books i have read in 2013

There’s Nothing Wrong With You

One of the best pieces of advice I ever heard was “There’s nothing wrong with you”. 

It was a Monday morning and I was relaxing with friends in a hotel pool after playing Lollapalooza. A lady bobbed opposite me sipping a ginormous glass of rose, and we started chatting. She was a stylist and told me that, when her clients tried outfits on and looked at themselves in the mirror, she would tell them “There’s nothing wrong with you”. I asked her why and she said, “because we all think there’s something wrong with us ”. It was such an odd, simple notion, but I felt like a little flower had opened up inside of me. It hadn’t occurred to me that it could be a universal feeling. There was always something so wrong with ME, I hadn’t considered that other people might feel the same. The comment stuck with me like glue for the next year. 

Illustration by Lan Truong

 I lived most of my life feeling like there was something deeply wrong with me. Everything I did was somehow geared towards fixing the parts of myself I thought were bad or ‘broken’. There was also an odd safety in being broken. I could quietly blame it for anything that went wrong in my life: “It’s not my fault: I’m f**ed up and I am very sorry!”. For a while, I had counselling, and though it was extremely helpful, I started to feel uneasy at the idea of chatting about my problems, potentially for years, if I chose to. Like, really… When would I be fixed?

For me, life =  Experiences + reactions to those experiences. The only power I have is choosing how I react to them. So, though I might have uncomfortable emotional reactions, I can choose to a) accept these emotions, instead of resisting them, and b) not interpret my thoughts as the Solid Gold Truth. Whatever your problems may be, (diagnosed or not), they don’t equate to you being broken. In my own life, it’s been unhelpful to think of mental health problems in this way, particularly when you’re struggling. You are who you are at this moment in time, and you’re doing your best. Brains are plastic. People can, and do, change.

Illustration by Lolrel

  If you follow my music, it probably won’t come as a big surprise to know that I’ve dealt with mental health issues for a long time. There have been 3 things that have helped me decrease periods of depression though. For anyone in the same position, I hope this helps.

1. Meditation

This changed my mind + my life. I started doing meditation in 2013 after Electra Heart had ended. I was burnt out and desperate for change. I took no classes, read no books - just looked at a 5 minute explanation on the internet. I didn’t even do it every day. Just 20 minutes in the morning or evening. In the beginning, I felt a little dubious about the idea of “wasting 20 whole minutes” on meditation each day. But here’s the thing: Meditation is like a vacuum for your mind. It sucks up all the dust and rubbish thoughts. I can easily waste 20 minutes looking at something on the internet that I’ll never think about again, so I can invest 20 minutes in something that changes the quality of my life. This blog described Meditation as “one of the best responses to modern information overload”. I truly believe it can be an antidote to our digital lives.

Illustration by Lolrel 

2. Exercise

I know, I know. When you’re depressed, the last thing you want to do is go outside INTO THE REAL WORLD! But if you’re bottom-of-the-barrel depressed, you have nothing to lose. For years I loved to declare that I “didn’t have a body that could run”  (in order to escape ever having to actually run). But when I start meditation, the negative thoughts about myself decreased and I started to want good things for myself. The motive of exercising was not to lose weight, so it had a different energy to it.

3. Identifying With Thoughts

The reality is, I still deal with depression, but my reaction to it is different. I am more aware of its mechanisms so I don’t take my thoughts as seriously. I try not to identify with a thought and interpret it as truth just because it came into my mind. Why? Because the way I think and respond to events is largely based on my past experiences, so how can I know that my thoughts are my own and not coloured by my past? This is why I don’t always trust my thoughts, particularly when they are of the negative variety. A book I hugely recommend on this is called “Power of Now” by Eckhart Tolle. 

I’ve wanted to write this post for a long time for people who struggle with similar issues. Our culture has taught us to see happiness as some kind of end goal, but for me, the best thing about it is that it doesn’t stick around forever. Human beings need to experience some level of suffering in order to evolve emotionally and consciously. And though depression often feels like you’re stuck, or stagnating, it can also be a healthy way of your mind telling you that something isn’t quite right, and that it’s in the process of changing. We tend to view sadness as something unnatural, or negative, but perhaps viewing it as a necessary process might help us accept the low periods, and move through them more easily.

Before writing my last album, I honestly thought that I had just been born unhappy and that depression was a permanent part of me. I don’t believe that anymore. When I was writing ‘FROOT’ I felt like I was kissing goodbye to a big chapter of my life. That portion of my youth was heart-splitting and lonely at times, but it was also dazzling and beautiful. And that’s how life is for a lot of us. If only I’d known all those years that it was just part of being human.

Ask a question or share a thought here.  

Love, Marina

A-Z Book Recommendations

EDIT: i’m so laughing because after like three days of this being posted, i realized i didn’t have a K title 😂 so props to anyone that caught that and i went ahead and added one! lol

Inspired by @macrolit. Enjoy! 

A - All the Birds in the Sky by Charlie Jane Anders: This book was…interesting and not at all what I expected.  A little slow at times but really good for people who like reading about the most off the wall stories.

B - The Bookman’s Tale by Charlie Lovett: This was a tough one to choose since I had so many B books that I wanted to pick.  But I read this four years ago and I always find myself thinking about it.  I love reading books that are about books.  This was beautifully written and very emotional.  It also made me want to learn how to restore old books.

C - Clockwork Angel by Cassandra Clare: I wanted to read this book purely because I liked the cover so much (and it had steampunk elements).  What started as a great read for me seven years ago turned into an obsession with the world of Shadowhunters that’s still going strong.  

