book of butterflies

he gives me so much butterflies making me never want to stop thinking about him. he’s always the last thing on my mind and i’m always making fake little scenarios i wish would happen. seeing him in person makes the butterflies in my stomach seem like nothing. he’s always smiling which makes me want to smile back. his eyes make me drown even though they aren’t even close to the color of the ocean. his voice and his laugh are just so adorable. his personality and how he likes to have fun makes me so happy. he’s so hyper and just so ‘loveable’. i’m falling for him so badly but he can’t see how i can make him happy. how i can help him in bad times, how i can always be there for him, he just doesn’t see how much i want to be there by his side. it stings me just knowing that i think about him all day when he has probably never even thought about me once. i wanna be his but i also want to get over him but neither is happening.
—  rant.

i’m in my prime,
not withering and old.
but i refuse to play
your wicked games any longer.

i know this tether is unbreakable,
but you make me feel like i’m interchangeable.
you drew a target on my heart,
when did this become fatal attraction?

i don’t have the strength,
the energy,
nor the patience
to be held hostage by your love.

so baby please don’t despair
when i say that
i’ve found the courage to
let you go.

you were never meant to be tied down in the first place.

—  believing i could love you was my mistake, c.j.n.

Yamamoto Takato 山本タカト

Watashi no saikuropusu 私のサイクロプス (My Cyclops) book cover - Author: Yamashiro Asako 山白 朝子 - KADOKAWA Shoten 角川書店 - Japan - 2016


Visitors to Special Collections often ask, “So, what’s the most valuable book you have?” They might not expect the answer to be the two rather battered-looking volumes pictured above. But this 1797 first edition of James Edward Smith’s The Natural History of the Rarer Lepidopterous Insects of Georgia including Their Systematic Characters, the Particulars of Their Several Metamorphoses and the Plants on which They Feed (whew!) is a treasure.

The first publication about American butterflies and moths, the set contains 104 gorgeously hand-colored plates of butterflies, moths, chrysalides, and plants. Unfortunately, because the plates are so beautiful, these sets have often been taken apart so the plates can be sold individually for more profit.

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