name: Kahlia nickname: don’t have one but I knew this girl that called me ‘C’ which makes literally no sense zodiac sign: piscies height: like 5'7 or something idk orientation: ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ nationality: australian/ nz favourite fruit: I’m thinking pineapple favourite season: autumn or spring favourite book: that’s too much pressure man favourite flower: umm favourite scent: books or coffee or rain favourite colour: blue coffee, tea or hot cocoa: coffee or cocoa, depends on my mood average sleep hours: I get like 7/8 hours but will still cry about it cat or dogs: BOTH favourite fictional character: Rhys or Warner or ???? idk I have too many number of blankets you sleep with: 1 dream trip: everywhere pls blog created: april 2016 number of followers (you don’t have to put this if you don’t want to): 1,026 ❤❤❤ (I still need to find a way to say tyyy?!!?)
Disclaimer: Below is a list of things to do instead of cutting, burning, bruising, or any other form of self harm. Please keep in mind that unfortunately, not everything on this list will work for everyone. So, if you try something and it doesn’t work for you, don’t get discouraged! Some of these choices are complicated, and you might want to utilize the help of a therapist or trusted friend when undertaking them. Recovery is not a process that can be walked through alone, so don’t be afraid to reach out for help.
Alternatives for when you’re feeling angry or restless:
•Masturbate. I know it sounds funny but it can get your mind off of things and calm you.
•Scribble on photos of people in magazines
•Viciously stab an orange
•Throw an apple/pair of socks against the wall
•Have a pillow fight with the wall
•Scream very loudly
•Tear apart newspapers, photos, or magazines
•Go to the gym, dance, exercise
•Listen to music and sing along loudly
•Draw a picture of what is making you angry
•Beat up a stuffed bear
•Pop bubble wrap
•Scribble on a piece of paper until the whole page is black
•Filling a piece of paper with drawing cross hatches
•Throw darts at a dartboard
•Go for a run or a walk
•Write your feelings on paper then rip it up or burn it
•Use stress relievers
•Build a fort of pillows and then destroy it
•Throw ice cubes at the bathtub wall, at a tree, etc
•Get out a fine tooth comb and vigorously brush the fur of a stuffed animal (but use gentle vigor)
•Slash an empty plastic soda bottle or a piece of heavy cardboard or an old shirt or sock
•Make a soft cloth doll to represent the things you are angry at; cut and tear it instead of yourself
•Flatten aluminium cans for recycling, seeing how fast you can go
•On a sketch or photo of yourself, mark in red ink what you want to do. Cut and tear the picture
•Cut up fruits
•Make yourself as comfortable as possible
•Stomp around in heavy shoes
•Play handball or tennis
•Yell at what you are breaking and tell it why you are angry, hurt, upset, etc.
•Buy a cheap plate and decorate it with markers, stickers, cut outs from magazines, words, images, what ever that expresses your pain and sadness and when you’re done, smash it. (Please be careful when doing this)
Alternatives that will give you a sensation (other than pain) without harming yourself:
•Hold ice in your hands, against your arm, or in your mouth
•Run your hands under freezing cold water
Snap a rubber band or hair band against your wrist
•Clap your hands until it stings
•Wax your legs
•Drink freezing cold water
•Splash your face with cold water
•Put PVA/Elmer’s glue on your hands then peel it off
•Massage where you want to hurt yourself
•Take a hot shower/bath
•Jump up and down to get some sensation in your feet
•Write or paint on yourself
•Arm wrestle with a member of your family
•Take a cold bath
•Bite into a hot pepper or chew a piece of ginger root
•Rub liniment under your nose
•Put tiger balm on the places you want to cut. (Tiger balm is a muscle relaxant cream that induces a tingly sensation. You can find it in most health food stores and vitamin stores.)