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stormears  asked:

Do you know of any resources for "what it's like to live in X environment?" I'm trying to write about a character living in a village in a desert. I've checked your "research" and "resources" tags and didn't find anything that I could use. My google research gives me things like "facts about deserts/tundras/rainforests" but these are more trivia facts instead of how a person has to adjust their life to use/deal with their environment. I want to read about the human experience of living there.

Let’s turn this into a chance to do deeper searches. I don’t know what you’ve already found, but some of the trivia might be helpful later. Don’t discount it when you need to go hunting or gathering for dinner.

Three things before we jump down the rabbit hole: 

1. There are indigenous people who’ve lived in climates we Westerners think of as inhospitable for millennia. Focus on people, not climates. (Research both, though.)

2. I’m not going to filter out any results that might send anyone to articles that are culturally insensitive/appropriative/exceedingly white. I haven’t vetted all of them all the way. That part’s up to you.

3. You might want to outline or list the building blocks of the world you want to create so you can focus on those specific topics. 

First, make sure you are asking questions in natural, or close to natural, language. Just searching “desert” or “desert life” will probably give you way too many generic articles. 

My first search was “what is it like to live in the desert” and actually, the results that looked most promising were some of the related searches all over the page. 

That gave me the idea to search for “human inhabited deserts” and that got a lot more promising. 

I saw one article, Facts About the People in the Arabian Desert, and it looked like it was meant for kids. But I checked the references at the bottom of the page and found the name of a travel journalist named Ryan Murdock. A few dead ends later, I got to his Articles page on his own website and found a few good links to articles about Jordan and Namibia.

I went back to “human inhabited deserts” just looking for areas/specific deserts/specific peoples and found places like Alice Springs, Australia, the Sonoran Desert, the Kalahari Desert/San people, and the nomadic Tuareg people. 

Don’t forget National Geographic. There are articles available online. Hot tip: You’ll need to filter the search to avoid sifting through hundreds of single photographs. Unless you want to do that for landscape ideas. 

This looks like a start:

[Beware the paywall … you might need to use a library database. :-( ]

Then I realized I wanted to find other longform journalism articles, so I searched “where to find longform journalism online” and found several promising, free sites where you might want to search for specific articles.

References on seemingly useless articles might be of the best help. You’re going to have to search more than the first page of results a lot, too. 

See what other authors have done with the topic. Other searches I dove into: 

“books about people living in the desert”

“books about desert cultures” might be good, too.

There’s no guarantee that this is the research path you need to follow, but maybe it will get you started and you’ll find the road you need to take. 

Bonus advice: 

If you’re looking for desert living in a fantasy/sci-fi setting, I recommend reading the classic Dune by Frank Herbert. It’s a master class in using setting to frame a story (and in fact an entire epic saga).

If spec fic isn’t your thing, then I offer up Willa Cather’s Death Comes for the Archbishop – another novel where setting (New Mexico; the book was published in 1927, so keep that in mind.) is as important as the characters. 

– mod Aliya

This year is already so different than other years when it comes to books for me. I went back to the beginning of my to-read shelf on Goodreads and I have books from 2013 on there that I know I will never read. I either was never actually interested in it, I moved out of that phase, or I don’t really read the genre anymore.

And that’s okay. Reading evolves as we evolve. Sometimes you’re going to put 100 thrillers on your tbr and then a year later realize that you are reading only classic literature or erotica. It’s okay to take those books off your Goodreads (or irl) shelf if you don’t find them interesting anymore.

2018 is the year that I only read books that sound interesting to me. I’m not going to make myself slug through books just because they are on Goodreads shelf. So who’s with me?

it’s international women’s day, and i’m not that big on hashtags (despite sporadic participation), but i’m all about opportunities to share asian-american and [east] asian books-in-translation (i admit/acknowledge that my geographic focus is narrow).  here are ten books by international women i love.

  1. banana yoshimoto, lizard (washington square press, 1995)
  2. marilynne robinson, lila (FSG, 2014)
  3. krys lee, drifting house (viking, 2012)
  4. ruth ozeki, a tale for the time being (penguin, 2013)
  5. mary shelly, frankenstein (penguin clothbound classics, 2013)
  6. han kang, human acts (portobello books, 2016)
  7. helen macdonald, h is for hawk (grove press, 2015)
  8. charlotte brontë, jane eyre (penguin clothbound classics, 2009)
  9. jang eun-jin, no one writes back (dalkey archive press, 2013)
  10. shin kyung-sook, i’ll be right there (other press, 2014)

also, one of my favorite book quotes comes from yoshimoto’s “helix,” a story which can be found in her collection, lizard:

“even when i have crushes on other men, i always see you in the curve of their eyebrows.”  (64)

happy international reading!

anonymous asked:

Awhile ago you mentioned you were reading quite a bit, would you mind listing the books you've been reading?

yeah definitely! idk how to put it under the cut on an ask, so sorry if this gets long, but here are the books i have finished since january 1st:

