book of oa

In the OA I seriously don’t understand why the books are seen to be proof to the boys that oa is lying?? When they were found I just thought that oa recently bought them in order to research all the things that happened to her and the Illiad is to remind her of homer. I can kinda see why the boys would believe that would proove she was lying cause her story is hard to believe so people like to believe the easier answer of “oh they are lying” especially with their knowledge being more limited than the audiences. But those books are not in brail so she couldn’t have read them before she disappeared. And even if she can now somehow read English words, right when she came back and was talking to the 2 agents she tells part of what’s in the story to them so she knew of the story before she could have ever had the chance to read them, if they are hers. The fbi therapist randomly being at her house is weird and creepy. He possibly could have planted the books? But with all the information the audience has, the books do not prove that she was lying. She still could be lying but I highly doubt that. And she possibly could believe all those things happened but they really didn’t and she just imagined it all because of her illness. But I think and really hope that the show doesn’t take it in that direction.

My dash is D E A D so pleaseeee

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long ass french post that turns into a post about how amazing buck vu is

I was helping @societyneedstocrumble find a scene for a theory post when I stumbled on a scene that made me realize something. The persona French presents to his peers is completely different from that which he presents to adults. 

To adults, French…

  • smiles
  • is polite AF
  • says their names or sir, ma’am, etc.
  • is always optimistic 
  • acts like he has confidence in his ability to accomplish goals

To peers, French…

  • frowns
  • is irritable, serious
  • puts up walls; only allows himself to be vulnerable around buck
  • is always pessimistic
  • believes he can’t
  • folds

Persona Example:

Episode 5 “Paradise”, the group is eating lunch in the cafeteria. They’re talking about the possibility of Homer being alive. Buck says he must be alive. Steve says maybe he’s alive but disabled. French says “Or, maybe this is it.” Maybe OA’s story ends there.

Immediately after that, he meets Gilchrest on the steps and smiles. The principal asks what happened to his head. He politely says it was lacrosse, and then, “See you at the dinner!”

There’s a purpose to this, obviously. The persona he presents to adults is cheery and capable, because that’s what he wishes he was. He’s desperately trying not only to hide the shameful home life he has, but to rise above it as well. He has to “fake it til he makes it”, like what BBA said about smiling until you’re happy. Adults can help him make it to a better place, so he shows them a young man worthy of helping.

In his mind, his peers can’t offer him anything. Opportunities, understanding, emotional support, whatever. French doesn’t need them. He does everything on his own. Besides, if he lets people get too close they might see that his jaw is always tight because he’s stifling a constant scream, embarrassed and angry about his mother, resentful at her and his father for being completely unavailable. Resentful at himself for not being able to actually fix anything.

He’s probably anxious AF, too, constantly trying to control everything because if it slips out of his grip the whole facade will fall apart and he’ll be revealed for what he is: a terrified kid who doesn’t believe he’s worth love. Not to mention anyone who’s that busy, staying up late to hear the stories of a trauma victim, and blowing coke throughout the day is going to be hella cranky.

French’s “peer” persona is a closer, more accurate representation of what he’s really like. But the true self, his “invisible self” that is vulnerable, soft, scared, and that desires more than anything to be someone good, is only shown to Buck. 

I’ve already discussed how Buck is French’s only true friend here. Given this new insight, it’s safe to say that the reason French lets Buck in and considers him a friend isn’t just because he sees him as an equal: French admires Buck and wants what he has. 

There’s never a moment when Buck gives up. Buck’s invisible self is hopeful and moral and compassionate, and is on full display constantly.

  • When French says he’s not going back to the house, Buck helps him feel comfortable/safe enough to. Buck gives up his HRT connect for French 
  • He asks questions about how to do the movements and gets them right
  • At the dinner, he can tell French is feeling scared/anxious/whatever, and he smiles reassuringly from on stage
  • He asks OA before touching her
  • When he hears his parents arguing about him/ dad misgendering him, he goes back inside and validates himself, does the movements in front of the mirror
  • Cries all the time about other people’s pain (OA’s NDE and death at the end, practically cries when he sees French put his mom to bed, etc.)
  • Takes the one book from the stack that would support OA’s truth

French only wishes he could be that selfless! He wishes he could possess and portray those qualities, that self, to the world. He pretends to with adults because they can’t read through him. His peers can see how full of shit he is and French resents it, adds to the list of reasons why he doesn’t need them. 

He and Steve can never be friends because Steve will always call him on his bullshit. Before the fight in episode 3, Steve says, “You think you’re so fuckin smart, don’t you?… Hey, don’t forget I know you. And I know the shitty, smelly house you crawled out of this morning.” It doesn’t take much more than that– someone reminding French that people know how imperfect his life really is– to provoke him.

The fear of people knowing what he’s really like, how incapable and tired and scared he is, the harder he tries to control the image he presents. This, of course, stresses him out more and makes it impossible to show his true self.

  • The fights with Steve
  • He doubts that he can do the movements right
  • He is incapable of being the first to stand up for the movements; the one most visibly horrified of what’s happening
  • Finds the books and immediately believes OA lied
  • Instead of searching further, goes to the others and tells them it was a lie

Of course French wants to believe that he’s a good guy, and that he won’t change. But he can’t believe it. He’s seen his father disappear, seen his mother give up. Chances are French believes that he will change for the worse, too, and he’s terrified of that. 

He lets Buck see his fear because he knows Buck will support him, tell him there’s hope. Steve won’t do that. Jesse wouldn’t be able to. BBA, OA, other adults would tell French he’s already good, that all those invisible self desires to be a good, selfless guy are already true. The difference is that when Buck reassures him of who he is, French can believe him, because he’s made it clear he can be trusted. 