Alternatives that will distract you or take up time:
•Say “I’ll self harm in fifteen minutes if I still want to” and keep going for periods of fifteen minutes until the urge fades
•Color your hair
•Count up to ten getting louder until you are screaming
•Sing on the karaoke machine
•Complete something you’ve been putting off
•Take up a new hobby
•Make a cup of tea
•Tell and laugh at jokes
•Count up to 500 or 1000
•Surf the net
•Make as many words out of your full name as possible
•Count ceiling tiles or lights
•Search ridiculous things on the web
•Color coordinate your wardrobe
•Play with toys, such as a slinky
•Go to the park and play on the swings
•Call up an old friend
•Go “people watching”
•Carry safe, rather than sharp, things in your pockets
•Do school work
•Play a musical instrument
•Watch TV or a movie
Paint your nails
•Alphabetize your CDs or books
•Make origami to occupy your hands
•Doodle on sheets of paper
•Dress up or try on old clothes
•Play computer games or painting programs, such as photoshop
•Write out lyrics to your favorite song
•Play a sport
•Read a book/magazine
•Do a crossword
•Draw a comic strip
•Make a chain link out of paper counting the hours or days you’ve been self harm free using pretty colored paper
•Knit, sew, or make a necklace
•Make ‘scoobies’ - braid pieces of plastic or lace, to keep your hands busy
•Buy a plant and take care of it
•Hunt for things on eBay or Amazon
•Browse the forums
•Memorize a poem with meaning
•Learn to swear in another language
•Look up words in a dictionary
•Play hide-and-seek with your siblings
•Go outside and watch the clouds roll by
•Plan a party
•Find out if any concerts will be in your area
•Make your own dance routine
•Trace your hand on a piece of paper; on your thumb, write something you like to look at; on your index finger, write something you like to touch; on your middle finger, write your favorite scent; on your ring finger, write something you like the taste of; on your pinky finger, write something you like to listen to; on your palm, write something you like about yourself
•Plan regular activities for your most difficult time of day
•Finish homework before it’s due
•Take a break from mental processing
•Notice black and white thinking
•Get out on your own, get away from the stress
•Go on YouTube
•Make a scrapbook
•Color in a picture or colouring book.
•Make a phone list of people you can call for support. Allow yourself to use it.
•Pay attention to your breathing (breath slowly, in through your nose and out through your mouth)
•Pay attention to the rhythmic motions of your body (walking, stretching, etc.)
•Learn HALT signals (hungry, angry, lonely, tired)
•Choose a random object, like a paper clip, and try to list 30 different uses for it
•Pick a subject and research it on the web - alternatively, pick something to research and then keep clicking on links, trying to get as far away from the original topic as you can.
•Take a small step towards a goal you have.
Alternatives that are completely bizarre. At the least, you’ll have a laugh:
•Crawl on all fours and bark like a dog or another animal
•Run around outside screaming
•Laugh for no reason whatsoever
•Make funny faces in a mirror
•Without turning orange, self tan
•Pluck your eyebrows
•Put faces on apples, oranges, or other sorts of food
•Go to the zoo and name all of the animals
•Color on the walls
•Pull weeds in the garden
Alternatives for when you’re feeling guilty, sad, or lonely:
•Congratulate yourself on each minute you go without self harming
•Draw or paint
•Look at the sky
•Instead of punishing yourself by self harming, punish yourself by not self harming
•Call a friend and ask for company
•Buy a cuddly toy
•Give someone a hug with a smile
•Put a face mask on
•Watch a favorite TV show or movie
•Eat something ridiculously sweet
•Remember a happy moment and relive it for a while in your head
•Treat yourself to some chocolate
•Try to imagine the future and plan things you want to do
•Look at things that are special to you
•Compliment someone else
•Let yourself cry
•Play with a pet
•Have or give a massage
•Imagine yourself living in a perfect home and describe it in your mind
•If you’re religious, read the bible or pray
•Light a candle and watch the flame (but please be careful)
•Go chat in the chat room
•Allow yourself to cry; crying is a healthy release of emotion
•Accept a gift from a friend
•Carry tokens to remind you of peaceful comforting things/people
•Take a hot bath with bath oil or bubbles
•Curl up under a comforter with hot cocoa and a good book
•Make affirmation tapes inside you that are good, kind, gentle (Sometimes you can do this by writing down the negative thoughts and then physically re-writing them into positive messages)
•Make a tray of special treats and tuck yourself into bed with it and watch TV or read
Alternatives for when you’re feeling panicky or scared:
•"See, hear and feel"-5 things, then 4, then 3 and countdown to one which will make you focus on your surroundings and will calm you down
•Listen to soothing music; have a CD with motivational songs that you can listen to
•Meditate or do yoga
•Name all of your soft toys
•Hug a pillow or soft toy
•Hyper focus on something
•Do a “reality check list” – write down all the things you can list about where you are now (e.g. It is the twenty sixth of April, twenty sixteen, I’m a room and everything is going to be alright)
•With permission, give someone a hug
•Drink herbal tea
•Hug a tree
•Go for a walk if it’s safe to do so
•Feel your pulse to prove you’re alive
•Go outside and attempt to catch butterflies or lizards
•Put your feet firmly on the floor
•Accept where you are in the process. Beating yourself up, only makes it worse
•Touch something familiar/safeLeave the room
•Lay on your back in bed comfortably (eyes closed), and breathe in for 4, hold for 2, out for 4, hold for 2. Make sure to fill your belly up with air, not your chest. If your shoulders are going up, keep working on it. When you’re comfortable breathing, put your hand on your belly and rub up and down in time with your breathing. If your mind wanders to other things, move it back to focusing ONLY on the synchronized movement of your hand and breathing.