  1. Aly, Gotz. Hitler’s Beneficiaries: Plunder, Racial War, and the Nazi Welfare State. Picador, 2008.
  2. Baranowski, Shelley. Nazi Empire: German Colonialism and Imperialism from Bismarck to Hitler. Cambridge University Press, 2010.
  3. Beinart, Peter. The Crisis of Zionism. Picador, 2013.
  4. Biale, David. Eros and the Jews: From Biblical Israel to Contemporary America. University of California Press, 1997.
  5. Boyarin, Daniel. Unheroic Conduct: The Rise of Heterosexuality and the Invention of the Jewish Man. University of California Press, 1997.
  6. Brossat, Alain, and Sylvia Klingberg. Revolutionary Yiddishland: A History of Jewish Radicalism. Verso, 2016.
  7. Buber, Martin. A Land of Two Peoples: Martin Buber on Jews and Arabs. University of Chicago Press, 2005.
  8. Budnitskii, Oleg. Russian Jews Between the Reds and the Whites, 1917-1920. University of Pennsylvania Press, 2011.
  9. Cohen, Hillel. Year Zero of the Arab-Israeli Conflict: 1929. Brandeis, 2015.
  10. Cohen, Jack J. Democratizing Judaism. Academic Studies Press, 2010.
  11. David-Fox, Michael, Peter Holquist, and Alexander M. Martin, ed. Fascination and Enmity: Russia and Germany as Entangled Histories, 1914–1945. University of Pittsburgh Press, 2012.
  12. Dekel-Chen, Jonathan L. Farming the Red Land: Jewish Agricultural Colonization and Local Soviet Power, 1924–1941. Yale University Press, 2005.
  13. Deutscher, Isaac. The Prophet Armed: Trotsky 1879-1921. Verso, 2015.
  14. Deutscher, Isaac. The Prophet Outcast: Trotsky 1929-1940. Verso, 2015.
  15. Deutscher, Isaac. The Prophet Unarmed: Trotsky 1921-1929. Verso, 2015.
  16. Dupont, Monsieur. Nihilist Communism. Online.
  17. Ferguson, Niall. Paper and Iron: Hamburg Business and German Politics in the Era of Inflation, 1897-1927. Cambridge University Press, 1995.
  18. Fitzpatrick, Sheila, and Michael Geyer, ed. Beyond Totalitarianism: Stalinism and Nazism Compared. Cambridge University Press, 2008.
  19. Fitzpatrick, Sheila. Everyday Stalinism: Ordinary Life in Extraordinary Times: Soviet Russia in the 1930s. Oxford University Press, 2000.
  20. Fitzpatrick, Sheila, Alexander Rabinowitch, and Richard Stites, ed. Russia in the Era of NEP: Explorations in Soviet Society and Culture. Indiana University Press, 1991.
  21. Fitzpatrick, Sheila. The Russian Revolution. Oxford University Press, 2008.
  22. Gessen, Masha. Where the Jews Aren’t: The Sad and Absurd Story of Birobidzhan, Russia’s Jewish Autonomous Region. Schocken, 2016.
  23. Gitelman, Zvi. A Century of Ambivalence: The Jews of Russia and the Soviet Union, 1881 to the Present. Indiana University Press, 2001.
  24. Gitelman, Zvi. Jewish Nationality and Soviet Politics: The Jewish Sections of the CPSU, 1917-1930. Princeton University Press, 2015.
  25. Gorny, Yosef. Zionism and the Arabs, 1882-1948: A Study of Ideology. Clarendon Press, 1987.
  26. Gross, Jan. Neighbors: The Destruction of the Jewish Community in Jedwabne, Poland. Penguin Books, 2002.
  27. von Hagen, Mark. Soldiers in the Proletarian Dictatorship: The Red Army and the Soviet Socialist State, 1917-1930. Cornell University Press, 1993.
  28. Halpern, Ben, and Jehuda Reinharz. Zionism and the Creation of a New Society. Oxford University Press, 1998.
  29. Heller, Joseph. The Stern Gang: Ideology, Politics and Terror, 1940-1949. Routledge, 2015.
  30. Hertzberg, Arthur, ed. The Zionist Idea: A Historical Analysis and Reader. The Jewish Publication Society, 1997.
  31. Hirsch, Francine. Empire of Nations: Ethnographic Knowledge and the Making of the Soviet Union. Cornell University Press, 2005.
  32. Hochschild, Adam. King Leopold’s Ghost: A Story of Greed, Terror, and Heroism in Colonial Africa. Houghton Mifflin, 1999.
  33. Kaplan, Eran. The Jewish Radical Right: Revisionist Zionism and Its Ideological Legacy. University of Wisconsin Press, 2005.
  34. Kaplan, Mordecai M. The Future of the American Jew. Reconstructionist Press, 1981.
  35. Karp, Matthew. This Vast Southern Empire: Slaveholders at the Helm of American Foreign Policy. Harvard University Press, 2016.
  36. Kershaw, Ian, and Moshe Lewin, ed. Stalinism and Nazism: Dictatorships in Comparison. Cambridge University Press, 1997.
  37. Khalidi, Rashid. Palestinian Identity: The Construction of Modern National Consciousness. Columbia University Press, 2009.
  38. Kieser, Hans-Lukas, and Dominik J. Schaller, ed. Der Völkermord an den Armeniern und die Shoah. Chronos Verlag, 2002.
  39. Kimmerling, Baruch. The Invention and Decline of Israeliness: State, Society, and the Military. University of California Press, 2005.
  40. Kotkin, Stephen. Magnetic Mountain: Stalinism as a Civilization. University of California Press, 1997.
  41. Kotkin, Stephen. Stalin: Paradoxes of Power, 1878-1928. Penguin Books, 2015.
  42. Laqeuer, Walter. A History of Zionism: From the French Revolution to the Establishment of the State of Israel. Schocken, 2003.
  43. Liulevicius, Vejas G. The German Myth of the East: 1800 to the Present. Oxford University Press, 2010.
  44. Lockman, Zachary. Comrades and Enemies: Arab and Jewish Workers in Palestine, 1906-1948. University of California Press, 1996.
  45. Lower, Wendy. Hitler’s Furies: German Women in the Nazi Killing Fields. Mariner Books, 2014.
  46. Lower, Wendy. Nazi Empire-Building and the Holocaust in Ukraine. University of North Carolina Press, 2006.
  47. Mandel, David. The Petrograd Workers and the Fall of the Old Regime: From the February Revolution to the July Days, 1917. Palgrave Macmillan, 1983.
  48. Mandel, David. The Petrograd Workers and the Soviet Seizure of Power. Palgrave Macmillan, 1984.
  49. Martin, Terry. The Affirmative Action Empire: Nations and Nationalism in the Soviet Union, 1923–1939. Cornell University Press, 2001.
  50. Mazower, Mark. Hitler’s Empire: How the Nazis Ruled Europe. Penguin Books, 2009.
  51. McMeekin, Sean. The Berlin-Baghdad Express: The Ottoman Empire and Germany’s Bid for World Power. Belknap Press, 2012.