Buck is a really good friend.

Book Recomendations

These are all books I’ve read that I think everyone should read. Each title has a link to where you can buy the book if you wish. cool. last updated ¼/15

(* = must read) 

* Eleanor & Park : I read this book in the winter of my sophomore year and It changed my life. It is not cliche in the slightest form. Eleanor and Park as individuals in this book and the way they interact together is just heart warming. It takes place in a time period I think is interesting to read about. The book is an emotional roller coaster form beginning to end and I loved every bit of it. It is my favorite books to date and Rainbow Rowell has a truly beautiful and distinct writing style. There is no way to adequately summarize the story because there is so much going on that is so captivating, you have to read it for yourself to know what I mean. I read this book in 11 hours, it was that good.  

  Looking For Alaska: John Green

  Paper Towns: John Green

  The Other Wes Moore: Wes Moore 

  It’s Kind of a Funny Story: Ned Vizzini (Trigger Warning) 

  Love and Other Perishable Items: Laura Buzo 

  * Fahrenheit 451: This book takes place in the future where books are banned and censorship is prominent. Being a book-burner is an occupation, an occupation that the protagonist has. But when he begins to look at the books he’s suppose to be burning, things change. I read this book freshman year, so I don’t remember it all so well, but I remember loving it and thinking that it was extremely though provoking. This is an absolute must read. 

   The Book Thief: Markus Zusak

   The Maze Runner: James Dashner

   Stitches: David Small (Graphic Novel)

  * Ed Sheeran, A Visual Journey: For music lovers, you have to read this. After reading this book I was extremely inspired (I actually wrote a whole blog post on it under my thoughts tab). Ed Sheeran is a genius and he is genuine and to see his rise to fame right in front of you eyes is inspiring. You have to read it. You really have to. 

The OA Theories (Spoilers)

Parallels:

HAP and French: Same glasses, similar cuts on face (French: from fight with Steve, HAP from fight with other scientist), they both find Prairie playing in the subway station (French on YouTube, HAP in real life), first to meet Prairie in group (French in the lower level of the abandoned house, HAP in the subway station), French ponders if he could end up like HAP

Rachel and Buck: Singing, Buck walks by a car accident scene reminiscent of Rachel’s accident, Buck is cut off when his Dad shuts the front door like Rachel is cut off from learning the movements

Scott and Jesse: Drug addicts, left out of the show most

Renata and BBA: tricked (Renata is seduced by Homer, BBA is tricked by OA), oldest of the group, last to join the group (BBA is not present in the abandoned house with the drug deals, Renata is not present when OA arrives)

Homer and Steve: Betrayal and OA’s forgiveness (Homer sleeps with Renata, Steve stabs OA with a pencil, Shower (these are the only two characters shown taking showers: Homer in the hotel in Cuba, Steve before the reform school guys show up)

Khatun and Elias(therapist): Both there to guide OA, similar nationality (weak argument, I’m sorry)

The children on the bus, the caged 5, BBA and the boys: There are five children (two boys and three girls) on the bus and the male bus driver, there are five (three girls two boys) plus HAP in the house, there are 5 (three boys, one trans boy, and a girl) plus OA. All same number of people and division of gender.

Theories:

Books: Elias is the human representation of Khatun. Elias planted the books to make OA think she is crazy so she wouldn’t follow her premonitions to the school. Elias (Khatun) has always been trying to keeps OA away from the suffering.

BBA and the Boys: BBA and the boys are the transportated five from HAPs house. The five traveled through dimensions which causes amnesia. They appear differently in this dimensions and have forgotten who they are.

OA and the Crops: Homer tells the story of the crops he is going to plant once he gets out. OA points out that because they don’t know what they are doing they will die. The first time the plants are over watered and die. The next time they have no sun and die. The third time is successful. This is the story of OA. Her first premonition is unstoppable. The kids on the bus drown (over watered). The caged 5 are unable to be saved (no sunlight). The 5 succeed in saving everyone in the school cafeteria.

anonymous asked:

Okay so you know how the oa had all those books under her bed ??? My mom just came into my room at 10 at night to tell me that they were here totems. The oa told her boys that societies that experience great loss have more totems. The books each represent someone she loved/lost- 
The Oligarcs - her dad
The Iliad - Homer
The book of Angels - the boys / the captives
The book on NDEs - hap ????? Herself ?? Khatun ?? It makes sense, right ??? They were totems

[BBA chuckles] I don’t know. I I hate to let go of the check. I mean, it’s the piece of paper, not the money.

[OA] You know, when I was little, Nancy and Abel took me to the Natural History Museum, to this exhibit on totems. There was an audio tour. I loved it. I made them take me back twice. And it was all about how cultures that have survived more loss, like harsh weather or earthquakes, they have more totems. … Objects carry meaning in difficult times.

I think this observation holds a lot of weight…especially when you consider that OA is a storyteller, and books are stories objectified. Stories would be her most cherished totems.

Another thing to consider is the place of print books in an online culture. OA is someone who has had agency ripped away from her. Stories are how she copes. Even though the information in those books might be readily available online, she doesn’t have access to the internet. Books, however, are something that cannot be revoked with the loss of a wifi password. Owning a book is a way to hold onto knowledge in a way that feels permanent… and as someone who often doubts her own memories and sanity, permanence would be something she would hunger after.

If you have more thoughts or observations, Nonny, I would love to hear them. This nugget was so exciting to read! Thank you!

I can’t help but be reminded of hap by the FBI guy… they both seemed trustworthy and understanding to prairie and they are interested in her life and her experiences. All in all too good Tonne true. And then they show their true self… in the FBI guys case it hasn’t happened yet, but it is hinted at in the scene where he is in her house without explanation and maybe planted the books in her room…