•Give yourself permission to…. (Keep it safe)
Alternatives that will hopefully make you think twice about harming yourself:
•Think about how you don’t want scars
•Treat yourself nicely
•Remember that you don’t have to hurt yourself just because you’re thinking about self harm
•Create a safe place to go
•Acknowledge that self harm is harmful behavior: say “I want to hurt myself” rather than “I want to cut”
•Repeat to yourself “I don’t deserve to be hurt” even if you don’t believe it
•Remember that you always have the choice not to cut: it’s up to you what you do
•Think about how you may feel guilty after self harming
•Remind yourself that the urge to self harm is impulsive: you will only feel like cutting for short bursts of time
•Get your friends to make you friendship bracelets: wear them around your wrists to remind you of them when you want to cut
•Be with other people
•Make your own list of things to do instead of self harm
•Make a list of your positive character traits
•Be nice to your family, who in return, will hopefully be nice to you
•Put a band-aid on the area where you’d like to self harm
•Recognize and acknowledge the choices you have NOW
•Pay attention to the changes needed to make you feel safe
•Notice “choices” versus “dilemmas”
•Lose the “should-could-have to” words. Try… “What if”
•Kiss the places you want to SH or kiss the places you have healing wounds. It can be a reminder that you care about myself and that you don’t want this
•Choose your way of thinking, try to resist following old thinking patterns
•The Butterfly project- draw a butterfly on the place(s) that you would self harm and if the butterfly fades without self-harming, it means it has lived and flown away, giving a sense of achievement. Whereas if you do self-harm with the butterfly there; you will have to wash it off. If that does happen, you can start again by drawing a new one on. You can name the butterfly after someone you love.
•Write the name of a loved one [a friend, family member, or anyone else who cares about you] and write their name where you want to self harm. When you go to self harm remember how much they care and wouldn’t want you to harm yourself.
•think about what you would say to a friend who was struggling with the same things you are and try to be a good friend to yourself.
•Make a bracelet out duct tape, and put a line on it every day (Or any period of time) you go without self harm. When it’s full of lines, take it off and make a chain out of all the bracelets and hang it up somewhere where you can be reminded of your great progress.
Alternatives that give the illusion of seeing something similar to blood:
•Draw on yourself with a red pen or body paint, or go to a site such as this, where you 'cut’ the screen (be aware that some users may find this triggering, so view with caution)
•Cover yourself with plasters where you want to cut
•Give yourself a henna or fake tattoo
•Make “wounds” with makeup, like lipstick
•Take a small bottle of liquid red food coloring and warm it slightly by dropping it into a cup of hot water for a few minutes. Uncap the bottle and press its tip against the place you want to cut. Draw the bottle in a cutting motion while squeezing it slightly to let the food color trickle out.
•Draw on the areas you want to cut using ice that you’ve made by dropping six or seven drops of red food color into each of the ice-cube tray wells.
•Paint yourself with red tempera paint.