  52. Mieville, China. October: The Story of the Russian Revolution. Verso, 2017.
  53. Morris, Benny. 1948: A History of the First Arab-Israeli War. Yale University Press, 2008.
  54. Morris, Benny. The Birth of the Palestinian Refugee Problem, 1947-1949. Cambridge University Press, 1989.
  55. Morris, Benny. Righteous Victims: A History of the Zionist-Arab Conflict, 1881-2001. Vintage, 2001.
  56. Moss, Kenneth B. Jewish Renaissance in the Russian Revolution. Harvard University Press, 2009.
  57. Neumann, Boaz. Land and Desire in Early Zionism. Brandeis, 2011.
  58. Nietzsche, Friedrich. Basic Writings of Nietzsche. Modern Library, 200.
  59. Nur, Ofer N. Eros and Tragedy: Jewish Male Fantasies and the Masculine Revolution of Zionism. Academic Studies Press, 2014.
  60. Pappe, Ilan. A History of Modern Palestine: One Land, Two Peoples. Cambridge University Press, 2006.
  61. Petrovsky-Shtern, Yohanan. The Golden Age Shtetl: A New History of Jewish Life in East Europe. Princeton University Press, 2014.
  62. Pinkus, Benjamin. The Jews of the Soviet Union: The History of a National Minority. Cambridge University Press, 1990.
  63. Rabinowitch, Alexander. The Bolsheviks Come to Power: The Revolution of 1917 in Petrograd. Haymarket Books, 2017.
  64. Rabinowitch, Alexander. The Bolsheviks in Power: The First Year of Soviet Rule in Petrograd. Indiana University Press, 2008.
  65. Rabinowitch, Alexander. Prelude to Revolution: The Petrograd Bolsheviks and the July 1917 Uprising. Indiana University Press, 1991.
  66. Reynolds, Michael A. Shattering Empires: The Clash and Collapse of the Ottoman and Russian Empires, 1908-1918. Cambridge University Press, 2011.
  67. Rubenstein, Sondra M. The Communist Movement in Palestine and Israel, 1919-1984. Westview Press, 1985.
  68. Saposnik, Arieh B. Becoming Hebrew: The Creation of a Jewish National Culture in Ottoman Palestine. Oxford University Press, 2008.
  69. Schopenhauer, Arthur. The Essential Schopenhauer: Key Selections from The World As Will and Representation and Other Writings. Harper Perennial, 2010.
  70. Schulman, Faye. A Partisan’s Memoir: Woman of the Holocaust. Second Story Press, 1995.
  71. Scult, Mel. The Radical American Judaism of Mordecai M. Kaplan. Indiana University Press, 2015.
  72. Segev, Tom. One Palestine, Complete: Jews and Arabs Under the British Mandate. Picador, 2001.
  73. Shafir, Gershon. Land, Labor and the Origins of the Israeli-Palestinian Conflict, 1882-1914. University of California Press, 1996.
  74. Shapira, Anita. Land and Power: The Zionist Resort to Force, 1881-1948. Stanford University Press, 1999.
  75. Shapiro, Yonathan. The Formative Years of the Israeli Labour Party: The Organization of Power, 1919-1930. Sage Publications, 1976.
  76. Shapiro, Yonathan. The Road to Power: Herut Party in Israel. SUNY Press, 1991.
  77. Shavit, Ari. My Promised Land: The Triumph and Tragedy of Israel. Spiegel & Grau, 2015.
  78. Shavit, Yaacov. Jabotinsky and the Revisionist Movement, 1925-1948. Routledge, 1988.
  79. Shindler, Colin. The Land Beyond Promise: Israel, Likud and the Zionist Dream. I.B. Tauris, 2002.
  80. Shindler, Colin. The Triumph of Military Zionism: Nationalism and the Origins of the Israeli Right. I.B. Tauris, 2009.
  81. Shneer, David. Yiddish and the Creation of Soviet Jewish Culture: 1918-1930. Cambridge University Press, 2009.
  82. Shlaim, Avi. The Iron Wall: Israel and the Arab World. W. W. Norton & Company, 2014.
  83. Shternshis, Anna. Soviet and Kosher: Jewish Popular Culture in the Soviet Union, 1923-1939. Indiana University Press, 2006.
  84. Smith, S.A. Red Petrograd: Revolution in the Factories, 1917-1918. Haymarket Books, 2017.
  85. Snyder, Timothy. Black Earth: The Holocaust as History and Warning. Tim Duggan Books, 2015.
  86. Snyder, Timothy. Bloodlands: Europe Between Hitler and Stalin. Basic Books, 2012.
  87. Stalin, Josef. Marxism and the National and Colonial Question. Online.
  88. Stanislawski, Michael. Zionism and the Fin de Siècle: Cosmopolitanism and Nationalism from Nordau to Jabotinsky. University of California Press, 2001.
  89. Sternhell, Ze'ev. The Founding Myths of Israel: Nationalism, Socialism, and the Making of the Jewish State. Princeton University Press, 1997.
  90. Suny, Ronald G. The Baku Commune, 1917-1918: Class and Nationality in the Russian Revolution. Princeton University Press, 1972.
  91. Suny, Ronald G., and Lewis H. Siegelbaum, ed. Making Workers Soviet: Power, Culture, and Identity. Cornell University Press, 1994.
  92. Suny, Ronald G., Diane P. Koenker, and William G. Rosenberg, ed. Party, State, and Society in the Russian Civil War: Explorations in Social History. Indiana University Press, 1989.
  93. Suny, Ronald G., Fatma M. Gocek, and Norman M. Naimark, ed. A Question of Genocide: Armenians and Turks at the End of the Ottoman Empire. Oxford University Press, 2011.
  94. Suny, Ronald G., and Terry Martin, ed. A State of Nations: Empire and Nation-making in the Age of Lenin and Stalin. Oxford University Press, 2001.
  95. Suny, Ronald G. “They Can Live in the Desert but Nowhere Else”: A History of the Armenian Genocide. Princeton University Press, 2015.
  96. Troen, S. Ilan. Imagining Zion: Dreams, Designs, and Realities in a Century of Jewish Settlement. Yale University Press, 2003.
  97. Troen, S. Ilan, and Maoz Azaryahu, ed. Tel-Aviv, the First Century: Visions, Designs, Actualities. Indiana University Press, 2011.
  98. Ullrich, Volker. Hitler: Ascent, 1889-1939. Knopf, 2016.
  99. Veidlinger, Jeffrey. In the Shadow of the Shtetl: Small-Town Jewish Life in Soviet Ukraine. Indiana University Press, 2013.
  100. Weiner, Amir, ed. Landscaping the Human Garden: Twentieth-Century Population Management in a Comparative Framework. Stanford University Press, 2003.
  101. Weiner, Amir. Making Sense of War: The Second World War and the Fate of the Bolshevik Revolution. Princeton University Press, 2002.

