book: lies

When you start to know someone, all their physical characteristics start to disappear. You begin to dwell in their energy, recognize the scent of their skin. You see only the essence of the person, not the shell. That’s why you can’t fall in love with beauty. You can lust after it, be infatuated by it, want to own it. You can love it with your eyes and your body but not your heart. And that’s why, when you really connect with a person’s inner self, any physical imperfections disappear, become irrelevant.
—  Lisa Unger, Beautiful Lies  
You aren’t worth your own playlist of songs anymore. You aren’t worth nights spent staying up crying over our pictures and moments. You do not deserve the words “I miss you” written next to your name in my journal. I do not deserve the “you sized” hole in my physical and mental being. You aren’t worth me calling my friends at 2 in the morning; I should be asleep. You aren’t worth me being afraid to sleep in my bed. Or being scared of the box on the top shelf of my closet-the one that holds the remains of when we were us- fading faster than your breath when you exhale in late December. You do not deserve a single ounce of my energy. I gave you all of my secrets, all of my attention, all of my love; leaving none behind for myself. And you, you took it, and you gave yours to her. I didn’t deserve the lies. I didn’t deserve you, you who turned out to be someone different than I though you were, because I deserve better.
I was so enchanted by the person I thought you were that I was blind to the person you really are.
I thought you were a winter wonderland, but when I stuck out my tongue to catch a snowflake all I could taste was soap and lies.
—  [s.bucks]
#42

“If your beliefs are telling you, “I’m fat. I’m ugly. I’m old. I’m a loser. I’m not good enough. I’m not strong enough. I’ll never make it,” then don’t believe yourself, because it’s not true. These messages are distorted. They’re nothing but lies. Once you can see the lies, you don’t have to believe them. Use the power of doubt to challenge every message that you deliver to yourself. “Is it really true that I’m ugly? Is it really true that I’m not good enough?” Is this message real, or is it virtual? Of course it’s virtual. None of these messages come from the truth, from life; they come from distortions in our knowledge. The truth is, there are no ugly people. There is no good enough or strong enough. There’s no universal book of law where any of these judgments are true. These judgments are just agreements that humans make.”

~don Miguel Ruiz & don Jose Ruiz, “The Fifth Agreement”

I seriously like you please don’t fuck with my emotions
—  11:12 / Xspeak (speakquotesx.tumblr.com)
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A list of books and songs for and about girls that love other girls

49 people in Orlando are gone, they are gone because they loved fiercely and only wanted to celebrate their love in a place where they could be themselves. This was a hate crime towards LGBT+ and that is something that should never be forgotten. Everyone in the LGBT+ community deserves to be who they are, no matter where they are, without fear and judgement.

In light of this I want share a little media about girls that love other girls. A few good books I loved, songs that are positive and upbeat, something that says LOVE ALWAYS WIN. There is evil in the world but we are strong. Love is bigger.

The six books featured in my edit are all books that I’ve read and loved, you can add them here:

There are a lot more books about girls in the LGBT+ community. These are just a few of those I have read and love. To find more LGBT+ books you can either search on Tumblr or Goodreads. One list I saw in the tag the other day is one made by user rykesmeadows and you can find the list here.

For songs about girls who love other girls then I have quite a long list, I’ll name them all below. However, I’ve created a playlist on Spotify which have all of these songs plus a few others that also fit the theme/vibe. The Spotify list can be found here.

  • Cliffs Edge by Hayley Kiyoko
  • Girls Like Girls by Hayley Kiyoko
  • Bad Girls by M.I.A.
  • Touch by Pia Mia
  • Crave You (Adventure Club Remix) by Flight Facilities
  • She Likes Girls by Metro Station
  • Addicted To You by Avicii
  • Find You by Zedd
  • Same Love by Macklemore
  • Cake By The Ocean by DNCE
  • Ghost by Halsey
  • YOUTH by Troye Sivan
  • Horizon by Luna Blake
  • Explosion by Zolita
  • Against the Night by Child Actor
  • Night Go Slow by Catey Shaw
  • Brooklyn Girls by Catey Shaw
  • Jenny by Bets and Kiddo
  • Only A Girl by Gia
  • She Keeps Me Warm by Mary Lambert
  • Closer by Tegan and Sara
  • Girls by Beatrice Eli
  • Bestie by Sizzy Rocket
  • Girlfriend by Icona Pop
  • Everyone is Gay by A Great Big World
  • I’m Coming Out by Diana Ross

That was it, I hope you all enjoy. Stay strong everyone and take care of each other. Love is stronger than hate.