You attend the funeral. You grieve. Then you continue with your life. And at times the fact of her absence will hit you like a blow to the chest, and you will weep. But this will happen less and less as time goes on. She is dead. You are alive. So live.
Neil Gaiman, The Sandman, Vol. 6: Fables and Reflections
Maybe you need some time away from all of the noise, the group thought, and the vibrational energies, that have been affecting and influencing you lately.
Get away, leave it all behind, and disconnect. Go, go detox yourself.