Alternatives to help you sort through your feelings:
•Phone a friend and talk to them
•Make a collage of how you feel
•Negotiate with yourself
•Identify what is hurting so bad that you need to express it in this way
•Write your feelings in a diary
•Free write (Write down whatever you’re thinking at that moment, even if it doesn’t make sense)
•Make lists of everything such as blessings in your life
•Make a notebook of song lyrics that you relate to
•Call or text a hotline
•Write a letter to someone telling them how you feel (but you don’t have to send it if you decide not to)
•Start a grateful journal where everyday you write down three: good things that happened/ things that you accomplished/ are grateful for/ made you smile. Make sure the journal is strictly for positive things. Then when you feel down you can go back and look at it.
(Author’s Note: This was a cute request by @mcgeheekam //requests are always open//enjoy!!//)
I wasn’t the type of person to go out in the middle of afternoon, but who could avoid the warmth of the sun whistling with a tickling, cool breeze?
I found myself plumped down on the front porch of the house that used take my breath away with how massive it was back then when I arrived here - which was just yesterday - which is today and forever will be - but technically, yesterday.
Oddly being a fan of tragedy and poetry, Shakespeare had always been an idol to me and so I had a copy of Hamlet clutched between my fingers.
I’ve finished reading the whole play, watching people playing Ophelia, Horatio, Claudius and more in my head - Shakespeare calmed me down and so, I reread it, everyday, the same day going on forever, in this damn loop. I mouthed each word and only I could hear myself and I felt free. Perhaps just in another world… but yes, still free.
I always mouthed the words. Loudly sometimes. But tragedy somehow always had this silent effect on me.
This above all: to thine own self be true,
And it must follow, as the night the day,
“Thou canst not then be false to any man.”, a voice continued, cutting me off my oh-so-poetic trance. I turned my head and my eyes caught floating clothing. Of course, the invisible boy, Millard.
My look of perplexity warped into an impressed smile.
“Hamlet. Too classic.”, he continued, sitting inches next to me. I felt we had to share similar interests. “You’ve read?”, I asked, looking at him. “Of course. A lot, actually. Happened to run into an old loop in Sierra Leone. You know, travel a little. Watched the whole play.”, he said. He had to be smiling at the memory. “Really?”, I said, with a bright, envious smile. “I wish I could see.”, I pouted, slumping. “We could go back soon.”, Millard nodded, looking at me.
My insides leaped. He’d do that?
“You guys would do that for me?”, I said, my stupid grin widening. “I would. Enoch would be grumpy as a gnome you step on. But, I’ll take you there soon. Perhaps just you and me. Nobody shares the same likings, anyway.”, he shrugged.
Millard had to be a witty gentleman and I could already see it. Even feel it in the way my stomach was always jumping.
“Aw.”, I said, having been the only thing I could respond. “I’ve reread Hamlet for I don’t know how many times.”, I shrugged, laughing a little. “It happens when you’ve read too much.”, Millard said, giving me the idea we were both bookworms. Or even the idea that we both would get along so well.
“We should get inside. I’ve something to show you.”, he said, straightening up and I did as well before realizing he stretched his arm to help me up. Or did I have to hold his hand?
I stood up, taking his arm and stretched a little. He wiped a little dust off my shoulders and I hoped I hadn’t blushed. He chuckled.
I followed him to his room. And I didn’t expect Miss Peregrine to actually stash shelves on his walls. Shelves with books, old and new, stowed in. It somehow knocked me off my feet.
“Wow… you are one bookworm.”, I said, my eyes tracing over the varieties of novels and poems and plays. “You’d be the next. Actually, you’re the only lass to look at my room and say wow.”, he said proudly, his hands in his pockets. I could see the form of his hands through his pockets. They looked rough.
How many times was this boy a hero?
“Could I…?”, I asked, walking slowly over to the shelves. “With pleasure.”, he walked with me. I took out a thick book with effort and slumped down on the wooden floor.
The Map of Days.
“Map of days?”, I raised my eyebrow, looking at Millard for him to answer. “It is what it says it is.”, he said.
I opened it. It was like an atlas but with dates encircled on specific areas on the different maps. They had names, too… names of birds?
“Loops. Map of all loops.”, he stated. The bird names were ymbrynes. And ymbrynes like me lead peculiar children like me. I sighed. But I didn’t bring up the thought of having to be responsible soon.
