borderline true

  • me: fuck im so ANGRY!! why does everyone have to PISS me off i dont DESERVE THIS
  • me two minutes later: -through wads of tissues- o-oh my god i'm sorry i dont know what came over me -sobs- im sorry i didn't mean to get so angry im SORRY
  • me another two minutes later: -skateboards in- whats up my guys i brought goldfish and hot dogs. let's watch clickbait

- borderline personality disorder + Aileen Wuornos & Jeffrey Dahmer 

After a psychiatric analysis, they were both diagnosticated as borderline. Borderline personality disorder  is a serious mental illness marked by unstable moods, behavior, and relationships.

symptoms of BPD 

  • Extreme reactions—including panic, depression, rage, or frantic actions—to abandonment, whether real or perceived
  • A pattern of intense and stormy relationships with family, friends, and loved ones, often veering from extreme closeness and love (idealization) to extreme dislike or anger (devaluation)
  • Distorted and unstable self-image or sense of self, which can result in sudden changes in feelings, opinions, values, or plans and goals for the future (such as school or career choices)
  • Impulsive and often dangerous behaviors, such as spending sprees, unsafe sex, substance abuse, reckless driving, and binge eating
  • Recurring suicidal behaviors or threats or self-harming behavior, such as cutting
  • Intense and highly changeable moods, with each episode lasting from a few hours to a few days
  • Chronic feelings of emptiness and/or boredom
  • Inappropriate, intense anger or problems controlling anger
  • Having stress-related paranoid thoughts or severe dissociative symptoms, such as feeling cut off from oneself, observing oneself from outside the body, or losing touch with reality.

fb bpd “support” group: grow up and deal with your problems and triggers, YOU are the ONLY person who stands in your way and I refuse to enable you and if you show a symptom you are A BAD BORDERLINE and give us ALL a bad name !!!

tumblr bpd community: hey, that’s not healthy, let’s work on this together okay? we’ll get through this!! if you’re having a bad day, that’s okay, just don’t unpack and live there okay? let’s find some helpful and healthy ways to cope for you, let’s support one another and treat everyone the way we want to be treated :)

Not everyone with BPD is exceptionally gifted, empathetic, creative, or “intelligent”. The idea that any condition has to come with a superpower or heightened ability is an ableist one established to make us more palatable to neurotypicals. Oftentimes, there are positives to our BPD. But, for a lot of us, we read about them and feel alienated when we find they don’t apply to us.

We don’t need to be gifted or positive or palatable to ableists. We owe them NOTHING.

Bones made of elements that form stars and galaxies, they say.
But mine must be of sadness and crippling anxiety, to make me feel this way.
—  M.C.E I cannot be made up of the same as you // You are perfect and I am chaos.

Tommy Lynn Sells
An american serial killer (over 20 victims) had been diagnosed with Antisocial, borderline, and schizoid personality disorder. Along with substance use disorder. His killings were done mostly with knives. His most known crime was stabbing a 13 year old girl (Kaylene Harris) 16 times and slitting her 10 year old friend’s throat. (Krystal Surles) Krystal did survive though.

I really hate being called by my name

I can’t stand it. It causes so many identity issues when people call me by my name. I don’t feel like the person attached to my name even exists anymore. I really wish I could find a name or something that is comfortable for me to respond to that people would actually abide by. This is such an uncomfortable situation