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Hyperbole and a Half by Allie Brosh

I am always searching for female authors, artists and comics. I am so excited to own & read these amazing works. The top two have active tumblrs, also, Sarah’s book has fuzzy letters & it makes me so happy.

I just don’t want to live with regret. I know I’ll make mistakes. That’s life. But I don’t want to die wishing I’d done things differently. I don’t want to waste my time on could-have-beens.
—  Journal Entry; Fall 2013

viistm  asked:

Hi yes I wanna hear the Ernest headcanons I love him he's my boy

aLRIGHTY let’s get to it!!

  • my boy has adhd. combination type if you were wondering.
  • to build on this, he will always choose the movie over the book. reading is impossible when every??? author??? throws in??? walls of text??? 
  • he loved the great gatsby movie (the 2013 w leo obvi) bc it was so colorful and engaging and also he cried like a baby at the end bc he was really hoping for a happy ending not having his heart and soul crushed 
  • wants to build a time machine to beat up f. scott fitzgerald
  • pablo was ernest’s first Big Gay Crush but he didn’t know what to do about it so he’d mostly just,,, happen to keep pablo within sight when they were in the same place and lament to himself about how Unfair life is
  • he gets over it in like a month but it was like a lifetime just ask him 
  • actually don’t ask him he gets really flustered and the first time pablo’s like “haha remember when you had a crush on me” years down the line ernest genuinely considers changing his name and moving to Antarctica where only the penguins can judge him but they won’t because penguins are better than people
  • i think this is canon but i never see enough about it but ernest is hispanic. hugo’s mexican. fight me on it.
  • his other dad is kind of……Shit. like yeah he’s the Fun Dad or whatever but that’s him trying to make up for the fact that he’s hardly around and doing nothing to better his relationship with his son. so he just lets him do what he wants and buys him what he wants like that will substitute for actual parental love.
  • spoiler: it doesn’t.
  • he’s trans. so trans. hugo used to mess up his name and pronouns in the beginning so ernest started calling him Hugo as a sort of “hurts, doesn’t it” and even though hugo’s better with it now part of ernest is still bitter.

tHIS is just all the stuff i’ve got off the top of my head rn honestly i’ll probably build off of this stuff at some point

How To Talk To Your Son

Read it here or on AO3

2016. Look in his eyes for the first time in nearly fifteen years. He doesn’t look the way you thought he would. More like Mulder than you anticipated, which is startling. He also looks a little like the dumpy woman fluttering about the porch, still in disbelief that a government helicopter just landed on her front lawn. He looks like her in way that old married couples are indistinguishable from each other, in the way that dogs start to look like their owners. Or is it the owners who start to look like the dogs?

“William?” you ask, even though you know.

“Yeah?” His voice hasn’t dropped yet.

“I’m Agent Scully, I’m going to need you to come with us.”

He looks to the woman on the porch, her colorless brown hair coming loose from its braid. “What is this about?” he asks.

“There’s not much time to explain,” you say, “but there’s a man in this helicopter who’s very sick and we think you might have a certain… element in your genetic makeup that can help him.”

His blue eyes flash–at least those are yours–as he tries to process. Then he says, “Okay.” Just like that, he believes you, and finally you think you understand how Mulder feels, after all these years.

2015. “Just think about it,” Walter says, and you do. You really do.

You have forgotten what it would be like to come home not smelling faintly of antiseptic and bile every day. You and Mulder are friendly. It wouldn’t be terrible to work with him again.

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Introducing my first BOTM!!

After looking at all the awesome blogs that submitted for my two BOTM slots, I am happy to announce my first BOTM of the year, Miranda aka boo-badger! 

Here is her self Introduction. 

