Sorry about all the whining posts this week, guys. 
I’m sure things will settle down again some.

And thanks for the nice messages.
I know I didn’t respond to most of them because I was in too piss-poor a mood, but that doesn’t mean I appreciate them any less.

And extra thanks for Mollie, RachelManda and, as always, Jacq for occupying my brain with what little conversation I could manage and letting me babble.

ephaerie-deactivated20150117  asked:

Just wanted to pop in and say there is nothing wrong with winnowing the good from the hand that's been played for your life and health. Anon person seems like they're having a hard time with their particular experience, and mental distress like that might make them unable to separate personal experience from objective acceptance of another person's relating their own POV. It's not acceptable to take that out on your personal space, though. Anyway. Positive thoughts your way.

thank you, that’s very kind of you

you’re right, I should have been more sympathetic to anon’s distress and responded a little more calmly, but it was difficult to when I started out in a somewhat shaky place tonight (and made those posts from that place), so I felt a bit blindsided and didn’t handle my confusion well. I appreciate your words and support and hopefully tonight gets a bit calmer

ephaerie-deactivated20150117  asked:

These are shitty questions, man. They're all like "are you single, were you single, are you dating someone, were you dating someone, do you like sex? is the sky blue? do you hate your life? how much?" Anyway. 12, 21, 24 (I'm guessing yes), 28, 30 (no, really), 37, 41, 42, 45 (lol), 68.

It was this or 20 versions of “Wut r yer turn ons/offs lawl”

12:Have you pretended to like someone?

I don’t know if I ever actively pretended to like someone I didn’t, but I probably have stayed in situations with people when it was already clear it was pointless.

21:Do you miss anyone?

A friend of mine who died last year would’ve had her birthday last week, so she’s been on my mind a lot.
Other than that, no.

24:Are you good at hiding your feelings?

Extremely, when I have to.
I just usually don’t because I don’t want to.

28:What is something you currently want right now?

Financial security.
And plane tickets.

30:How is your heart lately?

Had a bit of a tumblr the past months, but still beating strong asi ever.

37:Did you do something bad today?

Does smoking count? Cause then yes.
Otherwise, no.

41:Have you ever wanted to tell someone something but didn’t?

Loads of times.

42:Who do you go to when you need to talk to someone?

Jacq seems to have become my go-to complain about things person.

45:What is wrong with you right now?

It’s 6 in the morning and I’m still awake.

68:Would you rather sleep with someone else or alone?

Already did that one.

I missed that 68 was asked. Woops. I’m gonna ask you something off of MY MASSIVE LIST OF TUMBLR ASKS INSTEAD. “Two truths and a lie. Go.” AND “If you could change one thing about your personality, what would it be?

Two truths and a lie!

Ehmm.. I’m an award winning karate kid, I used to be a boyscout, I can speak four languages.

If I could change one thing.

I’d like to be able to not be depressed and have crippling low self esteem 90% of the time.