“Wow… there’s so much of us.”, I said, amazed at how thick the Atlas was. “Very little compared to before. Peculiars reigned.”, he added, crouching down with me. He flicked a few pages and pointed at a circle.
September 3, 1940
Alma LeFay Peregrine
“That’s us, isn’t it?”, I said, smiling. “It evidently is.”, he nodded. He was most likely smiling… at me. I wished I could see his sweet smile just as much as I could feel it.
“Do you get… sad sometimes?”, I asked, off topic. I really wanted to see him. “We all get sad sometimes.”, he asked with a soft voice as if baffled, but I could feel he understood me. “That we can’t see if you’re happy? That we can’t… see you?”, I whispered, a look of curiosity painted on my face.
He sighed. “It’s awesome to be invisible. Sometimes, it’s unfair. But you get it, right? I’ve accepted it, too.”, he nodded. My heart clenched. “I wish I could see you when you’re smiling.”, I said. “But I guess it feels a little more nice this way. You’re literally unpredictable but you still are so much predictable.”, I smiled and he chuckled. “Poetry right there.”, he laughed, probably red in the face. I hoped I made him feel better.
He closed the book and placed it back.
“It’s getting dark and supper’s probably about ready.”, he said, pocketing his hands again as he took a glimpse out the only window he had. I nodded and smiled at him.
He made me feel helplessly comfortable.
“You could take as much as you want as long as you promise we’ll hang out again tomorrow.”, he said. Damn, I would love to. So much. “I promise.”, I said. Instead of taking books, I placed my copy of Hamlet in one of the shelves. He laughed faintly.
The Next Day
I wished it would rain but it never would in this loop. I stepped out of my bed before fixing it and finally walked out, in my pyjamas. I walked downstairs to see just Millard and Claire sipping cocoa. It was way before waking time.
Millard was learning how to braid Claire’s curls while she yapped and instructed him. The scene melted my heart at how adorable it was. Millard would make a cute big brother to Claire.
He saw me and I smiled (back). “Morning, Mill. Morning, Claire.”, I said quietly and they responded. Millard let go of Claire’s golden locks and handed me a mug of cocoa. I sipped and smiled at him. “I’m gonna head down to the basement to see what Enoch’s going at.”, Claire said, adorably trodding to head to Enoch.
I was thinking a lot about Millard last night. I’ve been growing a liking for him.
“What now?”, I said, sipping more hot, satisfying cocoa. He did the same. “More books or…?”, he suggested. “Books would give us more stuff to talk about.”, I nodded, pouting. “To my room, then. And silently.”, he added. “Perhaps you’re the best at that.”, I smirked. He chuckled and shook his head.
We were under blankets on his bed, laying on our tummies next to each other like little children. We were reading a classic comic.
Moby Dick. Again, too classic.
“I always used to ask my parents if Moby Dick was based on actual events and I kinda broke down realizing it wasn’t.”, I laughed at the memory. “That’s adorable.”, he said. My eyes were fixed on the drawings and classy comics fonts. I felt his eyes burning on me.
“This story is beautiful.”, I smiled but I remembered reading it with my dad and that was beautiful. “Yeah, beautiful. Really, really beautiful.”, he said, which was a pretty odd way to describe a comic book. I looked at him with furrowed eyebrows and caught him instantly switch his head from me back to the book. He wasn’t describing the story. He was describing me. My face heated up and I smiled, biting my lip to avoid looking stupid.
“Um…”, he cleared his throat. “Let’s get to a new book.”, I said, to close what just happened. Before I reached for a new book, Bronwyn peeped in and announced breakfast.
Days went by and everyday, it had become a habit of ours to see each other and surf through his books. We’ve grown extremely close and maybe there are even little points where we’re straight up flirting.
The Next 2 Months
He was laying on his bed and I sat at the edge, reading him Hamlet, again. The first reason why we got along too well. The moment flattered me and maybe him, too.
I paused, looking at him for a while. I’ve learned to see him as he is and that flattered us, too. A part of me still hoped I could see his freckles… or his eye colors.