Hi, I’m Miranda. I am 25 yo from the Appalachian Mountains. I am a construction manager, and hopefully soon to be engineer. I have a lovely puppy named Maggie who lets me be her mom. I like to hike and run and be outside.

I started my fitness journey a couple times, but this time I am determined for it to stick. I have just continued to get more and more out of shape since college in 2013 and am determined to get out of that habit. I am currently eating better than I ever have and trying to get the exercising down.

This year I plan to run or walk 1000 miles, run 5 (maybe 6) obstacle mud runs, and continue to get better and faster running. This year I bought a foam roller, so I’m serious now. Other goals are the PE (professional engineering) exam in April, flossing more, and reading 24 books for the year.

I am a long time follower and fan! If you like genuine, personal fitness blogs, you will be well served by checking out her blog and following! 

11 Questions

Tagged by @sonador-reveur @paratmin and @oneamateurgirl1612 Thanks for tagging and sorry if I missed anyone, mention notifications seem to be AWOL 😀

1) How many works in progress to do you currently have?
Loads, I have several notes pages of vague ideas and half rhymes. Some of them are destined to remain unfinished though 😂

2) Do you/would you write fan fiction?
I lack the planning, stamina and concentration needed for things longer than 24 lines, so probably not gonna happen.

3) Do you prefer real books or ebooks?
Both, I’ll read anything I can get my hands on 📕📗📘📙📔📓📖📱

4) When did you start writing?
I started this blog in 2013, but I’ve been writing for as long as I can remember 📝

5) Do you have someone you trust that you share your work with?
All of you lovely Tumblr people 😁 My family have probably read 100-200 of my rhymes at most, not because I don’t trust them. They know about my blog, they’re just not that into poetry. Plus the thought of reading 1000 poems is a bit daunting 😂🤣😱

6) Where is your favourite place to write?
On the couch with coffee ☕️

7) Favourite childhood book?
Revolting Rhymes by Roald Dahl and anything by Paul Jennings

8) Writing for fun or writing for publication?
For fun and entertainment, if I was writing for publication I’d be a very disappointed poet 😂

9) Pen and paper or computer?
iPad or iPhone mostly. I do write out finished poems in notebooks though

10) Have you ever taken any writing classes?
Nope, it’s something I’d like to do one day though

11) What inspires you to write?
Everything. I write down ideas when I have them so that when I’m struggling, I can go through my notes and something generally pops out. Failing that, I read loads of poetry which is inspiring. Poetry Prompt blogs are always good for inspiration too.

On choosing to do Fright Night
I got a call saying “They’re remaking Fright Night. Do you know it?” I said “Hell, yeah! I watched that horror film many times growing up. Why are the Hollywood philistines redoing it? [When I read the script] I was highly pissed off that I liked it as much as I did. I thought, God this could be so much fun.

You’ve even quit smoking right?
It was time. I was a 40-cigarette-a-day smoker, but I wasn’t enjoying it. So on my 34th birthday last year, I spent a day with a pack and consciously looked at every single puff until I smoked the last one at 11:55 that night. I did a whole ritual thing by writing a letter to tobacco, giving it as much significance as I possibly could. I’m done with it.

Though you have kept a little tabacco allegiance by wearing Dunhill suits.
When I was younger, I know they sold cigarettes but didn’t know Dunhill had a line of clothes! They make beautiful suits and have been very kind to me over the years, clothing my back more than once at the Oscars and Golden Globes.

Otherwise, do you think about fashion?
Not so much – even though right now I’m wearing this gray All Saints shirt that I got at a photo shoot two weeks ago, Rock & Republic jeans, and John Varvatos boots. I’m a full
fledged fashion victim today. But usually I’ll pop down to Jet Rag, this secondhand clothes shop in L.A., and splash down $200 on 12 items. I got this brown leather wristband years ago – I don’t know where or when or how – but I love it.

Your reputation as a ladies’ man is well documented. You once declared, “I’m a huge fan of women.”
I love women; I always have. I was raised by an incredibly strong, kind and generous mother, and I have two wonderful sisters. It all started there. They’re beautiful, life-giving creatures, so, yes, I adore women completely.

One of them was Elizabeth Taylor, who praised you as Richard Burton reincarnated. At her funeral you read a beautiful but very complex poem, “The Leaden Echo and the Golden Echo,” by Gerard Manley Hopkins, which couldn’t have been easy.
No, that wouldn’t be her style to make it easy on me. It was one of her favorites, if not her very favorite poem. She was an amazing woman, and I was grateful to have shared some times with her in the last year and a half of her life. I was truly lucky to bask in her presence intellect, generosity, kindness and sense of fun.

Let’s hit on your Irishness. Your countrymen are great authors. Are you a huge reader?
I’m not voracious, but I have an anthology of Yeats poetry that’s probably the book I’ve kept going back to for years.

Do you read it on a Kindle now?
I couldn’t. I love the weight and smell of a book and turning the pages. But who knows, maybe it’ll be another of those “I don’t go to the gym” moments, and you cut to Colin Farrell 2013, and he’s got a Kindle and a little earpiece, talking on the phone while he’s running on a treadmill.

anonymous asked:

Have you seen the gatsby film from 2013? Is it any good? I just read the book and now I wanna watch it but I'm afraid it's not loyal to the book

gatsby (2013) is like…. if you did poppers and went to forever 21 and tried on a bunch of flapper dresses while listening to lana del rey and you were like….. THIS IS HOW JAY GATSBY MUST’VE FELT ALL THE TIME, YO…. so it’s not exactly faithful to the book but it’s gay and it’s extra and the jewelry is all tiffany’s so it’s a good time 


Happy 5 years of the selection! (tag)

put when you joined and how the series impacted you!!

thanks @krisspiaria for tagging me (I’m sorry if anyone else tagged me and I missed it)! 

