leather seat. The ever-present scent of pine had been replaced with something fruity, but Kirsten didn’t have the energy to inquire about it at the moment. She let the sensation of wheels over concrete and the soft sound of the radio lull her into a resting state - not fully asleep but not totally awake - until Cameron cut the engine.

Kirsten opened her eyes to find the highrise of Cameron’s apartment building in front her.

A little groggy and confused, she turned to him and asked, “I thought you were taking me home?”

He gave her a soft smile and said, “I did. Now let’s get you inside.”

Birth Charts

A majority of planets on….

…the left side of the chart: independent/egoistic

…the right side of the chart: dependent/other-oriented

…the top of the chart: public, seeking progress and recognition

…the bottom of the chart: private, seeking to make the best of and being contempt with what they already have

[Photo description : a chart, going from 0 at the bottom in blue, through green and amber stages as numbers increase, to red at 10 at the top.
‘10- Unable to move - I am in bed and can’t move due to my pain. I need someone to take me to the Emergency Room to get help with my pain.
'9- Severe - My pain is all I can think about. I can barely talk or move because of the pain.’
'8- Intense - My pain is so severe that it is hard to think of anything else. Talking and listening are difficult.’
'7 - Unmanageable - I am in pain all the time. It keeps me from doing most activities.’
'6 - Distressing - I think about the pain all the time. I give up many activities because of the pain.’
'5 - Distracting - I think about my pain most of the time. I cannot do some of the activities I need to do each day becauseof the pain.’
'4 - Moderate - I am continually aware of my pain but I can continue most activities.’
'3- Uncomfortable - My pain bothers me but I can ignore it most of the time.’
'2- Mild - I have a low level of pain, I am aware of my pain only when I pay attention to it.’
'1- Minimal - My pain is hardly noticeable.’
'0- No pain - I have no pain.’ ]


Disability ninja photo challenge, day 9: your pain level.

On the pain scale above, I usually rate around 7 at all times with stabs to 8 or 9. During a migraine it tends to be a solid 9, and right now (quarter to 1 in the morning on Wednesday) I’m at a solid 8 with pulses of 9, as I have fainted once and fallen while trying to get up once today, so have extra pain on top of the usual.

I have experienced 10 a few times, most recently for a gynaecological problem that landed me in Accident & Emergency, and for the injections of local anaesthetic for my nail avulsion operation.

So I went to the optometrist...

Shenanigans ensue

Optometrist: “Okay, I need you to take out your contacts and read the bottom line.”
Me: “Ma'am… where’s the chart?”
Optometrist: “O-kay…. try the other eye.”
Me; “Ma'am, I really appreciate your optimism here, but where is the chart?”