“Could we just talk, Mill?”, I said, closing Hamlet. “Sure, Y/N.”, he said, moving a little to set me some space. I set aside the copy and sat next to him. We stayed silent for a moment.
He sat up and faced me.
“I’m so happy to have met you and I like you a lot, let’s cut to the chase.”, he panted all of a sudden. My eyes widened at the instance but I felt my face heat up again, just as it always did around him. My stomach did a somersault. “I… I like you a lot, too, Millard. Perhaps… even more than that.”, I said. I chuckled all of a sudden and I didn’t finish before he pressed his lips on mine.
We stayed there like that, lips interlocked and it was special.
He pulled out and I was already melting. “I just can’t help it when you laugh. You’re so…”, he said, stuttering a little. I swear to bird, this boy. I kissed him again and held his face, feeling his cheeks and jaw. Wow.
“You’re an ymbryne and God, am I lucky.”, he chuckled.
congrats on 300!! you deserve it and you're definitely an amazing writer dw. can you write hc's for paladin and s/o first Space Date (date in space/could also their first date in general)? tysm 💖 hope you're doing well!
aaa thank you so much anon!! i hope you like this also i kinda uh got carried away by this hc
- he’d be that dude who goes all fancy shmancy on the first date
- he’ll ask hunk to cook dinner and tells teh rest of the squad to stay out of the dinning room for that night
- he’ll prolly wear something semi-formal since he doesnt have a tux
- s/o probably borrows something from allura or coran
- he’ll knoc at their door at 7
- being the gentleman he is he’ll probably compliments how they lok and then leads them to the dining room
- allura’s dinning table is huge so shiro sets up the plates and things in the middle of it so his s/o and him can sit and face eachother
- at first it’ll be kinda awkward because he’s nervous as hell but soon enough the ice melts
- they both would be having a great time
- when dinners done he’ll escort s/o to their room and kisses their cheek
- maybe asks them to be his if he’s brave enough
- dates with lance are super chill and fun
- he’ll take his s/o joy riding on his lion
- packed some snacks and card games/board games
- he’ll take s/o to where the view of the planets and stars are beautiful
- he’ll say corny pick-up lines to break the mood
- tries to make them laugh as much as possible because he just loves it
- lance is a pro at go fish and other card games
- so when s/o gets sad on loosing he’ll pretend to loose for them
- it gets them both of the voltron stuff for awhile
- lance would kiss bthem just before they both get back because he’s cheesy that way
- prolly asks the to be their significant other as well
- brags about it the the fam when they get back to the castle
- when the castle lands on a peaceful planet of some sorts he’ll ask s/o if they want to look around it
- packs some snacks for a picnic just because keith likes picnic
- takes them around on his motorcycle hoverboard thingy and blushes when his s/o snuggles behind him
- when they finally find a nice spot, tehy both set up the picnic and start to talk
- at first about the planet then to more chill but also personal things
- keith’s the type to admire his s/o a lot at dates because he just loves the way they talk
- he is absolutely smitten man
- uses that yawn thingy to put his hand around s/o’s shoulders because he’s just that type of dude
- goes back to the castle when it’s pasts dad shiro’s curfew but shiro kept shut because he thunks they’re both so cute
- keith will kiss them on a sudden impulse like he just found the confidence
- tells them goodnight before kissing their forehead and goes to his room
- asks s/o if they want to stargaze with her
- she’ll make hot cocoa and brings some astrology books
- explains to s/o bout stars and stuff
- exchanges stories about their childhood
- laugh at the weirdest memes together
- will kinda cuddle
- ends up sleeping on the cold floor together wrapped up in blankets
- shiro will find them both and laughs to himself and also brought them extra pillows and blankets
- wakes up to lance’s camera sound
- the pidge spent the whole morning chasing lance
- poor lance
- asks s/o if they wanted to binge watch disney movies with him
- him makes popcorn, nachos, ect for the occasion
- watches lion king first because its iconic
- crying at the sad and emotional part of the movies
- gettin warm and cosy with eachother by the third movie
- ends up egnoring it and talks with eachother about their favorite disney princess or about earth
- laughing loudly at jokes
- building a pillow fort together because hunk wanted to
- took them both all night
- when s/o sleeps on him he’ll give them a peck of their forehead before sleeping as well