When I joined: Let’s see if I remember this right. I’ve talked about it before and I don’t want to miss out on the details, but I was on vacation from college, the first long vacation I had in a while. Early 2013, I think. I had already hear of the TV series and I was dying to read the story that got a TV show even before the book came out. Read it in a weekend and totally regretted it. I loved The Selection and was dying for the second book.  

How the series has impacted me: Well, first, the story really got me. I’m a slow reader and when I fly through the pages, I know I have something good. I love Aspen, if you follow me and know me at all you know this. So, I just needed to keep reading to hear more about him. I felt his pain, I felt his love. After reading, I decided to deal with the wait for the next book by creating a Tumblr page just for this series. I had no intentions on getting followers, I just wanted a place to talk about this dear book since I had no friends who had read it. Tumblr never fails to gather the lost ones, does it? I found here a community of passionate people who have fangirled with me, supported my silly edits when I didn’t even have photoshop and just talked to me. With that said, The Selection is the reason I got Photoshop, it inspired me to learn how to edit, even if it was just the basics. 

Now about the people I’ve met, let me just talk about @partylikeawordstar  Kiera Cass here. I have never interacted with an author as much as I have with this woman. It always amazes me whenever I see her doing that. From ups and downs to Happy birthday wishes, from rebbloging to joining in on our tags, she’s always been here with me somehow and I very much appreciate that.

Oh, the friends I made. I love you all and I’ll tag you bellow. 

Special Thanks and Tag: I need to thank these blogs for all the support in my ride:

@lorelaikillmore I love you, girl.

@krisspiaria Meu benzinho! Obrigada por ter tanta paciencia comigo! 

@beangirl1389 I miss you, hon!

@illea-capital-report Emily! My blog sister. The one who was there with me since the beginning. You’re amazing. 

@savelapis Becks, my dear.

@aspenlleger I got you, you get me.

Special mention to the inspiring: @thequeenofillea @celesteschreave @marleeandcarter @eadlynschreaveofillea

And my best wishes for these marvelous followers: all of you! I can’t say enough how happy I am to have so many people to share my love for this book with. I’m eternally grateful to @partylikeawordstar for bringing us together.

I’m sure there’s a lot more people to tag here. I’m sorry if I left anyone out. I miss hanging out with you guys. 

anonymous asked:

That thought piece by Moss you reblogged was so beautiful... I was wondering if you have any idea where I can read more about Old xian and Mosspaca? I love them so much... Thank you for your time <3

Aaaaahhh same anon same, I love them too 😭😭😭 It’s great to know you want to learn more about the authors!!! There’s a general overview of their profiles here. There was also a Mosspaca ad posted several months ago where Old xian drew about some of their struggles, do give it a read if you haven’t yet!

I posted a translation of Old xian’s postscript in her first art book here as well (Tan jiu’s SQ first volume post script translation here), hopefully these will help you learn more about the Mosspaca team too. There was also a postscript written by Moss in 2013 for 19 Days which I was thinking of translating (as in this book ->)

But my schedule is kind of hectic right now so I haven’t gotten around to that…… I will work on that when I have some extra time okay 💀

Anyway I usually tag their ads/ author-related stuff under the Mosspaca tag, you can find my Mosspaca related posts there next time if needed! 

bbkld  asked:

If I were ever to make a list of the 100 most interesting Americans never to be President, John Hay will be in the top third. Fascinating career and history. Have you read anything about his relationship with Robert Todd Lincoln?

I definitely agree. John Hay was like the Forrest Gump of last half of the 19th Century and the first few years of the 20th Century. Hay was a very fascinating figure in our history, and underrated as a diplomat, as a Presidential adviser, as a writer, and as an influence on the events of his times.

There are some really good books that have been released within the past couple of years on Hay, the Hay-Adams circle of friends, and Robert Todd Lincoln. First and foremost is John Taliaferro’s All the Great Prizes: The Life of John Hay, from Lincoln to Roosevelt (BOOK | KINDLE), which was published in 2013 and is the definitive biography of Hay. I think I had listed it in the top three or top five books that I read in 2013.

I’d also recommend Joshua Zeitz’s 2014 book, Lincoln’s Boys: John Hay, John Nicolay, and the War for Lincoln’s Image (BOOK | KINDLE), which focuses more on the influential roles that Hay and Nicolay played as President Lincoln’s private secretary during his Administration, and their efforts (along with Robert Todd Lincoln) to shape and secure Abraham Lincoln’s legacy following the assassination, particularly through their exhaustive, 10-volume biography of the 16th President. They also played an important part in Lincoln’s literary legacy by editing his complete works. Both collections are available online for free through

Two other recent books on John Hay that are worth your time are Philip McFarland’s John Hay, Friend of Giants: The Man and Life Connecting Abraham Lincoln, Mark Twain, Henry James, and Theodore Roosevelt (BOOK | KINDLE), and The Statesman and the Storyteller: John Hay, Mark Twain, and the Rise of American Imperialism (BOOK | KINDLE) by Mark Zwonitzer. McFarland’s book covers the entire career of Hay and makes it clear why I said he was like the Forrest Gump of the 19th Century. Zwonitzer narrows his focus to the last act of Hay’s lengthy public service, particularly Hay’s time as Secretary of State under President McKinley and President Roosevelt. 

And for more on Robert Todd Lincoln, the best choice is Jason Emerson’s 2012 book, Giant in the Shadows: The Life of Robert T. Lincoln (BOOK | KINDLE). Robert Todd Lincoln’s life is just as fascinating and full of quite a few Forrest Gump moments of his own: like being in proximity of three Presidents – his father, James Garfield, and William McKinley – at the time of their assassinations; like the fact that his life was once unknowingly saved, coincidentally, by Edwin Booth, the famous older brother of the man who later assassinated his father; like being present at Appomattox when Robert E. Lee surrendered to Ulysses S. Grant; like accompanying President Arthur on a lengthy, cross-country vacation to Yellowstone while serving as Secretary of War; and much, much more.

You can’t go wrong with any of those books. That’s a really fascinating era often overlooked because it took place after the Civil War and after Reconstruction but before the turn of the century and the beginning of the 1900s, and John Hay is one of the more interesting overall figures in American history.

How Web Series Became My Thing

When I was a kid, I forced my friend Maddie to make with me what I referred to as a television show. We filmed a mostly-improv “comedy” about two puppets with my family’s camera more often used for home movies. In a sense, this was my first web series, though no one saw it outside of my parents.

I say “when I was a kid”, but most people would probably say I still am. I’m 18-years-old, and just about to graduate from high school. My whole life, I’ve been driven by a basic desire; when I consume media I enjoy, I want to create something like it. Reading a good book? I have a sudden desire to become an author. Watching a musical? I’m plotting out my own during the intermission. This way of thinking had never amounted to much. My brain tends to move from one thing to another far too quickly. When I found something that stuck, I knew I’d stumbled upon something really important; what I wanted to do with my life.

Discovering The Chris Gethard Show in the summer of 2013, lonely, depressed, 14-year-old Jules absolutely fell in love. TCGS was a variety television show on public access TV in New York City, but most of the fans found it through the internet, watching the livestream when it aired. The show was full of absurd comedy that felt like it truly came from people happy to be there with each other. I dreamt of getting involved in the community, maybe even interning for the show, but though I attended multiple tapings of the show and joined a chat room dedicated to it, I never really felt like I belonged.

We’re getting to web series, don’t worry.

As my interest turned towards video content, my desire became to make a television show or movie. My parents, seeing this and desperately trying to find a way for me to socialize, signed me up for a one-week film class in the summer of 2014. I didn’t get much out of it from the teachers, but I made one very good friend, Simona, who told me about a web series airing at the time that she was absolutely obsessed with, the web series Nothing Much To Do.

I caught up on NMTD in a night, and continued to watch until the end. I’d watched The Lizzie Bennet Diaries during my Vlogbrothers phase, but it didn’t really stick with me as something I could potentially do myself, mostly due to how professional it seemed. NMTD was of the same type of show as The Lizzie Bennet Diaries - a vlog-style web series inspired by a work of literature - but it was made by teens just like me! Older teens, sure, but teens! Once again, my brain returned to that desire; I wanted to make something like it.

I bought a $200 camcorder and made a post on Tumblr asking if anybody wanted to help with a NMTD-esque adaptation of As You Like It, my favorite Shakespeare play. I got two responses, fellow NMTD fans Sarah and Julia, and together we wrote the 50 episode series Like, As It Is though a Google Doc. Then, I stretched my resources as far as I could to find a cast, mostly through old friends or casting websites, and from January to August of 2015 I filmed the entirety of Like, As It Is.

Looking back at 16-year-old Jules running an entire production by herself, I think I must be insane. Like, As It Is was truly a test of my ability to keep my brain in check and not back down, which was ridiculous because I was just leaving the worst mental health period of my life. I could barely interact with my classmates in high school, but there I was, managing a cast. Actors dropped out, or worse, turned out to be way older than they said they were in their acting bios, creating many uncomfortable situations where I had to tell someone they just couldn’t play a 16-year-old. I filmed almost the entire series in my family home. Everything was difficult, and nothing worked out.

But there I was, at the end of August of 2015, with an entire series filmed and edited. I posted it online to a much smaller audience than I’d hope for, but I’d done it. Immediately, I wanted to do it again.

I got a better camera for Christmas, wrote another script, this time an adaptation of Twelfth Night written entirely by myself, and that December my next production began. I was addicted. This new series, Twelfth Grade (or Whatever), had as rough, if not more difficult, a production process as Like, As It Is. But Twelfth Grade looked and felt better than the series I’d filmed before, and the internet must have thought so as well. The first episode of Twelfth Grade is approaching 5,000 views on YouTube, with most of the episodes approaching 2,000. I am so incredibly proud of the work the actors and myself did on Twelfth Grade, and the relative success of the series did nothing to stave off my addiction to making web series.

I’ve worked on two more web series since then; The Uncanny Upshurs, a continent-spanning original series, and The Emma Agenda, a modern adaptation of Jane Austen’s Emma. This fall I’m going to college, and I’m likely to study film. Discovering the world of web series has absolutely changed my life. I’ve found something I love to do, and I’ve got the means to do it. I’m still socially awkward, sure, but I’m finally part of a community.

And if I’m a little bit obsessed, who cares? My obsession is with making stuff, and that is what I’m doing. In the end, I think that’s all that matters.

Meet the Author
Jules Pigott is a student filmmaker and writer from New York City. She has written, directed, and edited for numerous web series, including
Twelfth Grade (or Whatever), The Uncanny Upshurs and The Emma Agenda. Jules co-founded the group Quip Modest Productions, which is dedicated to telling stories through an online platform. One time, she did stand up comedy dressed as a reindeer.



It has been too long, zr friends. I have returned from the dead for a moment to post this redraw of a post from 2013 that I am shocked still gets notes some days. [original post: X ] Please all ZR fans old and new appreciate the idea of Sam wearing Runner 5 themed pjs with Runner 5 sheets and  Runner 5 posters while reading a Runner 5 comic book.